Authors: Lilith Saintcrow
Tags: #Fantasy, #Horror & Ghost Stories, #Science Fiction, #Crime & Mystery, #Incomplete Series
T
he Monde was just getting ready for the night. Outside, winter sunlight was slanting thinly toward the end of the day, cold breath of wind coming not from the mountains but off the river, filled with a chemical tang.
There was a new bouncer at the door, daytime muscle, but he just nodded and let me by. Food for thought—or maybe, even as drawn and haggard as I was, I looked like nobody to mess with.
Riverson, his gray-filmed eyes widening, was at the bar. The charms in my hair shifted and rang as he reached behind him for the vodka bottle. The air turned hot and tense, the few hellbreed having crawled out of their holes before dusk suddenly stilling, several Traders clustered around a table near the dance floor looking up, disturbed by this new feral current.
I passed the bar for once and headed for the back, for the iron door behind its purple cord. I heard Riverson call my name.
“Kismet!
Kismet!
”
Sounded like he was trying to warn me. Nice of him, really, considering we hated each other.
I stepped behind the purple velvet and reached for the doorknob. It was unlocked, as usual. I twisted it, pushed it open, and went up the stairs, stopping halfway to lean against the banister and try to calm my racing heart.
What are you doing, Jill?
Only what I have to,
I replied.
Only what I must.
And Mikhail’s voice, barely a whisper.
Head high, guns out, milaya. Meet what chases you.
I pushed the creaking wooden door at the top open and the room hove into sight: white carpet, pristine, no sign of spilled brandy or blood. The glimmer of glass and chrome that was the bar. The other two doors, neither of which I ever wanted to see what lay behind. The bed, perfectly made, as always.
The two chairs, facing each other.
Perry stood straight and slim in front of the bank of television monitors, his hands clasped loosely in front of him. His back was to me, and I could see he’d gotten a haircut. A nice, short, textured cut, the latest thing for boys this season. Nothing but the best.
He wore, for once, jeans and a pale ash-gray sweater instead of a suit. A pair of dark leather engineer boots. Blue light from the monitors touched his hair, picked out paler highlights in the blond.
I closed the door behind me. Waited.
“It is not safe for you to be here,” he said finally, very softly. Static blurred across the monitors, they cleared up. On one satellite feed, Court TV was just getting underway with a serial killer’s trial. On another, explosions ripped through a Jerusalem restaurant in slow motion. There were more explosions on the third, some Eastern European country purging again, riots in the streets.
I took a deep breath. “Three things.”
He waited. The trembling started, I leaned against the door.
Stop it, Jill. Just stop it. You planned what you were going to say. Do it quick.
The scar pulsed under the new cuff, sweating.
Push him off balance, Jill.
“First of all, thank you. For saving my life.”
He didn’t move. His shoulders were absolutely straight. More static fuzzed across the monitors, moving in an oddly coherent pattern; a cold breeze touched my cheek. Spoiled honey and dusty feathers. The air behind him shimmered like pavement on a hot day; the shimmer swept back and forth, combing the air.
Double or nothing, Jill. Do a mindfuck of your own. Make your teachers proud.
“Second of all … I owe you an apology, Pericles. I should have listened to you about Belisa. I should have let you kill her. It … what I did to you wasn’t right. I’m sorry. For shooting you in the head and for not listening to you. You didn’t deserve that.”
The static drained away. The silence in the room was now shocked, as if I had walked into a high-class party and started yelling obscenities. A murmur slid through the air, circling; the shimmer behind him died down.
His shoulders were still straight, but some essential quality of murderous rigidity had drained away. I waited.
“Surprising.” His tone was flat. “But not entirely unexpected.”
Holy fucking shit. It worked.
I peeled myself away from the door, cautioning myself not to get too cocky. Next came the trick of the week, if I was good enough to perform it. “What do I owe you?”
His laugh made the glasses rattle uneasily at the bar, the hanging material over the bed billowed as if caught in a breeze. Glass bottles of liquor groaned, chattering against their shelves. “More than you can comfortably repay, Kiss. More than you can
ever
repay. I have angered an Elder for your sake, though I was well within my rights. You are
mine.
”
I don’t think so, Perry.
“The deal was that you would help me in my cases in return for a slice of my time. That hasn’t changed.”
Another fluid, almost Gallic shrug. “If it pleases you to think so, by all means, continue.”
Now for the sting.
I braced myself and tossed my dice. “There’s just one thing.” My right hand rested on the butt of a gun, a new Glock 9 mm. I wouldn’t need to draw it. At least, I hoped not. I was in no condition to deal with him if he got nasty.
But I’d certainly give it a go if this went south.
“What?” This was a snarl, more glass rattling. The windows looking down over the empty dance floor flexed in their frames.
“How much did she take
you
for? Belisa, I mean. How deep in their venture did you have your tentacles?”
Silence.
A warm bath of satisfaction started at my toes and worked its way up.
I guessed right. You fucking hellbreed bastard. God damn you.
It had become clear to me in a blinding flash while I stood shaking in the shower trying to scrub the smell of the Nameless off my skin yet again. Just before I’d shot him in the head, Perry had spoken that name, the name of my dead self. A name he could have had no fucking way of knowing unless he’d chatted cozily with someone who had taken a peek at Mikhail’s private papers.
Someone like Melisande Belisa, who had put the information in the Sorrows file for Inez to read too and taunt me with.
I’d suspected, of course. A Trader known for slaving showing up in the Monde when I’d blown all his other boltholes, Perry trailing me before he should have known I was in serious danger, his warning that his protection might only extend so far—which by itself would have meant nothing, since he liked to pretend he knew everything going on in the city. But with everything else, it added up to a pretty picture.
A
damning
picture. Not to mention him finding her with a minimum of fuss, and her only showing up with a black eye and tender ribs.
Just to make it look good.
I continued, surer of myself now. My arms and legs stopped shaking. “She crossed you, didn’t she. They moved into town and I was kept busy chasing my tail on other cases, but you didn’t know Inez’s big plan was to have
me
in the starring role when her lord and master came calling. That’s also why you intervened when it came to Elizondo, he was a bit player but you couldn’t have him talking to me.” I swallowed dryly. “How much, Perry? How much did you lose on the deal?”
Another shrug. “Money. Only money.” His tone told me he was lying. He’d lost something else too.
And I had a pretty good idea of what that
something else
was. “Belisa played me like a fiddle. And she played you, too.”
“The cat was supposed to be with you,” he informed me, flatly. “When the wendigo was allowed out. You were not the beast’s target.”
That’s why they were in a holding pattern. Only I sent Saul away; they couldn’t have known I would do that.
My skin went cold, flushed hot. “But nobody expected us to be searching for a witness down on Broadway.” We were supposed to be out there canvassing the street scene for clues about missing hookers, not meeting with a witness.
Oh, Christ.
And once Saul was gone, was I supposed to turn to Perry for solace? Fat fucking chance.
Belisa had probably told him to wait, to bide his time and she’d take care of Saul. She had maybe even set the wendigo free the second and third time—not guessing that the creature, balked and hurt when it came for Saul the first time and Cecilia the second, would fixate on me. Hard to get much coherence out of a thing built only for appetite and destruction.
Though the silver chain around its neck had been broken. Maybe the wendigo had broken free on its own. I didn’t know. I would probably
never
know.
So Perry had been waiting, not just watching over me but waiting for the assassination of my lover to step in and take his cut of the whole rotten deal. And once I had bloodied my hands cleaning up the expendable bits of their operation, Belisa had to have guessed I wouldn’t take kindly to Perry moving on me. That I would, to some extent,
identify
Perry with the men I’d just killed.
And with the man I’d killed before I ever became a hunter.
She had only to wait until the ticking bomb inside my head went off. Belisa had applied the pressure neatly, and if Perry hadn’t been so all-fired eager to use his newfound psychological leverage on me himself I might have been a little less likely to shoot him in the head.
It was so neat, so perfect, that I began to laugh. I leaned against the door to his little chamber of horrors and chuckled. I damn near
guffawed.
No hellbreed likes to be laughed at. But Perry suffered it, static crawling over the TV screens, while I fought for breath, tears running down my cheeks.
“You poor bastard,” I finally wheezed, hanging onto the door, wiping at my cheeks with the back of my left hand. “You poor silly bastard.”
He twitched, and I jerked the gun up out of the holster. His hand clapped around mine, shoving it back in; he leaned into me. The door creaked, Perry pressed his body against mine, and I could feel he was shaking.
And he had a hard-on. A quite respectable one, as such things went. Shoved right up against me.
Well, at least now we know he’s generally built like a human. Hellbreed usually are, but reserve judgment, Jill, he could have something else in there entirely. Like his tongue.
The scar went white-hot. Desire spilled hot through me, my legs turning weak; his breath was hot on my lips. It smelled of dry hot desert winds and spoiled boiling honey. At least it wasn’t the clotted reek of the Nameless.
The devil I know, at least. Be careful, Jill. Oh, God, be careful—Saul’s right outside.
“Do not,” he breathed against my skin, “make the mistake of thinking you can treat me like I’m
human.
You made a bargain with me.”
He was strong, wiry-strong. I went limp, not even trying to fight, staring unblinking into his blue eyes. They were human, maybe a little
too
human, except for the hellbreed sheen to them and the spreading indigo stain. And the far points of distant light in the very center of his pupils. A remote, shimmering spark, of no color I could have identified.
The static twisting behind him came up to twin high points, combing the air.
My throat wouldn’t let me speak, so I whispered. “You broke the bargain when you sold me out.”
“Then I will make you a new one. I will leave the cat alive, and you may play with him all you wish. But you will give me your time as always, Kiss.”
The pinpricks in his pupils revolved, swelled. I stared through them, the scar thundering on my wrist, pulsing in time to my heartbeat. Heat curled through me, down low.
Whore,
I heard in the furthest-back reaches of my memory, from the dead time before I’d been a hunter.
You whore. Spread your legs for anyone, won’t you.
Not anymore,
the hunter’s voice of steel replied. I found my physical voice, a raw, cranky whisper. “No deal, Perry.”
Then I brought my knee up, swift and sharp. He avoided the blow, but I shoved him while he shifted his weight and he let himself be toppled over. He sprawled on the plush carpet, and the gun left the holster in one smooth oiled movement. Slender, silver-coated bullets, and his head would explode just like Inez’s. And I wouldn’t just count on one shot to do it, either. Not now. I would fill him full of silverjacket lead and when he was down I’d hack off his head with one of the knives I carried. Then, just to be sure, I’d smash a few bottles of liquor and set his carcass ablaze; and with enough etheric force spilling through the scar I could burn this whole place down.
That is, if the scar was still a conduit for a hellbreed’s power after he was dead.
He leaned back against the carpet on his elbows, looking up at me, one eyebrow slightly raised. “Fun and games, Kiss? Go ahead. Pull the trigger. Show me how far you’ve come.”
The gun trembled.
Judge, jury, executioner. Playing God.
Downstairs there was a clatter, and a loud swearing. Riverson. The sound brushed my ears, not as acute as they would be if I’d stripped the cuff off. Still, I heard it, and the red haze over my vision cleared. My heart pounded in my ears.
I reached over with my left hand, unsnapped the cuff. Slid it off, and fresh strength flowed through my veins. My skin turned exquisitely sensitive, brushed with the chill air and my clothes, hot and confining. The leather crumpled in my hot sweating palm, creaking slightly.
Perry took in a small avid sip of air, tensing.
My right hand tightened. The hammer rose, clicked into the up position. I stared into those blue, scorching, mad, inhuman hellbreed eyes and temptation dried my mouth, made my hand shake. My pulse roared in my ears. The low grumbling sound of Helletong rattled through the building, the hellbreed on the first floor conversing.
Mikhail’s voice rose again in my memory, swirling and trembling. It was a good memory, of his gruff voice in English and my own lighter tone repeating each line of the prayer.
Cover me with Thy shield, and with my sword may Thy righteousness be brought to earth, to keep Thy children safe. Let me be the defense of the weak and the protector of the innocent, the righter of wrongs and the giver of charity. In Thy name and with Thy blessing, I go forth to cleanse the night.