Make-Believe Marriage (16 page)

- I'm not going to be able
to control myself much longer, Amanda – he said touching her with his cock. - I
want you so much. His eyes shining from desire pointed  to the clouds.

- Then come to me Tony. -
Her voice full of desire made him laugh with joy.

- Do you want it, Amanda? -
he asked feeling the warmth running between her legs.

– I want to, Tony. I want
you to take me. - The sentence he needed was spoken. There was no turning back.
He would have the woman he loved at that moment.

- Mommy, Mommy! - the
child’s voice awoke them.

Did you hear? - Amanda
asked taking her hands off his hair.

- Yes I did. - He replied
staying away against his will. His body hurt so badly it took a few seconds for
him to get back together.

- What was it my love? - 
asked Amanda entering the child's room followed by Tony.

- I had a bad dream Mama -
said the child. - Can I get in bed with you? - Amanda looked at Tony who
consented.

The little one cuddled
between the two and slept leaving both disturbed by the sweet memories. Sleeping
had become an almost impossible task for Amanda. She insisted on remembering the
burning kisses and caresses that they had exchanged. The way he touched her and
kissed her, just like her body reacted to him, was startling her. Where did
that desire between them come from? She had never noticed it before.

Tony looked at the woman
asleep on the other end of the bed. She had given herself so naturally that
made her even more charming and passionate. There was much love in that woman,
he would just have to remain patient as ever.

The weekend arrived cold,
icy as the end of the night during which they almost made love to each other. The
two talked, but nothing was said on the matter.
When
Amanda was having coffee he came in.

- What led you to wake up
so early? - She asked that since she could not sleep she went to the kitchen to
wait for the coffee to be ready.

- I'll walk a little. - He
said with a light smile. - I'll have to take a trip that I have been postponing
and will return in two days. If you need to talk to me call me - Tony informed
picking up a piece of toast.

- All right. - She said
wondering why the unexpected trip. - Will you be having lunch at home? – she
asked.

No. I must go in the
morning. - Amanda consented and they continued to have breakfast in silence.

In the farewell he touched
Amanda's face lovingly giving her a light kiss on the mouth.

- Take care. Will be back
soon. - The tender voice in which he spoke urged her to ask him to stay. But
she said nothing. That absence could help them.

- Take care you too. -
Amanda felt slight longing getting hold of her.

At work, even if she
tried, Amanda could not hide from her assistant who realized that something had
happened.

- I knew it! You have a
lot to live, friend. Enjoy this moment and stop worrying about tomorrow; who
can guarantee what will come? - Amanda was thoughtful with her friend’s
comment.

- But this was not
supposed to happen, Carol. I'm afraid it's just a fetish and this might hurt
one of us. In every relationship that ends, one of the two always comes out
more injured.

- If this happens, my
dear, all you need to do is just look ahead and go on with life. We all
stumble; what we cannot do is avoid falling forever. - The girl was maturing,
confirmed Amanda.

- I will try to absorb
what you said - promised Amanda wishing a fraction of the adventurous instinct
of her employee.

During the two days that
followed, though, Amanda had been unsuccessful in trying to be more open to
opportunities. The memory of time together and the risk that she might be in
throwing herself into this adventure was tormenting her. The ringing of the
bell took her away from her nightmares. When she opened the door, she seemed
surprised.

– How are you, Amanda? –Breno
greeted her standing before her.

– Fine, thanks, and you? –
She returned the greetings politely.

– I’m fine. I came to
visit my son’s new house and see him. – said Breno ironically.

– You know he’s at school
now. – she criticized.

- I said I wanted to see
him, but I did not say it would have to be now. -His self-confidence and
coldness somewhat warned her. Breno came in and Amanda chose to leave the door
half-open, in case she needed to call the gardener who was outside.

- Cozy home. I don't
remember you liking to live in houses – he said.

- I never had anything
against houses. I preferred apartments because my son and I were always alone
since he was born. -Amanda said sure he understood the message.

- I could give you a house
better than this one, you know? -Amanda doubted what she had heard.

– We are fine here. No
need to worry. -He came closer and forced her to look in his eyes.

- It was not clear to you
that I want our life back. What must I do to convince you?– Breno grabbed her
preventing her to escape from the kiss.

- Let go of my wife! -ordered
Tony behind them at the door. As Amanda knew, Breno was a coward, but she
believed he would react negatively to that order, but when she turned she saw
so much hatred in Tony’s eyes that she knew then that her ex-husband wouldn't
dare.

- I was just leaving. See
you Amanda, we’ll talk another time. -He had to pass by Tony and made it
quickly.

- I can explain what you
saw here. -Amanda was sure that from the position he was, he might not have
seen correctly.

- No need.– He said
coldly.– I ask only that you do not make a fool of me and if you still like
him, tell me. -The request came out like a plea.

- It is not what you're
thinking. He kissed me, it is true, but I did not kiss him back, I assure you. -
She said.

You do not need to explain
anything to me, but you must respect me like I respect you in every way. – The
statement was ambiguous and Amanda was surprised. Tony was face to face with
her. His grief was visible. -Don't make me an idiot of me – he said taking her
arm lightly.– I accepted to help you get rid of Lucas’s father and I don't want
you to meet, not in that way because it would be time wasted and I'm not
willing to do that.

- I didn’t invite him to
come here. -Amanda couldn't control the pain to see the man who had helped her
so was suffering. -Tony, he came without any invitation, believe me.

- All right – he finished
moving away quickly. Amanda started crying and that made him suffer too much. In
the hope of undoing the misunderstanding she approached him again.

- Please stay away. -He
begged. She did not obey the request and approached touching his face.

- Maybe we should try at
least once. -Tony seemed immensely upset and the fear Amanda was feeling of
losing him left her distressed. Without thinking about the consequences Amanda
kissed him. Surprised by her reaction, Tony was paralyzed. She had kissed him
and not him, as it was usual. Amanda stroke the back of his head and pulled him
to her. Tony held her and received the soft and tasty kiss that he so craved
for. He loved her and couldn't stand to see her in the arms of another. Feeling
stronger Amanda stuck her fingernails gently on his back giving him goose
bumps.

- Don't do this to me
Amanda – he pleaded in her ear. -I won’t be able to stop from here – he warned
before losing his mind. Amanda stuck her body to his in response. Thirsty for
her, Tony took her in his arms and carried her to the bedroom where they
continued the pleasurable act of love. Tony touched lightly on her intimate
parts under the dress and was delighted to see how this excited her. With the
touch, she lifted her body offering herself to him who quickly took her dress
off stroking the beautiful naked breasts. With his mouth he sucked each nipple,
listening to a song that he had dreamed of hearing from Amanda's lips. The
moaning was constant, while she bit her lip to hold back the scream that
stubbornly refused to come out.

- I wanted so much to have
you, Amanda. - He penetrated her deeply then.

- Tony! -Amanda pronounced
his name with a trembling voice of desire. -Love me baby. Make me yours,
please. -With the body on fire she arrested him on her lap full of desire to be
exploited by the eager mouth of the man she stubbornly saw only as a friend. The
force of the passion was such that Amanda got rid of the fear discovering that
she wanted that man as she had never wanted another. Eager to taste that
pleasure she crossed her legs around him and pulled him into her. The cry of
pleasure he emitted turned her on too much. Tony had her with fury, wilderness
and gentleness at the same time. A seasoning that made Amanda crazy, leading
her to compulsive crying. Scared he rose quickly.

- Did I hurt you? – he
asked looking at her from to top to bottom. -Forgive me I couldn't control
myself. I want you so much it hurts – he confessed worried. Amanda couldn't
speak at all, which led him to misinterpret her cries. -You regretted. You
don't want to ruin our friendship. Is that it? – He said with his suffered
voice leaving the bed.

- No, Tony. Wait. -She
pleaded. He left her with love growing in her body.

Amanda returned from her
bath still feeling Tony's hands on her body. She could not understand yet the
origin of that feeling for Tony. Where was it kept and why only now did it come
out that way making her lose the ground? She needed to understand what was
going on, because her body compulsively craved for his tenderness.

Chapter
VIII

Amanda waited for her son
at the school gate when Breno approached.

– What are you doing here?
– She asked seeing the expression of victory on his face. He had no idea that
his childish attitude aroused to a new feeling.

– I want to see my son and
invite him to spend the weekend with me. – Amanda did not like what she heard
at all.

– Did you decide to play
the role of a father? – she asked less harshly thinking about the involuntary
help he had given her hours ago at home.

– From father and husband,
if you want. – He said laughing. – Because, from what I noticed, your marriage
won’t last.

– I am not interested in
your opinion, Breno. Know that your thoughtless actions may generate wonderful
situations. – He seemed less confident after the remark. Breno was going to say
something when he saw his child approaching, so he was quiet. The child was
visibly surprised at seeing his parents together.

– You father wanted to see
you, honey – said Amanda noticing the confusion in his eyes.

– I came to invite you to
spend the weekend with me – said Breno smiling. The boy looked at his mother
questioningly.

– If you want to, son – she
answered.

– OK, I’ll go. – He
replied without any excitement. On the way back home, the boy was quiet, which
worried Amanda.

– Is there anything you
want to say, son? – she asked.

– No! – he replied.

– When you feel like
saying anything, I am here. – She said respecting her son’s silence.

When Amanda arrived home,
she left her son in his bedroom for him to take a shower and went to hers. When
she went in, the memory of the two on the sheet came back. Tony’s body over
hers, proving all his excitement and confirming what her crazy friend and
assistant said, Tony wished her as she had discovered she wanted him too.
Amanda caressed the sheet with her thoughts far away, when Tony called her.

– Amanda! – he exclaimed,
startling her. – Can we talk? – he asked.

– Of course – she answered
coming back from her thoughts.

– Sônia took Lucas for a
ride, so we can be alone for a while. – He informed coming into the bedroom.

- I have the impression
that like me you must also be wondering what happened here today. I believe
that because of the wanting at which we are and that has contributed to these
events and I want to make it very clear that I did not plan it and if you want
to terminate our agreement here, I’ll respect your decision, whatever it is. -He
declared causing Amanda to realize that he was confused.

-Don't blame it all on
you. I also participated and if there is any one to blame, then the two of us
are to blame.

-I want you to know that
at no time I wanted to take advantage of the situation. It happened and I
couldn't help it. - He looked at her deeply, as if he was looking for something
inside her.

- I know that Tony. - She
said feeling impotent before his decision to believe that everything had been
caused by the need of both of them. Amanda remained silent and perceiving the
tumult in her eyes Tony moved away to leave her with her thoughts, thus he
could also review his own.

They left things go on
until they were ready to settle such question.