Mortal Heart (26 page)

She studies me closely, the fierce look still on her face. “Did the abbess order you here?”

“Saints, no! I have traveled here on my own, and she is much angered by it.”

Sybella’s entire body relaxes, and then she smiles and throws her arms around me in a hug that near cracks my ribs. “Good. Although it does not matter—even if she had called you here, the reason for the assignment no longer exists.”

“It is done?” Ismae asks.

A dark, triumphant smile twists Sybella’s shapely mouth, accompanied by a shadow of pain. “It is done.”

I look from one to the other, and suddenly it is as if no time at all has passed and they are sharing some worldly knowledge or joke that I cannot fathom. Sybella turns to me. “Count d’Albret, traitor to the duchy, is dead. Or as good as.” No hint of the hand she may have played in his death or the full implications of that shows on her face. “Now we must make arrangements for my sisters, for the journey was not an easy one and Louise in particular is in poor health.”

Ismae studies the two younger girls in the wagon, her lips pursed in thought. “The palace is growing more crowded every day as more and more Breton barons rally to the duchess’s side. We may end up needing to share a room at some point, so I think your sisters would be safest at the Brigantian convent. In truth, young Isabeau should have been moved there as well, but the duchess cannot bear to be parted from her side.”

“That will be fine. They would probably be most at ease there, anyway. And Tephanie will stay with them.”

Ismae blinks and I am selfishly pleased that one of Sybella’s revelations has managed to surprise her, as I am tired of being the only one reeling in shock. “Tephanie?”

“A dear and loyal friend who has attached herself to my sisters.”

I find the idea that Sybella has found a dear and loyal friend almost as hard to believe as the idea that she has sisters, but Ismae is not ­daunted. “Good.” Ismae motions one of the numerous pages over and sends him with a message to the Brigantian convent.

Once he has scampered away, Sybella asks, “How
is
Isabeau?”

Ismae closes her eyes briefly and shakes her head. “Not good. Between my own small knowledge and the sisters of Brigantia, everything is being done, but it is not anywhere near enough. Even so, I’m sure she will be glad of some younger girls for company, so your sisters may visit whenever you wish them to.”

I feel as if I have stepped onto the shores of some mysterious foreign land where everything is unfamiliar. As if fate wishes to make this even more apparent, the nobleman Duval approaches with the lumbering standing stone of a charbonnerie beside him. He must easily be the ugliest man I have ever seen. He is as tall as a tree, and twice as wide, with muscles that look like boulders. His nose looks like a mashed turnip, and his eyes gleam in a disturbingly feral manner. Much to my surprise, Ismae—who has only ever viewed men as targets for her assassin skills—turns and throws her arms around him.
Merde.
I have never seen such hugging from these two.

“Thank you,” she says fiercely. When she pulls back, Sybella is staring at her with narrowed eyes. “Did you put him up to that . . . stunt?” But there is little heat in her words.

Ismae steps away from the man and shrugs. “I told him what you had been assigned to do and that you were leaving—that is all.”

Sybella opens her mouth to say something, but Ismae ignores her and decides to pull out her manners like a long-forgotten handkerchief. “Annith, allow me to present to you Sir Benebic de Waroch, otherwise known as Beast. You may have heard of his exploits.”

“I believe I have,” I say as I drop a curtsy. “It is an honor, Sir Waroch.”

“Beast.” His deep voice rumbles across the space between us. Then he surprises me by taking my hand and bowing as prettily as any courtier. “The honor is all mine, my lady.”

Ismae puts her hand on my shoulder and turns me slightly toward the other nobleman. “And this is Lord Gavriel Duval, half brother to the duchess and one of her closest advisors.”

“And Ismae’s lover.” Sybella’s whisper in my ear just as I sink into a curtsy causes my head to snap up. So that is why she wrote to me asking whether or not the convent allowed initiates to have lovers.

“This is Annith,” Ismae continues. “One of Sybella’s and my sisters from the convent.”

“Good,” Duval says with a firm nod. “We can always use another assassin as this hornets’ nest thickens.”

I am warmed by his quick easy acceptance of me as well as by his obvious pleasure at having another assassin at court. I will need to gather as much support as possible to avoid being summarily sent packing by the abbess.

A small tempest erupts behind me. It is not movement or even noise—it is more as if a windstorm of violent displeasure has arrived. I am not at all surprised when I turn around and see the abbess. Her face is bone-white and her brows drawn down into two furious slashes. “Sybella.”

Sybella’s face goes eerily still, then she slowly turns to the other woman. “Reverend Mother.” Her voice is as flat as a blade of trampled grass.

The abbess waits for a moment, expecting Sybella to come to her. When Sybella does not, the abbess’s jaw twitches, but she lifts her skirts and descends the stairs so that whatever she is about to say will not be heard by the entire courtyard full of people. It does not work, however, for all of them can sense the storm brewing in their midst, and they all stop to watch.

Her eyes are as frigid as ice. “You disobeyed me?” Her voice is terrible in its softness, as if she has slipped velvet over a hammer just before she intends to use it.

Keeping her gaze fixed on the abbess’s, Sybella grips either side of her shabby gown and dips into a perfect, reverent curtsy. When she rises, she lifts her chin, ever so slightly. “Count d’Albret is dead. My duty to the convent is fulfilled, and I will no longer serve you.”

I gasp; I cannot help it. Beside me, Ismae stiffens, but the abbess does not so much as blink. Indeed, I think I discern a small glint of triumph in her gaze. “You no longer wish to serve as Death’s handmaiden, then? You no longer wish to be a daughter of Mortain?”

“Oh, I am His daughter, and I plan to serve Him all the rest of my days. I simply do not need you or the convent in order to do so.” And with that, she loops one of her arms through Ismae’s and the other one through my own and pulls us away from the abbess. I can feel the roar of victory thrumming through her as she leads us toward the palace door.

O
NCE WE ARE INSIDE
, Ismae leads us toward a different part of the palace than I have been in before. She stops in the hall to order a servant to have a bath prepared in the room. As the maid hurries away, Sybella gives me a sly, knowing smile. “Has she told you of her lover?”

I spear Ismae with an accusing look. “No, she has not.”

Greatly discomfited, Ismae blushes and glances around to see if anyone overheard, but we are alone. “He is
not
my lover.”

Sybella raises one perfectly arched eyebrow. “So, you have not lain with him and—”

“He is my betrothed.”

Sybella and I both stop walking, our linked arms forcing Ismae to stop as well. “Your what?” I ask at the same time that Sybella says, “Praise the Nine! He’s convinced you, then?”

“Shh!” Ismae glances around once more, then lengthens her stride, pulling us along behind her like a farmer dragging stubborn sheep to market. Finally, she reaches for one of the closed doors, opens it, and fair shoves us inside. “Yes.” She blows out a breath. “He’s convinced me. We’ve agreed that if—when—the duchess has this French threat well behind her, we will marry.”

So many questions crowd my tongue that they become entangled and all I can manage is a sputtered “You? Married?” I cannot believe this of Ismae, Ismae who hated men so much that it was the very promise of killing them that had her embracing her role at the convent.

She turns to me. “I told you we have much to catch up on.”

“But wait.” I put my hand on her arm. “Aren’t you already married? I mean, to the pig farmer?”

“No. The abbess had that annulled my first year at the convent.”

“B-but . . .” I still cannot wrap my mind around this. “You said you would never—”

Ismae huffs out a sigh. “You do not need to remind me what I said. I have had plenty of occasions to eat those words.”

“But what of your other concerns?” Sybella asks quietly as she begins unwinding the linen coif from her head. “Your worry of giving someone so much power over you?”

Ismae crosses to the fireplace, takes up the poker leaning against the wall, and stirs the embers to life. “I trust him,” she says. “It is that simple.”

Sybella barks out a laugh, but it is not as sharp as it once would have been. “Trust is never simple.”

“Do you trust Beast?”

Sybella pauses in her undressing. “With my life,” she says.

Ismae had warned me, but seeing Sybella’s face soften with love as she speaks of Beast drives home the force of her feelings for him in a visceral way.

Ismae glances at me in sorrow and then looks down. “I am sorry, but like Sybella, I cannot in good conscience serve the convent any longer. Not after what the abbess has put her through, and not after what you have told me. I will continue to serve Mortain all the rest of my days, but I am not beholden to the convent, only to my god and myself.”

“As His mercy,” Sybella murmurs.

Ismae’s head snaps up. “What did you say?”

Sybella looks over to meet her gaze. “You will serve as His mercy, and I His justice. Those are the roles He has chosen for us.”

“How do you know this?”

Sybella shrugs. “I too came face to face with our Father, and it was exactly as you said. He loves us with a love beyond our imagining, a love of such acceptance and grace that nothing we do—not even turning away from Him—can destroy it.”

The world tilts dizzily as I am assailed by an entire host of conflicting emotions. Joy, that Sybella has clearly found such peace and happiness. Relief, that yet another one of His handmaidens has seen Him, thus removing the possible significance of my own brief sighting years ago. But I am also filled with a nearly unbearable sense of loss. My seeing Him is no longer a sign of any uniqueness on my part. Not only that, but my two friends have been given roles as His instruments here on earth, whereas I have yet to receive a single order from Him.

The knock at the door pulls me from my self-pity, and a bevy of maidservants enter, carrying a tub and kettles full of steaming water. As they bustle about their duties, I turn my mind to the puzzle of the convent. It is a relief to see that Ismae and Sybella are plagued by the same doubts and concerns that I have, but they are willing to walk away from it. I do not see how I can abandon Florette and Lisabet and Aveline and Loisse to the abbess’s machinations. Besides, Ismae and Sybella each have something—
someone
—to walk to.

A sudden pang of loss twists sharply in my side, and an image of Balthazaar’s dark, brooding eyes fills my mind. I should not miss him so. Not only is he likely hunting me, but his long penance hints at crimes too terrible to speak of. He is a creature of the Underworld, trapped on his path to redemption for who knows how long. There is no future for us, and even the present puts me in jeopardy. And yet I do miss him. He fits so comfortably into the contours of my own silences and doubts.

When the tub is finally full, Ismae dismisses the maids and the room is once again silent. She turns to Sybella. “Enough of such small talk. I want to know how your mission went.”

A cloud passes over Sybella’s face, then she slips her arms out of her gown and lets it fall to the floor. She pulls her shift over her head then walks to the tub. I marvel at how easily she moves in her nakedness; she always has.

“Tell us,” Ismae says once she has settled in the water.

Sybella’s eyes grow bleak and she busies herself with the soap and sponge. “It is done,” she says. “Count d’Albret is as good as dead—would be dead, but Mortain Himself refused to accept him into the Underworld, a promise He made to my mother and others whom d’Albret has killed. D’Albret’s black soul has been sundered from his body, which will wither and rot like a corpse for Mortain Himself only knows how long. So the duchess is safe from him.”

“And you?”

I do not understand the gentleness in Ismae’s voice, for Sybella has never been squeamish and I cannot imagine why she would be racked with regret. But Sybella’s smile looks so fragile that I fear she might shatter.

“I will be fine. I got to my sisters in time, so they are safe. But Pierre is still alive and will no doubt take up the d’Albret mantle.”

Ismae frowns in puzzlement. “I thought Julian was the next eldest?”

“He was, but he too is dead.” For a moment, she looks like the old Sybella, brittle and damaged, but then her face settles into a determined look. “However, the d’Albret plans will not stop with their death. They have been negotiating with the French camped but a few leagues from Nantes for some time. I do not know the full extent of their plans, but if they are allying themselves with the French in any way, it cannot be good for the duchess.”

Ismae purses her lips in thought while Sybella dunks her head under the water to rinse the soap from her hair. “Could they simply have been playing both sides against the middle, or perhaps using false promises to hold the French at bay?”

“Anything is possible, but we should prepare for the worst just the same. Now, enough talk of my grim duty. I want to hear of Annith’s adventures and how she comes to be in Rennes in spite of the abbess’s wishes.” She rises up out of the water, reaches for the linen towel, and begins to dry herself off.

And so I find myself telling my story for Sybella while she dresses. By the time I am done, she is smiling at me with pride, as if she herself had been responsible for my daring. Which—I realize with a jolt of understanding—she partially is. In giving me love, Ismae and Sybella have given me strength.

“And what did our fair abbess say when she found you here, under her very nose?”