That night, I flopped on my bed, fully clothed and on top of my covers. Without Rick’s blood and sex, my body felt weaker, a racecar running on empty. My mind was filled with sharp thoughts that tumbled painfully. I wondered again where he was and if our last fight was our last encounter. Maybe he’d abandoned me too.
No, I’d pushed him away, and rightly so. Or not. I needed him. Thoughts of my house, the book, my life, flitted through my mind as I drifted, but it was Rick that came back again and again to me, young, innocent, unscarred, and human.
* * * * *
T
he banquet laid out before me was something out of a dream, all manner of fruit and chocolate surrounding silver candelabras that cast the bounty in a golden glow. Next to the table, spread on a chaise lounge, Rick lay staring out an open window. A warm night breeze ruffled his white shirt, spread open and exposing the scythe shaped scar I’d given him. In his fingers, he handled a large bunch of red grapes, popping one and then another into his mouth.
On soft silver slippers, I padded toward him but stopped just inside the room. This
was
a dream. The long, white nightgown I wore wasn’t mine.
“Come to me,
mi cielo
,” he said, turning clear gray eyes in my direction. His voice flowed over me like feather-light silk, the flicker of the candles against his smooth golden skin doing the same for me visually. My mouth went dry. My nipples perked to attention under my thin white gown. Step by step, I was pulled forward, the heat in my blood driving me toward the fruit in his hand. One taste would quench this thirst.
When I reached him, I fell to my knees, parting my lips to ask for sweet, red fruit. No words came out. I tried again. Nothing but a raspy breath of air. I was completely mute.
“Don’t speak,” he said. “You are weak,
mi cielo
. I will feed you. Close your eyes.”
I complied.
Cool flesh brushed my bottom lip and the sweet smell of grape filled my nostrils. I opened my mouth like a bird. The orb traveled the “o’ of my lips then landed on my tongue. I bit down. Ambrosia. The fruit tasted of Rick’s blood, heady and sweet. It coursed down my throat, flooding my body with a decadent current of energy.
Another grape pressed against my lips. I opened, wrapping my mouth around his fingers and sucking the fruit deep into my throat before sliding my lips and tongue back to extract it. He groaned. When I opened my mouth again, his lips brushed mine, his hands grazing my jaw before digging into my loose waves. Gently, he kissed me. Teasing. Nibbling my bottom lip.
I tried to reach up, to pull him to me, but my hands were dead weights at my side.
His tongue parted my lips, stroking slowly inside my mouth, the taste of his blood filling every corner before he pulled back.
I opened my eyes.
His hands flowed down my neck from my face, sweeping my nightgown off my shoulders. The soft white cotton slipped lower, until it hung precariously from the tips of my breasts. His fingers caressed my collarbones, then drifted lower, teasing the rosy peaks beneath the fabric.
I was still on my knees in front of him, which gave me an unencumbered view of his length, hard and straining against the thin fabric of his linen pants. I wanted desperately to free him from the constraint, but my dream would not comply. So I burned passively, as his fingers massaged my ribs, caressed over my hips, and clutched under my ass.
He lifted me, wrapping my legs around his hips, and pushing my nightgown up to my waist. In this position, his full length rubbed against my core and I tossed my head back from the surge of pleasure the contact elicited. But I couldn’t even manage a moan.
“Trust me,” he said again into my mouth. “Everything I do, I do for you.”
His fingers traced the waist of my panties, then burrowed under the lace. He teased me before dipping one finger inside. Thankfully, my dream paralysis didn’t extend to my legs. I rose and fell above him. He plunged a second finger, finding the spot deep inside that he knew lit my fuse and cupping me with his palm. With his opposite hand, he freed my breast, cradling and flicking his thumb over the sensitive tip. The night air caressed me, cold from the sheen of sweat on my skin. I felt a great pressure building and I worked my hips into his hand, frantically searching for release. But he withdrew.
I begged for more with my eyes.
Rolling the side of my panties in his hand, he ripped them off with one swift tug. Then he worked open his fly and lifted me to slide his pants down to where he could kick them off with his feet. He positioned himself. I lowered. Even though I was slick with desire, my body protested at the stretch from his considerable girth. I gasped.
“Trust me,” he said again.
As if those words were some kind of medicine, my body finally responded to my commands, my once useless arms wrapping around his neck, my fingers digging into his hair. I worked him deeper inside me. Wildly, I claimed his mouth, my tongue stroking his. I picked up the pace, rising and dropping over his lap. In response, he met me thrust for thrust, the quick drive of his hips causing sharp pants of pleasure to burst from me.
In this position, my nipples brushed his chest with each rise and fall. I arched my back to increase the contact. His hand pressed into my lower back for support, and he bent his neck to take one pert nipple into his mouth. He sucked hard. The tight pinch washed me over the edge. I came apart, my sex gripping him, milking his orgasm as he followed my example. Minutes passed, my core clenching again and again, my breath caught in my throat.
And then his teeth plunged into my carotid. It didn’t hurt. I’d heal quickly. But the act was more erotic than what we’d just done. Rick housed a piece of my very soul and our blood connection was an intimacy to rival any.
I returned the favor, clamping down on the web of flesh between his neck and collarbone. Decadent blood flowed over my tongue, and I drank my fill. When I pulled back, Rick’s eyes were black disks. The darkness came closer and closer, widening its circumference until it swallowed me.
Trust me
was the last thing I heard before my eyes popped open to the sound of Poe thrashing against my bedroom window. The sun was up. I was alone under the covers. As I tossed back my quilt and pushed myself up off my mattress to let my familiar inside, I licked my lips.
I could have sworn I tasted Rick’s blood.
I
’d slept until noon but didn’t feel rested. All my worries about the increase in supernatural activity in the area, losing my house, trying to find the
Book of Flesh and Bone
, and my dream of Rick drained me to the point of exhaustion. After a quick shower, I pulled on my most comfortable jeans and a warm fleece my dad had brought me back from a visit to Canada. I jogged down to Rick’s cottage with wild hair and not a stitch of makeup on my face.
Knocking twice, I let myself in again. The Tesla was still gone, my note still on the counter. Where was he? My phone rang and I pulled it from my pocket. “Rick?”
“Rick? You told me he doesn’t even have a phone.”
“Michelle! Hi. No, he doesn’t have a phone, just wishful thinking.”
“Then why did you think he was calling?”
“Rick’s been on my mind. We had a fight and then he disappeared. I haven’t seen him in over a week.”
“What?”
I exhaled. “I’m sure he’ll be back soon. Where could he have gone?” I laughed nervously.
“How bad of a fight did you have?”
“I said I wished I’d never met him.”
“Jesus, Grateful, what brought that on?”
“Nothing I feel comfortable telling you over the phone.”
“Well, that’s okay because you can tell me tonight at Logan’s party.”
That’s right. Tonight was Logan’s welcome back party at Valentine’s. I’d practically insisted Michelle go and I’d promised Logan I’d be there. Logan. Fuck. This was going to be our last hoorah. After tonight, I wouldn’t see him regularly anymore, now that he was out of my attic for good and done with physical therapy. He’d want to know for sure what we meant to each other, and deep inside I knew he wasn’t hoping for ‘just friends.’ But I’d committed to Rick and that was all I had to offer.
“What are you wearing?” I asked.
“Why, are you a creeper?”
“No! Tonight. What are you wearing tonight?”
“Strappy black dress and strappier heels, baby.”
I pictured my voluptuous friend in that getup and smiled. She’d be lucky if her husband, Manny, let her out of the house.
“I think I’ll wear my green sweater dress.”
“The turtleneck?” The scowl was evident in her voice.
“It’s classy.”
“If you’re seventy.”
“You just want me to dress sexy for your entertainment.”
“Why else would I be going? Gotta live vicariously through my single girlfriend.”
Only I wasn’t single,
was I
? I left Rick’s empty house and started the short walk home. A snowflake landed on my eyelash and was followed by a crowd of fluffy white friends that circled me as I crossed the bridge. “I’ll meet you there at seven.”
“Are you really wearing the sweater dress?”
“Yes. Non-negotiable.”
She sighed. “All right. See you at seven.”
* * * * *
M
y phone rang for the twenty-fourth time that day, and for the twenty-fourth time, I did not answer it. My father’s picture displayed on the screen. I wasn’t ready to talk to him. I had, however, taken the time to photoshop a mustache, beard, and horns onto his photo icon. So, for the twenty-fourth time that day, I chuckled at my sophomoric behavior. Hey, whatever worked.
“You look like you’re going to a funeral,” Poe said from the top of my dresser.
“Actually, I wore this to my great aunt’s funeral.” The hunter green dress had long sleeves and a turtleneck with buttons that ran from the top of my neck on a diagonal to my armpit. The material was cableknit wool and the length stretched to my knees.
“What a sensible choice. I’m sure you will be…warm.”
I pulled my straightened hair back with both hands, working it into a ponytail, then wrapping the end into a bun. “I don’t want to lead anyone on.”
“Ohhh,” Poe said. “You’re afraid if your skirt is short your willpower will be too.”
No denying it. I nodded.
“I thought you and Logan were just friends.”
“We are.”
“Then why the modern chastity belt?”
“It’s hard to explain.”
“Hmm.”
I smoothed the last strands of my hair back and turned toward my familiar. “Can you do me a big favor tonight?”
“That depends. Does it involve watching you awkwardly avoid your ‘friend’ for fear even the funeral dress won’t ward off the hormones?”
I flipped him the finger. “No. I need you to look for Rick while you’re out hunting.”
“Look where? We’ve already looked everywhere. We’ve been looking all week!” Poe protested.
“Come on, Poe! You’ve got a freakin’ birds eye view. Look around and try to find him. He’s been gone too long. I’m worried. I’m even having dreams about him.”
Poe stopped. “What kind of dreams?”
“None of your business.”
“Your connection runs deep. Maybe he was sending you a message.”
I spread my hands. “He said to trust him.”
“Well, there you go.”
“You’re not getting out of this, Poe. I need to know he’s okay.”
“All right, all right. I’ll search for him.”
“Thank you.”
I retrieved my black leather bag from beside the dresser and patted the top of my shoulder. “I’ll give you a ride to the door.” He jumped up to perch over the buttons of my dress.
“Are you sure you want to go to this party?” Poe asked.
“Of course. Why?”
“You only have mascara on one eye.”
* * * * *
T
hirty minutes later, fully mascaraed yet sufficiently frumpy, I arrived at Valentine’s. A large sign on the door said the restaurant was closed to the public to accommodate a private party and judging by the packed parking lot and the thumping bass spilling out into the night, one hell of a party it was. I entered and fought the crowd to the bar. I recognized some of the faces from the hospital and yelled a curt “hello” over the music to be polite. Michelle was right where she said she’d be, getting up close and personal with an Appletini.
“Thanks for coming. You look great!” I said, giving her a quick hug.
She returned my embrace. “You’re late. You missed the speech by the staff welcoming Logan back. And OMG you actually wore that dress. You look like a librarian.” A slight slur in the middle of ‘librarian’ told me the Appletini wasn’t Michelle’s first drink.
“Thanks.”
“Never mind. Pull up a seat and tell me all your troubles. The last time I talked to you, you sounded like hell.”
The bar stools on either side of her were taken, but that didn’t stop Michelle. She jostled the arm of a vertically challenged redhead on her left who was quietly staring into his beer. He seemed shy and somewhat nerdy in green pants and a gold vest.