Healing Gabe (Last Hangman MC Book 3) (15 page)

“Gabe. It’s been a long time, my man. How’s the scar?” A dark chuckle follows.

“Jared.” I growl.

“Awww, you remember me. How touching.”

“What do you fucking want?”

“Now, now, is that any way to talk to an old friend?”

“We’ve never been friends, you’ve made sure to make my life a living fucking hell. Get to the point. What. The. Fuck. Do. You. Want?”

“Oh, you know, Viv, Nicole and that cop’s wife on their knees fighting to suck my cock. The usual.” He chuckles.

“Don’t you fucking dare touch a hair on their heads or I swear to everything that’s fucking evil that I’ll fucking end you with my bare hands.”

“Well someone needs anger management classes. See, I saw your little woman today, oh and your sister. Fuck me Gabe, she’s a fucking stunner.”

“Don’t you talk about my sister.” I yell into the phone.

“See, that’s not fair. You want all the beautiful women to yourself and you never share. First Viv, then Annie, sweet Annie, and then Nicole. I mean, I had a good look at her today, and of course over the years. Funny how paying someone from her dorm got me access to her room. I could have taken her away anytime I wanted and you never would have known, even with one of your men perched outside her dorm 24/7. You always have to check the inside for enemies, you should have known better with all the shit that went down at the Hangman’s HQ.”

“Listen to me you motherfucking piece of shit, you so much as come in contact with any of them ever again, I’ll find you and fucking torture you for days on end. You’ll be begging me to kill you, to end your suffering, but that’ll only make me go slower and take my time.”

“I fear for Viv’s wellbeing. She can’t be with a man like you, it’s not going to be enough for her. I’ll have to make sure she gets the man she deserves. Her and your sister, oh, and I can’t forget about that cop’s wife. She’s got a banging body. Give my best to Viv and I hope I can see her again soon. Maybe we’ll open up a bar together. That’d be fucking sweet.” He chuckles darkly.

“You’re never going to see her again. If I hear you’ve been anywhere near her, you’re fucking dead and no one will ever find you again.” I snarl.

“You’re sweet. See, I know you’ve allied yourselves with the Bastards and the Angels. It’s a smart move, I applaud you for that, but what you don’t get is that I’ll always have the upper hand. Your three clubs combined will never bring the Kings down.”

“That’s what you think, just wait, you’ll see your entire world crumble down very soon.”

“Oh no Gabe, just you wait, we’ll see which one of us is still standing in the end. Goodbye, Gabe, good to talk to you again.”

I’m still fucking trying to process all of this. I need to make sure we take them down before they are able to hurt our women. I’m glad we have Sanders with us, he’s proven himself to be a force to be reckoned with. If only we could send them away secretly but somehow I don’t see any of the girls going for that, the guys would be all for it but the girls would definitely fight to stay.

“I wish you knew how much I fucking love you, Viv,” I whisper.

I hope things will go well and I don’t lose anyone else I love.

CHAPTER 17

Viv

I wake up feeling way too warm and feel something heavy pressing me into the bed. I groan feeling like I’m suffocating. I try to roll over but I can’t, Gabe is way too heavy. After a couple of tries, I manage to roll us over, but it doesn’t help as he has his arms wrapped around my waist holding me captive. Normally I would relish in this but right now I really, really have to pee. I try prying his arms open without waking him up, which is proving more difficult than I first thought, but I manage eventually. I run to the bathroom and take care of business, smiling to myself as I remember how our very early morning went.

I don’t know what was said on the call between him and that sick fuck but it couldn’t have been good. I just hope things will be done once and for all very soon. We don’t need that kind of added stress. I just want us to be happy and live a normal life, well a life outside of his club life. You can take the man out of the club life, but you can’t take the club life out of the man. Not that I would ever ask him to leave it, but knowing the Kings would be out of the picture would make it easier for me when he goes on runs and life would be easier in general.

I finish my business, wash my hands and join him back in bed. He looks so peaceful. It’s good to see that he’s not having nightmares anymore. It eases my mind a little, I hate knowing that he’s suffering, even when asleep. I hope we can both let go of the past and open up to each other.

I’m not sure if I heard him last night or if I was dreaming, but I thought I heard him tell me that he loved me. I hope it wasn’t a dream, that would fucking blow.

I wanna tell him how I feel about him but I’m scared. Not because he might not feel the same, but that he won’t want me for whatever crazy excuse he could come up with this time. It’s getting harder to keep it to myself, even though it’s just been a couple of days. When you’re around Gabe, things are so much more intense. He makes you feel harder and deeper than you could ever imagine. He brings out the best and the worst in a person, he thrives on that. I don’t know how he does it. He has that something that makes you feel like you need to open up to him, which is bizarre. Combine all of that with nearly thirteen years of repressed feelings for him and then you have me, a mushy mess deeply in love with this caveman who doesn’t know he stole my heart.

He starts to stir and rolls on top, pinning me into the bed again. “Morning Doll.” He smiles and rubs his nose over mine.

“Morning, Handsome.” I smile.

“Best way to wake up.”

“Couldn’t agree more, how did you sleep?” I kiss the scar on his cheek.

“Heavenly, besides someone leaving me.” He actually pouts!

“I had to pee. It was that or wetting the bed. I’m not sure you would’ve appreciated waking up lying in a puddle of pee.” I shrug and he shakes his head.

“You’re so weird.”

“Why? Because I had to pee?”

“No, because you are talking about it so casually.”

“Well, it’s natural.” I shrug. “Besides, I’m sure you’ve heard worse at the compound.”

“That’s for sure.” He chuckles and kisses my neck.

“This feels nice.” I sigh happily.

“What does?” he whispers against the hollow of my neck.

“This, us. Waking up in each other’s arms, cuddling, kissing, making love,” I say tentatively.

He looks at me for a long while. “It does feel nice,” he says smiling, but the smile doesn’t reach his eyes. He’s still very much guarded. I try not to let it bother me, but it’s hard. “I meant to ask you, what’s the story behind your back piece?” He caresses my back.

I sigh, a little disappointed that he isn’t as excited as I am about us. “Fallen Angels to me represent the fact that life wasn’t kind to me and threw more shit at me than I could handle, but I didn’t let it destroy me or my compassion. It’s a reminder that no matter what, I’ll always do anything that I possibly can to make sure my family and friends have all they want in their life. It’s also to represent the walls I built around my heart. Not because I didn’t want to let anyone in, but because I didn’t want the love I have for you to ever fade.” He looks at me stunned. I realize what I just said and I need to add something, that will probably end up being a fucking mistake as he’s a stubborn fucker, but I just can’t hold it in anymore. “I love you, Gabe.” He still looks stunned and doesn’t say those three words back, I thought from what he said in the past that he’d say it back. I was wrong.

“I can’t do this, Viv. Not right now, at least. We’re in the middle of some crazy shit with the club and I can’t get distracted. When all of this is over, we’ll talk about it, but I just can’t let myself fall for you right now. If something happens to you, it’ll break me. I don’t want to risk losing you. I wouldn’t have any reason left to live. I lost you once and I’ll never be ready to lose you again.” I’m speechless, while I understand his point of view, I can’t help feeling like my heart has been broken, again. He said we can talk about this later, but I don’t see that happening somehow. Call me melodramatic, but I don’t care. I love the man and he has pretty much just turned me down.

“C…can you move please,” I say trying to keep my voice even.

“No. I’m not moving until we are okay.”

“We are, don’t worry. I understand you, loud and clear.”

“Don’t be like this. I suck at expressing how I feel, you should know that.”

“You never had any problems telling Annie that you loved her all the time.” I whisper. I fucking hate myself for saying it. I seriously wish I had a filter sometimes.

“First, that was fucking low. Second, I don’t know what she told you but I only told her once, I couldn’t bring myself to say it, and mean it when they were meant for someone I couldn’t have.” He glares at me. “Third, don’t ever throw your sister back at me or anything that happened in the past or we’re not going to talk about any possible future between us. Get that in your head. I want you so fucking badly and I wish I could just be open with you and tell you how I truly feel, but I don’t think you’re ready to hear it all and I’m not ready to say it because you keep busting my balls. All you need to know is that my feelings for you are fucking there and fucking true, like it or not, I’m not going to tell you those three words. If you can’t accept that, tell me now before we go any further. Even though I think we reached the point of no fucking return last night.” he finishes breathless.

“Fair enough.” I sigh softly.

“Look at me.” He says softly, I hesitate but do it. “Think about all I just said, long and hard. None of it was bad. If I just wanted a quick fuck I would have gone to some club whore, not you. You mean so much more than that to me. Get that in your thick skull.”

“I fucking hate you and love you at the same time. You confuse the shit out of me, Gabe.” I glare at him and he chuckles, which only makes me glare at him even more.

“You’re adorable and right back at you, Doll. We’ll get there, don’t worry.” He kisses me softly but pulls back all too soon.

“Why did you stop?” I pout.

“Because I have to get going. We have to plan how to take those fuckers down.” I frown and get up with him. “Turn that frown upside down. I’ll be back later tonight in one piece.” He kisses me hard on the lips and heads to the bathroom. I hope he’s right. I put on panties and a long t-shirt before heading to the kitchen to make some coffee and heat up some frozen waffles and bacon. I set our plates up on the counter and fix our coffees.

“Thanks for breakfast, Doll.” He kisses my neck from behind, squeezing my hip.

“You’re welcome.” I smile softly, looking up at him over my shoulder.

“Cheer up, Buttercup. I’ll come back tonight, don’t worry.” He kisses my head and starts eating, acting as if everything were perfectly normal. Nothing is normal at the moment. I don’t know what to do with all that was said. I eat slowly, not really hungry anymore. I need to focus on something else. “You should go have lunch over at Charline’s. She’s having the girls over to chat. Bennett and Ryan are on ladysitting duty today.”

“Maybe I should. I don’t feel like spending the day on my own.”

“You wouldn’t be on your own.” He snickers.

“Jerk!” I flip him off and eat my bacon.

“And proud. Now, finish breakfast and I’ll drop you off.”

“Yes, Sir.” I roll my eyes at him.

“Don’t call me Sir, you have no idea what that does to me.”

“Good to know.” I smirk and finish my plate in a couple of bites. I’m still not happy with how things went this morning, but his playful mood lifted mine. We finish our coffee and get dressed, getting ready for our day away from each other.

We get on his bike, I just love being on the back of his bike and wrapped around his toned body. Heaven! Unfortunately for me, Charline doesn’t live that far away so our ride is quite short. He parks in Line’s driveway and helps me off of his Harley. We greet Bennett and Ryan at the door and the three men talk outside for a minute.

“Hey Viv.” Line says before hugging me.

I hug her back. “Hey Line, thanks for having me.” I smile and hug Ayd and Nicole.

“Don’t mention it, I’m glad you’re here with us. It’s gonna be more fun now. Besides, we all want to know what’s been going on between you and Gabe.” They all grin at me like Cheshire cats.

“Uh, Gabe? Drive me back home please.” I turn to the door but they all hold me back laughing like mad women.

“You can’t leave them alone for two minutes without them getting handsy with each other.” Ryan says shaking his head.

“I wanna watch.” Bennett chimes in, earning a slap on the back of the head from Gabe.

“No ogling my woman or her friends you fucking perv!”

“Oh, come on! You’re taking the fun out of having to babysit them!” Ryan whines.

“I wish I could babysit Viv all day, that’s for sure.” Gabe looks at me smirking.

“Good to know.” I smirk back and flip him off.

“Oh, we so wanna know what’s going on between the two of you.” Ayd says clapping excitedly.

“Women…” Gabe shakes his head. “I’m out of here.” He takes the couple of steps to me and pulls me in for a passionate kiss. When we pull back, the girls are staring at us with their mouths open and the guys are smirking at us, fist pumping in Gabe’s direction.

“Men…” I shake my head.

“You love us.” Gabe squeezes my ass.

“I wouldn’t go that far.” I shrug.

He winks at me and kisses my nose. “I’ll see you later, call me if you need anything. I mean it.” He looks at me seriously until I nod, then he’s out the door.

“Do you happen to have a sister?” Ryan asks what seems like an innocent question but isn’t.

“Not anymore.” I sigh and walk to the patio.

“Well done, dickhead.” I hear Bennett tell him.

I sit outside for a few minutes before the girls join me with hot chocolate and freshly made cookies.

“Sorry about Ryan, he doesn’t know about Annie.” Ayd says rubbing my back.

“It’s alright, remembering her is still painful but there’s not much I can do.”

“I know. Soooo, how about you tell us what’s going on with Gabe?” Line grins mischievously.

“Uh…his sister is here…that’s a bit awkward.” I look at Nicole, hoping she’ll say she doesn’t want to hear any of it.

“Oh don’t mind me, I wanna know too.” She grins at me.

“Great. You’re as gross as your brother.” I frown and take a sip of hot chocolate. “What do you wanna know?”

“Everything!” All three exclaim at the same time, bursting out laughing.

“Oh shit, kill me now.” I roll my eyes.

“You know you wanna talk about it.” Ayd grins wide.

“I don’t know. No offense Nicole but your brother can be a real dickhead sometimes.” I chuckle.

“Amen to that, sister!” She holds her hand up for a high five. I clap my hand onto hers. “What did he do?”

“It’s complicated.” I sigh.

“Isn’t it always?” Line says. “Aleck was so fucking stubborn trying to push me away to protect me, when he should’ve stayed close to me, but they’re never going to be rational when it comes to us.”

“Same with Gabe. He says he has feelings for me but doesn’t know how to express them, but I have a feeling he’s just using that as an excuse. He says that he wants to talk about it when all of this mess is solved. I don’t know when that will be and I don’t think that will actually happen.”