Hunter - Big Girls & Bad Boys (24 page)

He came to me and I began to reach for his cock but he shook his head. Instead, he helped me to my feet. Dutch pushed my jacket off and then helped me out of my cami. I wanted him to touch me, but he simply went to my skirt and pushed it over my wide hips. I stepped from the skirt and then expected him to peel my pantyhose down but instead, Dutch scooped me up in his arms. I giggled as he picked me up and then carried me onto the bed as if I was nothing.

He laid me down in the middle of the bed and then knelt between my thighs. Dutch’s eyes swept up and down my body and I could see the desire in them. I felt so pretty and sexy as he took me in. Then his hands reached back and caressed my legs starting at my high heels and moving to my thighs. I sighed deeply as the electric sensation washed over me, his touch intensified by the nylon that covered my legs.

“Shauna, you’re beautiful,” is all he said before digging his fingers into the pantyhose and ripping a hole in them between my legs. I gasped as he did it and the air hit my pussy. Then Dutch ran his forefinger over my swollen mound and between my velvety folds. When he drew it away, a tendril of my juices stretched between us. A moment passed and then Dutch bent and ran his tongue up through my lips and over my clit.

I moaned as Dutch settled between my legs and began eating my pussy slowly and gently. The sensations were delicate yet intense. I could already feel my pent up need gathering in my core in anticipation of release but Dutch could take all night if he wanted. It felt wonderful. His hands caressed my body from my nylon covered legs and hips to my naked torso and soft, heavy breasts. I luxuriated in the exquisite feelings.

“That feels so good, daddy,” I moaned. Dutch looked up from his task and smiled at me with his eyes. His tongue seemed to be everywhere at once, warm and strong against my sensitive flesh. His strong, calloused hands kneaded my body reminding me that he dearly loved my curves. Inside, the fire grew. My hips churned as Dutch ever so slowly built in speed and pressure. I was desperate but not too desperate to enjoy the journey.

Then one of Dutch’s hands disappeared between my thighs. His lips and tongue concentrated on my clit as a finger slipped inside and found that special spot. He firmly rubbed the wall of my pussy as he sucked on my clit. The need built, the crescendo nearing. I panted and moaned, my hips rocking, as Dutch took me to the edge. I tensed. Would he leave me there wanting or would he let me sink into bliss?

For a moment, I wasn’t sure. He sensed my need, how close I was, and he slowed ever so slightly. I begged him with my eyes but he only smiled back. I decided he was going to tease me and as if he could read my mind, Dutch sent me over the edge instead. I gasped as the wave crested and I was overwhelmed by a blinding, pulsing moment of release. I wanted to cry out, but the climax seized me in its grip and would not let go. Finally, the rapture subsided and I screamed as my fingers dug into Dutch’s black bedspread.

“Oh my fucking lord!” I shouted as another orgasm equal to the first hit me like a Mack truck. I arched my back and held onto the bedspread for dear life as the pleasure consumed me. Dutch’s tongue lashed at my clit and his finger pumped into my pussy rubbing that wondrous spot. I was quickly losing control as the orgasms washed over me, one barely subsiding before the next swept me up in its wake. Dutch now had two fingers in me and was concentrating on that special spot inside.

I could barely catch my breath, screaming no longer possible. I shuddered and gasped for breath, every muscle in my body clenched as everything seemed to pause and the tension built within. For a moment, I wasn’t sure what was happening. Then I shrieked as Dutch lifted his head and moved to the side and I exploded. I sent forth a stream of musky-sweet liquid with a force I couldn’t believe. I watched as an utterly amazing sense of relief washed over me and then the stream of my juices died away. I finally relaxed and began to laugh.

“What the fuck?” I cried out. Dutch climbed onto me and kissed me. I greedily sucked on his tongue and wrapped him up in my arms. I was shaking and all but hyperventilating as he explored my mouth with his tongue. Then he lifted his head and cocked an eyebrow.

“Like that?” he asked. I giggled and nodded.

“Oh my God. I didn’t know I could do that,” I said. Dutch looked at me with those sexy blue eyes as he slid his cock into me. He wrapped an arm behind my neck and squeezed my breast with the other hand.

“Now that you’re all warmed up...,” he said as his cock began slowly to thrust into me. I could already feel the next orgasm coming as Dutch held me tightly and fucked me. I was already panting, right back where I was before but Dutch kept things slow and let it build. His eyes remained locked on mine the entire time. The intolerable pleasure built up inside me begging to be let free. My hips met each slow but forceful thrust as I sought release.

“Make me come, daddy. I want to come all over your cock,” I whimpered. I was shaking as I neared the Promised Land but Dutch continued his slow but steady pace. I was in the eye of the tempest, a temporary calm that would soon give way to madness and I was desperate for it. I could feel it, just beyond my reach. Just a little faster, a little harder. “Please, daddy, please,” I pleaded. Again, a moment passed and then Dutch went into overdrive.

His hips began to pound me with a force I’d rarely felt. My body shook and quaked with each thrust and suddenly ripples of ecstasy coursed through me. I dug my nails into Dutch’s back and wrapped my legs around him as I cried out with unabashed abandon. Every thrust brought a cry from my lips and sent another wave of deep pleasure through me. I didn’t know when one orgasm stopped and the next began.

Dutch seemed to have no limit to his endurance and finally, I just buried my face against his neck and screamed. Moments, hours or days might have passed. I was ravaged by pleasure, unable to even comprehend it all but feeling the deep and utter satisfaction it brought. Then Dutch grunted. I looked up at him and with the last of my strength, I said, “Come inside me, daddy,” and then pulled his lips to mine and slipped my tongue into his mouth.

Dutch eagerly sucked my tongue as his cock swelled, surged and then filled me with his seed. The warmth flowed through me as the final shattering climax finally let me go. Dutch grunted and growled through clenched teeth, his cock pumped more and more of his orgasm into me and I felt it begin to leak down between my round ass cheeks. Finally, he was finished, his heartbeat throbbing within me. We lay there, spent and panting. I let my head fall to the bed and began to laugh.

Dutch stroked my hair and brushed his lips and rough cheeks against my face. He joined me, the emotion getting the best of us. He laughed softly and I squeezed his ass and drew my nails gently up and down his back. Suddenly, Dutch lifted his head. His blue eyes were intense as he looked into mine. I could see the wheels turning in his head. Then he said it. The words that would change everything. “Shauna, I love you. Will you marry me?” Dutch asked and the room began to spin.

>>O<<

Act III

I sat alone in my apartment. It was Thursday night and I was home with nowhere to go and no one to talk to. My head was buzzing with noise. Dutch couldn’t really love a girl like me. I didn’t deserve him. I wasn’t cut out for that life. It was too intense and too unpredictable. I belonged back where Dutch found me. That’s what played over and over again in my head as I sat feeling sorry for myself.

It had been a week and a half since Dutch asked me to marry him and a week since I’d had any communication with him. Those three little words, I love you, were scary enough, but marriage? I didn’t tell him no, I didn’t tell him anything. I just snuck out after he fell asleep and never looked back. Of course, I was brave enough to text him and tell him I didn’t want to see him. Very mature of me.

Now, I was moving on. I’d convinced myself that it wasn’t meant to be. I mean really, look at Dutch. There is no way a guy like him, a guy with a perfect body and those sexy blue eyes, was going to be satisfied with an overweight girl like me. He was deluding himself and just stringing me along. One day, despite the love he professed for me and the proposal, he’d figure that out and leave me. That was my story and I was sticking to it.

My noise was more of the same. The same fear and insecurities I’d felt several weeks before. I thought I’d gotten over all of that but I must have just pushed it to the side. Dutch’s marriage proposal brought it all front and center again but this time I wasn’t able to shake my fears and doubts so easily. No amount of reason would make them go away. The fear that seized my heart had captured me and would not let me go.

It was more than that though. I had so much fun when I was with Dutch and his friends, Locke and Sheila, more fun and excitement than I’d ever experienced before. However, that excitement came with risk. It was scary and for a girl like me that had lived a life of conformity to be so spontaneous. Living on the edge could be exhilarating but it was also frightening. The night Dutch proposed brought that all home.

The proposal was sudden and spontaneous. However, that wasn’t how things were supposed to work. A guy was supposed to court you, maybe for years, before proposing. Marriage wasn’t something you jumped into without much thought or discussion. You just didn’t go out for few weeks, have amazing sex and decide it should be forever. You needed more than that to forge a lifelong commitment, didn’t you?

Listen to me. I was becoming like Dutch. I was questioning the rules. Like when I let that big biker come on to me and then teased him with Sheila. You just didn’t do stuff like that and my lack of forethought could have got Dutch killed. What pain and misery could come from agreeing to marry a man so suddenly? Especially a man I was sure couldn’t really feel for me the way he claimed.

I guess that’s what ultimately did it for me. Living life on the edge could be fun but the risk was too much to bear. That wasn’t me. I wasn’t a biker. I was an urban professional, a conformist. I needed the safety found in my sheltered little world. I couldn’t handle life with a man that made me feel so good or a life that was that exciting. It was too much, too intense and too scary. So here I was, alone and wondering why the safety offered by my old life felt so wrong.

I went to bed early as I did every night since I left Dutch and a life with him behind. I was depressed but I tried to tell myself it would pass. It had to, right? Life was simpler again. No wild nights, no skinny-dipping, no amazing sex, just the safety of my mundane life. I’d even patched things up with Becky, the friend that tried to tell me I was making a mistake. I endured the endless I-told-you-so lectures but mainly because they helped me believe I’d made the right choice.

The next morning found me at the coffeehouse where Becky and I used to meet every morning before my life was derailed by the biker with the sexy blue eyes. Becky started right in with the lecture, maybe indoctrination would be a better term. “I knew you’d come around. It’s OK. We all do stupid things from time to time. The key is to realize you’ve made a mistake and correct it,” she began and I was already tuning her out.

Becky droned on for ten minutes. I’d heard it all half a dozen times before. Becky’s judgmental tone got old pretty quick but under the surface, her words were soothing. They told me that going out with Dutch was a mistake and that I’d made the right decision to leave him. The subtle insults weren’t pleasant but I guess it was a form of penance. In any case, Becky helped reinforce the lies I’d been telling myself and made it nearly impossible to consider anything else.

“Did you hear me?” Becky asked suddenly.

“What? Sorry, I guess my mind was wandering,” I said.

“We should go out this weekend. I want you to meet someone. He’s a nice guy, a respectful guy, who enjoys girls of your stature,” Becky told me. My stature? What the hell did that mean?

“Yeah, that sounds nice,” I replied and then looked at my phone, “I should go before I’m late.”

“Fine, I’ll call you later to discuss the details,” Becky told me. I nodded and left for work. I felt even more depressed than ever. Maybe going out would help. A night out with Becky, listening to her lecture me and meeting some metrosexual would work wonders, wouldn’t it? Sure, why not? It felt like a little slice of hell, but I’m sure I’d get back into the groove soon enough. I just had to force myself to do it.

Becky called that night and told me to meet her around seven on Saturday at a popular club downtown, a club frequented by the young urban professionals we worked and lived amongst. A club that often reeked of fancy cigarettes, poured colorful martinis and played angst-ridden acoustic music. The place was usually filled with pretentious urbanites trying to look and act the part of the elitists they were. Foreign film this, political cause that, whatever. It was mostly inane and designed more to impress others than provide any kind of self-satisfaction or enjoyment.

I spent all day Saturday dreading the evening but I had convinced myself I had to do it. I believed that if I went out and mingled with that crowd, I’d forget about Dutch and that life. Somehow, I’d fade back into my old life as if nothing had ever happened. I was just about ready to get up and start getting ready when someone knocked on my door. I opened it without a second thought and found Sheila standing on my doorstep.

“Hi, stranger,” Sheila greeted me.

“What do you want?” I asked. I didn’t mean to sound rude but I think I did anyway.

“Nice to see you too,” she replied.

“Sorry, do you want to come in?” I offered. She nodded and I invited her inside. She was in jeans, a tight t-shirt under a leather jacket and leather boots. She looked pretty, as usual, and a little sad which was unusual for Sheila. I offered her a seat on my sofa, the same one I first had sex with Dutch on, and I sat in my chair opposite her.

“I left the jacket you loaned me at Dutch’s place,” I told her.

“I got it, thanks,” Sheila said and then she jumped right in, “So what the fuck happened?” She wasn’t mean or challenging. In fact, it sounded like she just wanted answers.

“Look, I had fun with you guys, with Dutch, but it wasn’t for me. I’m not like you or Dutch. I’m not spontaneous. I can’t handle the roller coaster,” I told her.

“So you got scared and now you’re running away,” Sheila said summing it up pretty well, though I wasn’t going to admit it.

“No, I just can’t live like you guys do. I need stability and safety. I need to know what’s going to happen without all the drama. It’s just who I am, Sheila. I’m not you. I’m not Dutch,” I explained but she wasn’t buying it.

“Bullshit. You blossomed with Dutch. You loved it. I saw it in your eyes. You love him too. Why are you doing this? Why are you making yourself and everyone else so unhappy? We miss you. Dutch misses you. It’s just not the same, Shauna. We were like sisters. I thought we were anyway. You and Dutch...well, you were in love. It was so perfect,” she said and I thought she was about to cry.

“I can’t do it, Sheila. I can’t live like that. Dutch lives over a garage and he treats me like...I don’t know, not like a man should treat a woman. All the fun comes at a price. That guy could have killed us. Besides, Dutch doesn’t love me. There’s no way. He needs a woman that can live like that, that’s more his type,” I rambled trying to refute what she was saying and what I was thinking in my own mind.

“What type would that be? Skinny? Damn it, Shauna, you don’t have to do this. Don’t let the doubt win. You’re beautiful and Dutch does love you. He told me. You broke his heart when you left and all because you’re scared. We're all scared. You don’t think I worry sometimes that I’m not enough for Locke? You think that maniac with the knife didn’t shake me? You think sometimes I don’t wonder what the hell I’m doing?” Sheila said and as I began to respond, she put her hand up to stop me.

“Shauna, that’s fear and doubt. We all feel it. But Dutch, Locke and I, well, we just don’t let it win. We don’t let what others think bother us but sometimes it still creeps in. You’re not alone. Go back to Dutch. Talk to him. Talk to me. Don’t let the bastards win,” Sheila finished and looked at me expectantly. I’d be lying if part of me wasn’t desperate to do just what she wanted. Nevertheless, I wasn’t listening to that part anymore. I hadn’t listened since I left Dutch.

“I can’t. I don’t love Dutch. I wish him, all of you, the best but I’m where I belong. I don’t belong in Dutch’s world. I belong in this one. I’m sorry, but I need to go. I have a date,” I told Sheila and her shoulders fell. She stood up and walked to the door.

“I thought we were friends. I guess I was as deluded as you are. Goodbye, Shauna. Good luck,” was all she said and then she left. I sat in my chair for a moment feeling an urge to go after her and tell her I was being stupid. However, I told myself those feelings were just noise and my fear and doubt were my true feelings. I had moved on and that was that, I assured myself. I got up and went to get ready and the feeling of absolute emptiness followed me as it had since the night I left Dutch.

>>O<<

“Shauna, this is Ashley. Ash, this is Shauna,” Becky said introducing me to the guy she wanted me to meet. Ashley was everything Dutch wasn’t. I couldn’t help but compare the two. Ashley was short, balding and pudgy without a hint of masculinity about him. His eyebrows were plucked, his hair styled just so and his clothes were perfectly tailored, gray slacks, a pink button down under a gray vest that matched his slacks and a bow tie. Sexy...not!

“Hi Shauna. I’m so glad to meet you. Becky told me all about you,” he said. I shook his hand after he offered it, a mushy, weak handshake at best. We were at the bar awaiting service, Becky and I both in revealing, tight dresses and heels showing off the goods none of these guys would dare to even look at for fear of offending us.

“Nice to meet you too,” I said and turned towards the bar, “Can we get a little service here?” Becky and Ashley both looked rather stunned at my outburst. The bartender came over and I ordered a beer and a shot of cinnamon whiskey, out of habit and because I needed a stiff drink. “Either of you want a shot?” I asked. Both of my companions shook their heads and Becky ordered them each a glass of chardonnay. I didn’t even realize I was acting the way I did with Dutch, Locke and Sheila.

“Um...well, Becky tells me you’re coming off a break up. I’m so sorry to hear that,” Ashley said.

“Thanks, I guess. I’m ready to move on,” I said. The bartender brought our drinks and I slammed the shot and then took a swig of beer. Becky looked at me with that don’t-fuck-this-up-by-acting-like-a-biker look. I realized I was just being me. In other words, I was acting in a way that in this world was unacceptable.

“I’m coming off a break up too. I was seeing a woman but after a year it wasn’t working out,” Ashley said.

“A year? That’s a long time. Must’ve been serious,” I said trying to behave and appear interested. Becky had drawn the attention of another guy and she was no longer paying attention to Ashley and me.

“Yes, it was. We were discussing getting more serious but it just didn’t work out,” Ashley told me. That sounded familiar. “We listed the pros and cons and the cons won out. It made sense. It was amicable,” he said. Jesus, they made a list? How romantic. Becky was in full it-was-all-about-her mode with the guy she was talking to and he seemed to be eating it up.

“Well, uh...I’m sorry. So how long ago was that?” I wondered. My break up was two weeks old. I wondered how long Ashley had been single.