Passions of War (29 page)

‘I have written to both of them,' she said. ‘But I assume they are both in France somewhere – that is if they are . . .'

He pressed her hand lightly. ‘We must hope for the best.'

‘Anyway,' she went on, ‘I have no idea how long my letters might take to reach them. I have not had any reply so far.'

‘There is still time,' he said. ‘Don't be downcast.'

The conversation had brought to her mind a subject she had been avoiding since their meeting in the mountains. She decided the moment had come to put it into words.

‘And you? Have you been in touch with your wife? Where is she?'

‘In Athens, I hope. When the fighting started I sent word to my mother that they should both head south immediately. I can only hope that they reached the border before the roads were cut off by the Bulgarians. I have spoken to our consul here and asked him to make enquiries through his counterpart in Athens, but, like you, I have not had any response so far.'

‘Well,' she said, trying to express a sympathy she did not feel, ‘as you say, there is still time. We must hope for the best.'

He gave her a quick glance, an acknowledgement that neither of them was saying what they really meant.

They were both silent for a while, then he stirred himself and murmured, ‘You are right, of course. There is beauty of a kind out there. But I shall never be able to look at this scene without sorrow.'

She followed the direction of his gaze, to where the island of Vido rose from the blue waters. ‘Of course, I didn't think. I'm sorry.'

For the first weeks after their arrival Serbian soldiers, sick and starving after the journey through the mountains, had died on the island at the rate of three hundred a day. One thousand had been buried on the island itself; then, when space ran out, they were buried at sea in the deep waters around. Already, the Serbs who survived were referring to them as ‘the blue graveyard'. But there was room for optimism. The death rate had reduced now, and for the survivors who were camped around Corfu conditions had improved. Food and fuel were adequately provided, and the men's tattered clothes had been replaced by good English boots and woollen underwear and French uniforms. Leo had worked tirelessly with the committee, interpreting and cajoling, seeking to iron out the endless bureaucratic misunderstandings, resorting at times to foot-stamping fury, and she knew that she could take some credit for the improvement.

The Corfiotes themselves had taken the refugees to their hearts and invited many of them into their homes. Increasingly, Serbs displaced from their homeland congregated on the island. Serbian government ministers had established themselves in the White Venice Hotel and the National Assembly now met in the National Theatre. Certain churches, such as St Archangel and Holy Trinity, had been set aside for Serbian Orthodox worship. There was even talk of producing a Serb-language newspaper.

Leo herself was being spoilt and pampered in a way she had never before experienced. Melinda Papadakis was a childless widow, who had been left comfortably off by her late husband, and she treated Leo as if she were her own daughter. Horrified by her skeletal appearance, her hollow eyes and unkempt hair, she set out to tempt her appetite with all sorts of delicacies and put her in the hands of her own lady's maid, who gave her hot baths and massaged her body and her hair with scented oils. Leo accepted these attentions gratefully, though she had pangs of guilt when she considered the hardships still suffered by Sasha and his men. There was one point of dispute, however, between her and her hostess. Melinda had a wardrobe full of elegant and fashionable dresses, which she was eager to have altered by her dressmaker to fit Leo, so that she could show her off in local society; but Leo insisted on choosing the plainest and most serviceable garments. Melinda complained that they made her look like a governess, but Leo pointed out that she could hardly conduct her work with the committee dressed as if she was on her way to an embassy garden party.

One of her first acts on her arrival at Melinda's, apart from writing to Ralph and Tom, had been to contact the London solicitor who managed her affairs. He had set up a facility for her to draw money from a local bank. No longer dependent on Melinda's generosity, she went to a tailor in the town and ordered a replica of her FANY uniform. Clad once again in breeches and boots she felt more like her old self, though she had to bow to society's rules by donning the divided skirt that covered them. It irritated her to feel it flapping round her ankles, but at least she could stride out freely. She remembered, with a pang, how her grandmother had despaired of her mannish gait. She had even sent her to a finishing school where they had tried to teach her to walk ‘like a lady', with a book balanced on her head. She had tried to conform; but what a relief it had been to join the FANY!

One thing that did bother her was her shorn hair. This time she had not kept the locks she had hacked off to form a switch, so she had no way of disguising their lack. But it was beginning to grow again, and most of the time it could be hidden under a hat.

Sasha stood up and stretched. ‘I must get back to camp.'

Leo rose also. ‘And I have another meeting of the committee. There are rumours that Crown Prince Alexander is going to visit us and people are talking about organizing a ball or a concert in his honour.'

‘He will not want any ceremony, if I know him,' Sasha responded. ‘What he will want is to review his troops and discuss how soon we can reform and prepare to counter-attack. That is all that matters.'

‘I know,' Leo agreed. ‘But it will take time to re-equip the army. I hear all the time about shortages on the Western Front. It is not going to be easy to persuade the British and the French to part with weapons for us.'

He sighed and nodded. ‘I know – and I know we have a staunch advocate in you. I will try to be patient.'

‘Will you dine at Mme Papadakis's tonight?' Leo asked. Sasha had become a regular guest at the house.

He hesitated and then gave her his rare grin. ‘Why not? The food is good and the company . . . has its attractions.' He took her hand and kissed it, then saluted and walked away.

Twenty-One

Victoria peered out of the door of the latrine block. No one was about yet in the compound, where the ambulances stood in line. She had been back in France for nearly six weeks and, opposite her, a long building housed the individual cabins which had replaced the bell tents, where the members of the convoy had originally slept. She thought grimly that when the new huts had arrived she had never imagined how grateful she would be for the privacy they conferred. At that moment the doors were closed, but soon the reveille would sound and the occupants would come tumbling out for roll-call. She had just enough time to get back to her own room without having to explain why she was up so early. She took a deep breath and prayed that she was not going to be sick again. As she crossed the compound, the morning breeze wafted the smell of cooking from the cookhouse at one corner, triggering another wave of nausea. She fought it down and hurried into her room.

Scrambling into her uniform, she cursed herself for the hundredth time. What a fool, to let herself fall pregnant after all this – and to Ralph of all people! She had been lucky with Luke, and since then she had made sure that her relationship with the various officers passing through Calais had never gone beyond a chaste kiss on the cheek. She had been so sure that she was safe with Ralph. She was drunk, of course. They both were. But that was no comfort now.

Buttoning her tunic, she forced herself to assess the situation. There were three options, for a woman in her situation. One was to confront the man and ask him to ‘do the decent thing'. And she was fairly sure that Ralph would feel obliged to comply. It would be a matter of honour. But what a prospect, for both of them! She remembered how he had torn himself away, almost before the act was completed, and rushed out of the flat. She was certain, now, that he was homosexual, even if he did not admit it to himself, and their brief coupling had sickened him. To be locked into marriage would be torture for both of them, to say nothing of the unwanted child. It was not to be contemplated.

Option two was to confess to her superiors, suffer the opprobrium visited on single mothers, let the pregnancy go to full term and have the child adopted. She had no doubt that it would be the end of her career with the FANY. Neither Mac nor Franklin would be prepared to tolerate such a scandal. What she would do with herself after the birth she could not imagine, but she knew that she was not prepared to bring up a child on her own.

There remained one further resort. She remembered the woman who had spoken of doctors in London who could arrange matters, for a fee. She had given Victoria a card with the name of one such. At the time, Victoria had tried to refuse, certain that it was something she would never need, but she had tucked the information away . . . ‘just in case'. Now the time had come to use it.

But to do that meant going to London, and she had only just come back from leave. There was no possibility of another spell for months. And she could not pretend that there was a close relative who needed her presence at the bedside, because she had often told people, proudly, that she had no close family and therefore no ties. The only other possibility was to feign illness, but that required a sickness that was serious enough to get her sent back to England and she was doubtful that she could convince the doctors at the local hospital that it was genuine. She seemed to have hit a dead end.

Outside, the whistle summoning her to roll-call sounded. She dragged a comb through her hair, grimacing at the pallor of her face, and hurried out of her cabin. All along the corridor doors were banging open and women were appearing buttoning tunics, pushing hair under caps. One or two were wearing top coats and boots and Victoria suspected that underneath they were still in their pyjamas. It was not surprising. An ambulance train had been scheduled for eight o'clock the previous night but had been delayed until ten. After each ambulance had made three round trips lasting about an hour, none of them had got back to camp until after one a.m., exhausted from driving their casualties over roads full of potholes by the light of one dimmed headlight. In addition to her other ills, Victoria felt light-headed from lack of sleep.

After roll-call they had a hasty breakfast, which she was unable to stomach, and then it was time to get the ambulances started. They were all Napiers now and Victoria had named hers Nancy. As she cranked the starting wheel the three possible solutions to her dilemma went round and round in her head. She was checking the oil pressure and the fuel gauge when the cry went up, ‘Barges!' and all around her colleagues scrambled into the driving seats. Victoria followed the rest down the long road from the camp and on to the wharf beside the canal. She had just backed her vehicle up to the edge of the water when the first barge came slipping gently under the bridge. The stretchers came up on lifts and were placed in the back of the waiting ambulances and for the next hour her mind was fully occupied as she eased the Napier over bumps and culverts on the way to the hospital. But on the return drive to camp her predicament came back to her in full force.

She managed to keep some lunch down, but as she left the mess tent Beryl Hutchinson stopped her.

‘I say, old thing, you look a bit green about the gills. Are you all right?'

‘No, actually. I'm feeling a bit under the weather,' Victoria admitted. ‘I think I may have picked up some kind of tummy bug.'

‘Why don't you go and ask Boss to give you the rest of the day off?' Hutchinson asked. ‘There's no shame in going sick, if you're really not up to the job, you know.'

‘I know,' Victoria agreed. ‘But I'll keep going for the time being. Don't worry about me. I'll be fine.' If she was going to go for the sickness option, it had to be something more serious than an attack of diarrhoea.

As she crossed the compound Lilian Franklin called her over.

‘Colonel Martin needs someone to drive him to Pont du Beurre this afternoon. I thought it would be a good job for you and Sparky.'

Victoria's heart sank. She had been looking forward to an hour's rest in her cabin but she could only nod and respond cheerfully, ‘Righto, Boss. What time does he want me?'

‘Right away. He's waiting at HQ for you to pick him up.'

Victoria made her way to where Sparky was parked and pulled out the starting handle. The little car was usually very cooperative and started on the second or third turn, but on this occasion he refused to oblige. Victoria cranked and cranked, swearing under her breath. Suddenly, there was an explosion and she felt a violent, wrenching pain in her arm and was thrown bodily sideways to land on the bonnet. Her cry of pain and the subsequent extremely unparliamentary language brought Hutchinson out of her office.

‘What happened?'

‘Sparky backfired.'

‘I heard. Are you all right? Let's have a look at that arm.'

She ran expert hands over Victoria's right arm and grimaced. ‘If you ask me, that's broken. I'll get someone to run you to the hospital.'

‘But what about the colonel?' Victoria protested. ‘I'm supposed to pick him up.'

‘Someone else can do that. Come on, let's get you settled.'

Victoria reached into the front seat with her good arm and grabbed the haversack that held her first aid kit and a few personal possessions. She patted the steering wheel and whispered, ‘Good old Sparky! You never let me down!'

After that, events took on a momentum that left little time for reflection. The doctor at the hospital confirmed that the arm was indeed broken, but it was a clean break that could be set without surgery, and by dinner time Victoria was back in camp, standing in front of the CO's desk with her arm in a sling.

‘Boss' Franklin looked her up and down and remarked, ‘Well, you're not going to be much use to us here, in that condition. You'd better go home until the arm is usable again. I'm sure the London office can find plenty for you to do. There's a hospital ship leaving tomorrow morning. I'll see if I can get you on board.'