Only with You (11 page)

Brynn doesn’t know where he lives. She’s never been to his house. Never been in his bed…

Still, it didn’t necessarily mean what Sophie hoped it meant. Could be that they’d only done the nasty at Brynn’s town house.

Brynn’s eyes fell on Gray’s untouched drink. “You know, why don’t you stay?” she said in her bossiest voice. “You haven’t even had a chance to drink your beer.”

“At least let me get you into the cab,” he said stiffly.

Will materialized out of nowhere. “I’ll drive her home.”

Brynn sneered. “If you think I’m going to climb into your little identity crisis of a car, you’re insane. I’ll probably get an STD just from touching the seat belt.”

“Yeah, because a cab is such a better option to avoid nasty diseases,” Will said as he plucked Brynn’s coat from the back of her chair. “C’mon, it’ll give you a chance to critique my driving, and I know how turned on you get by nagging.”

Brynn bit her lip, looking unsure of herself. She glanced at Gray, but as usual, his expression was a blank mask.

“Take Will up on it,” Sophie urged. “It’s pouring out, so you’ll have a hard time finding a cab anyway.”

“Fine,” Brynn conceded. “But I get to pick the radio station, and we are
not
talking.”

“Which sucks because I was so hoping to hear all about your Valentine’s Day plans,” Will snapped. “Let’s go, I wanna get out of here before the Barbies over there realize I’m not going over to their place to play strip darts.”

Sophie looked away as Gray and Brynn said good-bye. She thought she saw a tepid cheek-kiss out of the corner of her eye, but couldn’t be sure. She waved after Brynn and Will, and watched as Gray resumed his seat and grabbed his beer.

“We can do separate tables if you want,” Sophie said. “I didn’t mean to trap you into spending more time with me than you have to.”

He lifted a shoulder, but didn’t seem to be anxiously glancing around for an escape route. She waited for her own compulsion to put distance between them to kick in, but the urge never came. Sophie almost smiled. Who would have thought that merely tolerating sitting at the same table with another person could be described as “progress”?

“So,” she said, taking a sip of her drink, “things between you and Brynn, they seem…you know…well, how are they?”

He gave her a look. “Don’t push it. No chatter.”

Sophie mimed zipping her lips. “Got it. Brynn talk is strictly off-limits…So your sister called the office today. Jenna? She seems nice. You never mentioned what she—”

“Sophie,” Gray interrupted.

“Yeah?”

“When we were trapped in that elevator, I asked you if we could be quiet and not talk. You said no.”

She nodded. “Right. Because I am not a mime.”

“Well, the thing is…” He looked at her, then looked away. “I’m asking you again. Can we sit here and not talk? Maybe catch this football game? People-watch?”

Sophie set her glass down with a sharp clink. “If you want me to leave, you can just say so.”

This time he met her eyes. “That’s the thing. I don’t want you to leave. I want…company. But, you know, quiet company. Can you do that?”

Caught off guard, she looked at him more closely, taking in the strained creases around his eyes and the atypical wrinkles in his suit jacket. But it was the soft expression in his eyes that got to her. She felt something kind of warm and melty rush through her belly. Must be the gin.

But what if it wasn’t the gin?

Oh dear.

Feeling off-balance, she found herself nodding. “Okay. Quiet company it is.”

Gray didn’t bother to hide the relief that flickered across his tense features. He shrugged off his suit jacket, and Sophie did her best to stare at the TV screen instead of his exposed forearms as he rolled his shirt up to his elbows. The more-casual Gray unnerved her.

Her mouth felt dry and she swallowed nervously. She couldn’t help it. She didn’t even know what she was going to say, she had to fill the silence. “So, have you ever wondered—”

Gray learned forward slightly, setting a finger gently across her lips to stop her words. He looked surprised by his own action, and then gave the smallest shake of his head.

“Okay,” she whispered, unable to look away from his stare. The corner of his mouth turned up slightly. Sophie began to sweat. When had it become so freaking hot in the pub?

Then he turned slightly, and the moment was over. Gray put all of his attention on the TV screen, and Sophie let out a breath and tried to do the same.

She didn’t know how long they sat there in companionable silence, but it got easier the longer they did. He wordlessly fetched them another round of drinks, and instead of feeling bored and panicked, she felt…content.

This is weird
, she thought.
I’m playing the silent game with my boss.

But then she found herself smiling.

Because it was also kind of nice.

D
oes this little toy car of yours have heated seats?” Brynn asked as she peered at the fancy buttons of his sports car.

Wordlessly Will punched a button and turned his attention back to the road. Brynn studied him out of the corner of her eye. They might not get along, but she’d known him long enough to know that silence and Will were never a good combination. Her body went on high alert.

“You shouldn’t have offered me a ride if you were going to sulk the entire time,” she said.

“Had I known you were going to chatter the whole way, I probably wouldn’t have offered.”

Brynn straightened her shoulders and gazed out of the passenger window and tried not to let his words sting. He’d never made a secret that he didn’t like her, but she couldn’t quite understand why her company was so repellant to him. And she
really
couldn’t understand why someone as open, loving, and sweet as her younger sister had befriended such a selfish oaf. His entire existence revolved around casual sex and business ventures. He had zero substance.

“I don’t understand why Sophie loves that bar so much,” Brynn mused as she stared out at the line of red brake lights on either side of them. “It’s so out of the way.”

Will made a sharp turn to take a side-street detour, and Brynn braced her hand against the dash, surprised by sudden movement. She was about to nag him for driving like a freaking NASCAR driver when his outburst obliterated the sullen silence.

“Don’t you ever get tired of being selfish?” he exploded.

She snapped her head around to look at his clenched profile. “Excuse me?”

“I’d just think you’d get sick of yourself after a while. I know I do.” His knuckles tightened on the steering wheel.

“What—”

But he wasn’t done. His voice took on a whining, high-pitched, mimicking tone. “
Sophieeee
, you need to sit through a hellish double date to make
my
life more convenient. Why doesn’t everyone pick a bar that’s closer to
me
? Mommy, Daddy, it’s been ten minutes since you’ve praised all of my superpredictable accomplishments. Gray, why aren’t you adoring me the way I deserve to be adored? Gosh, Will, you’re so
mean
to me.”

The unprovoked attack sent a river of emotions rolling through her, the anger hitting her hardest. How dare
he
of all people accuse her of being selfish?

The sharpness of her anger was followed quickly by an automatic denial. Will didn’t even
know
her, not really. She was a good person. Sure, maybe she’d asked Sophie for an unfair favor, but Sophie was resilient. Nothing bothered her.

But as hard as Brynn tried to hang on to her anger, doubt crept up her spine. Was he right?
Was
she selfish? Brynn didn’t mean to be. She loved her sister and would never want to sabotage her happiness. But did Brynn even know what Sophie’s version of happy looked like? Had she really stopped to assess what was going on with her sister, or had she just assumed that her own priorities were more important?

God, she
was
selfish.

The last emotion was perhaps the worst of all.

Hurt.

Hurt that it had to be Will of all people who’d held up the mirror and forced her to see her own narcissism.

Oh no.
Not tears. Not now. She could not let Will Thatcher see her cry.

“Are you crying?”

“No,” she said, the word soggy.

“Shit,” he said softly.

Exactly.

He pulled over to the side of the road, and Brynn was surprised to see through the haze of her tears that they were outside of her condo building. Grabbing her purse, she fumbled at the door, desperate to escape Will and the flood of emotions he’d thrown at her.

“Thanks for the ride,” she muttered tersely.

Again with the damn manners! She should have told him to go screw himself, but even at her most vulnerable, she couldn’t get the words out.

“Brynn,” he said softly, putting a hand on her arm.

“Don’t you dare,” she hissed, turning to face him, suddenly not caring that he was seeing her with puffy eyes and black rivers of eye makeup running down her cheeks. “Don’t you dare insult me, outline every single flaw I have, and then turn around and try to make it better. You wanted to hurt me and you succeeded. At least have the balls to own your victory.”

“I never meant to hurt you,” he said, not breaking eye contact. “I just couldn’t stand the way you were trying to push Sophie down so you could pull yourself up.”

“Of course, we wouldn’t want your poor precious Sophie to suffer,” she said scathingly, hating the words she heard coming out of her mouth.

“This isn’t about Sophie!” he said more sharply. “This has never been about Sophie!”

“Oh really?” she scoffed. “So it’s just coincidence that you’re taking her side on everything. You just don’t want to see
me
happy, so you’re doing your best to ensure my relationship with Gray never has a chance.”

“You don’t even like the guy!” Will yelled. “This isn’t about Gray or Sophie, it’s about you trying to control absolutely every little detail in your life because you don’t know what you really want.”

“I do know what I want! I want Gray. He’s perfect for me. Smart, successful, genteel…”

“The man’s a Goddamn mannequin, which is exactly what you
think
you want because you can ensure he fits into your plastic life.”

“Why are you acting like this?” she whispered, staring into his blazing blue eyes. “I know we’re always bickering, but you’ve never been cruel before.”

“God, Brynn.” He turned away and stared out the front of the car, running his fingers through his blond hair and muttering a string of curses.

“I don’t expect an apology,” she said quietly. “I know better. I just want to know why.”

“Why? Why?!” His voice had taken on an agitated tone, and he sounded completely unlike the controlled and manipulative Will she knew so well.

“
This
is why, Brynn.”

A rough hand slid behind the nape of her neck and jerked her over to the driver’s-side seat. Firm lips slammed down on hers as he held her head still and took control of her mouth.

She parted her lips on a surprised gasp and his tongue flicked teasingly across her bottom lip. Brynn moaned. She didn’t know if this was supposed to be her punishment, her embarrassment, or simply more ammunition that he could use against her, and she didn’t care.

She didn’t care that they hated each other, didn’t care that she was lying awkwardly across the middle console of his car like one of his groupies.

She didn’t care that he probably had some sort of agenda or that she was most certainly going to regret this in the morning.

Because at this moment, all she cared about was kissing Will.

His tongue slid against hers in a silky stroke and she moaned again. Winding her arms around his neck, Brynn pressed closer, letting her tongue tangle with his in a kiss that wasn’t civilized or rehearsed or practiced. Kissing Will was a lot like dirty dancing. It was heady, instinctual, and it gave her the urge to move her hips.

They kissed like they argued. Savagely, taking as much as they gave. His hands tilted her head to the side so he could press deeper, and this time it was Will who let out a low groan. His mouth broke away from hers, and his lips softly pressed against the side of her mouth, skimming along her jaw before gently brushing her cheeks, her eyelids.

Reality crashed down as Brynn realized what he was doing. He was kissing away her tears. He cupped her face gently, as though using his lips to try to erase the pain he’d caused.

And suddenly it just felt too…tender. Animal passion had been safe. She could blame that on the champagne and their anger.

But kindness and tenderness from Will…she couldn’t…she wouldn’t…

She pulled away sharply.

“Brynn,” he said quietly, reaching out to her again.

“Don’t,” she said. “Just don’t.”

Clutching her purse, she scratched at the door again, shoving it open in clumsy haste. She set one foot out into the stormy night before hesitantly looking back at him.

“You won’t…you won’t tell anyone about this, right? We’ll just chalk it up to a moment of absurd insanity?”

Any softness that might have been in his eyes vanished. “Don’t worry,” he snapped. “Your secret is safe with me. You think I want anyone knowing that I failed to get a hot reaction from Ice Princess Brynn? You’re just as cold as everyone thinks you are.”

She didn’t let his words sting. She was already numb.

“Good night, Will,” she said stonily as she climbed out of the car. “If you’ve given me some sort of disease, you’ll be hearing from me.”

She’d barely slammed the door before he peeled away from the curb with a squeal of tires.
Typical
, she thought. Slowly her snarl faded as she stood hunched in the rain, staring after his long gone taillights.

That was a mistake.
The realization came as a shock.

Because Brynn Dalton did not make mistakes.

I
didn’t even know Seattle had a baseball team,” Gray said under his breath, as he studied the elaborate retractable roof of Safeco Field.

“Easy, there,” Ian said as he handed Gray another beer. “I’ll have you know that the Mariners are well ahead of your White Sox this year.”

“They used to be your White Sox too,” Gray said, taking a sip of beer.

“Sure, but then I moved here. And now I’m a Mariners fan,” his best friend said succinctly.

“That’s just as well—you’ll never have to worry about the hassle of getting World Series tickets.”

“You just wait,” Ian said, his eyes tracking a line double into center field. “This team will become your favorite.”

Gray shook his head. It seemed like yesterday that he and Ian had been buying nosebleed tickets to White Sox games when they needed a break from studying for their Northwestern finals. Like Gray, Ian was a Midwestern transplant in the middle of Seattle’s greenery. He’d moved to the Pacific Northwest several years prior.

As two of Gray’s closest—okay,
only
—friends, Ian and his wife, Ashley, had been a major factor in Gray accepting a job in Seattle.

Them, and an intense desire to get away from a toxic ex-fiancée.

Ian’s son squirmed impatiently in his seat. “Dad, can I have some pizza?”

“Now? You just finished your pretzel.”

“I know, but I’m hungry again. And the pepperoni looks
really
good,” said the perpetually hungry-for-junk-food Ryan.

“He has a point,” Gray said, not taking his eyes off the field. “The pizza looked awesome.”

“Ashley’s going to kill me,” Ian said with a shake of his head. “She hates when he eats crap.”

“It’s a ball game,” Gray replied. “What are you supposed to feed him, kale?”

“What’s kale?” Ryan asked, thumping his baseball glove with his tiny fist.

“My point exactly,” Gray said. “Get the man some pizza, Dad!”

Ian sighed. “I’ll be back. Ryan, make sure your godfather doesn’t drink my beer.”

“Beer’s gross.”

“Totally,” Gray replied, taking another sip of his “gross” beer.

As Ian went to fetch the offending junk food, Gray watched his godson out of the corner of his eye. He didn’t know Ryan well. They saw each other every couple years or so, but that was practically an eternity to a kid. Ryan was a new person every time Gray saw him.

When Ian had invited Gray to tag along on the father-son outing, Gray had waited for the usual rush of apprehension. Small talk was hard enough without figuring out what to say to a first grader. But instead of making a polite work excuse, Gray had found himself accepting. Wasn’t this why he had moved to Seattle? To make connections with people?

“How’s school?” Gray asked, realizing he’d been brooding.

“Good,” Ryan said with a small shrug. “My teacher’s pretty cool. And I got second in the science fair.”

“That’s cool. Got a girlfriend?”

Ryan’s small body convulsed in dramatic dry heaves. “Girls are gross.”

“Cooties?” Gray asked knowingly.

“I dunno. They’re just stupid. I like baseball way better.”

Gray smiled into his beer. Sometimes he thought he liked baseball better too. There was none of the drama, and the rules of the game were straightforward. With baseball, there was no worrying about why sometimes a woman looked at you like she wanted to curl up in your arms and stay there, and other times she looked at you like you were an inconvenience she had to somehow explain to her family.

Baseball had no distractingly wide blue eyes or slim curves or smile a man could drown in.

The beer turned slightly sour in Gray’s stomach as he realized he hadn’t been thinking about Brynn.

“One pepperoni pizza, coming right up!” Ian announced, scooting past the row of knees as he made his way back to them. He plopped a small box into Ryan’s lap as he passed, and then, settling into the middle seat, handed another box to Gray.

“Am I off the hook from healthy eating too?” Gray asked, as he opened the personal-sized pizza box.

“We’re splitting it,” Ian said as he handed out napkins like the most experienced of dads. Gray nearly smiled at the gesture. Hard to imagine this was the same wiry frat boy who once refused to let anyone be admitted to his house party unless they could eat nachos with no hands.

The three of them settled into companionable male silence and watched the Mariners battle a close game. They weren’t exactly bringing in the runs, but neither were the opposing Yankees, so all in all it was a relatively well-paced game.

“How’s the job going?” Ian asked as he finished off Ryan’s barely touched pizza. “All settled in?”

“Fine,” Gray said. “A challenge. Brayburn Luxuries has genius behind it, but I’m not sure Martin was as adept at the operational aspects as he fooled everyone into thinking. I find that most of my time is spent trying to find records of previous deals and the contact information for existing clients. It’s pretty fuc—” He glanced at Ryan. “Pretty messed up.”

“You were going to say ‘fuck,’” Ryan announced disinterestedly as he blew bubbles into his Coke.

“Ryan!” Ian exclaimed. “Where’d you learn that word? Are you trying to get me in trouble with your mother?”

Ryan shrugged. “Mom’s the one who said it. The other day in the car when some other car cut in front of her. She told me never to tell you.”

A slow smile broke out over Ian’s face at the spousal ammunition his son had just unknowingly handed over. “Did she, now? Son, did I ever tell you how much I love you?” He pulled Ryan close to his shoulder for a moment, and at six, Ryan was still young enough not to be embarrassed by such displays.

Gray looked away, disturbed that the casual gesture gave him a vague sense of discontent that hadn’t been there a few months ago. With their identical blond hair and brown eyes, they were the classic father-son baseball duo. Gray felt like an outsider. It was a feeling he’d long become accustomed to, but it had never bothered him quite so much before.

“Okay, so work’s not great, but it’ll get there,” Ian said, returning his attention to Gray. “You’ll turn it around in no time. It’s why Brayburn selected you as his replacement.”

“I guess,” Gray said noncommittally.

“Well,
that’s
the enthusiastic businessman I know so well,” Ian said with a raised eyebrow. “What’s the deal, you homesick or something? Got your period?”

Gray didn’t bother to respond to that, and took a sullen bite of pizza.

Ian pressed on. “It’s your bratty siblings, isn’t it? Jenna is still giving you crap for not taking her ice-skating when she was nine, and Jack’s still treating you like an impersonal stranger.”

Gray tensed at that, but it was nothing he hadn’t heard before. Hell, it was nothing he hadn’t
thought
before. “The twins are fine,” he said. “Jenna’s actually coming to visit in a couple weeks. I doubt we’ll be spending any white Christmases together anytime soon, but they seem to have forgiven me for whatever it was I did or didn’t do when they were kids.”

Ian nodded thoughtfully, having met Jack and Jenna often enough to know that those relationships were nothing they were going to solve before the end of the ninth inning.

“Woman problems, then,” Ian said.

Gray’s chewing slowed for a moment, and his jaw tensed, but he said nothing.

Ian chuckled. “I fucking knew it.”

“Dad, you said—”

“Look, the moose!” Ian said quickly, pointing at the Mariners’ mascot dancing on top of the dugout. “Why don’t you go see if you can shake his hand?”

Needing no further encouragement, Ryan scampered down the stairs, holding his too-large cap with one hand, glove held protectively in front of him just in case a fly ball happened to find its way into his waiting mitt.

“You’re still with the gym rat, right? Your assistant’s sister?”

Gray growled at the mention of Sophie. “I don’t want to talk about her.”

“Who? The girlfriend or your assistant?”

“The assistant. I specifically look forward to weekends because it’s the one area of my life that Sophie hasn’t bulldozed with her good moods and chatter. And don’t call Brynn my girlfriend. She’s just…a woman I’m seeing. Sort of.”

Barely.

He’d only spoken to her briefly since her ridiculous plan of a double date had exploded. He should definitely call her. Maybe arrange dinner for tomorrow.

Gray frowned. The idea didn’t hold as much appeal as it should.

And the hell of it was, Gray should be feeling guilty about the way the failed double date had gone. Not just because he’d sent Brynn home with another man, but because Gray hadn’t cared.

Weighing even more heavily on his conscience was the fact that sitting in companionable silence with Sophie had been a good deal more enjoyable than several of his strained silences with Brynn.

Which was ridiculous. Brynn was perfect for him. She had a respectable career, cared about her image, read the news, and paid attention to politics. She wasn’t wedding- or baby-crazy.

Didn’t have distracting curves or wear inappropriate clothes or act like she was chronically on the verge of throwing glitter at random passersby.

He realized that once again, Sophie had wedged into his thoughts.

He tried to push her back.

Maybe it was time to take things with Brynn to the next level. He’d already waited longer than average to pursue any sort of physical relationship with her. Gray kept telling himself it was because he didn’t want to rush Brynn.

He refused to consider that there were other motivations for his reluctance to sleep with Brynn.

He waited for the idea of Brynn in bed to appeal. Nothing. Not the slightest stir. He felt…bored.

“I don’t think we’re working out,” Gray muttered. Hell, it hadn’t been working out from date one, but neither one had a good reason to firmly break it off. Perhaps because they were both too damn polite.

And polite wasn’t good enough.

Ian dug a hand into a bag of peanuts. “Ashley will be disappointed. She’s been trying to marry you off forever.”

“She has?” Gray asked with genuine surprise. He’d always figured that women didn’t see him as the husband type. He either got labeled as a consummate bachelor or a love-’em-and-leave-’em prick. It wasn’t a reputation he fostered, per se, but he’d become resigned to it. He obviously lacked something that women were looking for when it came to long-term commitment.

At least that’s what Jessica had told him.

Ian’s voice jerked him back to the present. “Sure, Ash always has about a half-dozen single women in her book club alone who are dying to meet you. She’s described you as being the strong, silent type. Women love that shit.”

Gray grunted.

“So what happened? I thought you liked Brynn.”

“I do,” Gray said truthfully. “That’s the trouble. I like her. That’s it.”

Ian paused in munching his peanuts. “Sounds simple. Maybe simple’s what you need after Jessica…”

Gray remained silent as he watched the Mariners’ third baseman hit into a double play. “It’s kind of boring,” he said finally.

“No offense, but ‘boring’ is kind of your thing these days. I thought you liked things predictable.”

“I do,” Gray said, his mood turning increasingly surly. He didn’t like all of Ian’s questions. They were hitting disturbingly close to a nerve he hadn’t felt in a long time.

He felt his friend watching him out of the corner of his eye and tried not to squirm. “What?”

“It’s the other one,” Ian said with a slightly awed tone.

“What?”

“Your girlfriend’s sister. Your employee.”

“What about her?”

“You like
her
,” Ian accused. “
That’s
why things aren’t working out with the perfect sister. You like the imperfect one. The one that looks just like your ex-fiancé. Because that’s healthy. Not.”

“I never should have told you about her resemblance to Jess,” Gray said shortly, taking a sip of his beer. “What gave you that idea?”

Ian continued to watch him. “The way you talk about her. You should have heard yourself that first night you found out she’d be working for you. It was the most I’ve heard you talk in years.”

Gray grunted. “Sophie is…Everything about her is wrong.”

“Mm-hmm. Bet she’s hot,” Ian said, turning his attention back to the game.

“She’s a mess.”

“She’s gotta be hot,” Ian muttered again, under his breath.

Gray noticed that for all his talk about “hot” women, Ian’s eyes had never left his son. Ryan was now wearing a big foam finger and, at the mascot’s beckoning, stood atop the dugout and helped to lead “the wave.” Ryan’s face glowed with pure youthful ecstasy.

Had Gray ever been that happy? He couldn’t remember.

Flagging down the beer vendor, Gray handed over some money and pushed Ian’s twenty-dollar bill away. “My turn,” he grumbled.

“So if it’s not the younger sister who’s under your skin, why are you planning to ignore a beautiful woman who hasn’t done anything wrong?”

Gray gave Ian an annoyed look. “Are we still talking about this? What are we, sorority sisters now? Shall I order us some ice cream and Chardonnay?”

Ian continued to look at him.

Gray sighed and relented. Maybe talking about Sophie would clear his head.

“Okay, so Sophie might
kind of
be getting to me. But not in the good way, just…She’s just always there.”

Ian whistled. “I was right. You
are
hitting on the help.”

“Don’t call her that,” Gray snapped more sharply than he’d intended.

Ian glanced at him in surprise, and Gray leaned forward, putting his elbows on his knees, the game temporarily forgotten.

“Shit,” Gray breathed. “I don’t know what to do. This girl drives me crazy. And she’s my
assistant
, for Christ’s sake. She’s gorgeous but snotty. She has these massive self-esteem issues and yet is incredibly determined in what she wants. Most of the time I think she hates my guts, and yet sometimes there are these looks…”

“Hold on, let me get us some tampons,” Ian said.

Gray glowered, even as he deserved it. Babbling wasn’t his style, but he’d never been in a relationship that gave him so many headaches. Hell, this wasn’t even a relationship. It was just…an inability to escape from the other person.