Mary Jo Putney (5 page)

Her breath escaped in a sob and Madeline pressed a hand to her breast, uncertain whether the pain there was physical or emotional. The lump was hard under her fingers and she dropped her hand, unwilling to feel the alien growth that was eating her life away. Soon it would no longer matter whether the pain was in her body or in her spirit.

Only the soughing wind broke the silence, and there was all the peace one could wish for. Her dark blue cloak was now frosted with white and she wondered absently if anyone would find the pouch of jewels and gold slung under her dress, or whether animals would scatter her bones first.

Better that a needy person find her treasure trove and use it than have it go to Isabel. After all, Madeline thought with dry amusement, she didn't want to corrupt her sister any more than she already had.

There was a certain poetry in the image of the ravaged beauty dying peacefully alone in the snow. It was one of life's anticlimaxes, that as the long minutes passed and strength returned, Madeline found she wasn't ready to die just yet. Had she been the sort to give up easily, she would have died in a workhouse before she was twenty. Waiting for death turned out to be a bloody boring business, and she had never welcomed boredom.

There was a little breath available for laughing at herself as Madeline grasped the lowest tree branch to pull her chilled body upright. Her feet were entirely numb and she had doubtless left her change of heart too late. She would never make it back to the village and there were few houses out this way. Still, she would try.

Vaguely she remembered a cottage that had been inhabited by an old lady when she herself was a child. After the old woman died, High Tor Cottage had been left vacant. Perhaps it was still empty, although surely even it was too far.

But there was no other possible shelter. Madeline continued along the track, now nearly invisible under the snow. She doubted that she would find shelter, did not even really care. But at least the Reaper would have to work to cut her down; she'd be damned if she would do the job for him.

Of course, Isabel would say she was damned already.

* * *

It was full dark when Diana stepped outside to go to the shed and the vicious wind shoved her back against the door, snatching the warm breath from her mouth. She clung to the doorknob as she peered into the swirling snow, where visibility was no more than an arm's length. Thank heaven Edith insisted that during the winter they tie a guide rope between house and shed. The rope was essential tonight and Diana followed it slowly, sliding her left hand along as she carried a lantern in her right. The snow was more than ankle-deep and had drifted against the shed door, making it difficult to pull open.

In the shed, the animals' bodies produced an agreeable warmth and there were soft clucks from the chickens as Diana entered. She hung the lantern on a ceiling hook and stripped off her gloves to begin milking. As she rubbed warmth into her hands, she scanned the rough stone walls, checking that everything was in its proper place.

Edith had educated Diana as if she were a child, introducing her to the cows with the assurance that the beasts meant no harm, for all they were so large. Diana had come to enjoy the pungent smell of healthy livestock that blended with the fragrant sweetness of summer hay.

The wind worsened while she was milking, and it grabbed her as she stepped outside, nearly spilling the pail of milk. Diana edged her way carefully along the rope with the pail in one hand and the lantern in the other. She had reached the back door when she heard the voice above the wind. She almost dismissed it as just another sound of the wild night, but it came again as she opened the door.

Diana gazed into the darkness, seeing nothing but swirling flurries of snow. Surely it was only the wind, crying around the buildings.

As she stepped into the house, the cry came again, this time hauntingly human. She halted.
 
Though she risked being lost in moments if she ventured into the snow, she could not leave any creature to die in the storm.

After a moment's thought, Diana put the milk pail inside the back door, then returned to the shed. She kept a good supply of rope, and she was able to knot together a line perhaps a hundred yards in length.

She went outside again, the rope in her left hand, the lantern held high. Pitching her voice against the wind, she called, "Is anyone there?"

Once more the cry came twisting along the wind, so Diana felt her way down the track toward the voice. The lantern was useless to illuminate the formless drifts beneath her feet, so she held it high above her head, hoping it might be visible to anyone approaching. Even on her own land, it was nearly impossible to find her way through the blinding whiteness. Once she stumbled to her knees, barely saving the lantern from smashing to the ground.

At the end of the rope, she waved the lantern and called until her voice hoarsened. Just when she was ready to give up, a dark shape reeled out of the night, a woman swathed in a hooded cloak. Diana put an arm around the frail exhausted body and pitched her voice to carry over the piercing wind. "Can you keep walking? It's not far."

The woman nodded and straightened herself with obvious effort, then took hold of her rescuer's arm. The journey seemed endless in the bitter cold and Diana was numb to the bone by the time they reached the shed. God only knew how the other woman kept moving. How far could she have come on such a night?

The last hundred feet was accomplished at a snail's pace, and Diana was near collapse as she dragged the two of them into the kitchen. Alerted by the unusual sounds, Edith was entering the kitchen, hastily tying her robe. "Diana, what on earth...?"

"I heard her calling when I finished milking. She must have seen the lantern," Diana gasped, lowering the woman onto a chair by the fire. Even frosted with snow, the richness of the velvet cloak was obvious. What was a lady doing out on such a night?

Diana pushed her hood back and leaned against the wall by the wide stone fireplace, working to catch her breath. She had never been so grateful for the welcoming warmth of her spacious kitchen, gleaming with copper pans and scented with braids of onions and bunched herbs that hung from the ceiling.

Faced with an emergency, Edith was swift and sure as she set water to heat, peeled off the snow-encrusted cloak, and gently began chafing the visitor's white hands. When the water reached the boil, she brewed tea, adding sugar and a generous dollop of brandy.

The housekeeper was near fifty, her grayed hair falling in a braid over the shoulder of her dark green dressing gown, her austere features marred by a livid scar across the left cheek. She was a woman of few words, but those held wisdom, and there was kindness behind her fierce visage.

Diana wrapped cold fingers around the hot mug Edith gave her, grateful for the internal and external warmth it provided. Then the housekeeper spooned some of the mixture down the woman from the storm. The stranger choked at first, but soon was sipping from the mug Edith held to her lips.

Diana studied her visitor curiously as tendrils of steam curled from the saturated cloak. The woman was too thin, but she must have been a great beauty in her youth. The oval face was still lovely in early middle age and her dark brown hair showed only a little silver. She was nearly unconscious and her large brown eyes showed dazed incomprehension.

"Put her in my bed," Diana said, her voice faint even in her own ears. "I'll lie down with Geoffrey."

She finished her tea and made her way upstairs, knowing Edith would do what was needful. Shivering, she stripped to her shift and crawled into Geoffrey's bed. His warm, almost-six-year-old body snuggled against her, and soon she was adrift in dreams.

* * *

If Madeline hadn't seen her past life when sitting under the tree waiting to die, she made up for it in her feverish dreams. She alternated between raging, helpless nightmares and occasional periods of semi-consciousness when she was vaguely aware of female voices. Gentle hands fed her and gave her medicine, sponging her when she was drenched with sweat, wrapping her with blankets when she shook with chills.

Then she was lucid, so weak she could barely raise her hand from the bed, but free of the racking chest pains. She was in a small room with whitewashed stone walls. It was night, and the only light came from a candle on the bedside table. First she fixed her eyes on the flame, then gradually extended her focus to the woman sewing beyond the light.

Madeline's first thought was that she was still dreaming, or perhaps she had died. After death, did one wake up in heaven with an angelic guide? It must be so, because the woman by the bed was surely the most beautiful being Madeline had ever seen. But one wouldn't expect an angel to be so ripely erotic. More likely Madeline had gone in the other direction.

Hearing her patient's movement, the young woman looked up, revealing eyes the intense, mesmerizing blue of lapis lazuli. Flawless, exquisitely sculpted features were set in a heart-shaped face, and her rich hair shone with the burnished red-brown of true chestnut. The plain, practical blue wool dress could not disguise a small-boned figure that combined slimness with a lavishness of curves that would command a fortune in London.

Madeline chided herself for her vulgar thoughts. While the woman had a beauty and sensuality that could match or surpass any demirep in England, the perfect face glowed with the unstudied sweetness and innocence of a Madonna.

Seeing her patient's eyes open, the young woman smiled and set her sewing aside. "You're back now, aren't you? We were very worried."

Her low voice was as lovely as the rest of her. Though her dark, high-necked dress had a Quaker's simplicity, her manner and speech would not have been out of place in a London drawing room. "Would you like something to drink?"

Madeline nodded, conscious of the dryness of her throat. The woman raised her and held a mug of tea to her lips. Its honey-sweetened taste was soothing. After several sips, Madeline whispered, "Thank you, that is much better."

The young woman laid her back on the pillows and set the glass down. Anticipating Madeline's questions, she said, "My name is Diana Lindsay and you're at High Tor Cottage, near Cleveden. You've been feverish for three days."

"The last thing I remember was seeing a light through the snow and trying to find it. Was that you?"

Diana nodded. "I was out milking. When I left the barn, I heard you call out and went to investigate."

It was hard to imagine such a lovely creature milking cows, but the hand on Madeline's forehead did not have the silky softness of a woman unused to manual labor. "Surely you don't live alone here?"

"No, my son and housekeeper live here also."

Unusual to find a household in this remote place without a man, but Madeline was too tired even for curiosity. She whispered, "My name is Madeline Gainford and I grew up in Cleveden. I had come back..."

Her voice trailed off, lacking the strength to explain why she had been out in the storm.

Diana's lovely face shadowed with concern. "Hush now, and rest. There will be time to talk later."

Obediently Madeline closed her eyes and drifted off again. This time there were no troubling dreams.

* * *

It was morning before the patient woke again. Diana entered the room to find Madeline Gainford just opening her eyes. At this time of day sunshine flooded the room with warmth and the whitewashed walls glowed. The older woman's gaze scanned the oak chest and wardrobe, the oval hooked rug and pretty watercolors of flowers. Though it must seem humble after what she was accustomed to, her face showed no disdain.

Diana said, "Would you like something to eat?" At her visitor's nod, she went to the kitchen and returned with a steaming bowl of richly flavored cream soup, thick with small pieces of chicken and leek. After propping her patient up on the pillows, Diana spoonfed her like an infant.

When the bowl was empty, Madeline said, "Thank you, Mrs. Lindsay. You are very kind." Her voice was stronger now and there was healthy color in her face. Edith had braided the dark hair and dressed her in a white flannel nightgown. Her large brown eyes were calm, though there was sadness in their depths. "I don't know how to thank you. I would have died in the storm."

"Much better this way," Diana said with a smile. "It would have been unnerving to find your body during the spring thaw."

That drew a smile in response. Diana had been right that the visitor had been a beauty in her youth; when she smiled, she was still beautiful. Madeline's dark eyes met her hostess's gaze squarely. "If you can get a wagon from the village, I will leave. I shouldn't be here." She sighed and her gaze shifted away. "I never wanted to be a burden to anyone."

"The roads won't be passable for some time, so there is no need to rush. Don't worry about being a burden. You're the most interesting event here in years." Diana hesitated before succumbing to curiosity. "Why were you lost in the storm?"

Madeline's eyes closed and she looked sad and tired. Her voice almost a whisper, she said, "I wasn't lost. I wanted to die." When the dark brown eyes opened, she gazed past Diana. "Then I decided it was too soon... I'm not ready yet."

She added in a flat voice, "I am dying, you see. I came back to Cleveden to be with my family, but my sister wouldn't let me into the house." She pressed her hand to her breast with the absentness of habitual gesture before finishing less steadily, "What I have is not infectious. Your household is in no danger from me."