New Beginnings (10 page)

“Oh shit,” she groaned and rubbed her forehead. She was mad at herself and felt herself growing cold, as she lay there in the grass half-naked with a man she barely knew.

“It’s okay. I’ll make up for it now.” He grinned at her and before she knew it, he was rubbing his already semi-hard cock against her pussy lips again. She squirmed on the ground, thinking that it might be smart for her to just leave right now but as he rubbed his cock up and down her clit, she couldn’t ignore her feelings of lust and instead of getting up to leave, she spread her legs wider again. She felt the tip of his cock slipping in and out of her pussy as he rubbed himself against her and she moaned at the feel of him. She saw him pull the condom out of the wrapper and then felt him enter her, hard. She screamed out as he fucked her hard, his cock sliding in and out her with such force that his balls slapped against her pussy walls. He grunted as he fucked her and their moans must have been heard all around the park. He lifted her legs over his shoulders and rubbed her clit as he slammed into her. This time they both came together and she grinned as he collapsed on the ground next to her.

“That was hot, right?” He kissed her on the lips as she lay there panting.

“That’s one word for it.” She smiled and reached over to touch his hair. She laughed when she felt it, it was spiky and sharp and not as soft as she had thought it was going to be at all.

He sat up and put his cock away and zipped up his pants before handing her her shirt. “You should put this back on.”

“Thanks.” She tried to ignore the feelings of panic in her as he stood up and reached down to pull her up. “So what are you going to do tonight?” She asked him as they walked back to the path.

“Maybe catch up on work?” He smiled at her sweetly. “But that reminds me. I have something to do. Can I call you later?”

“Uh sure.” Ella plastered a fake smile on her face. But inside she felt awful. She’d been used again. She couldn’t believe that she had just allowed this man to fuck her.

“Can I get your number?” He grinned and handed her his phone to enter it.

“Sure.” She entered her number into his phone, unsure if he would ever really call her and as she was about to save it, she saw a text message come in that surprised her. It read:
You’ve got 2 weeks to get the info I need. I need something on Maxwell stat.
It was from someone named Frank Phillips. She handed Doc his phone back with a tight smile and allowed him to kiss her on the cheek before she walked away.

It wasn’t until she got home and opened her door that she figured out why she had felt uneasy. He had called her Ella Van Harkel but she had only told him her first name. And he had mentioned Joseph’s name but she had only called him her ex. She felt a tight knot in her stomach and ran to the bathroom and threw up. She wasn’t sure what was going on but all of a sudden she felt a lot worse than she had when Joseph had dumped her.

Chapter 13

Sophie

Sophie couldn’t get rid of the guilty feeling in the pit of her stomach. She was so ashamed of herself. She didn’t know how she could face Max. She had wondered if he had known what had happened but when he didn’t mention anything on the way home or in the morning she realized that he had no clue. She didn’t know if she should tell him. It wasn’t like she had cheated on him. She hadn’t slept with someone else. But she had let someone else finger her while knowing it wasn’t Max. How could she explain to him that the excitement of the evening and the overwhelming lust had made it hard for her to push the hand away? She knew she couldn’t tell him.

“I can’t believe that Senator Frank Phillips was there last night.” Max walked into the kitchen and interrupted her thoughts.

“Oh?” Sophie could feel her face flushing at the picture of the man’s face. He had looked at her so smugly the entire evening. She had felt dirty and ashamed of herself.

“He never goes to clubs where he can be seen by people he doesn’t trust,” Max muttered. “Something must be going on.”

“Why do you think he was there?” Sophie looked at him puzzled.

“I think he was there because of me.” Max looked at her thoughtfully. “Maybe Benny tipped him off that we were coming.”

“Do you think he would do that?”

“If he was paid well.” He looked at Sophie carefully. “He must know about Jacob. Maybe he’s worried.”

“Why would he be worried?” Sophie bit her lip.

“He’s married. His wife’s father has a lot of money. He’s the one that got Frank into the senate. He has a lot to lose if his wife finds out he’s been unfaithful.”

“She doesn’t know he cheats?” She looked at him incredulously.

“Oh she knows he cheats.” He laughed bitterly. “But she wouldn’t put up with a baby by another woman.”

“Oh?”

“There’s a lot he would do to keep that secret.”

“Maybe you’re overthinking things.” Sophie swallowed, trying to forget the feel of the senator’s fingers on her clit, rough and quick.

“No I don’t think I am.” He sighed. “I’m going to need to talk to Alexis.”

“Why?” She cried out upset. “It’s not our fault.”

“Alexis was my girl at the club, I have the baby. I’m the one that can make things difficult for Frank.”

“So wouldn’t he just ask you nicely to keep it quiet?”

“That’s not how he works.” Max sighed. “He’ll want something over me.”

“Oh.” Sophie felt faint.

“Are you okay, my love?” Max looked at her in concern. “Don’t worry. He can’t harm me. All my business dealings are above board.”

“So then everything is fine then?” Sophie asked hopefully and looked at Max who was thinking carefully.

“I don’t know.” Max stared at her intently. “Frank plays dirty. If business is fine, he’ll come after my family next.”

“Oh no.” Sophie gulped and clutched the table next to her. “What would he do?”

“I don’t know.” Max frowned. “But we can’t go back to ‘The Games’ I’m afraid.”

“That’s okay.” She squeezed his hand. “I don’t need to go back.”

“It wasn’t too bad, was it? When Gina blindfolded you?”

“No, it wasn’t too bad.” She smiled at him briefly.

“I didn’t intend for that to happen you know.” He kissed her cheek. “I don’t need those clubs; I hope you know that, Sophie. I just want you.”

“I know.” She stared into his eyes. “I’m sorry for making you take me.”

“It’s okay. You wanted to know what it’s like and now you do.” He stroked her hair and hugged her. “That’s not a good place for a princess like you. I don’t want to drag you to such depraved places anymore.”

“I’m not going to break, Max. I enjoyed myself.” She spoke softly.

“I’m glad.” He laughed. “And thank God, we got out without Gina trying to pull any crazy stunts.

“Yes. That was good.” She smiled weakly and turned around. “I think I’m going to go walk to Whole Foods now. Do you want anything?”

“Ooh maybe get some dumplings.” He grinned. “If you don’t mind.”

“Of course not.” Sophie went and got her purse. “I’ll be back soon.” And with that, Sophie hurried out of the door. She couldn’t stand to be around Max with her guilty feelings. She needed to talk to someone. She thought about calling Ella but wasn’t sure she would know how to tell her friend what had happened. She didn’t think Ella would judge her but she knew that her friend would look at her differently.

She decided to go and sit in the park for a bit. Let the air clear her head. She smiled as she walked to her usual bench and saw Nick there. Part of her had hoped that she would see him again. She had resolved that there was nothing wrong having a friend who was a male, she loved Max and was never going to cheat on him.

“Hi Nick.” She smiled widely at him as she approached the bench. He looked up surprised to see her.

“Hi Sophie.” He tucked his phone in his pocket and stood up and hugged her. “It’s nice to see you.”

“You too.” She looked around. “Are you here by yourself?”

“Yes.” He smiled briefly. “Well, I was here with someone but they had to go home.”

“Oh?”

“Yeah, a first date that didn’t go so well.” He shrugged his shoulders.

“Oh, I’m sorry.”

“So, how are you and your fiancé?” He looked at her kindly, changing the subject.

“Good.” She smiled sweetly at him, studying his face. He looked anxious and she felt like at this time he was the one who needed a friend. “Are you okay Nick, you look preoccupied.”

“I’m fine.” He rubbed his temple. “It’s been a long day and my boss is asking demands of me that I’m not sure I can complete in time.”

“Oh, can you tell him that?” she inquired. “He’ll surely understand?”

“No.” He laughed. “He doesn’t want to hear any excuses.”

“Oh. I’m sorry.” She frowned and rubbed his shoulder.

“It’s okay.” He smiled at her. “I’m glad to see your lovely face. You’ve brightened my day.”

“Tell me about your date.” She leaned into him. “What happened?”

He sighed and then grinned at her. “You women really love the details, huh?”

“Duh.” She grinned at him. “Let’s hear it.”

“She just wasn’t my type really?”

“Oh?”

“She was beautiful.” He paused. “But I’d prefer a girl like you.”

Sophie made a face, “What do you mean by that—ugly?” She laughed.

“No.” He groaned. “I mean, a downhome, genuine normal pretty girl.” He picked up her hand. “With normal nails, normal clothes, normal hair. I want a good girl that doesn’t need all the extras.”

“I certainly don’t need all the extras,” she laughed.

“I bet. What does your fiancé do?” He looked at her. “Let me guess? He’s a teacher?”

“How’d you know?” Sophie lied. She didn’t want to disappoint Nick by letting him know she was engaged to one of the richest men in New York.

“Because you are the type of woman who appreciates a good hardworking man. I bet you wouldn’t have sex in the park on a first date either.”

“No I wouldn’t.” She paused and stared at him. “No way, you did not have sex.”

“No, no. Of course not.” He laughed and looked away. “But you know there are some women who would.”

“I guess.” She looked at his side-profile and continued. “Though you can’t judge a woman for that, there was a man who did it with her. If she’s a slut, so is he.”

“Oh he’s a slut alright.” He laughed and then turned towards her. “But maybe he doesn’t want to be anymore.”

“Then he doesn’t have to be,” she said softly.

“So you and your fiancé are good?”

“Yes.”

“That’s a pity.” He laughed. “I’d like to find a girl like you, Sophie.”

“You will.” She laughed uncomfortably. “Plus, I’m not that great.”

“Yeah?” He looked at her curiously. “What’s the worst thing you’ve done? Burnt some cookies?”

“Something like that.” She laughed lightly. She was too ashamed to voice out her dirty deed.
Actually no Nick, I let another man play with my pussy while my fiancé fucked me at a sex club
. How could she tell him that? How could she tell anyone that?

“Are you okay, Sophie?” He looked at her carefully. “Your face seems very white.”

“That must mean I need to go tanning soon.” She stood up and laughed. “But I better be going. I need to go to Whole Foods and get back home before it gets too dark.”

“Let me walk you to the store.” He stood up and latched his arm through hers. “I enjoyed our hot chocolate the other evening.”

“Yes. That was fun.” She smiled at him and as she gazed into his warm brown eyes she felt a sense of calm. “Let me give you my number. Call me if you ever want to talk or hang out.”

“Are you sure?” He looked at her in surprise. “I didn’t think you wanted to be friends?”

“I’d love to be friends, Nick. I just need to let my fiancé know that I have a new friend who’s a man. Maybe introduce you two so that you guys can be friends as well.”

“If you think that would work.” He smiled at her warmly. “And if you think he won’t mind that I have a crush on his fiancée.”

“Oh Nick.” She giggled and wrote down her number on a piece of paper. “Here you go.”

“I’ll look after this piece of paper very carefully.” He grinned. “Thank you for trusting me, Sophie.”

“Not a problem, Nick.” She beamed at him. “I think we’re going to be good friends.”

“Me too.” He smiled at her.

“Oh and Nick.” She poked his arm. “I have a best friend that I think you will really like. If you’re lucky I will introduce you.”

“If she’s anything like you then I will be a very happy man.” He smiled at her and gave her a hug. “I’m so glad there are women like you in the city, Sophie,” he whispered into her ear.

“Thank you, Nick.” She held him close and closed her eyes, enjoying the feel of his warm body close to hers. “I’ll see you later.” She pulled away from him and walked away.

“Bye, Sophie.” Nick called out to her and turned around with a smile on his face. He walked back to the park and debated between going on a run and going back to the office. He hadn’t been lying when he had said his boss had a hard task for him. The biggest problem was he didn’t know how far he was willing to go to ensure that his boss got what he wanted. He already felt bad for how his date had turned out today. He hadn’t told Sophie the complete truth, he had thought the girl was attractive, nice even and she seemed receptive to his kinkier ways. She hadn’t balked when he slapped her. But she was everything he didn’t want in a woman: rich, spoiled, loose. He couldn’t afford to get emotionally connected to her. He’d fuck her again if he had to but once he got the information he needed, he’d disappear. He didn’t want people like her in his life. He wanted a Sophie. He wondered if her fiancé knew how lucky he was. He wondered if he told Sophie that he made a lot more money than a teacher, if she would leave her fiancé for him. He knew the answer as he walked back through the park. And that was why he wanted her. She seemed like a unique innocent angel and that is why he was willing to just be her friend. Maybe she would bring him the internal peace he needed.

***

Sophie smiled as she crossed the street. She was happy that she had seen Nick. He had reinforced in her that she was a good girl, she knew that but she had slipped up. She couldn’t allow what had happened to her to weigh her down. It wouldn’t be fair to her or to the baby. She had an appointment with the doctor the next day and she was praying that the baby was okay. She also wanted to know the gender of the child, she was secretly hoping for a girl, so that Jacob wouldn’t have to compete with another boy for his father’s love. Though she was beginning to doubt that Max was Jacob’s dad, not after seeing the senator. She was thinking so hard that she heard Alexis’s voice before she saw her.

“Please, let me come and see you.” She was begging into a phone. Sophie stopped and stood next to a pole so that she could listen without being obvious.

“I need to see you. I can make trouble for you.” Alexis’s voice turned spiteful. “Tomorrow? I can do tomorrow.” Her voice lit up. “I love you.”

Sophie felt her heart racing, was Max going to meet her the next day?

“You know you’ve always been the one for me. Leave her.” Alexis’s voice was urgent. “Leave her. You’ll see, it will be okay. We’ll have each other.” Alexis stopped talking for a moment and laughed. “Yes. I know.” She giggled. “Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow at the same place as last time. I love you.” Alexis hung up and Sophie peeked behind her to see Alexis walking down the street with a huge smile on her face. Sophie paled and grabbed her phone to call Maxwell but he didn’t answer. She wasn’t sure what to do. All of her resolve and confidence came crashing down. Max was going to meet Alexis at their regular place? Had they met there recently? Was he cheating on her? She felt queasy and walked quickly to a park bench to sit down. She put her head in her lap and sobbed, this was her payback for letting another man do things to her. She knew it. She was cursed to have an unhappy life. She grabbed her phone as she heard a beep and read the text message eagerly.
It was nice seeing you again and finally getting your number, Sophie. I hope to see you soon. Xoxo Nicholas
. She stared at the message and wondered if this wasn’t a sign as well. Maybe she was meant to end up with Nick. Her heart’s desire was Max but maybe she wasn’t going to be one of those lucky people who got their true loves.