His Revenge Baby: 50 Loving States, Washington (51 page)

“IS it okay if I use some of your money to buy something?” John asked as we crossed

into the Eastside Las Vegas city limits.

“It’s not my money, it’s yours,” I repeated for like the umpteenth time on our multi-day trip across America.

“So that’s a yes?”

“It’s a ‘do whatever you want with it,’” I answered, unable to keep the irritation out of my voice. Seriously, the closer we got to California, the bitchier I felt.

The prospect of having to introduce John to Dad. And even worse, having to confess everything about my past. My stomach was rolling for reasons that had nothing to do with my first trimester.

“Woods,” John said, tearing me away from my thoughts.

“What?” I asked, coming back to the boiling hot Las Vegas afternoon. We planned to stop here for the night after four days on the road. A long trip by anyone’s standards, but not nearly long enough as far as I was concerned. There were less than twenty-four hours between now and when John discovered who I really was.

“You said I needed to pick out a new name, and I like being out in the woods. So I decided that’s going to be my new name.”

“Woods,” I repeated with a little smile. “I like that.”

He grinned over at me. “For real, Doc? You could see yourself being with a man named Woods for the rest of your life?”

“Sure,” I answered, my mood much lighter because he smiled at me. “At least until you remember your real name.”

The smile faded then. And I was struck once more by how little concern he seemed to have about his focal amnesia.

“Woods,” I started to say, a soft introduction to a heavy song. “That’s something we’re going to have to deal with when we get to Seattle. Remember what I said last week about seeing somebody?”

He nodded. “Yeah, I do, Doc. And I’ll do it. I’ll do anything you want me to do. You know that, right?”

This love of his...like ten different red flags from my psych classes go off in my brain, even as my heart melts.

“I know,” I answered, giving him the simplest reply I can, because everything in our lives will be so much more complicated after he meets my dad. And Sandy. Oh God, Sandy…

The only thing that kept me from having a low grade panic attack at just the thought of how tomorrow will go down is the man across from me declaring, “All right, my name’s Woods from now on. That’s settled. On to the next topic. You know you’ve got to become my wife before the baby’s born, right? This ain’t something we’re going to have to discuss tonight in bed, is it?”

Discuss tonight
. His version of a threat…and of settling seemingly every argument.

But then he sobered and said, “Seriously, Doc. I want this settled before I meet your daddy. Say you’ll marry me.”

My breath hitched as I realized this is it. He’s asking me to marry him. For real. Like, this is a real life proposal happening right now as we drive through Las Vegas.

“Technically, you’re not allowed to drive this car,” I answered on my choked breath.

“Much less marry me without any kind of ID.”

“So if I had some ID you’d marry me?” he asked.

“If you had some ID, you’d remember who you are and then maybe you wouldn’t want to marry me. Especially if you already have someone waiting for you back home,” I answered.

He lifted my knuckles to his lips. “There ain’t nobody but you, Doc.”

I shook my head. Looked north, even though my mind is casting south. In the direction of wherever he got his accent from, and the possible real girlfriend who has no clue where he is.

As if reading my mind, he said, “You keep wondering if I have a girl out there, scared I forgot somebody important. But you’re new to me, Doc. And these feelings I got for you, they’re new, too. It ain’t just that I can’t remember, it’s that I can’t fucking imagine feeling about somebody else the way I feel about you. So stop feeling guilty about a woman who don’t exist. There’s only you, Doc. I know in my soul there ain’t nobody else.”

His words sped up my heart. How could they not? But…

“Getting a new ID won’t be easy. Remember our conversation about the lawyer?

And even with a lawyer, Seattle’s going to want you to at least do due diligence. Your patient file is pretty inconclusive as far as your mental health is concerned.”

He sifted through my words and came back with, “You’re trying to say you think I’m crazy. Crazy for feeling the way I do about you. Crazy for wanting to marry you.”

“No, I’m not saying that,” I answered, though obviously I’d been thinking it. “What I am saying is TBIs change people, and we should get you more tests when we get to Seattle since they did such a half-ass job back in West Virginia because you weren’t covered by…”

I stopped, suddenly realizing, “Yes, we should get married! That’s exactly what we should do. As soon as we can get you a new social security number. That way you’ll have excellent health insurance and access to the best doctors.”

“Doc, I only got about four months of real memories, but I’m going to tell you right now: that is the least romantic marriage proposal acceptance there ever was.”

“Sorry,” I said, seeing why he might feel that way. “But I’m a doctor. Hospital shows notwithstanding, a lot of us can be, um, weirdly analytical. To us, solving the problem is often more romantic than planning the wedding.”

He considered me for a long hard moment, then let me off with a lazy grin. “That’s all right. I’ll take it.”

Then he made a sharp right.

“Where are we going,” I asked as Waze busily recalculated the route on his smartphone screen.

“You’ll see,” he answered as he made another sharp right into a strip mall parking lot.

He quickly found a spot, and when I looked up, there was a jewelry store looming over our little car, our little relationship, so big it blocked out the sun.

AND A FEW HOURS LATER, I’m on the phone with my brother, asking for his blessing

while looking down at my brand new wedding band.

“Here’s my promise to you, Dr. Anitra Dunhill,” Woods said, as he slipped the simple
silver band I picked out onto my finger, right there in front of the sales person standing
behind the glass counter.

Then he turned to the seller who’d rung up our humble purchase, all while peering at
me in a suspicious manner.

“Know what? I’ll take this same one in a men’s size for me too.”

Woods may very well be crazy. He insisted on wearing his own wedding ring, even
after I told him most men don’t wear a ring before they’re officially married. At least, not
unless they’re Irish.

“Then I guess I must be Irish,” Woods answered as we made our way to the cheap
hotel room I’d booked for us on Priceline. “Because that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I
don’t want any confusion about my intentions when I meet your daddy…”

“That is fucked up romantic, sis,” my brother declares on the other end of the line, after I finish telling him the story. “And you say he good in bed, too? I don’t care if he crazy. You got big brother’s blessing, and a ‘go head with your bad self, Miss Nitra!’”

A host of annoyed deep voices sound in the background, and I can hear the crowd chanting angrily.

“Thank you, Curt. You better get to your show,” I say.

“Either that or go troll the local ERs for an amnesia victim. You got me wondering now. Though I am sad I won’t be there when you introduce him to Daddy.”

I groan at the mention of the meeting. “Please don’t call him and tell him about this,” I say, knowing how those two love to gossip. “I really don’t want to give him time to formulate a reaction to the news.”

“Yeah, you probably right about that. Sandy said she made sure there weren’t no more real guns in the house when we moved, but you never know with him.”

“Okay, bye Cee-Cee…” I say with a real chill going down my back. “Love you.”

“Mwah, love you too, Nee-Nee. Now let me stuff this dick back into my hot pants and go wave these fake titties!”

I laugh, amused as always by my brother’s refusal to take anything in life that isn’t death seriously. “Break both them legs,” I tell him, before getting off the phone, already knowing he will.

Then I go back out to the hotel room. To the real life scenario that’s even crazier than anything my brother could possibly come up with for his show.

I find Woods already in bed. In typical fashion, he’s found an old movie for us to watch.

“
West Side Story
,” I say, recognizing it with a fond grin.

“Is that what it’s called?” he answers, holding out his now cast-free arm so I can get in bed with him.

“Who were you talking to in the bathroom?” he asks after I curl up beside him.

So he’d heard. Or guessed.

“My brother,” I answer.

“You tell him about us?”

“Yeah, everything.”

“And what’d he say?”

“Basically, go’on girl. But he’s a drag queen so, you know, his response to this is going to be different from most.”

“A drag queen…”

“A man who dresses and performs as a woman. He also dates other men, but never when he’s dressed as a woman. It’s kind of complicated, but he’s one of the best friends I have in the world, other than Sola,” I explain. And then I wait. For him to say something bad about my brother. For him to give me an excuse to stop being crazy about him.

But after a moment he says, “I do recall seeing somebody like that on one of them reality shows when I was in the hospital. I remember thinking, that it was definitely new.”

“New good? Or new bad?”

“He’s your brother and you love him, so he’s got to be new good, unless something he’s doing is hurting you in some way,” he answers, as if feelings of sexual orientation are a simple matter of family loyalty.

Maybe on a base level they are to him. But I have to admit, “You’re taking this way better than my mother did. She’s an evangelical pastor. Is that concept old or new?”

“Old,” he answers after a moment of thought. And strangely, this is when he chooses to tense up. Then he says, “We got a long drive tomorrow. Mind if we just watch the movie?”

No, I don’t. But there’s one more thing I’ve got to deal with before we get to L.A.

“Ah, John—I mean Woods. How would you feel about me introducing you as my husband tomorrow? It will, ah…” I struggle to come up with a good excuse, and end up settling for, “…be easier if everyone thinks we’re already married.”

Now he drops all pretense of watching the movie to look down at me with a pleased smile. “Doc, I already consider you becoming my wife a matter of bullshit paperwork.

I’d be honored to be introduced to your daddy with my true intentions in mind.”

I have to shake my head at his easy acceptance of my request. “You’re like a southern gentleman on steroids.”

“I don’t know what that means.”

“It means I love you, Woods,” I say out loud, while inside I can only hope he’ll still love me when I tell him the truth tomorrow.

But tonight, I decide not to think about tomorrow yet. I curl up inside the shelter of his arm and play with his Irish-but-not-really wedding ring before falling asleep while Tony sings about instantly falling in love with a girl he just met. One named Maria.

AS INTIMATE as sex was with John before, it’s somehow even more intimate with Woods that night.

He wakes me from my doze with a gentle press of his lips to my forehead.

“Did you like the movie?” I ask, my voice husky with sleep.

“Yeah, Doc, I liked it. I liked it a whole lot,” he answers, his voice husky with something else.

He undresses me slowly. Easing everything off my body with deliberate care. Then he palms one breast as he lowers his head to the other, suckling so tenderly, it feels like

more of a promise than a kiss.

Everything he does to me feels like a promise that night. The way he lowers me back onto the bed before slinging one leg over his shoulder, and worships my pussy with his mouth until I’m coming so hard, I find myself crying out his new name.

I’m still coming, my pussy trembling, when he braces himself above me and fills me with his bare cock. Even after a week, we’re still deeply aware of all the new sensations.

Deeply aware of what this means to the both of us to be together this way.

Tonight his claiming goes even slower than usual. Deep, dragging strokes that give me plenty of time to accept who is the one in control, and who is the one being treasured in this relationship.

Woods, I’ve noticed over the last few weeks, is a bit of a talker when it comes to sex.

But tonight he takes me quietly with the lights of Vegas shining into our room, brighter than the moon. Tonight he tells me everything both he and I are feeling without uttering a word.

And it feels like the most inevitable thing in the world when we break the quiet together, his cum coating my sex as the orgasm crests over us both. Two perfectly matched stars in a universe of love.

Chapter Nineteen

IS it any wonder I’m so relaxed on the drive to L.A.? No more throwing up. Just a lot of shared smiles and hands clasped over the center console as we make the relatively short journey out of Las Vegas to L.A. and then crawl through the heavy traffic of Downtown, before we’re finally able to get off the highway at Forest Lawn Drive, and then into more congestion on Barham.

“Welcome to L.A.,” I half apologize.

“How did you live here full time?” Woods mutters, eyeing the congested road in front of us grumpily. This street is wider than some West Virginia highways, but completely stuffed with cars. Like anyone dealing with L.A. traffic for the first time, or even for the hundredth, I can tell he doesn’t love all the stop-and-go we’ve encountered since getting into town.

Definitely not the time to tell him
, I decide, thinking how unfair it would be to drop my bomb while he’s trying to navigate the lunch time chaos of the Barham pass.

However, Woods frowns when Waze finally tells him to turn left off of Barham into a much quieter scene. Roads that become narrower the higher you go, lined on each side with expensive cars. Audis, Teslas, Range Rovers, Maseratis, Porsches, Maybachs, and just about every other car with a six-figure price tag currently on the road.