In a Mist
IN A MIST
DEVON CODE
Text copyright © Devon Code, 2007
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Some of the stories in this collection have been previously published.
Alice and Roy originally appeared in Invisible Publishing's Transits Anthology; Edgar and Morty appeared in the Soul Gazers Anthology; The White Knight was short-listed for the 2007 Aeon Award in Albedo 1 Magazine (UK) and Aricia Agestis appeared in print and online in Neon Literary Magazine (UK).
Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication
Code, Devon, 1981-
       In a mist / Devon Code.
ISBN 978-1-9267430-1-1
      I. Title.
PS8605.O32I55 2007Â Â Â Â Â C813'.6Â Â Â Â Â C2007-905207-X
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Invisible Publishing
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For Mary Code
When Herb came home that afternoon there was no one there. He went into the bedroom to see if Sue was resting and found the covers smoothed neatly over the empty bed. He sat on the corner of the mattress, tried to recall if she had mentioned taking the girls somewhere that afternoon. Then he slipped his suspenders off his shoulders and kicked off his shoes. He took the pint bottle of gin out of his delivery bag, twisted off the cap and drank from it. The gin burned pleasantly as it coursed down his throat. He went into the kitchen and stood in front of the refrigerator. The girls' report cards had been there when he left that morning but now in their place was a note written in his wife's precise hand, held to the refrigerator door with a magnet shaped like a daisy.
We have left. Please don't try to find us. The utilities are paid up until the end of the month. âSusan
He set the gin bottle down on the kitchen table and took the note off the refrigerator and held it in his hand, staring at it.
“Jesus Christ,” he said. Then he ripped the note in two and threw it in the wastebin in the cupboard under the sink. He went into the girls' room, pulled out the top drawer of the dresser and it fell to the floor, empty. He looked on the bed for Sarah's Raggedy Ann doll and did not find it. Then he looked in the closet. Their summer dresses were all gone, their winter coats, and Melanie's picture books. He went back into his room and looked at the top of Susan's vanity and saw that it was empty. He wrenched out her underwear drawer and all it contained was a beige maternity bra and a crimson teddy he had bought for her on their first anniversary. He looked in the closet, rifling through his shirts and pressed slacks. The only articles of Susan's clothing still there were ones she had not worn in years.
“Christ,” he said. “Susan.”
He went into the living room, picked up the phone and dialled his sister-in-law's number.
“Hello?” said a woman's voice.
“Where is she, Joan?” said Herb. He heard Joan muffle the receiver and whisper something.
“Herb? That's you isn't it? You've been drinking,” said Joan.
“Are they with you?”
He strained to hear the sounds of children's voices but all he could make out in the background was a game show on the television.
“They're not here. If they've gone somewhere I don't know where. Just sit tight and I'm sure they'll turn up. Goodbye, Herb.”
“I'm coming over, Joan and you're going to tell meâ”
”No, you can't come over Herb. I'm hanging up now. You should wait there in case they come back.”
“Joan,” yelled Herb. He could hear a man's voice in the
background.
“Hello?” said his brother-in-law, speaking too loudly.
“Lyle, tell me where they are,” said Herb. He was shaking. He gripped the arm of the chair in order to steady himself, his thick fingers digging into the soft upholstery.
“Herb, listen, whatever's happened, I'm sure Sue and the girls are fine.”
“Don't tell me that,” said Herb. “I'm coming over there.” Herb could hear the slurring now in his speech and a rage that surprised him.
“I don't think so. How do you plan on getting here? Me and Joan are just sitting down to an early dinner.”
“Oh yeah?” said Herb.
“Tell you what, Herb. I'm on night shift, but why don't I come over after dinner and you can tell me what's on your mind?”
“I've got nothing to say to you, Lyle,” Herb yelled.
“Be reasonable. You're going to give yourself a heart attack.”
Herb slammed the receiver down and then dialled the military hospital.
“How may I direct your call?” said the operator.
“This is an emergency,” he said. “Susan McConnell is a night nurse on the fifth floor. She recently applied for a transfer. I need to know where.”
“May I ask who's calling please?” said the receptionist. Herb considered his reply.
“This is her brother-in-law. This is a family emergency,” said Herb.
“I'm afraid I don't have that information,” said the operator. “If you like I can take down a message and forwardâ”
Herb slammed down the receiver. He knocked over the end table and the phone fell to the floor.
“Christ!” he screamed. He went back into the kitchen
and took the gin bottle and drank from it as if it were a glass of milk after a rich dessert or a cold beer on a hot day.
Then he went into the living room and sank down on the sofa, the springs creaking under his bulk. He rested the gin bottle on the shag carpet and took the pack of cigarettes from his breast pocket, undid the buttons of his sweatstained shirt and dropped it on the floor. He took off his glasses, rubbed his temples and closed his eyes. Sitting in the silence and the heat of the empty room he remembered dropping Susan off at the hospital one morning, years ago before she switched to nights and started taking the car. He remembered watching from the car as a young officer in immaculate dress uniform held the door open for her, the way she looked at him in that uniform.
The overturned telephone started to beep in the corner. He opened his eyes, put his glasses back on and struggled to his feet. When he got to the phone he picked it up with both hands and wrenched the cord out of the wall. He held it over his head and launched it across the room. The bell chimed on impact and he could see an indentation behind the beige floral wallpaper. When he turned he saw that he had knocked over the gin bottle, its contents spilling out onto the carpet in a dark puddle.
“Son of a bitch.”
He picked up the gin bottle and finished off what remained. He went over to the mantlepiece and put the empty bottle down. The only remaining photograph was from the summer before. The girls, Melanie and Sarah, standing under an oak tree in Canterbury Park, wearing purple and white velour dresses with white stockings and black Mary Janes. In front of them, the Kwong boy from next door, shorter than the girls, grinning, dressed in short pants and a yellow Mickey Mouse t-shirt. The boy seemed always to be riding his tricycle in circles in his driveway.
He would greet Herb enthusiastically as “Mr. McConnell” whenever they met. Herb remembered how the boy's father once found him passed out on the lawn early one morning, and had helped him into the house before Susan got home from work. But when this photograph showed up on the mantlepiece, Herb asked Sue why the Kwong boy was on permanent display in the company of his daughters. Melanie overheard her father and said that Henry looked up to him because he was a postman. Herb told his daughter that the boy was a fool. He turned the picture face down now, picked up his cigarettes and lit one as he went into the kitchen.
He sat at the table and tried to calm his nerves. While he smoked he studied the calendar hanging on the wall. He saw that Sue had written
scrub the floor
under the day's date. He surveyed the brown and white linoleum at his feet but he couldn't tell how clean it was. He went to the refrigerator and found a package of bologna and a carton of milk he did not remember being there when he had left for work that morning. He took them out and put them on the counter along with mayonnaise and a jar of pickles. He poured himself a glass of milk and took a loaf of bread from the breadbox and made two sandwiches and sat down at the table.
When he finished, he took a jar from the refrigerator with a hand-written label that read
Strawberry Jam, August 1977
. He made himself one more sandwich, finishing the jam. As he lit his last cigarette, it occurred to him he might never taste that homemade jam again. He put the plate in the sink and opened the cabinet where they kept the grocery money. He took down the Christmas shortbread tin and he could tell by its weight that it contained no loose change and when he took off the lid he found another note:
July 3
rd
,
$20 credit at Dominion Grocery (Walkley Road)
.
His temper flared and then abated as he realized he could at least use the credit for cigarettes. He was surprised Sue had not thought of this.
He sat back down sideways on the kitchen chair as he smoked and stared at three earthenware jars on the back of the counter, deep orange with brown lips and lids marked
Flour
,
Sugar
,
Salt
, descending in size. Next to the flour jar stood the coffee pot, a General Electric model shaped like an oblong teapot. He remembered that his sister-in-law had bought it on sale at Woolworth's. One for herself and one for Sue. Herb's face looked back at him from the polished chrome surface, distorted, an indistinct blur.
He got up and opened the cupboard under the sink, retrieved the note from the wastebin and lined up the two torn halves on the kitchen table, as if to mend the damage. Then he went to the writing desk in the corner of the living room, searched until he found a roll of Scotch tape in the middle drawer next to a pair of scissors. Beneath the tape was a manila envelope with his wife's name written in a woman's handwriting he did not recognize. He picked it up and inside he found a sheet of white cardboard with cellophane pouches displaying silver coins. There were two rows with five coins in each row: ten pristine effigies of King George the Fifth, one half-dollar for each year from 1921 to 1930. He tried to think of where they had come from exactly and he recalled attending a funeral in Deep River for Sue's aunt, remembered how quiet Sue had been for weeks afterward. He checked his wristwatch and he knew there was no way he'd make it to the pawn shop before it closed.
“Shit.”
He left the coin collection on top of the desk and sat back down on the sofa. He had only rested for a minute when he heard the car outside and looked up to see the black Buick pulling into the driveway. He got up and went
to the back door. He moved his old guitar case aside and found his tool box easily without the usual clutter of rubber boots and running shoes for little feet. He chose the forged steel carpenter's hammer and placed his sweaty palm upon its rubber grip just as he heard the rapping on the screen door.
By the time he made it back to the living room, Lyle had let himself in and stood facing him, his considerable frame filling the front doorway: a silhouette against the golden summer light. Herb held the hammer at his side, shielded his eyes and stared at his brother-in-law.
“Doing a bit of handiwork?” said Lyle, as if speaking to a deaf man. The two men stood there for some time, not moving. Herb searched the calm of Lyle's expression and he could find no trace of fear. Then Herb cleared his throat.