Long Lost: A Kate Burkholder Short Story (6 page)

Tomasetti parks in a gravel area between the house and a huge white barn where two buggies are parked just inside the sliding door. I get out and for a moment, I’m taken aback by the beauty of the place. The architecture of the old house and barn. The falling snow. The sight of a dozen cattle grazing in the pasture beyond.

The slamming of a screen door draws my attention. I glance toward the house to see an Amish woman step onto the porch and look our way. Behind her, two little girls stand at the door, peering out at us. Working a shawl over her shoulders, the woman starts toward us. “Are you here for eggs?” she calls out.

Tomasetti and I watch her approach. “Jesus,” he says beneath his breath. “It’s her.”

I experience an odd moment of something akin to awe when I realize I’m looking at Angela Blaine. She’s in her early forties now, and pretty in the way mature women are. She’s got the same huge brown eyes, freckles on her nose, a full mouth that smiles easily. And a mole on the left side of her chin.

“I’m afraid we made a wrong turn,” I tell her.

“Happens all the time out here,” she says easily.

“Good place to get lost,” Tomasetti says.

She hesitates an instant and then nods. “That it is. Where you folks trying to get to?”

“Back to the highway,” he tells her.

She motions toward the lane from whence we came. “Just make a left at the end of the lane and go right on Abbottsville Road. Highway’s four miles down. Can’t miss it.”

“Got it,” he says.

“Mom?” comes a male voice. “Everything okay?”

I glance toward the barn to see a lanky young Amish man approach, an egg basket in his right hand, his gaze settling first on me and then on Tomasetti. He’s wearing gray trousers and a black barn coat with a dark, flat-brimmed hat.

“Everything’s fine,” the woman says easily.

The young man is in his early twenties, and I can’t take my eyes off him. Neither can Tomasetti. Maybe because he’s the spitting image of a younger—and much less damaged—Tucker Miles.

No wonder Angela didn’t want to be found.

As if realizing we’re staring, the woman reaches out and gives the young man’s arm a squeeze. “This is my oldest, Mark. Everyone calls him Bean.”

The man ducks his head as if embarrassed by his mother’s open affection, then raises the basket. “You folks need eggs?” he asks. “They’re fresh and we got plenty.”

I glance over at Tomasetti. “We could take a dozen back to the bed-and-breakfast.”

“A dozen it is, then.” He pulls out his wallet and looks at Angela Blaine. “How much do we owe you?”

“Three dollars ought to keep us in chicken scratch a few more days.”

He hands her a five and tells her to keep the change.

“We got milk, too,” the young man tells us. “It’s fresh.”

“We don’t advertise,” the woman says quickly, “since the government started citing the Amish.”

“We don’t need any milk.” I offer a smile. “But your secret’s safe with us.”

The Amish woman tilts her head and gives me a closer look, her eyes narrowing slightly. “Is there anything else I can help you with?”

“I think we have everything we need now,” Tomasetti replies and we start toward the Tahoe.

Tomasetti and I don’t speak again until we’re on the highway, heading back to the bed-and-breakfast. I break the silence with, “I wish there was some way we could let Harley and Fannie know Angela Blaine is alive and well.”

He shrugs. “I think this is one of those times when the lost are better off staying lost.”

“And Harley can continue to enjoy his ghost story.”

“Case closed?” he asks.

I smile at him. “Definitely.”

Glancing away from the road, he sets his hand over mine. “I guess that means you and I can get back to our vacation.”

“Tomasetti, that’s the best idea I’ve heard all day.”

Read on for an excerpt from

Linda Castillo’s new novel,

Her Last Breath,

available June 2013

CHAPTER 1

When it rains, it pours. Those words were one of my
mamm’s
favorite maxims when I was growing up. As a child, I didn’t understand its true meaning, and I didn’t spend much time trying to figure it out. In the eyes of the Amish girl I’d been, more was almost always a good thing. The world around me was a swiftly moving river chock-full of white-water rapids and deep holes filled with secrets I couldn’t fathom. I was ravenous to raft that river, anxious to dive into all of those dark crevices and unravel their closely guarded secrets. It wasn’t until I entered my twenties that I realized there were times when that river overflowed its banks and a killing flood ensued.

My
mamm
is gone now and I haven’t been Amish for fifteen years, but I often find myself using that old adage, particularly when it comes to police work and, oftentimes, my life.

I’ve been on duty since 3
P.M.
and my police radio has been eerily quiet for a Friday, not only in Painters Mill proper, but the entirety of Holmes County. I made one stop and issued a speeding citation, mainly because it was a repeat offense and the eighteen-year-old driver is going to end up killing someone if he doesn’t slow down. I’ve spent the last hour cruising the backstreets, trying not to dwell on anything too serious, namely a state law enforcement agent by the name of John Tomasetti and a relationship that’s become a lot more complicated than I ever intended.

We met during the Slaughterhouse Murders investigation almost two years ago. It was a horrific case; a serial killer had staked his claim in Painters Mill, leaving a score of dead in his wake. Tomasetti, an agent with the Ohio Bureau of Identification and Investigation, was sent here to assist. The situation was made worse by my personal involvement in the case. They were the worst circumstances imaginable, especially for the start of a relationship, professional or otherwise. Somehow, what could have become a debacle of biblical proportion grew into something fresh and good and completely unexpected. We’re still trying to figure out how to define this bond we’ve created between us. I think he’s doing a better job of it than I am.

That’s the thing about relationships; no matter how hard you try to keep things simple, all of those gnarly complexities have a way of seeping into the mix. Tomasetti and I have arrived at a crossroads of sorts, and I sense change on the wind. Of course, change isn’t always a negative. But it’s rarely easy. The indecision can eat at you, especially when you’ve arrived at an important junction and you’re not sure which way to go—and you know in your heart that each path will take you in a vastly different direction.

I’m not doing a very good job of keeping my troubles at bay, and I find myself falling back into another old habit I acquired from my days on patrol: wishing for a little chaos. A bar fight would do. Or maybe a domestic dispute. Sans serious injury, of course. I don’t know what it says about me that I’d rather face off with a couple of pissed-off drunks than look too hard at the things going on in my own life.

I’ve just pulled into the parking lot of LaDonna’s Diner for a BLT and a cup of dark roast to go when the voice of my second shift dispatcher cracks over the radio.

“Six-two-three.”

I pick up my mike. “What do you have, Jodie?”

“Chief, I just took a nine-one-one from Andy Welbaum. He says there’s a bad wreck on Delisle Road at CR 14.”

“Anyone hurt?” Dinner forgotten, I glance in my rearview mirror and make a U-turn in the gravel lot.

“There’s a buggy involved. He says it’s bad.”

“Get an ambulance out there. Notify Holmes County.” Cursing, I make a left on Main, hit my emergency lights and siren. The engine groans as I crank the speedometer up to fifty. “I’m 10-76.”

I’m doing sixty by the time I leave the corporation limit of Painters Mill. Within seconds, the radio lights up as the call goes out to the Holmes County sheriff’s office. I make a left on Delisle Road, a twisty stretch of asphalt that cuts through a heavily wooded area. It’s a scenic drive during the day, but treacherous as hell at night, especially with so many deer in the area.

County Road 14 intersects a mile down the road. The Explorer’s engine groans as I crank the speedometer to seventy. Black trunks of the trees and mailboxes fly by outside my window. I crest a hill and spot the headlights of a single vehicle ahead. No ambulance or sheriff’s cruiser yet; I’m first on scene.

I’m twenty yards from the intersection when I recognize Andy Welbaum’s pickup truck. He lives a few miles from here. Probably coming home from work at the plant in Millersburg. The truck is parked at a haphazard angle on the shoulder, as if he came to an abrupt and unexpected stop. The headlights are trained on what looks like the shattered remains of a four-wheeled buggy. There’s no horse in sight; either it ran home or it’s down. Judging from the condition of the buggy, I’m betting on the latter.

“Shit.” I brake hard. My tires skid on the gravel shoulder. Leaving my emergency lights flashing, I hit my high beams for light and jam the Explorer into park. Quickly, I grab a couple of flares from the back, snatch up my Maglite, and then I’m out of the vehicle. Snapping open the flares, I scatter them on the road to alert oncoming traffic. Then I start toward the buggy.

My senses go into hyper-alert as I approach, several details striking me at once. A sorrel horse lies on its side on the southwest corner of the intersection, still harnessed but unmoving. Thirty feet away, a badly damaged buggy has been flipped onto its side. It’s been broken in half, but it’s not a clean break. I see splintered wood, two missing wheels, and a ten-yard-wide swath of debris; pieces of fiberglass and wood scattered about. I take in other details, too. A child’s shoe. A flat-brimmed hat lying amid brown grass and dried leaves …

My mind registers all of this in a fraction of a second, and I know it’s going to be bad. Worse than bad. It will be a miracle if anyone survived.

I’m midway to the buggy when I spot the first casualty. It’s a child, I realize, and everything grinds to a halt, as if someone threw a switch inside my head and the world winds down into slow motion.

“Fuck.
Fuck
.” I rush to the victim, drop to my knees. It’s a little girl. Six or seven years old. She’s wearing a blue dress. Her
kapp
is askew and soaked with blood and I think:
head injury
.

“Sweetheart.” The word comes out as a strangled whisper.

The child lies in a supine position with her arms splayed. Her pudgy hands are open and relaxed. Her face is so serene she might have been sleeping. But her skin is gray. Blue lips are open, revealing tiny baby teeth. Already her eyes are cloudy and unfocused. I see bare feet and I realize the force of the impact tore off her shoes.

Working on autopilot, I hit my lapel mike, put out the call for a 10-50F. A fatality accident. I stand, aware that my legs are shaking. My stomach seesaws, and I swallow something that tastes like vinegar. Around me, the night is so quiet I hear the ticking of the truck’s engine a few yards away. Even the crickets and night birds have gone silent as if in reverence to violence that transpired here scant minutes before.

Insects fly in the beams of the headlights. In the periphery of my thoughts, I’m aware of someone crying. I shine my beam in the direction of the sound, and spot Andy Welbaum sitting on the ground near the truck with his face in his hands, sobbing. His chest heaves, and sounds I barely recognize as human emanate from his mouth.

I call out to him. “Andy, are you hurt?”

He looks up at me as if wondering why I would ask him such a thing. “No.”

“How many in the buggy? Did you check?” I’m on my feet and looking around for more passengers, when I spot another victim.

I don’t hear Andy’s response as I start toward the Amish man lying on the grassy shoulder. He’s in a prone position with his head turned to one side. He’s wearing a black coat and dark trousers. I try not to look at the ocean of blood that has soaked into the grass around him or the way his left leg is twisted with the foot pointing in the wrong direction. He’s conscious and watches me approach with one eye.

I kneel at his side. “Everything’s going to be okay,” I tell him. “You’ve been in an accident. I’m here to help you.”

His mouth opens. His lips quiver. His full beard tells me he’s married, and I wonder if his wife is lying somewhere nearby.

I set my hand on his. Cold flesh beneath my fingertips. “How many other people on board the buggy?”

“Three … children.”

Something inside me sinks. I don’t want to find any more dead children. I pat his hand. “Help is on the way.”

His gaze meets mine. “Katie…”

The sound of my name coming from that bloody mouth shocks me. I know that voice. That face. Recognition impacts me solidly. It’s been years, but there are some things—some people—you never forget. Paul Borntrager is one of them. “Paul.” Even as I say his name, I steel myself against the emotional force of it.

He tries to speak, but ends up spitting blood. I see more on his teeth. But it’s his eye that’s so damn difficult to look at. One is gone completely; the other is cognizant and filled with pain. I know the person trapped inside that broken body. I know his wife. I know at least one of his kids is dead and I’m terrified he’ll see that awful truth in my face.

“Don’t try to talk,” I tell him. “I’m going to check the children.”

Tears fill his eye. I feel his stare burning into me as I rise and move away. Quickly, I sweep my beam along the ground, looking for victims. I’m aware of sirens in the distance and relief slips through me that help is on the way. I know it’s a cowardly response, but I don’t want to deal with this alone.

I think of Paul’s wife, Mattie. A lifetime ago, she was my best friend. We haven’t spoken in twenty years; she may be a stranger to me now, but I honestly don’t think I could bear it if she died here tonight.

Mud sucks at my boots as I cross the ditch. On the other side, I spot a tiny figure curled against the massive trunk of a maple tree. A boy of about four years of age. He looks like a little doll, small and vulnerable and fragile. Hope jumps through me when I see steam rising into the cold night air. At first, I think it’s vapor from his breath. But as I draw closer I realize with a burgeoning sense of horror that it’s not a sign of life, but death. He’s bled out and the steam is coming from the blood as it cools.