Knot (Road Kill MC #2) (43 page)

~ 4 ~

My body freezes outside my apartment building in fear. Strobes flare at me in greeting, red then blue, pulsing in the descending twilight.

The sunset bleeds away as I approach my building and a cop car stands sentinel by the glass doors. My thoughts fill with Ronnie. Cop cars at my apartment, dumped mask like a message... I can think of only one conclusion. Out with pessimism, in with realism. I'm not a fan of coincidence.

My hand only trembles a little when I whip out my cell and text Kiki.

Me:
Holy shit, the cops are at my building

Kiki has her phone glued to her ass. Unless she's in the shower, she'll reply.

I wait until my cell pings.

I look down and give a nervous laugh.

Kiki:
What in the fuckinstein is happening? Are you ok?

Am I okay? Hell no. Ronnie had my mask; he knows where I live. I'm not safe. Oh god—
I'm not safe.

Me:
No... Yeah, I'm okay but Kik—can you come over?

I'm finally asking for help.

Kiki:
Gah! I can't, I've got poles tonight. I've got to wiggle my ass and play grab the cash... after?

Me:
Yeah.

Kiki:
You're not lying... are you really okay?

No.
Me:
Yes... just, come over, k?

Kiki:
<3

I walk toward the apartment building and see cops milling around in the small foyer.

A cop walks up to me, his badge reads
Tagger.

He's my height, and his watery green eyes meet my gray ones. He does that eye flick most men do when they see me. Though my sexy clinic smock gets in the way of an in-depth perusal, he still lingers for the perfunctory two-second eye rake.

“I'm sorry, miss, I can't let you enter the building.”

His hand hovers over me as if I'm going to sprint for it, slide across the tile, and make a home run as I land inside the elevator.

Right.

“I live in the building,” I say, not quite keeping the bite out of my words.

I'm tired, my feet hurt, and I'm freaked as hell about Ronnie.

Now cops are telling me to get lost?

Don't they effing know I am already?
So lost.

Tears of frustration fill my vision, scorching me as I refuse to let them fall. Instead, I level a glare at the cop who's just doing his job.

Anger feels better than tears.

It's not his fault he just stepped into the pile of shit that's my life.

Tagger's brows rise, and he takes out a piece of paper and slides a finger down what I know must be a short list of tenants.

His eyes meet mine, and they have a look. It's not easy to decipher sandwiched between two buildings in a tight, narrow alleyway full of puddled shadows.

“Faren Mitchell?”

My heart pounds harder, and my hand gives a warning tremble. That's one of the “tells” Thorn spoke of. The full-on shakes might happen in a minute or two for extra fun.

“Yes.” Even to me, my voice has the quality of a squished whistle.

He lightly touches my elbow and I don't retreat. “I'm afraid we have some bad news.”

His words hollow me. I don't think I can handle any more of the evils of life.

I follow him through the door. My eyes take in my irate landlord and the splayed guts of the security code box.

“You fuckweasels didn't get here after my tenant called it in- what? Ten minutes ago?! What in the blue fuck do we pay your salary for? To goddamned respond is what!” my landlord yells.

Tagger narrows his vision to a laser beam on Humphrey. His combover stands like a filthy flag on top of his head. I can just imagine him compulsively raking his pudgy fingers through it.

Another cop has a little handheld device, his stylus poised but not touching. Apparently
fuckweasel
doesn't warrant note taking.

“Faren!” Humphrey stalks over to me, and all I see is the spot of mustard on his rumpled shirt collar.

Tagger steers me into the vestibule of my apartment building.

I don't miss the look he gives his partner, a significant eye jerk to Humphrey.

The other cop,
Scott,
calls, “Mr. Humphrey! My questions are not finished.”

Humphrey stops. He shoots me a scathing look that clearly says
later.

His fists bunch, and he pivots and walks back to officer Scott in a jerky trot. His chubby body rocks importantly when he halts in front of Scott again. He’s pissed and not bothering to hide it.

Tagger shakes his head. “If it wasn't his property, we wouldn't be so lenient.”

“He's a jerk,” I say and bite my cheek.

Tagger smiles, and it changes his face, erasing hard years. “Yes, duly noted.”

We climb the stairs, and I slow. His hand takes my elbow.

“Where are we going?” I ask.

Tagger stares at me. So much in his face is left unsaid, and I can feel the blood rush to my feet.

“Where?” I ask again.

He sighs explosively. “It's your apartment.”

I wrench my elbow out of his grip and sprint up the stairs.

“Miss Mitchell!” Tagger bellows.

I outpace him like an antelope on crack.

I've kept in great shape, working to get out of the hole of disability Ronnie Bunce put me in. There's only my hand now.

I can't make everything right.

I throw open the top floor door, slamming it against the wall and making another crack in the plaster for Humphrey to bitch about.

It slaps me in the ass when Tagger crowds behind me.

I groan, clutching the doorjamb, as my eyes take in my doorway.

My solid wood door hangs from its hinges like a busted tooth, and I walk forward as though in a dream.

Or a nightmare.

“Is it... safe?” I whisper. Tears spill, cutting fine pathways in my heart.

“Yeah, but, Miss Mitchell...”

“Faren,” I reply absently.

“Faren, stay with me please. I can't have you running off like that.” He's not out of breath, but his eyes are tired.

Tired of things I've never seen. And some that I will.

“Okay.” I walk toward the torn mouth of my apartment.

I step through the threshold and don't know where to look first. Everything that can be broken is.

The silent tears roll on.

I glide over to my stove. My pale green salt and pepper shakers sit untouched, the only perfect thing in the wreck of my apartment.

I hug them, my eyes taking in my tea kettle shattered on the floor.

It had been my mom's.

“Miss Mitchell...” the cop begins.

I walk over to my couch, the afghans scattered everywhere. I sit and look at the couch Mick lounges on when he breaks into my apartment. God, I miss that.

I laugh and hiccup at the same time.

I raise my eyes to Tagger, feeling like a husk.

“I'm sorry, Faren, but I have to ask you some questions.”

“Someone just came and beat the shit out of my apartment and you have to ask me some questions...” I thump my bad hand against my chest, and the salt shaker falls to the floor.

We watch the salt dump all over the rug.

Our eyes meet, and I think about luck. If weren't for the bad, I wouldn't have any at all.

Tagger slowly stoops, pinches some of the salt, and with a deliberate fling, throws it over his shoulder.

I stare at him.

“For luck,” he says without an ounce of defensiveness.

“Okay.” I sound shaky. I don't believe in luck.

His stylus comes up above his tablet, hovering like a chopper without landing.

“Ready?”

I give the barest nod. My bottom lip trembles as I try to shut off my mind—an engine that never quits.

He starts in, and I respond.

Where do I work? What are my hours?

Everywhere. Impossible.

I don't meet his eyes and that makes it easier.

Do I have any enemies?

I look up.

Tagger shrugs. I notice his dirty blond hair needs a cut, curling above his ears.

“Seems personal.”

Oh... it is.

His eyes run over me again and stutter to a stop at my scarred hand.

They lift to mine.

His question is there, though he doesn't voice it.

The cop knows the evidence of violence when he sees it, like Thorn did. He's not here to question me like a suspect, but he's suspicious. It's in the tense set of his body.

I stand, and he follows me. I take a mournful mental inventory of the things in my home.

I halt when I catch sight of my bed.

My normal clothes are hanging in the closet.

Slashed—every one.

The only things that escaped destruction are my stripper outfits. Each one of those is neatly laid out on the bed.

Gooseflesh breaks out over my body, running down my arms.

I move to my dresser and tear my drawers open.

My panties are missing.

Bras.

Oh my god.

I slowly turn, and Tagger gives me a neutral look.

I want to hit him. “You could have warned me at least.”

He shakes his head. “I needed to see your reaction.”

I wipe my eyes, brushing angry tears away.

“What?” I move into his personal space. “You some kind of sadist? You get off on some freak coming in here and wrecking all my stuff?”

Tagger's eyes narrow.

“No, I don't, Miss Mitchell.” He stares at me then glances at the bed full of stripper clothes.

“But I am mighty curious why someone would break into your apartment and wreck everything. Then they take nothing but your lingerie, and keep an assortment of very... interesting clothes in perfect condition on display for your return.”

My eyes drop from his.

I hear his frustration. “Is there something you're not telling me?” he asks.

There is.

But if I breathe a whisper about Ronnie Bunce, I have to answer questions about laps, extras... and my newest love interest. It could be dangerous for me.

It could hurt my mom.

Oh yeah, officer, I'm keeping billionaire Mick McKenna around to deflower me before I die, and my crazy-as-fuck stepdad wants to make good on unfinished business.

They'd keep me wrapped up so tight I'd never see my mom.

No way. I'm all she has. I can't be embroiled in some mess while her care hangs in the balance.

“No, there really isn't,” I lie. The weight of my desperation pins every word with a grain of truth. Love is a powerful motivator.

Tagger closes his tablet with a smack. “I wish I believed you.”

Me too.
I stare at him, folding my arms.

He sighs in frustration. “You have a place to stay?”

I don't answer fast enough, and he explains, “You're not safe here. There's no way to secure the door.”

I can tell he thinks I'm some kind of whacko flight risk.

I open my mouth.

“She'll stay with me.”

We turn toward the door, looking out into my small living room at the man entering my wrecked apartment.

I heard his voice and, like Pavlov's dog, that ache settled right between my legs, heat spreading from my core to my toes.

From just his voice.

Tagger whirls around, his hand on the butt of his pistol.

“How did you get up here?” His hand strokes the leather holster.

My eyes move to Mick's, their root beer brown so deep I drown in them.

“Ben Franklin let me in.”

Tagger frowns.

Mick holds up a one hundred dollar bill.

~ 5 ~

“Hate to break it to you, Mr. McKenna, but you can't buy me.”

Tagger glares as Mick calmly plucks a billfold out of the interior pocket of his suit.

“No?”

Mick's brows dump above angry eyes, a tick beginning in his square jaw. “Then maybe you can explain why my girlfriend is being browbeaten by a beat cop who leaves the apartment unattended after it's been rifled through?”

Girlfriend?

I drink him in as he stuffs the money in his wallet.

Tagger's forehead furrows, his body going tense. “Where's Scott?”

Mick removes an imaginary piece of lint from his understated, tailor-cut suit. It perfectly showcases his natural elegance.

His eyes cut to Tagger. “I don't know. Why don't you find out and leave me here with Miss Mitchell? I can take it from here.”

I cringe at his unflinching handling of the police.

Tagger doesn't move. “We may need to assign police protection—”

“That won't be necessary,” Mick cuts him off.

My eyes find Tagger. “Police protection?”

He shrugs, and my eyes narrow. He makes me feel as though I’m somehow to blame, like a police liability.

“You thought you might lean on Miss Mitchell until she cracked?” Mick asks.

Tagger stares at Mick, his fair skin taking on a ruddy glow.

I turn my attention to Mick, my mouth agape.

“I'm aware of Miss Mitchell's background,” Tagger says.

I somehow cover my shock. I’m so glad everyone knows everything about me and doesn’t bother to make me privy. “What does my history have to do with this?”

I shoot Mick a hard look.
Has he said something to Tagger?
No, that makes no sense-- unless they know each other from before.

Tagger scrubs his face and scowls at Mick. “I don't know how you know anything here, McKenna.”

“Sounds personal,” I mimic and Tagger gives me a thoughtful look.

Mick walks over to me and puts a large warm hand at the nape of my neck. The warmth from his voice is nothing to that single touch.

A searing flame races from my head to my toes, coming back to latch on to my crotch in a vicious twist of arousal.

My lips part; I keep from panting from sheer will alone.

I clearly need more oxygen.

It doesn't matter that Tagger is watching us like a hawk. Mick is touching me, and I can't get past that.

He's a barrier I can't break, that I want to hold forever.

“It is,” Tagger replies, his eyes noting Mick's hand on me.

“Ben Franklin always works, Tagger.” Mick gives my neck a gentle squeeze, and a small bubble of sound escapes me.

Mick glances at me, his aloof facade slipping around the edges. It's like ice melting before the passion of our contact.

“It doesn't work with me, McKenna.”

Mick's eyes slide back to Tagger's. “I know you're working a case.”

He does?

Tagger pushes his tablet into his pocket slowly, never breaking eye contact with Mick.

“I have a right to know what's going on,” I say, stepping away from Mick so I can think. I feel like the only one out of the know. Tagger knows my background, Mick does too. They seem to know each other. And Ronnie Bunce is at the heart. Maybe it beats without their knowledge.

“There's been a similar... pattern of break-ins,” Tagger admits.

My mouth opens then closes. “When... who?”

Tagger cocks his head. “It's local, similar M.O.”

Oh... maybe
not
Bunce.

“Hookers mainly,” Tagger says, and my face flames.

Definitely Bunce.
First the mask, then trashing my apartment?

Mick's expression darkens.

“I'm not a hooker,” I say.

That rides the line of lying.

Have I had intercourse during a lap?

No.

Have I done everything but that?

Almost.

And I did it for the money.

I think of my mom, how it was before Ronnie and I bite my lip. That long ago memory is a bittersweet whip of velvet inside my mind.

“We're not accusing you of prostitution,” Tagger says.

“You’d better not be.” Mick’s voice sounds like a growl, and I barely resist looking at him.

Tagger grins, seeming to love his role of authority.

“She's not your wife, Mr. McKenna. You really don't have any rights here. In fact, you being here is wrong on a lot of levels.”

Tagger turns to me. “Do you feel threatened, Miss Mitchell?”

“Of course!” I answer immediately.

“Do you feel threatened by Mr. McKenna?” he clarifies.

My eyes shift to Tagger’s as I remember Mick slamming me against walls and doors, pinning my wrists above my head while he assaulted me with his lips.

I take too long responding, and Mick looks at me.

“No, I don't feel threatened by Mr. McKenna.”

Mick's shoulders relax, but there's a question in his eyes that I don't want to answer.

Tagger closes the distance between us, and Mick tenses again.

I would love to understand the animosity between them, but I keep my mouth shut.

Tagger’s arm stretches out, and I flinch. Habit.

His eyes tighten at my reaction. “I won't hurt you, Miss Mitchell.”

I've heard that before—about a hundred times when the cops came and Ronnie talked to them.

He could be very convincing.

I imagine he had his own stockpile of George Washingtons.

Tagger’s hand opens, and his card sits inside. “Take it.”

I pluck the card out of his hand and slide it into the front pocket of my scrubs.

“Humphrey has promised to get your door repaired within twenty-four hours, but until that happens, you'll need somewhere safe to stay.”

“I said she's staying with me,” Mick says with finality.

I'm so not staying with him.

Too many secrets to hide.

“Right.” Tagger looks at me, unconvinced.

I blush from his look that brims with assumptions. He's getting a mental image of all the slut suits on my bed along with nightly humpfests with Mick.

“Fine.” He walks to my yawning, shattered doorway and turns. “There
will
be a follow-up.” He leaves.

Tagger never did tell me what my history had to do with this.

I'm the victim; he knows that. If he knows about my past, then he knows that.

So why do I get the feeling he suspects me of wrongdoing?

Some people have a nose for the truth.