Learning to Trust: Sweet Temptation (12 page)

Kane’s
heart soared nearly out of his chest. The woman trusted him not to hurt her,
although she had never done this before. Moving closer to the bed, Kane opened
the drawer of the nightstand and pulled out the bottle of lubrication he had
deposited there earlier.

“Move
back toward me,” he instructed as he flipped open the cap.

When
Lucie did as he told her, Kane moved forward, pushing her legs wider so that he
could maneuver between her legs. Brushing his stomach over the backs of her
thighs, he placed one hand on her back, forcing her upper body deeper into the
mattress.

Leaning
forward, he nipped the firm, supple skin of her ass cheek with his teeth,
feeling the way Lucie flinched beneath him. Separating the firm globes with his
fingers, Kane trailed his tongue over her lower back, down the crease of her
ass until he found the tiny, delicate hole that he was looking for. Gently he
began reaming her with his tongue, reveling in her soft moans and the way she
began thrusting back against his mouth.

He
teased her like that for long minutes before standing once more and grabbing
the lubrication from the bedside table. Holding one hand on her hip, he
squeezed the lube down the crease of her ass. The shiver that moved through
Lucie had Kane’s cock jerking.

Fuck!
He wanted to slide deep inside of her, but he knew he’d hurt her if he didn’t prepare
her first. Using one finger, he teased the puckered hole, sliding the
lubrication around before slipping the tip of his finger inside of her.

“Let
me know if it’s too much, Lucie,” Kane growled the words, barely holding on to
his control.

Gently,
he fingered her ass with one finger, the fingers of his other hand digging into
the soft flesh of her hip.

“You’re
so fucking hot,” he groaned before sliding two fingers into her ass, easing
them in slow, then retreating. He didn’t move quickly, knowing there was no
need to rush, no matter how hard his cock was or how damn tempted he was to
slam inside of her.

Lucie
began thrusting her hips back against his intruding fingers, moaning his name
over and over as she did. He knew the pleasure had overtaken some of the pain,
but there was still no way he’d fit inside of her without hurting her, so he
kept fingering her ass as he leaned forward, peppering her back with open
mouthed kisses.

“I
want to bury my cock in your ass, Lucie.” Kane kept up a verbal litany of
things he wanted to do to her, listening to her moans increase as he began
scissoring two fingers inside of her, before inserting a third.

“Kane!”
Lucie whimpered, and he stilled. “Oh, God! Don’t stop! Please don’t stop!”

A
growl tore from his chest as he began thrusting three fingers in her ass,
deeper with each punishing drive until he couldn’t hold back any longer.
Pulling his fingers free, Kane quickly lubed his cock before moving her up on
the bed as he climbed onto the mattress on his knees.

With
the hand he had holding her hip, Kane leaned into her, finding her clit with
his fingers. When she began moaning his name again, he aligned his cock with
her tight hole before pressing the swollen head against her, watching as he
slipped inside. A torturous groan erupted from his chest as her body enveloped
him, strangling the head of his dick.

“Bear
down on me, Lucie,” he commanded, trying to force his fingers to continue
moving over her clit, trying to keep her hovering on the edge and not aware of
the pain he knew he was inflicting.

When
Lucie pushed back against him, Kane slid farther in, one inch at a time until
he was sweating profusely and his cock was buried to the root inside of her. He
didn’t move, not wanting to hurt her as she whimpered.

He
increased the speed of his fingers over her clit, finding the slick entrance to
her pussy with his thumb before pressing into her. She was so fucking tight,
and so damn hot. He wasn’t going to be able to last long.

Pulling
back, gripping her hips with both hands, Kane focused on sliding in and out of
her hot, smooth channel, over and over.

“Play
with your clit, Lucie,” he told her when the sweat began sliding down his
forehead. He needed to fuck her.

When
she moved her hand between her legs, he could only assume she was doing as he
instructed while he continued to maintain a steady, gentle pace until Lucie was
once again thrusting back against him.

“Fuck
me, Kane! Please fuck me,” she cried out, trying to force her hips closer to
him. With his hands holding her still, she didn’t get very far and he was still
scared of hurting her.

“Dammit,
Kane!” Lucie screamed, but it wasn’t from the pain. “Fuck me now!”

Kane
lost his leash on his control and he began slamming against her, burying his
cock to the hilt in her ass, holding her hips and pulling her against him as he
pounded into her over and over, faster and harder until the tingling in the base
of his spine robbed him of breath.

“I’m
coming!” Lucie’s voice broke through the haze that he was trapped in as he
tried to hold on until she found her release, but the moment the words
penetrated his brain, Kane stilled, spilling himself deep into her.

He
didn’t know how it was possible, but the woman continued to intensify his
feelings for her as every single minute passed.

~~*~~

“I
don’t need a bath,” Lucie groaned when Kane tried to help her from the bed. She
didn’t want a bath, she just wanted to close her eyes and give in to the
exhaustion pulling at her.

She’d
never experienced the kind of mind numbing orgasm as she had moments before.
Nor had she expected to come at all from being fucked like that, but clearly
she’d shattered into a million pieces thanks to the most body rocking release
she had ever known.

“You’re
going to be sore,” he whispered as he lifted her into his arms and carried her
to the bathroom a few minutes later.

At
some point he must have come into the bathroom and filled the tub because the
water was deep, there were mounds of soft, fluffy white bubbles and the gentle
hum of the jets rumbled. Kane placed her on her feet in front of the oversized
spa tub, allowing her to climb in first. He kept his hand on her arm until he
was in the tub with her, lowering himself down behind her.

Lucie
slid into the warm water, her eyes closing momentarily as she leaned into Kane,
letting the heat from his body, mixed with the perfect temperature of the water
soothe her aching muscles.

“I’m
in awe of you,” Kane said long moments later, just when Lucie was beginning to
drift into that state of euphoric slumber.

She
turned her head to the side and forced her eyes open. “Why?” she asked, unsure
what he meant by his comment.

“You
amaze me.”

“Here
I was thinking I was the one being amazed by you,” she said lightly.

“After
everything I put you through, to know that you trust me... It humbles me,
Lucie,” he said, his voice sounding somewhat sad.

“I’ve
never had an issue with trust where you’re concerned. I know you would never
hurt me,” she answered, using her hand to swirl circles in the mounds of
bubbles across her chest.

“But
I did.”

Lucie
abruptly turned, but Kane easily stopped her, pulling her back against his
chest and pressing his lips on the back of her head.

“You
didn’t hurt me, Kane.”

She
could understand why he would think that because she had done the unthinkable,
hiding her pregnancy from him and never telling him he was Haley’s father. But
it never was about trust. She knew that no matter how many times she tried to
explain that to him, he wasn’t going to accept it.

“I’ve
dreamt about you,” Kane began, his voice low, his hands firm across her abdomen.
“After what you told me this morning, I realized they weren’t dreams. They were
memories, although they always seemed just a little out of reach. I never could
completely see what happened, but now I know. I wish it could’ve been different
between us that night.”

Lucie
didn’t respond, unsure what even to say to that. There were so many times that
she had wished the same thing. Not about the events of the night because, if
she were honest, she didn’t want to change the way that it happened. She just
wished he had remembered so she didn’t have to spend the next five years
wondering why it hadn’t been good enough for him to remember.

“That
had been a really dark time for me,” Kane explained. “I’m not sure why that
year was harder on me than the others, but I had a difficult time dealing with
the anniversary of my brother’s death.”

Lucie
didn’t move a muscle. Hell, she wasn’t even sure she was breathing. Her heart
cracked wide open from the sadness she heard in his tone. She waited patiently
for him to continue, trying not to disrupt whatever it was that caused him to
open up to her. She had no idea Kane even had a brother, much less that he had
died.

“It would’ve
been his twenty-first birthday that year and drowning myself in alcohol had
been the only way I knew to deal with the overwhelming loss that I felt.”

Lucie
thought back to that night and the days preceding it. Kane had been indulging
quite a bit more than he normally did from what she remembered. In fact, these
days, she rarely saw him drink anything more than a beer. She hadn’t thought
anything of it.

“How
did he die?” she asked, immediately wishing she had kept her mouth shut. Kane
didn’t move, nor did he answer her for several seconds, or maybe it was
minutes. Lucie wasn’t sure, but she didn’t breathe during that time.

“Drunk
driver.” Those two words broke through the otherwise silent bathroom, aside
from the gentle hum of the motor from the tub jets.

“Oh,
Kane,” Lucie’s heart leapt into her throat, “I’m so sorry.”

“He
was the drunk driver,” Kane stated firmly, his tone no longer sad.

Lucie
detected the underlying anger mingling with the agony she imagined he felt. “He
was only sixteen years old, for chrissakes! He was so damn smart; it still
boggles my mind why he would do something so stupid.”

Lucie
couldn’t help but think back to that night when she had driven Kane home from
the club. Had she not intervened, she knew he would’ve gotten behind the wheel
drunk. She didn’t want to think about what might’ve happened if she hadn’t been
there to stop him.

“Thankfully
no one else was hurt. He wrapped his car around a tree. They said he was killed
instantly and that his blood alcohol level was more than triple the legal
limit.”

Lucie’s
heart went out to Kane and his mother for what they had to go through. She was
saddened by the fact that Haley would never get to meet her uncle. Kane’s loss
explained so much about that night and the way he had treated her. Still, she
didn’t see it the same way that he did. He hadn’t hurt her, and never once had
she thought he would.

“I
love you, Kane,” Lucie said quietly after several long silent minutes. She
hadn’t expected to say the words aloud, although her heart was consumed with
the love she felt for him.

Kane
still didn’t move, but she was almost positive she felt his hands tighten
against her stomach.

Maybe
it was too soon for her to say the words, but she couldn’t take them back now.
She didn’t want to. Even if he didn’t feel the same for her, Lucie needed him
to know just what he meant to her. After Haley had surprised them both by
calling him daddy earlier in the evening, she was pretty sure he was
overwhelmed enough already. Thinking about his brother probably didn’t help
either.

At
least that’s what she was going to tell herself. There was no way she could accept
that he didn’t feel the same for her. Not until she got home where she would be
able to fall apart without him looking on.

*** ~~ *** ~~ *** ~~ ***

The
next few days flew by without incident. Kane, Haley, and Lucie spent their days
down at the beach, soaking up the sun. He even managed to coax Haley into the
water a time or two, although it was obvious his daughter wasn’t a water lover
like he was. The highlight of the week though had been the whale watching tour.
He wasn’t sure who had been more excited, Haley or Lucie.

They
were on their last full day of their vacation and Kane had a surprise for
Lucie. Any minute now, his mother was going to arrive to spend the day with her
granddaughter, which meant he had the opportunity to spend some alone time with
Lucie.

After
the first night they were there, Kane had been on emotional overload. Between
Haley calling him daddy, which she continued to do every time she spoke to him,
making him beam with pride without even knowing it, and Lucie telling him she
loved him, Kane was beside himself. Overwhelmed with so much love for these two
girls he had come to claim as his own.

Only
he hadn’t told Lucie that he loved her. He’d been too shocked to speak, never
expecting to hear her say the words. She hadn’t said anything since, and he
knew that was because he had so easily ignored the situation, trying selfishly
to come to terms with how he could explain his feelings for her.