Moonshine: A Novel (13 page)

"Mama, Mama, can we see the boats again? I promise not to be scared this time. I know it's just a horn, I promise."

"Judah . . . Judah, what do you mean? Who's your mama? What boats?"

"There's little ones, too," Judah said, his voice growing weaker. "But don't leave me there alone . . ." His eyes drifted shut and his body relaxed into boneless sleep. Amir was giving me a look I could interpret only as panic, so I picked up Judah myself and rested him as comfortably as I could on the pillows littering the floor of the screened chamber. When I came back out, Amir was standing beside the balcony, his hands bent behind his neck.

"What do you think that was?" I asked, keeping a safe distance away. Amir really did have heat-control problems when stressed.

"Bloody hell, Zephyr, how should I know? Do
you
have the Baedeker guidebook for rehabilitating eleven-year-old vampires? Because I seem to have lost it."

"Amir," I said, "kindly stop blasting me like a furnace."

The shimmer of heat surrounding his body subsided. And yet I didn't feel entirely cool. His irises glowed like banked embers; the shadows emphasized his powerful jaw line; his gray waistcoat and shirt looked like nothing more than barriers to my sudden desire. A most extremely, flagrantly, humiliatingly
not appropriate
desire.

"Sorry," he said, in blessed distraction. He ran his hand through his hair, loosening more tendrils to fall in his eyes. "As my brothers would be happy to tell you, I'm not precisely experienced at this responsibility business. And it's overrated, let me tell you."

I smiled. "You're the youngest?"

"Is it so obvious? No, don't answer that." He glanced at the room where Judah slept. "Do you think he remembered something? Maybe when he wakes up he can tell us who he is and solve our troubles."

I nodded, but I wondered. He had seemed to be in a trance. "If not, it's at least a place to start looking," I said.

He raised his eyebrows. "Boats. With horns."

"I await better ideas, oh fiery one."

"None forthcoming." He sighed. "What will we do with him?"

I considered. Reckless, his brother had called him. "I wonder why you care? Somehow, you don't seem like the sort of person who'd normally bother."

He frowned. "Bother with what?"

"Caring."

"I care!" he said indignantly. "In fact, I've always been especially fond of your world."

I thought about his apartment, filled with priceless artifacts from dozens of different cultures. "About other
people,
" I said.

His lips twisted. "People," he said, "tend to be too much trouble. Oh, I know you'd be violating some secret do-gooder code to admit it, but . . ."

Touche. In some ways I did understand his misanthropy. "So why help Judah?" I asked.

He held my gaze for a beat, and then another. "Maybe I just . . . sympathize a little, Miss Hollis. Surely that's not a crime."

My heart and head and everything else began to pound as if I was about to get shot out of a cannon. Three beats and I looked away.

"I'll search for his family," I said quietly. "I'll start in the tenements near where I found him. People should have heard of a missing eleven-year-old boy. Did he remember anything else?"

"Just his name. And something about the rosebushes reminded him of his mother."

Rosebushes? "And I'm going to need at least some of the money now for . . . initial expenses."

"You mean rent money?"

"What would you know of it, oh prince?" I shot back, annoyed with a number of things too vague or embarrassing to bear consideration.

He broke into a full, appreciative grin that made my face flush in one magnificent burst. With mocking slowness, he took his wallet from his waistcoat. He pulled out ten twenties and handed them to me.

"In full, upfront. Now, who says I don't keep up my side of business transactions?"

I took a discreet sniff of the bills. "It's not the business transaction that really worries me about you, Amir." I realized as soon as I said it that this time I'd cut him.

"Right, how could I forget? Your continued incredulity that I possess a caring soul."

"I just wonder about your motives."

"So the charity girl is the only one with motives pure enough? I seem to recall you having something to do with a great deal of contracted killings of Others not so long ago. With that Troy character? You thought I didn't recognize him? And yet all your famous deeds of charity to the Other community come purely from the spirit of giving, of course. They have nothing at all to do with wanting to erase the guilt of all those innocent Other deaths on your conscience?"

Bloody stakes, when Amir fought he went for the damn jugular. "They weren't innocent."

"Of course not. Defenders never act on insufficient evidence."

I closed my eyes. It was hard to forget some of those kills. The utter shock on their faces . . . the discoveries, later, of children and families and business feuds between the mark and the contractor.

"Zephyr--"

"Fine," I said, forcing all of that shut. "I have blood on my hands. Are you pure, then?"

He shook his head. "I . . . had strong sympathies for his plight. I've been there."

I could tell that he meant this admission to somehow equate with mine, but the difference between helping someone because you sympathize with them and helping because of a lifelong quest to expiate your own and your father's sins was stark as a silver bullet.

I let out a shaky laugh and walked to the balcony. God, I was tired.

"I found a way into the Turn Boys today." My voice was perfectly steady.

He jumped and sat lightly on the railing. "I shouldn't have said that."

"Why not?" I said. "It's true."

He reached out and tugged on one of my frizzy curls. I sucked in a sharp breath. "I'm much too good at hurting you, aren't I? I wonder why . . . Of course it isn't true, Zephyr. Guilt is a reason to donate to the Blood Bank once a month. It isn't a reason to never sleep and stop eating meat and go around the whole city on that damn rickety bicycle of yours from meeting to protest to class with barely a thought for your own survival."

In the sunlight, his dark skin and hair seemed to beg for me to touch them, to make certain that their beauty was real. Daddy always said there were certain Other charms to which I would never be immune.

His hand strayed from my hair to my temple. "I admire you more than I can say."

"How do I know you're not seducing me?" I said, since desire had apparently washed away all barriers between my thoughts and my words.

His eyes crinkled with laughter. "Am I? I wouldn't appear to be doing a very good job of it."

Well, Jesus Bloody Christ.

I kissed him.

It was a marvelous kiss. Sweet and playfully hungry at first, and then deepening to hard desperation when he picked me up. And tell me I didn't feel like a chorus of angels was singing Handel's
Messiah
behind us as I finally gave in to the desire that had been simmering since I first met him. Hallelujah! I pressed myself against him with a small groan.

"I take it back," Amir said, laughing between kisses. "I'm an excellent seducer."

"I'm an excellent seductress. I kissed you, remember?"

He laughed again. I loved his laugh. "I couldn't forget. How does 'excellent seducee' sound?"

"That," I said, "is most assuredly not proper English."

"
Samehni
, Miss Hollis," he murmured into my neck. "I'm shocked, I must say, that such a proper country girl would be so . . . forward in her attentions."

His attempt at "chiding schoolmarm" was ruined by the almost-purr in his voice and his hands even now straying beneath my blouse. "This is," I said, my own delivery hampered by a sudden urge to unbutton his waistcoat, "the modern era, and I am a modern girl who wants . . . some modern . . . affection."

So perhaps I could not claim as much experience as Lily or Aileen, but I'd kissed boys other than Troy and done more than that besides. I was a long way from Yarrow, and if Daddy objected he could write a letter to the Butte
Daily Post
about his wayward daughter for all I cared.

"If you're so very fast . . ." Amir said, kissing my collarbone. I gasped. ". . . then why are you shivering?"

"I am not," I said, shivering.

He buried his face in my egg-free hair. "You're not," he agreed. And then, without the slightest hesitation at all, he tipped us over the balcony. The rush of air flowing past us merged with the vertigo of the transition between worlds, and we landed in a mess of laughter and pillows back in his New York bedroom. Momentum tumbled us from the edge of his bed onto the floor.

"I usually do that much better," Amir said. He started to unbutton my blouse and then paused, looking at me with that disconcerting intensity. My breathing, already none too steady, seemed to stop entirely. I felt torn between scrambling on top of him and backing away carefully, as though from an angry bull. I most emphatically did not subscribe to my parents' backward, Victorian morals. On the other hand, Amir was a djinn, and the ferocity of my desire had become a tad disconcerting.

"You're turning blue," he said.

I coughed, and sucked in a much needed gulp of air. He smiled at me--cool, ironic, inviting--and suddenly I was yanking apart his dress shirt, buttons flying onto the Persian rug, while heat seemed to blossom like flowers along both of our bodies. He laughed.

"Now that," he said, "is modern affection."

He'd begun to do this curious thing with his teeth and my earlobe when we both froze at the sound of the elevator door opening inside. There were people in the apartment.

And they seemed to be calling my name. In a sort of daze, I fumbled for the buttons of my blouse. Amir stood up angrily, and threw open the door.

"Zephyr, dear!" said my mama's voice. "I hope you don't mind us stopping by so suddenly, but your daddy had some business and the local Fairie Transport owed us a trip. We tried your place, but that colleen you live with said you were here. Something about some sort of vision . . . she seems a bit odd, honestly."

Amir uttered a string of what sounded like foreign curses and met my panicked gaze. For my part, I was cursing Aileen seven ways to Sunday. A vision, indeed! I'd had no idea she was capable of this sort of petty revenge.

My mother's voice drew closer: "What a curious sort of place this is! We had to try all the floors. And someone should call the cleaners, I think a rat must have died on the fifth floor . . ." She trailed off, staring first at Amir, half naked in the doorway, and me flushed, blouse tragically askew.

"Oh dear," she said. "I do hope you used a prophylactic."

CHAPTER FOUR

"Winnie, what nonsense are you spouting at the girl now?" said my daddy.

"John, dear, maybe we had better come back lat--"

"Not again, Winnie! Where's my crazy girl? Think this fancy place is hers? Maybe she's doing a lot better with that do-gooder nonsense than I thought . . ."

He had finally made it to the bedroom door. He froze, the tableau hardly better for my having stood up in my dishabille.

Daddy's gaze seemed to flay me where I stood and then moved to Amir. I could see the tiny little cogs in his brain working--the horrible bigotry triggered at the sight of Amir's dark skin and curly hair combined with his even worse status as Other. Daddy was halfway to his holsters when I realized I'd need something a little more emphatic than a yell to make him stop. So I reached for the closest object at hand and threw it at him. It shattered with a particularly satisfying crash.

"Zeph!" Dad said, pistols thankfully forgotten.

"That was a fourteenth-century Ming!" Amir said, dropping to his knees and cradling the pottery shards. He started to see if they fit back together, but I could tell just by looking it was a lost cause.

Daddy's hand was bleeding, but he didn't seem to notice. He frowned at me, a cloud of rage building behind his eyes that I knew would find its expression in thunderous denunciations, bullets, or both.

"Perhaps we could discuss this elsewhere, Daddy?" I said. I tried to physically move them out of the room, but Daddy was peering at Amir the way a scientist might observe a deformed cockroach.

"What," said my daddy, in a clipped sort of tone that sounded like cutting knives, "have you done to my daughter?"

Amir, apparently having come to the same conclusion about the broken vase, stood up. When he glared at my daddy, the flames in his eyes had ceased to be figurative.

His smile was tight-lipped and feral. "Nothing she didn't want, Mr. Hollis."

I groaned.

"My daughter and this . . . wog, this misbegotten hell creature?"

This proved too much for my mama. "John! We don't even know him! He might be a perfectly nice--"

Amir barked a laugh, but the temperature in the room went down at least ten degrees. "Misbegotten hell creature, at your service."

I felt the blush travel from my neck to my forehead. Lord, but I'd forgotten how embarrassing Daddy could be sometimes. I couldn't even bear to glance at Amir.

"Mama," I said, "could you please take your bellicose husband back to your hotel?"

Mama gave me a wry, self-deprecating smile that made me suddenly, unexpectedly long for our days together back in Yarrow.

Daddy started to look rebellious but I gripped his hands and said, "Please?" in my best Daddy's-little-girl voice.

It worked. "
Bellicose
. Where in seven hells did she learn words like that, Winnie? Devil knows I didn't teach her. Can't shoot fish in barrel, but Lord, if she could talk a demon to death . . ."

I glanced down at his holsters and fingered the mother-of-pearl inlay of the one on the right. "Daddy," I said, "how sure are you I still can't shoot?"

Daddy paused and stared at me. For a moment he just seemed surprised. Then, a smile started to wrinkle the stubble on his jaw. His laugh was small at first, then booming and good-hearted and infectious, just like I remembered it. I tried to stay angry, but it was always difficult in the face of that.

"Zephyr," Daddy said, and hugged me. I pressed my face into his chest. He smelled like a Montanan forest and sweet pipe tobacco and gunpowder. For a moment, it was home again. "Zephyr, it's good to see you. Still can't shoot, though."

I laughed. "You caught me."

"I know my little girl."

Mama tugged on his sleeve. "I think we'd better go, dear. Troy expected us a half hour ago."

"I'll . . . ah, show them out, Amir," I said. But when I turned around I could see that something was wrong. His eyes still hadn't returned to normal and he was standing rigid as a statue. I hoped to God I was mistaken, but it seemed as though he was about to have another attack. He just nodded curtly at me and I hustled my parents out of his bedroom.

My mother waved. "Nice meeting you . . . um . . ."

"Amir," I said.

"If you do anything else to my little girl--"

I stepped on Daddy's foot and slammed the bedroom door shut before he could utter anything else.

"We're at the Gramercy Park," Mama said, just before Daddy started the elevator. "Promise you'll stop by? We should be there for a few days at least before Troy's job."

"And no more funny business with that damn--"

"Bye, Daddy!" I shut the outer door.

For a moment, I closed my eyes and enjoyed the blissful silence. It was always helpful to remember why I had left home in the first place. But after a few moments, an odd smell intruded, a whiff of something rotten in the elevator shaft. Perhaps he did need to call in the cleaners.

I smelled him a moment before his fingers caressed my chin. That musk was unmistakable. Nothing human could smell like that, as though either he or I were about to combust. I looked up at him. His eyes were back to normal, but he seemed pale and exhausted. He acted nonchalant, with his hand behind me on the wall, but perhaps he leaned as much for support as effect.

"Sorry about the pot," I said, preemptively.

"Do you know how much that was worth?"

"Would you rather he shot you?"

Amir stared at me.

"He's from Montana."

"And a demon hunter. Perhaps you could have mentioned that your father's profession and my existence are historically unfriendly?"

He was much too close. I had a hard time catching my breath. I ducked underneath his arm and walked to the chaise lounge by the window.

"I didn't see how it could possibly be relevant."

"Oh, you were just waiting until he started firing silver bullets at me?"

He was still leaning against the wall, and even from several feet away didn't look very healthy. I didn't care. "I had nothing to do with that!"

"He's
your
father."

"Well, he's crazy."

"Throwing stones, Zephyr? Your father builds a lovely glass house."

Furious, I stalked into his bedroom to retrieve my hat and coat. "Oh, now you think I'm crazy?" I shouted over my shoulder. "Why are you begging for my help, then?"

I jammed the cloche over my curls and attempted to properly align the buttons on my shirt. Damn genie.

"Maybe I wouldn't have if I'd known what a raging hillbilly you had for a father."

Amir was still beside the elevator, but his back was pressed against the wall.

"Raging hillbilly?" I said, my voice shaking. I walked up to him and raised my hand, but he caught my wrist before I could slap him.

"I'm being charitable. Unless you think I'm a--how did he put it?--misbegotten wog as well."

I winced. "Amir, of course I don't. It's just . . . he's my daddy."

His grip on my wrist relaxed. There was something warm in his eyes that I couldn't quite place. "And what am I to you, my crazy vampire suffragette?"

Breathe. Please breathe. "I don't know," I whispered.

He bent down and brushed my lips very gently with his. "Almost always honest," he said. "Are you still going to storm out?"

He released me and I was immediately regretful of the loss. "I . . . I have a meeting. Nicholas. The head Turn Boy. I'm going to tutor him."

His eyes widened. "Are you? Sporting a death wish?"

Half of me wanted to touch him, but I took a deliberate step back and pressed the button for the elevator.

"Just fulfilling a contract," I said.

He winced and rested his head against the wall. Suddenly, I could see the muscles in his arms and naked torso spasm and contract. He groaned and sank to the floor.

"Amir, are you--"

"I think I made a mistake," he said. His voice was rough and deep. "You shouldn't do this."

The elevator slammed to a stop. Should I leave? But what ever was wrong with Amir, there wasn't much I could do to help him here.

"These attacks of yours, do they have something to do with Rinaldo and the Turn Boys?"

His eyes glowed like embers. "No," he said. His voice was clouded with pain. I wished I didn't suspect that Daddy's visit had a great deal to do with it.

I opened the door and slid back the elevator grate. "You're lying."

He gave a hiccupping laugh. "You have no way to know that."

"You're right," I said, stepping into the elevator, "I don't."

Nicholas had not greeted my initial offer with enthusiasm. In fact, he'd told me to "get out of here before we bleed you." But before I'd gone three blocks, the boy himself had stopped me and said I could teach him his letters, if I agreed to meet him back in the Beast's Rum that evening by seven. I guessed he changed his mind. He had "a bit of work" to do before that, he said, and I refrained from asking for specifics. I imagined that I would find this job easier if I let as little moral squeamishness intrude as possible. It wasn't as though tutoring the head of the Turn Boys, while odious on paper, would do anything to enable their criminal activities. If anything, I told myself as I bicycled through the icy streets, expanding his mental horizons might help him understand the evil of his own behavior.

I snorted, despite myself. Yes, Zephyr, that's why well-educated men like President Wilson sent a hundred thousand boys off to die in a war that protected the financial interests of American robber barons like J. P. Morgan. Because of his superior moral compass.

And what of mine? At least teaching Nicholas would do no additional harm to his victims. I had a sudden flash of Amir leaning against the wall of his apartment, pain obvious in his every movement. I had to help him.

I skidded to a halt in front of the Beast's Rum around two minutes past seven. Nicholas was waiting for me, leaning against the open door with lidded eyes and a smile that made my heart pound like a cornered deer's. He could tell, of course. It's not much use trying to hide your fear from a vampire.

"You're late," he said, quite mildly. I could tell that he meant for his disconcertingly young, musical voice to scare me, but instead I felt suddenly exasperated. It was like every damn man I'd spoken to for the last three days had been trying to scare me into doing something. I was sick of it. I roughly unwrapped the bike lock from the handlebars and secured it against a nearby lamppost.

"So," I said, when the lock clicked into place. "You want to learn the alphabet in the snow, or are we going inside?"

He grinned at me. I was reminded of chimpanzees, which are said to smile in anger instead of happiness. "Still want to do this, Florence Nightingale?"

I just nodded brusquely and swept past him into the dank interior of the Beast's Rum. He was in front of me a moment later, laughing in his jittery pubescent voice and calling out insults to the other members of the Turn Boys inside.

"Bruno," he said, addressing the scaled bartender I had seen the other day. "Any more of that new stuff?"

Bruno gave me a wary glance and then shrugged his shoulders. "Not yet, Nick. Should be getting a shipment later to night. I'll have one of your boys check the Pell Street drop."

Nicholas cocked his head to one side and collared a nearby Turn Boy. He gripped him hard around the back of his neck in a gesture that mimicked friendliness, but looked punishing.

"Charlie," Nicholas said, his right arm draped so tightly around Charlie's neck that the boy gasped for air. "I reckon it's your turn to check the drop, right? Seeing as how you screwed up the last shipment, right,
testa di minchia
?" Charlie looked at least a few years older, but Nicholas's dominance was unmistakable.

Charlie tried to get away, but Nicholas jerked around, tightening his arm on Charlie's windpipe. I winced, but stayed where I was. I'd known what I was getting into when I signed up for this, after all.

"Nick, Nicky," Charlie croaked, "I told you, it wasn't my fault. The damn Westies set us up. I couldn't do nothing."

"And what if the Westies set you up to night, eh? You taking a cut from them, giving away all our goods?"

Charlie shook his head furiously. "Course not. You know I'd never do that to you, Nicholas. You're all I got. Turn Boys are my family. Nothing else."

"Not the Westies?"

"No!"

Nicholas bit his knuckles, reopening a scabbed-over cut. With the other hand, he forced open Charlie's mouth. "Swear it!" Nicholas shouted. He sounded like a kid demanding a pinky promise, but I didn't laugh.

"I swear," Charlie said. He whimpered. Softly, but the whole room had gone silent, and it was easy to hear him.

Nicholas balled his wounded hand into a fist and let the thick, almost-black blood drip into Charlie's mouth. Charlie gagged and even I wanted to back away. The smell of fetid vampire blood is no more pleasant in a living vampire than an exsanguinated one. At least I was used to it.

"Swallow,
idiota
. Maybe I'll let you have some good stuff to wash the taste from your mouth to night."