Heart of Steel: A Satan's Savages MC Novel #1 (27 page)

I like it.

I like her.

A lot!

She means so much to me in this short amount of time. It’s appealing that a woman can mean something more to me than just a sexual object. Willow is more than that, so much more. It’s deeper. It’s hard to explain because I haven’t felt whatever the fuck this is before. All I know is, I never want to lose it, or her.

Lunar turns her head to see me blankly staring at her. “See something you like cockface?” she calls out waggling her arse around causing me to chuckle.

“Nope, nothin’ at all,” I reply and she stands up and scoffs.

“Liar.” She throws a Christmas decoration at me and it misses and bounces on the ground with a tinkle in front of my feet.

Chuckling, I shake my head as she walks over and picks up the red bauble and then plonks down into the bean bag sofa next to me. It shifts up with her movement.

“So Steel, what did you get me for Christmas?” she asks and I half laugh and shake my head.

“Same thing I got you last year.”

She laughs and throws her head back. “An aching back and a UTI?”

I grin. “Hey, told you I needed a shower and that I’d been wrestling in the mud pit, but you were all like,
‘Oh Steel, I’m so hot for you. Fuck me now and fuck me hard’
,” I say putting on a girlie voice mocking her.

She slaps my chest and rolls her eyes. “I don’t sound like that twatwaffle.”

“You kinda sound like that.”

“Fuck off, bitch,” she goads and nudges my shoulder. “I miss this,” she admits and then rests her head on my shoulder.

My smile falls and I nod. “Yeah, I miss your friendship too. But just ‘cause I have a girl doesn’t mean we can’t still be friends, Lunar. You’re the one stoppin’ that.”

She exhales and nods. “I know, I’m over it now, though.”

I smirk and look down at her and notice even though her head is on my shoulder, her hand isn’t on my knee like it normally would be.

Maybe she is over it?

“You are?” I ask wanting to make sure.

“Yeah, I’ve been talking to Danger from
Recoil
when he’s been playing at the club. His bandmates seem really cool, and they’re coming tonight to the feast. I invited them, I hope you don’t mind?” She looks up at me chewing on her bottom lip. She knows we don’t usually allow outsiders, but I’m their way in and I want to make her happy and Danger seems cool.

“No, that’s fine, they’re all welcome. I’d like to see Danger again, and see how things are travellin’ now his band is in Australia.”

She smiles and wraps her arm around my shoulders. “Thanks, Steel, you’re the best. I’ll go tell him now that they can come.” She leans in kissing my cheek, and then jumps up and runs off down toward her room. I smile knowing that maybe Danger can make her happy. Hoping he can, I want happiness for her and I know for certain that I cannot give that to her.

Gatekeeper sends a message through to Techie saying there’s a van full of musicians at the gate. I chuckle and tell Techie it’s
Recoil
and he smiles. He seems pleased they’re coming tonight as he’s had a lot of fun with them since I introduced them, and I know he’s working on getting them heard in the Australian music industry. Techie sends a message back to authorise them in, and we walk outside to greet the van driving through the gate. It pulls up and Lunar runs out from the clubhouse behind me and up to the van. Glancing at Techie, I smirk as she moves around to the driver’s door and waits for Danger. The door creaks as it opens and he hops down, Lunar wastes no time and jumps straight into his arms. Raising my eyebrows, I smirk as they kiss passionately. Techie nudges my arm and I chuckle as the other members of
Recoil
slide out of the van. They’re all tall. Two look like brothers. The other looks a little older and not as fit as the others. He seems like the oddball of the group.

“Hey guys, I’m Steel. Welcome to my clubhouse,” I say putting out my hand to the older one and shaking. When I said older, I don’t mean in his fifties, I mean maybe in his late twenties early thirties. Not early twenties like the other band members.

“Hey, I’m Ryan. This is Matt and his brother Nate, and of course, you know Danger. Sorry, he’s preoccupied right now.”

We all look over to see Lunar still locking lips with Danger. I smirk and nod, slapping Ryan’s shoulder. “Don’t worry, she’s like that with everyone.”

Techie laughs, and Lunar brings her hand up and flips me the bird. I chuckle as she finally brings her lips from Danger’s and he smirks at her then looks over at me.

“Sorry, hey man. How you doing?” Danger asks.

“Good… good. How’s the gigs goin’?” I ask and he smiles.

“Not as good as a packed out stadium. But hey, if we have to start from scratch again and work our way up, we will.”

“Yeah, well, if we didn’t have to take so much time off we might’ve been able to stay on top—”

“Nate, shut it!” Matt says. I glance at Techie sensing a little bit of hostility is rife within the band.

“Let’s go out the back and sit down and have some bevvies before dinner, hey?” I ask and Danger nods as Lunar links her arm with his, and we start to ramble off around the side of the compound down the back to the burning tree to sit by the unlit bonfire and drink until my girl gets here.

We all take up our positions and Techie starts talking to Danger about some record labels and shit as I tune out while Lunar hangs off Danger. I smirk as she used to be like that with me.

“Thanks for letting us join you guys today, Steel.” A voice echoes from behind me out of nowhere and I lurch forward as my heart bursts out of my chest in shock.

“What the fuck? Jesus man, you scared the shit out of me!” I turn looking to see FIM and Doug standing behind me. They pull up a seat as FIM chuckles slightly and I shake my head.

“Sorry for scaring you again. But seriously, thanks for letting us be a part of this,” FIM tells me.

I slap his shoulder and nod. “I’m glad I found you at Strapless. You guys seem to be fittin’ in really well. Did you get to see your kids today, FIM?”

He frowns and shakes his head looking down to the ground. “The wife won’t let me—”

“Ex-wife brother,” Doug says.

FIM huffs and shakes his head. “Yeah, I suppose… ex-wife won’t let me see them. Says they’re better off without a deadbeat dad like me.”

Wincing I shake my head. “Shit dude. I’m sorry.” Leaning over the Esky, I pull out a Coopers and hand it to him. “Just have a good night. There’s plenty of food and beer. Plenty of arse too. So bury yourself in gluttony and lust. That should cheer you up!”

FIM smiles and raises his beer in a cheers motion, and I nod as we both take a sip of our brew. I feel shit for FIM. Having to leave your family behind because the mother of your children doesn’t like you would be hard. Obviously, I don’t know his backstory, but one day I’d like to sit and have a heart-to-heart with FIM. I think we could be good mates. I see a friendship there already and I’d like to let it develop further.

I notice Techie walking toward me and he grabs my attention, then pulls someone out from behind him. I smile wide when I realise it’s Willow, and she’s smiling brightly wearing a beautiful red dress and those fucking hot as fuck red heels that I love from our first date.

Standing up abruptly, so fast the seat almost topples over, I greet her as she smiles wide. I grab her as soon as I can and pull her to me. I don’t even thank Techie for bringing her to me, she just looks so fucking amazing I have to kiss her right now. So I do. Crashing my lips to hers, she giggles against my mouth as I pull her body flush against mine. Kissing her is the best feeling in the world, well second best, my cock sliding in and out of her is without a doubt the single most perfect feeling in the world.

She slowly pulls back once the cheering around us becomes too much for her. She laughs as she draws back looking around at my brothers as her face flushes a bright shade of pink. You’d think she’d be used to them cheering when we kiss by now.

“You look fuckin’ stunnin’ Flame.” She smiles and winces like she doesn’t believe me. “Don’t do that, don’t doubt how truly fuckin’ beautiful you are.”

She smiles and leans in kissing my lips softly. “Okay, thank you handsome.”

Pulling her along with me to sit down on my lap, she takes her position on my lap quickly and I run my fingers through her silky red hair. “Did you have a good lunch?”

She exhales forcing the air through her puffed out cheeks. This can’t be good. “It was okay, I guess. My parents were judgemental when I told them about you.”

I tense up and my jaw clenches. I wasn’t sure she was going to mention me at all. And I wonder just how much she did actually tell them.

“They want me to stop seeing you.”

My entire body goes rigid and my heart begins to race so fast I feel like I might be hyperventilating. My grip on her legs start to tighten and her hand comes up to my face as I stare at her and she caresses my cheek tenderly. “No, no, Steel, it’s okay. Relax. I’m not going to. They’re just so prim and proper. I’m sick of living that type of life. Tired of being the good girl. I like living dangerously. I like the edge and the bad boy. I wanna live. I want you.”

My muscles relax and I slump in the chair slightly as her body snuggles into mine. Holding onto her tightly, I kiss her head trying to settle my erratically beating heart. I didn’t realise how much the thought of losing her scares me. It doesn’t just scare me, it would kill me. I can’t lose her. She’s just too perfect for me.

I decide now would be the right time to give her my gift. So I take my hand from her leg and lean under the chair to pull out the elegant gift box. She looks at me furrowing her eyebrows with a smirk like she thinks I might be going slightly fucking stark raving mad. Bringing the box up, I smile wide and hand it to her. I didn’t have time to wrap it, so it’s just the box from the jeweller. Her eyes light up and she bites her bottom lip.

“Merry Christmas, babe.”

“You got me a present?”

I nod and she giggles and stares at the box. “But I didn’t get you anything. I didn’t know we were doing presents. I feel bad.”

I shake my head and place the rectangular box in her hand. “I don’t need a present, you bein’ here is gift enough. Now open it.”

She smiles wide and pulls open the blue ribbon, then opens the lid. She gasps as she pulls it back to see the necklace I had hand made for her.

“Oh, Steel!” she whispers, as her finger traces the outline of the heart with a dagger through the centre. It’s just the right amount of bad boy biker and good girl feminine. The right side of the heart is encrusted with red sparkling stones.

She takes the necklace from the box and hands it to me. I smile as she continues to look at it. “It’s so beautiful, Steel. I’m in awe of it.”

My knobbly fingers fiddle with the tiny clasp and eventually figure it out attaching it around her slender neck. “It’s not much. I wanted to get you somethin’ that reminded you of me when we’re not together. You now own the
Heart of Steel
.”

She turns looking at me shaking her head with tears in her eyes. I hope they’re happy tears. “I love it so much, Steel. It’s the most thoughtful gift anyone’s ever given me. It’s so beautiful, too. It’s perfect, you’re perfect!” She wraps her arms around my neck and suddenly her lips are against mine and her tongue is forcing its way into my mouth. I chuckle as I kiss her back. She kisses me with an intensity I haven’t seen for a while.

The guys all around us cheer and laugh as I get caught in the moment. Kissing her back like there’s an impending apocalypse and these are our last moments on earth together. She means so much to me in this short amount of time, but right now I know I mean as much to her, too.

Eventually, we come up for air and spend time cuddled on the chair with her in my lap just casually chatting with my brothers. But Willow’s attention has been taken by something.

“You okay?” I ask.

She glances from me over to Danger with Lunar on his lap. “That guy over there, who is he?”

I smirk. “He’s a rock star. We’re tryin’ to help them make a name for themselves here in Aus.”

She looks back at me and opens her eyes wide and smiles. “That’s sweet… he seems really into Lunar.”