Lyrics Alley (40 page)

‘If you don’t mind me asking about a specific line in your poem? I dabble in a few verses now and again myself.’

This admirer is voluble. Perhaps being an operator is not suited to his nature, perhaps he should be something else, somewhere else. Nur knows about this. There had been a time too – before the accident – when he wanted to be a poet, but his voice was feeble and the roads were blocked. These days he recites and people listen to the sincerity of his words. They hear a poem tense as a confrontation between bitter and sweet, a story in which the victors are mercy and love.

‘Please feel free to ask me anything you want.’

Everyone in the hoash turns to look at Nur. The receiver is sliding and Fatma tucks it back in place. Nassir is making pantomime gestures of inquiry, which Nur ignores. His mother, sitting on her angharaib is pouring herself a glass of cardamom tea. She sucks the first draught and listens.

‘When you say to your loved one
Tomorrow I will put on my best clothes / To go out and meet you by the Nile
, is that a reference to a specific location?’

Nur remembers a family picnic which Nassir had arranged, a whole day out by the river. He remembers the chatter of Fatma and her children, Halima and her children. Nur’s cot was carried all the way to the shore and the winter breeze blew through the trees. Soraya sat next to him, and they were both aware of the sound of the water and how special the day was. They talked and didn’t need to talk, every little thing they said mattered and was unnecessary at the same time. Later, he sat in his wheelchair and she put on her glasses. She stood behind him, holding open the pages of a magazine. They both looked down and read together one of his poems in classical verse, the one Ustaz Badr rated highly –
Flocks of Beauty
. Nur remembers Soraya’s closeness
and his words in print, her closeness and her attributes in ink, that mighty, moving Nile, and Nassir with his rod, catching the fish they would later grill.

‘The Riveria Park in Umdurman,’ Nur replies.

But it was another riverbank which was the trigger for
Hope
, another Nile. It was the men’s night out, when they went to the Burri houseboat on the Blue Nile. How can one pinpoint a particular scene, a single place? The poems came from far beyond and deep within, from dreams he’d seen and lines he’d not yet read, from aches and his need to manoeuvre, his need to stretch and reach out, to pull and push and clutch tight, to touch or pinch, carry or stroke, and what must be said to describe her eyes rimmed with kohl and how smitten she is, his own flesh and blood, how tender and smitten.

‘I have another question,’ says the operator.

Nur is happy to answer. The telephone call to Hamza Al-Naggar, which was important a few minutes ago, can wait. This recognition is gratifying. It fills him up, it makes him feel nourished and at peace. Today his howling demon will be subdued, his rebellious side which urges him to go on strike, will be muted. He had composed his poetry to a void, reciting to a star, reaching out to faceless, nameless strangers and now connections are being made. Balm to his bitterness, the solace he needs, the compensation he ached for when he despaired and asked, why, why me? This is the sort of incident everyone in the family will repeat.

‘The telephone operator recognised him!’ his father will say at the Abuzeid office.

His father, who was at first ashamed, and now is coming round, because success is much easier to understand than Art. Success carries respectability and draws people near. His mother, too, will repeat the story to that gossipy neighbour and soon, very soon, it will cross the river and reach Soraya’s house. The pleasure lasts, settles and lasts, long after the receiver is moved away from his ear.

*

Radio Umdurman is coming to interview him. They will use his room because the hoash is too noisy. All day Nur’s voice is raised in instructions and requests. The electrician must be called in to tame the creaky overhead fan and fix a faulty wall socket. The room must be tidy, the floors must be cleaned and refreshments must be provided for the interviewer Mr Mu’awia and his crew. Nur had often heard Mr Mu’awia’s deep, clear voice on the radio interviewing other poets; now, remembering those clipped tones and direct questions, makes him slightly nervous. Everyone else in the family is on edge; this is a nationwide exposure, which hovers around a sensitive issue. Nur asks to be dressed formally in a long-sleeved shirt and trousers. All his old clothes hang off him in a ridiculous manner which is why this is a brand new outfit, in a significantly smaller size.

It takes an hour to dress him, to manoeuvre the sleeves up the rigid, acute angle of his elbows but he is used to all this now. The white collar of the shirt glows against his skin; his shaved chin tingles with eau de cologne. Nassir snaps a photograph, proud of his new camera. He captures the pure light in Nur’s eyes and that graceful smile.

Mr Mu’awia has a smooth look about him, though he is overweight and slightly bald. He had not been informed of the extent of Nur’s disability but he hides his embarrassment well for he is a professional broadcaster, dry and slick. It helps that Nur is sitting in an armchair, it helps that he is fully dressed today. The equipment is set up in the room: huge rolls of double-tapes, a record player, and albums of Sudanese songs. Mr Mu’awia orders the children out of the room. They file out, Ferial pulling Zeinab’s hand, Farouk dragging his sandals on the tiles. Now a voice check for Nur: he is too far from the microphone, he is too close. Zaki, who excels at being useful, is today in a buzz of excitement. His secondary school exams loom, but intoxicated by this close proximity to the media, all concerns are banished.
Fatma peeks into this room full of men; she is unable to contain her curiosity. Nassir, of course, is clumsy and in the way, babbling about everything and nothing.

‘If I could request your silence, Sir, we are about to start recording.’ Mr Mu’awia doesn’t smile. ‘I need complete silence in the room.’

He turns to Nur. ‘We will start with a recital of one of your poems.’

‘Which one?’ Nur looks straight at those eyes that give away nothing.

‘
Travel is the Cause
. It’s your first composition and we can talk about how you started writing. Do you need the text?’

No, Nur can recite from memory.

‘I will introduce you first and then you can start.’ Clicks, hums, and the machine is on. Mr Mu’awia speaks and the impersonal voice of Radio Umdurman becomes a human being. ‘Nur Abuzeid is one of our most popular lyrical poets . . .’

Nur turns his head to Nassir and Nassir winks. He is beaming with pride, this buffoon brother of his who would not leave his side. Nur had always known that the accident was a blow to his family, too. Their devotion, their being there around him every night and every day. Now his success will be their success, further pride in the family’s name.
In you, Egypt, are the causes of my injury. And in Sudan, my burden and solace
.

‘Was there a special occasion in which you composed this poem?’

So this is it, the first question. ‘I composed it in 1951, when I returned from Egypt. I had finished my studies in Victoria College and I was on the beach in Alexandria . . .’ He continues to describe the accident, hearing the waves, the jam of salt water up his nose.

Mr Mu’awia is seemingly unmoved by the tragedy.

‘Did you write the poem with the intention of it becoming a song?’

‘Not at all! It was a surprise from Hamza Al-Naggar. The radio was switched on – and there it was!’

‘How did you feel about that?’

‘I found it disturbing at first, then I grew to enjoy it. It propelled me into a new direction. I began to be involved in the whole process of composing lyrics and tunes, even though I do not have a musical background. Hamza and I worked together on
Days and Nights
and
She Reached Out to Shake My Hand
. But that first time, with
Travel is the Cause
– that was entirely a Hamza Al-Naggar conspiracy!’ He smiles, but Mr Mu’awia is serious.

‘Is that the reason he’s been granted the rights to most of your lyrics?’

Nur is taken aback.

‘No, he certainly does not usurp my poems. He is a valued friend and a constant visitor; this is why we naturally tend to work together.’

‘Who else sings your lyrics?’

‘Sayyid Khalifa and Ilyas Hakim.’

‘Did you distribute your poems to Sayyid Khalifa?’

‘No, he came over for a visit, we chatted about various topics and I showed him my work. He liked
Hope
and
Ya Salaam, Ya Salaam
so he took them. I don’t have a specific method of getting my poems to the attention of musicians.’

‘It is noticeable that you have achieved outstanding success in the field of the popular lyrical song. What in your opinion is the status of such songs in Sudan?’

Nur relaxes into the interview. Mr Mu’awia plays Sayyid Khalifa singing
Ya Salaam, Ya Salaam
. Nur confesses that his poems tend towards sadness and that he often needs to restrain himself from such indulgence. There is a break in which Mr Mu’awia drinks orange juice and Zaki raises a glass of cold water to Nur’s lips. Mr Mu’awia looks away and lights a cigarette, while his crew stare openly. It is always the inability to drink and feed himself which startles others. Nothing else has the same impact.

More questions and it is time for Nur to request a song. He chooses Al-Taj’s
Ya Badi’at Al-Loun
. When the last notes die down, Mr Mu’awia ruffles a few papers in his hands and turns to Nur.

‘One of our listeners, Mrs Asya from Atbara wants to know to whom these lines were composed.’ He begins to read out, ‘
I want to watch the magic show in your eyes. No one else can sound like you
. . . These verses are, of course, from
You’ve Cooled and Gone
. Are they addressed to a specific person?’

Nur has the odd sensation of being caught out, of people around him holding their breaths. Nassir shifts uncomfortably in his seat. And out there, through the radio waves . . . is Tuf Tuf listening? The friend who knows and must pretend not to know, the friend who can no longer sit comfortably in Nur’s salon and hear him recite his poems. Is
she
listening? Lying in bed in her villa in Khartoum, her newborn daughter by her side.

Anger seizes him; stupid Asya from Atbara, stupid Radio Umdurman, stupid Mr Mu’awia, stupid Nassir, who now looks doleful and wary in case Nur blurts out the wrong thing and stains the family’s honour. Some names must never be spoken out loud; some family stories must not be repeated. And Nur knows his duty, he understands the lesson. She is your kin whose reputation must remain unblemished; she is
another man’s wife
. He knows all this, and wisdom tells him the strange truth. That easy-going, disinterested Tuf Tuf is a better husband for Soraya than he could have ever been. Through him, she is realising her dreams of modernity, discarding her to be and cutting her hair short, moving away from Umdurman’s conventions, wearing her glasses freely and carrying her degree like a trophy, gliding through the fashionable salons and parties of the capital. Nur would have been possessive of her, he would have held her tight with passionate love, and through and through he was a poet who loved his colloquial tongue, the traditions of his people, the closeness of the Nile and the sounds of the alley. Mrs Asya from Atbara wants to meddle and know; wants to grab and
know . . . How different other people are from him! They live in the real world, banal and industrious, while he skids the surface of pain and flutters against sadness. Beauty is his friend; loss is his friend. His is the pleasurable company of writing poems and making songs. He has fewer inhibitions than they do; less time, less space.

‘Every word,’ he answers. ‘Every one of my verses is addressed to the beloved.’

‘Abstract or real?’

‘Both. My muse and my loss.’

There is a silence in the room. As if noting Nur’s discomfort, Mr Mu’awia sits back and changes his tone.

‘The unprecedented success of your latest collaboration with Hamza Al-Naggar – reaching the silver screen, no less – tell us more about that.’

Nur breaks into a smile.

‘
Have Mercy, Angel
will feature in a new Egyptian film starring the very well known singer Sabah. The song will be performed as a stage duet between Hamza and the diva.’

Nur had been invited to the premier in Cairo. Perhaps he will go. If he can brave the ordeals of the journey and the pity of strangers, he will be rolled down that red carpet to see his name – very small, but nevertheless present – among the credits. It is a pleasant vision.

At last Mr Mu’awia switches off the microphone.

‘You were excellent, Mr Nur. Thank you very much.’

He is jubilant and squeezes Nur’s elbow. The room stirs into movement. Nassir stands up. Nur feels a sense of relief, a pleasant exhaustion. Mr Mu’awia is beaming; he is someone else, infinitely more approachable.

‘We’ve had so many requests to interview you,’ he chats. ‘You have such endearing qualities. Remember, we reach thousands, so this will solidify your reputation even more. Let me just finish off.’

Nur watches him as he switches on the tape recorder, holds
the microphone and murmurs in that deep familiar Radio Umdurman voice, ‘Dear, esteemed listeners, you were in the company of the poet of love and hope.’

Although this novel was inspired by the life of my uncle Hassan Awad Aboulela, I have altered many aspects of family history and inserted imaginary characters in order to produce a work of fiction and not an accurate biography of the poet’s life.

I am deeply grateful to my aunt Hajjah Rahma Aboulela (Hassan’s sister) for planting the seeds of this novel in my mind and for capturing my heart with her vivid memories and eloquent, lasting emotions.

Thanks equally to my cousin Tal’at Aboulela and his wife Fatma Ezzedin who provided me with materials and patiently answered my questions.