How I Became a Famous Novelist

HOW I BECAME A FAMOUS NOVELIST

HOW I BECAME A FAMOUS NOVELIST

STEVE HELY

Copyright © 2009 by Steve Hely

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HOW I BECAME A FAMOUS NOVELIST

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RAGS TO RICHES

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In strewn banners that lay like streamers from a longago parade the sun’s fading seraphim rays gleamed onto the hood of the old Ford and ribboned the steel with the meek orange of a June tomato straining at the vine. From the back seat, door open, her nimble fingers moved along the guitar like a weaver’s on a loom. Stitching a song. The cloth she made was a cry of aching American chords, dreamlike warbles built to travel miles of lonesome road. They faded into the twilight, and Silas leaned back on the asphalt, as if to watch them drift into the Arkansas mist.

Away from them, across the field of low-cut durum wheat, they saw Evangeline’s frame, outlined pale in shadow against the highway sky, as it trembled.

That’s the way it is with a song, isn’t it? she said. The way it quivers in your heart. Quivers like the wing of a little bird.

In a story too. He spoke it softly in a voice that let her hear how close they were. That’s the way it is with a story. Turns your heart into a bird.

—from
The Tornado Ashes Club,
by Pete Tarslaw (me)

You have to understand how bad things were for me back then.

I’d leave my radio alarm set to full volume at the far end of the AM dial, so every morning at seven-thirty I’d wake up to static mixed with a rabid minister screeching in Haitian Creole, because for sheer bracing power that sound cannot be bested. When the alarm went off I’d have no choice but to eject myself from my bed, panting, infuriated, flailing everywhere. I’d have to pee really bad.

There’d be either one or two beer bottles filled with urine next to my bed. I used to drink five or six beers before going to sleep, but I’m much too lazy to get up in the night to go to the bathroom. My roommate Hobart, who was a med student, only once brought up the public health implications of this arrangement. My feeling was, if he wanted to do something about it, terrific.

Sometimes I’d wake up wearing my jeans. I wore jeans daily because jeans can double as a napkin, and sometimes I fell asleep without bothering to take them off. So, often when I woke up I’d be covered in a film of sick feverish sweat. This was a blessing in a way, because it forced me to take a daily shower, which otherwise I might’ve done without.

Walking into the kitchen, I’d shove my hand into a crumpled bag of kettle-cooked sour cream and chives potato chips. Two
fistfuls made breakfast. This seemed only a few steps removed from a healthy plate of hash browns like a farmer eats. Next I’d open a 20 oz. Mountain Dew. Coffee-making is a process for which I’d had no patience ever since one time when we ran out of filters and I thought I could use an old shirt. You can’t use an old shirt. Bad results for floor, coffee, shirt, and the jeans I was wearing at the time.

This was a good system anyway because it involved no dishes. In the novel
Cockroaches Convene,
there’s that great scene where Proudfoot puts his dirty dishes in the back of a pickup truck and drives through a car wash. Sometimes I wished I had a pickup truck so I could do that.

The Mountain Dew acquired an extra kick because I’d multitask by drinking it in the shower. Traces of soap and Herbal Essences would get into the bottle. This is called “bonus spice.”

After dressing I’d get in my Camry, with which I had an abusive and codependent relationship. I’d pull out of the driveway, bashing up the fender a little on the wooden beams that held up the garage. It deserved that. But the car knew I really loved it.

In the car I’d listen to Donnie Vebber. He’s this borderline fascist talk radio host who advocates, among other things, rounding up illegal immigrants and then deporting them to Iran and we’ll see how the Islamopigs like it when they’re selling their burritos and pushing their twelve kids in shopping carts around the streets of Tehran. Another plan of his is a nuclear first strike against China. I don’t agree with this, I should point out. I listened to Donnie Vebber in the hopes that he’d rouse some scintilla of emotion or outrage in me. But I numbed to it fast. Then and now I thought about politics
with the indifference a grizzled city coroner has toward the body of a murdered prostitute.

I’d drive south out of Boston down I-93, past those oil tanks by the harbor, until I got to the place where all the clams and mussels were dying of unknown bacterial wasting disease. The tidal marshes gave off a car-permeating stink. Then I’d follow Old Town Road past St. Agnes High, where I’d wait in front of the rectory and watch the half-Asian girl with the monstrous rack and her friend Sad-Eyes as they pulled cigarettes out of improbable folds in their uniforms. They’d smoke and I’d switch the radio to classic rock, except in November through January when the classic rock station turned to all-Christmas songs.

On Tuesdays the girls had chapel or something so I’d just go straight to work.

The Alexander Hamilton Building had little in common with its namesake, unless he was a brick man who squatted next to a bog. Hamilton was at one end of Founders Office Park, where in buildings named after Washington and Jefferson people managed mail-order sporting goods businesses, investigated insurance fraud, planned trips to Maui and so forth.

In the lobby of the Hamilton Building there was a koi pond. I loved the koi pond. I was jealous of those fish. Fat, lumpy, blissful. Their time was theirs, to do as they wished: open and close their mouths, float, suck the algae off rocks. Perhaps I would have used my freedom differently. But the koi were living much the way I wished to.

Exiting the elevator on the third floor, I would pass Lisa at her desk. She was a mountainous black woman who served as receptionist for a team of small-claims lawyers. At first I thought she was a cheery, lovely presence. On account of my
undernourished physique, she frequently offered to take me home and “put some meat on those bones.” This seemed cute and charming, and I’d grin and say “any time!”

But then she started adding that when she got me home she was also going to give me a bath. “I’ll scrub you good. Scrub that dirt out of your hair.” There were more and more details about the bath each time—which parts of me she was going to wash, and how, and with what kind of soap. I took to scurrying past while pretending to read the newspaper.

Thinking back on it now, this is about the only affectionate human contact I had around this time, and I guess I really appreciated it. On this particular day, Lisa was on the phone, but she stared at me and made a vigorous scrubbing motion. I hurried along, eyes on the rug.

This was a Friday. It wasn’t going to be too bad. I was carrying Hobart’s copy of last Sunday’s
New York Times,
and there’d be ample time for going on the Internet, looking at pictures of pandas, YouTubes of Danish girls singing karaoke, cats on record players, kids in Indiana launching themselves from homemade catapults. (Remember, this was a few years ago—the Internet was much less sophisticated.)

My only assignment was Mr. Hoshi Tanaka. I had to write him a business school essay.

The company I worked for was called EssayAides. On its sleek brochures, EssayAides stated their goal of “connecting minds and expanding educational opportunities around the globe. Our 200+ associates, trained at the finest American colleges and universities, provide the highest level of admissions consulting.”

What that meant “on the ground,” as Jon Sturges was fond of saying, was that a wealthy kid would send us some gibberish words. We’d turn those into a polished application essay for college or grad school.

This raises ethical issues, if you care to bother yourself with them. I’d worked at the company for three years. It’s not my fault the world is a nexus of corrupt arrangements through which the privileged channel power and resources in complex, self-serving loops. I needed to pay for Mountain Dew.

Many of the clients were rich American kids. They’d be applying to Middlebury or Pomona or wherever, and they’d send you something about how
Anchorman
or the golf team had changed their lives. I’d polish it up, change Will Ferrell to Toni Morrison, and golf to learning woodworking from a Darfur refugee.

I didn’t
not
feel bad about this. But I took pride in my work. Sometimes we’d get some work from a current college student. I got one unspeakably dumb sophomore at Trinity an A– in “Post-Modern Novel” with a series of essays of which he should be quite proud, if he ever reads them.

Soon Jon Sturges, the entrepreneur behind all this, knew I had a gift. He promoted me to Senior Associate. Here I learned that the real money was coming in from Asia, where aspiring applicants would pay more and never raise the tiresome questions about “accuracy.” I wrote the toughest essays myself and farmed out the rest of the work to part-timers among the starving and overeducated.

EssayAides had only one other full-time employee. As I sat down at my computer, she stood in my doorway.

“Hey.”

Alice couldn’t have weighed more than ninety pounds. Her voice should have sounded squeaky like a cartoon mouse. Instead it was disturbingly deep. She stood there for a really long time.

“What’re you doing?”

“A Japanese guy applying to Wharton. You?”

“Just going over some things I farmed out. A lot of my team’s been making them too smart. I had an essay for Colorado College that I sent to one of those Palo Alto guys, and he put in two quotes from Walter Benjamin.”

“Yikes. Gotta cut that out.” Jon was always warning us not to make the essays too smart or colleges would catch on.

Alice unfolded her arms and held out a hardcover book. On the cover was a pen-and-ink drawing of a flock of birds in flight.
Kindness to Birds
by Preston Brooks.

“I’ve been reading this.”

“Oh. How is it?”

“
Breath
taking.”

I knew this Preston Brooks. He was sort of the Mannheim Steamroller or the Velveeta cheese of novelists. But I just nodded, because I liked Alice. There was a lot weird about her. Her grandmother had died two years ago and left Alice all her clothes, mothbally ’70s sweaters with big poofy necks. That was all Alice wore, as some kind of tribute. But back then I wore napkin pants and ratty running sneakers and my hair had mysterious crusts, so as far as that goes Alice was friggin’ Donna Karan. Alice graduated from some woman’s college in Nova Scotia or something, and how Jon Sturges found her I don’t know.

That the two of us came into the office at all was, macroeconomically, pointless, because no one called or came in. Jon Sturges just liked having some humans in an office so his company felt like a legitimate enterprise. He paid us more to sit there for an approximation of regular business hours.

My office was barren except for a framed poster of a Roman aqueduct. Jon Sturges based his business philosophy on this book called
Caesar, CEO: Business Secrets of the Ancient Romans.
He constantly made analogies to ancient Rome, in the flawed belief that knowing about one smart-guy thing made him not an idiot. He referred to our rival company, Academic Edge, as “Carthage.” They did seem to threaten our empire; we’d been getting fewer and fewer Hoshi Tanakas this season. The application-essay “consulting” business was getting more and more competitive. But Jon Sturges had other businesses in similar moral gray areas. He couldn’t really focus on one thing for more than like an hour at a time. “An empire has to expand,” he said. He said lots of inappropriately grand things.

On my computer I opened up Hoshi Tanaka’s essay. The topic was “How do you expect an MBA from Wharton to help you achieve your career goals, and why now?”

Hoshi had replied:

Wharton School of Business is held in the first category. At this time in my career, it is passing to the next step to attend business school for study. As to what I can provide, experience.