Murder Mile (28 page)

He nodded to the barman, ‘Pint, mate …’ and took a step towards the back of the room.

‘I’ll drop it over to you.’

‘Cheers.’

Brennan tried to keep his mind in gear as he approached Wullie; he knew why he wanted to see him. The social stuff, the interaction that added up to friendship was never spoken of; it had to remain below the mask of manliness that their social mores had taught them to wear. Brennan might indeed have felt more for Wullie than his own father but the thought of ever expressing such inner workings was laughable to him. Years had passed in each other’s company; secrets and hurts had been shared that would have felled many a man and yet they would both go to their graves knowing how much they had meant to each other but never having given voice to a single emotion. Did it matter? Did the words carry so much import that they needed to be said? Brennan knew the answer; some things could not be said with words, some things were only cheapened when brought into the open air.

‘Hello, Wullie.’ The older man shuffled his feet behind the table, placed his palms either side of his pint glass and went to push himself up. Brennan raised a hand, ‘No, don’t get up … I’m just going to sit down.’

Wullie nodded, ‘Christ, you’re looking well.’

A laugh. ‘Well, I’m still here.’

‘Always something.’

The barman appeared in front of them, put Brennan’s pint on the table and retreated.

‘Cheers, then.’

‘Aye, I suppose so …’ Wullie took a sip of his pint and placed it back on the beer mat. He fingered a stray drop that had landed on the tabletop. He seemed distracted, unsure of himself. ‘Look, I really was sorry to hear about you and the wife.’

He obviously couldn’t remember her name; maybe never knew it. That didn’t matter thought Brennan; Wullie and himself had never been that type of friends. They had never entertained in each other’s homes, they had never shared intimacies of their family lives. That kind of detail was sacred, another part of their existences that needed to be kept out of the light; if they were both family
men,
once, then those times had passed into ignominy like so much else.

‘Don’t be sorry.’ Brennan’s reply served as a stopper on the topic; it was stored away now, not to be returned to.

Wullie gulped another mouthful of his drink, ‘So, you working a case?’

The old detective must know he was working a case; it was a conversational gambit. A verbal cue to commence with the real reason for Brennan’s visit.

‘Aye … bad one.’

‘Children?’ said Wullie.

Brennan shook his head, ‘Well, as good as … teenagers.’

Wullie returned his pint to the table, rubbed at the spikes of white stubble on his chin. ‘Christ, you’ve got the case they splashed all over the fucking papers …’

‘You read it?’

‘Of course I read it … Everyone in Edinburgh’s read that. Jesus, painful for the families.’

Brennan eased himself back in his chair, the cushion sank to accommodate his frame. He reached out for his pint glass, raised it and gulped a long draught. The cold beer worked like a palliative; he wiped white foam from the tip of his lip and said, ‘They’re in bits. Can’t blame them, anyone would be.’

Wullie was shaking his head, rubbing his fingers over his thighs. Brennan noticed the knees of his Farah trousers were shiny.

‘Where are you at with it?’ said Wullie.

Brennan exhaled a long breath, ‘We have some forensic … It’s a serial murder.’

‘You got a profiler?’

‘Joe Lorrimer.’

Wullie raised an eyebrow, ‘Joe’s good.’

Brennan reached into the blue folder he had in his document wallet, it was the profiler’s report. He held it before Wullie. ‘You want to see this?’

‘Not got my glasses, want to give me the highlights?’

Brennan opened up the folder, ‘OK, let me see …’

Wullie cut it, ‘I warn you … first I hear of
constellated disadvantage
or the like, I’m off!’

The DI smiled, ‘I’ll edit as I go … Right, the psych fit is quite detailed: there’s a strong methodical mind at work, systematic and a lover of routine. It’s almost pathological so we’re talking about an intense individual, someone likely to be able to keep that under wraps, though perhaps this could bubble to the surface now and again …’

‘So he could hold down a good job.’

‘Easy, no bother.’ Brennan returned to the list, ‘There’s a superior streak which would make it hard to form intimate relationships … Perhaps as a result of a family trauma, likely a conflicted relationship with his mother.’

‘A loner,’ said Wullie.

Brennan nodded, returned to the file. ‘The superiority complex manifests in a need to dominate.’

‘A control freak.’

‘… Any marital set-up would be unique, if not bizarre, because of the demands he’d place on obsequiousness. The home would be a microcosm of control, pseudo-moralising, elitism …’

Wullie held up a hand, ‘OK, I think I get the picture before you delve any further into fucking psychobabble.’

Brennan closed the folder over, smiled. He raised his pint and watched Wullie do the same. ‘So, what do you think?’

He sighed. ‘Any trophies taken?’

‘Eyes … And there was genital mutilation, but that was hidden on the corpses.’

‘Jesus … a sick bastard.’

‘True.’

Wullie scratched the edge of his mouth, ‘This is a dangerous man you have on your hands; if the forensic matches the two killings then he could be lining up another kill.’

‘Why would you say that?’

Wullie leaned back in his seat, crossed his legs. ‘It’s the control …
That’s
what it’s all about. You think he’s the controller, but he’s not, he’s controlled … by impulses.’

‘The impulse to kill?’

‘He’s ruled by impulses. The routines are impulse-driven, it’s like an intense OCD, he regulates his life to ease the control impulses … That’s what the killing is, he can’t get away from that. He can store it up and up but then he’s into a state of tension and fear and there’s only one way to release that.’

Brennan leaned forward, ‘Then why the gap, between the killings?’

‘He feels remorse, not like you and I, but he feels differently to the victim afterwards. The tension’s been released, he’s been let off the hook … That might last some time, but the mindset isn’t changed – can’t change – the impulses come back eventually and they have to be dealt with.’

‘So what triggers the impulse?’

‘Fuck knows – brain chemistry, the mother was a control freak – does it matter? What matters is, Rob, this bastard is in your manor and he’s going to strike again. He can’t avoid it, and neither can you.’

Brennan drained the last of his pint, stood up. ‘Another?’

‘Why not.’

At the bar the DI mulled over what Wullie had told him; much of it was old news but what he had managed to glean was a decent second opinion. His own theories were well formed, Joe Lorrimer’s were too, but what he needed was confirmation that neither of them were off course. If he had been missing something Wullie would have pointed it out, he always did, but the fact that he had merely confirmed Brennan’s worst fears only added to the certainty that he would soon have another killing on his hands.

Brennan returned to the table with the drinks. Wullie stared vacantly into the middle distance.

‘What is it?’

‘Oh, Nothing … Just thinking about an old case.’

‘Relevant?’

‘Maybe.’

‘Well, tell me more.’

Wullie uncrossed his legs, played with the perma-crease in his trousers. ‘That profile, I’d say was missing one thing … These bastards usually have someone looking out for them, someone covering their tracks.’

‘A wife you mean?’

‘Maybe, aye … Or a parent. A sibling … It’s a lot to organise, a lot to get right for one person. It’s also a lot to go wrong, and with as much heat on the bastard as you’re applying I’d say he could do with someone to help cover his tracks.’

Finding the killer was a big enough ask for Brennan; finding his helper could wait till after the event, he thought. But, it was something to think about, even though he had plenty to think about as it was. ‘Look, there was something else I meant to ask you …’

Wullie’s expression changed, he seemed to lighten around the shoulders, relax more. ‘What was that?’

Brennan twisted round to face him, ‘You got anything on Jim Gallagher?’

Wullie shrugged, ‘Big Jim … Never liked the prick, is that enough?’

Brennan laughed, it was good to have another of his opinions endorsed. ‘Join the club … No, it was just something Charlie said.’

The old man playfully landed a punch on the DI’s arm, ‘Och, he’s meaning the raffle thing from years back. Fucker staged a raffle at the station, charity thing y’know, but he fiddled it so that himself and two vice ponces picked up the prizes … Was a big stooshie at the time, but Jim’s a fly bastard and everybody knows it.’

Brennan bit, ‘What do you mean,
fly
?’

‘Just what I say, he’s a bit wide. I wouldn’t trust him as far as I could throw him, but he’s not the only copper on the force like that … A lot of it will have to do with his upbringing, couldn’t
have
been easy that. I always cut him some slack for the boys’ home stuff.’

‘Boys’ home?’

Wullie creased his brows, ‘He was brought up in a home, an orphanage, Dungarn it was, a right shit-hole … I think his parents died when he was about five or six, was a car crash in Fife, nasty business.’

Brennan picked up his pint, held it before his lips, said, ‘Really, I didn’t know that.’

Chapter 38

DI ROB BRENNAN
woke to the sound of the traffic’s hum on Leith Walk. His neck ached and there was a solid, persistent pounding in his left temple. Was this the result of the few pints he’d had with Wullie the night before? He didn’t think so. He could still handle a few pints, hadn’t fallen that low, yet. He pushed his stocky frame off the sagging bed; the springs wheezed. As he looked down at the thin, flattened pillow he realised the culprit of his discomfort. He patted a hand on it, attempted to ruffle the contents, but it failed to make any difference to the deflated item. Brennan shook his head, felt another pang of pain in his neck, and rose. The springs sighed this time. He looked down at the bed and tried to remember the reason why he was living this way; how he had come to this sorry pass.

Brennan knew he was lonely, knew the symptoms. At times like this, disparate thoughts came to mind, floated, formed their own surreal mosaic. A laundry ticket, once lost, found tucked in a fold of his wallet. A girl he once knew called … now what was her name? She had played tennis and her parents were well off. His first watch – not a digital one – he’d wanted a digital one but his mother had said, ‘No, Rob, they’re just a fad!’ Then there was the summer holiday, paddling on the shore. A wedding day – his wedding day – and the sense of dread wondering would she show?
‘Why
not, Rob?’ his brother and his best man had said. ‘She loves you, doesn’t she?’ Brennan stopped himself, flattened out the spiral of his thoughts. What was love anyway? He loved his wife once; he had a dog he loved once … and a brother.

The older Brennan got the more he found himself questioning. When he was younger he was filled with assumptions; random musings on everything and anything, arrived at from he knew not where. These opinions of his younger self became appropriated, became stamps of his own personality; he had had these thoughts – whether or not he had originated them didn’t matter – they were opinions he wore like laurels. As he watched those laurels wither and die he discarded them, wondered why he had ever become so proud of them in the first place. And if he was being honest, felt an inward shame at the shallow vapidity of his sometime immaturity. He had moved on now, certainly; he was no longer that callow youth, or the preoccupied careerist determined to distinguish himself among other fools. But what was he now? He looked around the grimy bedsit that he couldn’t bring himself to call home. Brennan felt like a failure, not because of the meagreness of his lodgings, nothing so superficial. He felt a failure because he had reached his forties and never felt less sure of himself, of who he was or where he was heading. At least in the past he felt like he was in the right – even when he was assuredly in the wrong – but now, he didn’t know a thing; least of all himself. An old line from a play he had studied in secondary school came to him, ‘This above all: to thine ownself be true.’ Brennan smirked. He felt lost, if he was being truthful to himself.

On the road to Fettes Station, DI Rob Brennan attempted to distract himself from what lay ahead with the antics of a shock jock on the radio. He tried hard to tap into the show, to give himself over to the bear-pit atmosphere that had callers queuing up to rant at the host, but he couldn’t do it. The subject of the show was the country’s swing towards a nationalist government. The rights and wrongs of independence, of Scotland separating from its larger southern neighbour. It was a topical subject, a worthy subject, but
the
DJ treated it as mere entertainment to rattle the masses. That sort of thing was for other people, thought Brennan, not for him. It was not worthy of any space inside his mind, not alongside the brutal killing and mutilation of young girls that he would soon have to disburse to an expectant media. He was discomfited by the thought of what awaited him; knew that any contact with the press was likely to bring trouble in equal measure to reward. But this was the pass he had arrived at. There was a time when any action was better than inaction and that time had been reached; Wullie had said it himself the night before – this killer will strike again. Brennan didn’t want to have another murder on his books, or his conscience. The memories he carried from the scene of Lindsey Sloan’s murder were never far from the front of his mind; as was the pain of her grieving parents.

In the car park Brennan stilled the engine, turned off the radio and reached onto the passenger’s seat to retrieve his document wallet. Some bubblegum wrappers caught his eye in the footwell – they had been left there by Sophie the last time she had been in the car – the sight of them dug at his heart. For a moment, Brennan had to ease himself back in his seat, draw a deep breath. It was at moments like this he realised how hard it was not to have his daughter in his life any more. He had grown accustomed to their regular daily sparring and its absence felt like a part of him had been excavated. He removed his mobile phone from his jacket, toyed with the idea of calling her but rejected it. She would be bemused by a call from her father at this hour, at any hour. As Joyce had said, he had brought this on himself. He returned the phone to his pocket and opened the car’s door.