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Authors: Adele Parks

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52. ScottIn absence of actual sex Fern and I turn each other on with our thoughts and words. We often talk through the night until the sun comes up. Ben joins us more often than not but that’s OK, he’s a great chaperone, and happily his presence doesn’t take anything away from the intimacy. We’re busy all day, doing our separate thing, but we come together at dusk like tired snow cranes flocking to watch the sunset. We three lie next to one another, outside in the hammocks or on the sun-beds, Fern and I holding hands across the gap. We listen to the sounds of Beverly Hills and watch the black sky turn purple, then red, then orange and finally a bright morning blue. I love studying the colours as they unfold. Ben says it’s like watching a bunch of flowers uncurl and bloom; Fern got that – they have this flower thing going on between them. I need to get into flowers more, maybe. I sometimes read them the lyrics from Wedding Album. They both love everything I’ve written and Ben keeps begging me to let him come to the studio to listen to the recording. He’s so full of enthusiasm, Ben is. When I read to them he sits up, mind wide open and legs swinging, leaning towards me. If he likes something particularly, he can’t stop his hands gesticulating wildly to make a point; he’s like some jacked-up windmill. When Fern likes something she’s very still, she treats me to a slow, wide, face-splitting smile. I’m beginning to appreciate stillness a bit more. It’s not something I have hope to be but it’s restful to be around. Very pleasant. There’s always a stage in the night, sometimes two or three occasions, when the atmosphere, already thick with cigarette smoke, becomes denser still with palpable longing. As I open and shut my mouth I gulp in oxygen and want, and soon I don’t know which I need the most. I expel ideas and yearning; both are lapped up. Inevitably we begin to fidget and struggle in our hammocks; uptight and edgy as we imagine banging out our need on each other’s bodies. I ache to pull at her clothes hungrily, to repeatedly and insistently grab, bite, lick, kiss and consume her. I’d like it deep and fast in illicit places, long and slow on one of the many beds. I’d have it any old way. Then I think, screw stillness.Why do I make these things so hard for myself? Mark is right, I should probably just fuck her and get it over with.I can hear Fern and Ben heading my way; they’re in the corridor debating which champagnes they prefer.‘I think I’m a Taittinger man, on reflection, it has a crispness to it that I appreciate. Bollinger and Moët are more yeasty,’ says Ben seriously. ‘Can you really tell the difference between all these champagnes?’ Fern asks. She sounds impressed.‘Yes. Can’t you?’‘Not really.’‘Then don’t touch the Cristal, leave that for me,’ says Ben. The man has taste. Cristal costs upward of a hundred quid per bottle. I have stuff in my cellar that cost three thousand.I’m so glad Fern has Ben to play with while I’m busy. He’s good to have around. I liked him on first impression when he helped me fit out his shop with those flowers Fern likes. Frankly, I couldn’t have done it without him. He sourced the flowers, arranged delivery, sourced the vases and buckets and arranged the flowers. I paid. It was clear to me from the moment I first set eyes on him that he would do anything for her, and me, of course; but then everyone will do anything for me. It’s turned out that he’s a natural Los Angel. He is polite, polished, upfront and unapologetic. He’s becoming more camp by the second and when he’s not playing Professor Higgins to Fern’s Eliza Doolittle he’s at the gym or the tanning shop or the beauty parlour. Somehow he still manages to squeeze in almost daily calls to his florist shop back in the UK to check that his business is thriving. They come into the den. ‘What have you two been up to today?’ I ask.‘I’ve just picked up some zero fat frozen yogurts and a re-supply of E-boost dietary supplement from the bagel café,’ says Ben. Gone are the days when any of us would buy curry or a pickled egg at the chippie. ‘And now we’re meeting Colleen to talk about the wedding,’ says Fern. Of course they are.I’ve been so busy in the studio that I haven’t been involved in the planning at all. Too many cooks spoil the broth and all that. But Mark says I have to show I’m supportive and interested. ‘How’s it all coming together?’ Fern looks delighted I’ve asked. She flips open her Smythson leather-bound wedding planning notebook. ‘Colleen gave me an updated status list this morning. Should I take it from the top?’ ‘Go for it.’‘Well, we’ve chosen the diamonds for my jewellery and for the bridesmaids’ presents.’‘All very sparkly,’ chips in Ben.‘We’ve confirmed the venue, menu, wines and champagne,’ Fern adds.‘All very yummy,’ encourages Ben.‘The booklets for the service are at the printers.’‘We’ve ordered three thousand candles.’‘Four hundred ornate birdcages.’‘Packed with silk butterflies.’I raise my eyebrows ‘For?’‘For the tables.’‘Right,’ I nod.‘Yesterday we earnestly discussed feathers, tea-light holders, baubles and the exact shade of icing for heart-shaped biscuits for ten consecutive hours. We all agreed it was a great Hollywood moment and Colleen opened the champagne,’ says Fern with a full-on laugh. Ben puts his hand on Fern’s shoulders and starts to lead her out of the door. ‘Speaking of Colleen, we’re supposed to be meeting her right about now and Mark sent us to find you, Scott. He wants you to come too.’ Mark has an A-list quota he’s keen to meet and is fanatically monitoring the replies as they come in.‘But you can’t see the dress designs,’ says Fern, looking concerned. ‘It’s unlucky.’‘It’s unlucky for the groom to see the bride in the actual dress,’ I correct. ‘Just stay by the door,’ insists Ben.

53. FernJenny Packham is designing my dress. It was almost impossible to choose who should, as Vera Wang and Amanda Wakeley also showed me their sketches. My dilemma was that all the designs were heart-bleedingly beautiful. Saadi’s dilemma was which designer would cause the biggest sensation. In the end we plumped for Jenny because when one of Saadi’s assistants did the initial scouting to each designer’s studio she noticed that Jenny had Scott’s official calendar hanging in her office. Mark loved that and fed the story as a titbit to the gossip columns. Ben, Colleen, Saadi and I sit at the dining-room table looking at sketches of my wedding dress while Joy and a couple of pretty, nameless assistants mill around. The sketches are breathtaking. Jenny specializes in luxurious bias-cut dresses with delicate, intricate beading. Her creations are drenched with a dazzling glamour and beauty that harks back to gentler, more romantic days; they are elegant and feminine. I absolutely can’t wait for my first fitting. Mark drifts over to where we are sitting; I wondered how long he’d be able to resist interfering. He picks up a sketch of the dress. ‘Don’t go too flouncy, she needs to be rock chic,’ he says to Colleen.Hello! I’m here! I can’t get used to people talking over my head, as though I’m not even in the room; they do it to Scott all the time. When they do it to me I always want to wave a big red flag or throw a big red strop. Mark goes on. ‘Don’t over-style. Loose hair. Almost dirty-looking. Was it Sting’s Trudy who arrived at the church on a horse or was that Paula Yates? That’s what we need. Something different and eye-catching.’ Ben, Colleen, the entourage and I all glare at Mark in unison. He takes a hint and goes to sit down with Scott. The rest of us turn back to the matter in hand. ‘Mark’s right about one thing. We do need a unifying USP,’ says Colleen.‘A what?’ I ask.‘A unique selling point,’ clarifies Ben.‘For my wedding?’‘If not then, when?’ says Saadi, rolling her eyes.‘Bollywood?’ suggests Ben. ‘Bangles, spicy food, girls in saris serving lychees.’‘French boudoir? Wide skirts, bosoms on show, garters,’ suggests Joy.‘Oriental? Fern could arrive on a dragon,’ says Saadi’s first assistant.‘I don’t think there are any dragons left,’ sneers Saadi’s second assistant (clearly on the look-out for a promotion).‘What, not even in China? We could ship in.’‘Silver ice,’ offers someone else. ‘We’d need snow machines and ice sculptures. Fern could arrive in a sleigh pulled by huskies.’‘Flowers,’ I say firmly. My voice slices through the madness.‘That’s your theme?’ asks Joy, raising a perfectly arched (threaded rather than plucked) eyebrow.‘Yes, flowers and romance. I want beads and flowers, and glitter and flowers, and satin and flowers,’ I gush. ‘Mostly just lots of flowers. Romantic flowers.’ There’s a silence. After a while Colleen says, ‘Don’t you think romance has been done to death at weddings?’I ignore her and continue to describe my vision. ‘I want inches of petals for the guests to stride through and the smell of flowers floating through the air for miles around.’ ‘Or maybe fur but I’m not talking white fur, I’m thinking leopard skin,’ says another complete stranger. I glare at her.‘And flowers threaded through my hair.’‘I’m not suggesting real leopard skin. The animal rights activists would be all over us, mobbing the reception. I just meant –’ ‘Give the lady her flowers,’ Scott shouts from the corner of the room where we banished him.There’s a hiatus in the conversation. We’d almost forgotten he was there; a rare occurrence but his imperial power has now been reinstated. ‘Fine,’ says Colleen with a heavy sigh. ‘I suppose we can do something with flowers.’ Then there’s complete silence. I turn to him and send out a look of pure, undiluted love and mouth, ‘Thank you’. He is so unselfish with me. He is one hundred per cent behind me. For me. My happiness is his everything. He’s wonderful. Adam was so wrong about him.

54. Scott‘Son, you’re a pro,’ says Mark, his delight and admiration oozing from every pore as we leave the room.‘Agreed but what are you talking about in particular?’ I ask, giving in to a wide yawn. I love yawning. And stretching’s good too. Not the sort of stretching you do in yoga – can’t be doing with that. Well, I did go through a phase where I practised ashtanga yoga but that phase didn’t last long; it gets dead fucking boring, really quickly, and hideously uncomfortable too. But a normal stretch, first thing in the morning, or an I’ve-been-sat-still-too-long stretch – well, nothing beats that. Mark continues, ‘Stroke of genius, you intervening when the wild cats were backing Fern into a corner about the wedding theme. Now she’s feeling all gaga about you.’ ‘Default setting.’‘Yeah, but now even more so.’ ‘Flowers mean a lot to her. It’s sweet.’‘Now would be a good time to talk about the pre-nup.’‘Do we have to?’‘Yes.’‘I think she might get upset about it.’‘I think she’s bright enough to understand exactly what we are trying to achieve,’ says Mark confidently.‘Yeah, that’s what I mean.’ I don’t want to upset Fern. I’ve enjoyed the peaceful, no drama, no tantrum existence we’ve had up until now. Of course I know it’s got to end, everything does.‘Let me handle it. I’ll call the lawyers, they can be here in fifteen. At least they’d bloody better be, considering the retainer we pay them. You go and find the little lady.’ He flicks out his phone – I think he keeps it permanently up his sleeve, like some sort of magician.I wonder what approach Mark will use to introduce the subject of the pre-nup to Fern: subtle, humorous or sympathetic? He goes for direct. He clamps his chubby hand on the base of her back the moment she comes through the door and he steers her towards the gang of crows, suited and booted, huddled in the corner. I sit behind the pianoforte. I always play chopsticks at tricky moments. Everyone loves chopsticks. ‘These are the lawyers that are dealing with the pre-nup,’ says Mark starkly. ‘I wanted you to meet them, Fern.’‘The pre-nup?’ Fern looks like a rabbit caught not just in headlights but in the actual pie.‘A pre-nuptial is a contract that clarifies your shared responsibilities and gives you and your partner peace of mind, security and more time to concentrate on enjoying your relationship,’ says one of the Blues Brothers look-alikies. Fern looks around the room. I think she’s searching for the autocue because that sure sounded rehearsed. ‘I know what a pre-nup is,’ she snaps. ‘Although not necessarily from that description. I’m wondering why Scott and I need one.’ I feel her glance bounce my way but I keep my eyes firmly on the ivories. ‘To predict the outcome of any divorce settlement before the marriage even takes place,’ says another one of the gang with a studied grimace. ‘To prevent speculative claims following a short marriage,’ adds a third with a slight shrug.‘To save thousands in legal costs in the event of a divorce,’ adds a fourth man gravely.Fern doesn’t say anything and the lawyers take this as encouragement enough. The lawyer who spoke first picks up the baton. He sends a thin smile in Fern’s direction but it’s too weak to make it across the room. ‘Both parties should have lawyers to represent them to ensure the agreement is enforceable. You’ll need to hire a firm. You have to have the contract for a week before you can sign it. So we’ll meet again, Ms Dickson, with your attorney, next Wednesday. Shall we say 2 p.m.?’ He puts down the fat document and with that the suits vanish in a puff of smoke leaving Mark, Fern and me alone. I tinkle with the ivories again and wait for someone to speak. Fern is focusing on a small box of beads that Colleen has inadvertently left behind. I understand that these beads are going to be liberally scattered across the tables at the wedding, so the whole place gleams. I get the feeling Fern thinks their glistening promise is a tad tarnished in light of the lawyers’ visit. It takes a while before she finds her voice. ‘Did you want this, Scott?’ she asks.‘Oh no. Scott rarely initiates discussions around money matters,’ says Mark jovially, saving me the effort of replying.‘But you want me to sign?’ Again she launches the question in my direction but again Mark intercepts it, like the skilled ninja he is.‘It’s for the best. Look, Fern, these things aren’t water-tight if that’s what you’re fretting about. Pre-nups are, at best, a partial solution to minimizing the risks of marital property disputes in times of divorce.’ ‘We won’t be getting divorced,’ says Fern firmly.‘No one ever thinks they will, but forty per cent of the blighters who walk down the aisle are wrong, aren’t they? You can see my concern,’ says Mark. Finally Fern drags her eyes from me and glares at Mark. ‘No, I can’t actually. Do you think I’m just marrying Scott for his money?’ ‘Love, no one would blame you,’ says Mark, treating Fern to some rare truth.‘I would blame me! I’m not marrying him for his money.’ Glancing back at me she yells, ‘I’m not marrying you for your money.’ It’s really uncomfortable. ‘Then there won’t be any problem with you signing it, will there?’ says Mark reasonably.‘Yes, there’s a problem. The problem is, this means Scott does not believe that we’re for ever. Or at least he’s considering the possibility that we might not be and he’s already protecting himself against that possibility.’ It’s the first time she’s done that – talked about me as though I’m not in the room. I don’t care, as such. Everyone does it sooner or later and I’ve just blanked her direct questions. I’m just saying it’s a first for us. Fuck, I wish I wasn’t in the room. I really don’t think it was necessary for me to get involved in this. ‘Look, Fern, read it. Take some legal advice. It’s a very generous agreement. It’s to protect you as much as him. It really is. Now, if you’ll excuse us, I need Scott to come and look at some artwork. We’ll see you at dinner, hey love?’ Mark beckons me and I get up and follow him. I leave her alone with her shiny beads.

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