My Heart Laid Bare (6 page)

She had told no one of this torment, of course. Even among the other Stirling wives, and her own married sisters, there were shamed subjects of which a woman could not speak.

Seeing that Fanny was in a state of unpredictable emotions, Tyler told her he preferred to speak with the girl in private when she recovered sufficiently. He would make a financial arrangement with her; he would see that she signed a document legally binding her to silence. “A cash settlement. A fairly generous settlement. And nothing more—nothing for the future. No future contact. That must be agreed upon.” Fanny said, gazing across the room at the sleeping, now rather angelic-appearing girl, “And yet, if it's Maynard's child . . . We had hoped for a daughter, you know.” (Though, was this true? Fanny had hoped for a daughter, a third child; Maynard had seemed quite content with two strapping healthy sons.) “It's like a fairy tale, the princess has come home. She is both the missing daughter and will give birth to the daughter. Oh, Tyler, do you see? Is it possible, this is
God's secret will
?”

Tyler had never much respected his sister-in-law's intellect and general character, though he had always liked the woman well enough, with some of the affectionate condescension he felt for his own mother and sisters; now, he sensed that Fanny was on the verge of another fit of female hysteria, and quickly comforted her by grasping her icy hands and assuring her that God's will was simply that the Stirlings behave in a decent, Christian manner toward the girl—“Hardly that we martyr ourselves on her behalf, for that would only bring unhappiness and shame upon the entire family, including the Nederlanders.”

Fanny shuddered. Fanny drained the little shot glass of the last of its
brandy. Yes, it was so. Martyrdom was not for her, as it had been for her poor mother. “So long as we are generous, Tyler,” she said in a wistful voice.

The remainder of the afternoon and early evening were taken up with Tyler Stirling's consultation with Miss Raumlicht, and his success, at last, in persuading her to sign a document of his devising in exchange for a “lump sum” of money.

The exact amount, Fanny Stirling was never to know.

Tyler had banished her upstairs, to bed with a blinding migraine.

Tyler had set about the task of cleansing, as he irritably thought it, his elder brother's soiled linen—“For which I will get no credit, since no one except Fanny will ever know. And even Fanny doesn't
know.
”

For it wasn't an easy task to persuade the little seamstress's assistant to accept money from him “in the name of Maynard Stirling,” and to sign the document promising not to contact any member of the Stirling family ever again; Tyler was astonished at Mina Raumlicht's stubborn virtue, so unlike any he had ever encountered in his experience as a lawyer. “She is impossible! Ridiculous! Yet so pretty, even in her condition, it's clear why Maynard was taken with her.”

Mina Raumlicht declared she did not want money. She did not wish to soil herself by accepting money. She had not come to Greenley Square to “sell her honor” but simply to see Mr. Stirling, her beloved Maynard, one final time; only out of desperation that he had not contacted her for the past eight days, where never before had he allowed more than three or four days to pass without sending her a message, or a little gift, or coming to see her during the thirteen months of their acquaintance. “Thirteen months!” Tyler thought with envy. His gaze lingered on the girl's strained but doll-like face; those bluish-gray, deep-set eyes that were, for all their woe and perplexity, intelligent eyes. Though her slender, distended body was now hidden inside
the velveteen cloak, Tyler felt a stab of excitement imagining . . . the young, vibrant flesh his lustful brother Maynard had had no need to imagine. “A convenient arrangement on his side,” he said, an edge of bitterness to his voice, “—yet not so convenient, I should say, on yours.”

But Mina Raumlicht emphatically disagreed. “No, Mrs. Stirling was right, he was
good.
It is I who am
bad
in the eyes of God and of the world, and should not be rewarded for my
badness.
”

Tyler all but ground his teeth, that his elder brother had somehow earned this beautiful young girl's unquestioned devotion.
He
had married reasonably well, in the world's eyes; yet he was capable of forgetting his wife when he was not in her company, and could not claim that he had ever felt passion for her, even when they were newlyweds. Tyler told the girl that he understood her feelings, and respected them. But in the present circumstances, she was obliged to think of the future; surely, his brother would have wished it this way. (Tyler wondered if, hidden amid the intricate codicils of Maynard's will, a document of numerous pages, there might not be a generous sum set aside for Miss Mina Raumlicht, by way of a third party; but there was no way of his determining this, without arousing suspicion, since he was not Maynard's executor. In any case, the will would require months of probate before it was settled.)

“Wished me to sell my honor?—
that
I can't believe,” the girl said sadly.

Tyler protested, choosing his words with care: “Miss Raumlicht, you must think of it as making provisions for the future, assuring the well-being of your child soon to be born.”

Your child soon to be born.
Again, gazing at the girl, Tyler felt a powerful stab of excitement; almost, a swooning sensation in his bowels; for if he wished, he might place his hand against the girl's pregnant belly, and feel her inner, secret heat . . . .“But no, that's absurd,” he thought, reproving himself. “I am not my brother, I am a man of integrity.”

He summoned a servant to bring tea for Miss Raumlicht and himself; the sharp, tart English stimulant refreshed them both.

By this time, late in the afternoon, Tyler had removed his coat and was, in his shirtsleeves, pleasantly warm, if agitated. At 4:40
P.M.
Tyler at last succeeded in getting the girl to take up a pen, to sign the brief document he'd devised; she brooded, and frowned, and seemed about to sign, but did not; at 4:48
P.M.
she pushed the pen from her like a stubborn child confronted with a plate of repulsive food. There followed then another patient, kindly appeal on Tyler's part. A moment when by accident his hand brushed against Mina Raumlicht's shoulder; another moment, when in an unthinking avuncular gesture, he brushed a wisp of hair from the girl's warm forehead.

How quaint, Mina Raumlicht's crownlike plaited hair, a fair, silvery brown of the hue of late autumn; how pert her brave upper lip, though beaded with perspiration. How rare a sight, Tyler thought, marveling, to see a female
perspire
; he was sure he'd never seen any female of his acquaintance
perspire
; but, perhaps, he'd never noticed.

By 5:12
P.M.
Mina Raumlicht again took up Tyler's pen, and reread the document with painstaking care, dipped the quill point into ink, and seemed about to sign; then, in a gesture of anguished conscience, winced, and shook her head, murmuring, “Oh! I cannot. This is wrong.”

Now Tyler did grind his teeth; deciding, impulsively, that he would double the sum of money he was offering her. He took the document from her, crossed out the former sum and hastily wrote in the new, seeing with satisfaction the girl's widened eyes. “Miss Raumlicht, for the good of us all, you
must.
”

Yet at 5:35
P.M.
, Mina Raumlicht again laid down the pen and, hiding her face in her hands, wept; saying, in a near-inaudible voice, “—but in accepting so much money, I am compounding my wickedness . . . am I not?”

“Assuredly, Miss Raumlicht, you are
not.
” Tyler's face flushed with excitement; an artery beat hard in his throat, on the verge of triumph.
“I am the man to tell you that. You must listen, no longer to Maynard, for he cannot help you in the slightest, but to
me.
”

Still, it would not be until 6:13
P.M.
that the little seamstress's assistant from Innisfail again took up the pen, and bravely signed her name, to Tyler's surpassing joy.

Mina Raumlicht      13 May 1909

Though Tyler was elated, and fairly bursting with enthusiasm at the conclusion of this long session, yet how drawn and defeated Mina Raumlicht appeared.
As if we have been engaged in a physical, and not merely a mental, struggle. And I have won.

Still, Mina Raumlicht managed to thank her benefactor, in a courteous voice, and to accept from Tyler's hand a considerable quantity of cash ($8,000 in varying, mainly large denominations, taken from the Stirlings' safe, for the family did not trust banks after the local panic following the sinking of the
Maine
in January 1898), which she carried away in a handsome kidskin traveling bag belonging to Fanny Stirling (which was happily donated by Fanny, whose relief at the outcome of the consultation with Mina Raumlicht may have exceeded Tyler's). “Thank you, Mrs. Stirling,” Miss Raumlicht said, making a charming if awkward little curtsy, in the foyer of the town house, “—and thank you, Mr. Stirling. I will always remember you with the high regard with which I will always remember—
him.
‘As above, so below'—it is said—which gives me courage, for what we must endure on Earth is ordained for us in the heavens, and, in the heavens if not on Earth, we who dwell in darkness shall be justified.”

A remarkable little speech to issue from the lips of a seventeen-year-old seamstress's assistant, especially one who staggered beneath the weight of an eight-month pregnancy! Rendered quite speechless themselves, Tyler Stirling and his sister-in-law Fanny exchanged a perplexed glance.

By this time, however, the hackney cab had arrived which would deliver Miss Raumlicht, prepaid, to the Contracoeur train station. Tyler lost no time in escorting the girl out to the curb, and out of the lives of the Stirlings, forever.

And so God spared us
Fanny would exult in secret
from the horror of public scandal beside which the very fires of hell seem benign!

Who is she? Where has she come from, and where is she bound?

Unknown to his mother or his uncle, Warren Stirling slipped from the house at Greenley Square to follow the cab, on foot, for many blocks, keeping a vigorous pace until, at Highland Boulevard, he saw to his surprise that the cab stopped; the mysterious girl in the dark traveling cloak, with whom his uncle had been shut up for most of the day, in what must have been a secret conference, climbed gracefully down, and sent the cab away. How lovely she looked, the velveteen hood now removed from her head, her silvery-brown plaited crown shining! Carrying what appeared to be Mrs. Stirling's kidskin bag, the girl made her way, unescorted, yet with no suggestion of hesitation or shyness now, briskly along the crowded sidewalk, past the somber portico of the Presbyterian church, where generations of Stirlings had worshipped; past the handsome Neo-Grecian facade of the Contracoeur Hotel; and finally, again to Warren's surprise, into the hurly-burly of lower Commerce Street. There, suddenly, she was joined, or approached, by an unexpected individual, indeed: a tall, lean, neatly dressed Negro gentleman of middle age, it appeared, judging from his powder-gray hair and goatee, and the stoop of his shoulders; he wore rimless glasses, and a black bowler hat, and walked, stiffly, with a cane. How very different this well-bred Negro was, from the common Negro laborers and servants one saw constantly; he must have been, Warren thought, a minister. Yet how strange it was: the girl in the traveling cloak and the Negro appeared to be walking at precisely the same pace, without
glancing at each other; the Negro followed the girl at a discreet distance of about five feet as they headed swiftly on Commerce—so swiftly that Warren, a football player, long-legged and in excellent condition, had difficulty keeping them in sight.

Earlier that day, Warren had been reading in the
Contracoeur Post
about the “Black Phantom” who'd committed a sensational robbery in Chautauqua Falls a few days previous, and had disappeared with an undisclosed amount of cash (rumored to be several hundred thousand dollars); he'd studied a crude pen-and-ink drawing of the robber in the paper, a young simian-faced Negro with a moustache, in a black domino mask, his long-barreled pistol raised, for effect, beside his arrogant countenance. $12,000
REWARD! WANTED ‘BLACK PHANTOM'! BOLD NEGRO ROBS CHAUTAUQUA FALLS LADIES
&
GENTLEMEN AT GUNPOINT
! Seeing now this older Negro in the apparent company of the girl in the traveling cloak, Warren naturally thought of the “Black Phantom”—but of course there could be no connection, for this Negro was a well-bred individual in his early fifties, and the “Black Phantom” was a mere youth in his twenties.

Yet were the two, the girl and the Negro, really together?—Warren couldn't decide. Surely, no one else, glancing in their direction, would have thought so. Warren was fascinated; aroused, as invariably we are in the presence of mystery; staring so avidly, he took no notice of colliding with other pedestrians, and at Grant Street, by the train station, he was almost killed stepping into the path of a clanging streetcar.

To his surprise, and dismay, Warren lost the two in the milling crowd at the train station, and had to give up his pursuit. He'd had a glimpse, and more, of
her
haunting face which he would cherish for decades; which he would seek, in his romantic relations with young women, always in vain; but which would never fail to stir a sense of exhilaration and hope in his heart.

“‘The Lass of Aviemore'”—his numbed lips moved in reverence. How much more beautiful the girl was, to Warren's way of thinking, than
any mere painted beauty hanging framed in gilt in his grandfather Stirling's house these many years.