She closed her eyes, tears welling up in them. ''I have to, Garrett. If not tonight, then very soon. The Rhodeses will be leaving Saturday and my parents will be back from Europe anytime. I wish I could stay forever, but I can't." The tears slid silently down her face, dropping wetly against the front of his broad chest. His arms locked around her more tightly as he kissed the top of her head gently, unable to accept her words.
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"Stay here with me, sweetheart. We'll work it out someway," his voice pleaded raggedly.
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"It would never work for us, Garrett, you know that," she sobbed quietly. "I can't live the way you want, and you can't live the way I want. We would only end up despising one another. I couldn't stand that."
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"Marriage isn't the answer to all of love's problems, Chandra, can't you see that?" he whispered coaxingly, his soft breath fanning her hair. "I watched my parents tear each other apart in a bad marriage, I watched my sister commit suicide over a bad marriage, I've watched my friends turn into drunks when their wives walked out the door taking their children with them"his voice broke"God help me, Chandra, I couldn't live through something like that." She felt his body shake.
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She reached up and lovingly caressed his face, trying to ease the mental anguish he was battling. "But it doesn't always have to be that way, Garrett. For every bad marriage, there are thousands of good ones. Look at my parents. They've been married nearly thirty years and they've had their little spats, but they loved each other so they worked them out. I would be as committed to you, if I lived with you, as I would be if I married you. Don't you see, darling, you're always running the chance of being hurt if you love someonewhether there's a legal paper involved or not? If you're not willing to take the gamble on love and all its commitments, then you'll be a terribly lonely man."
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"You make it all sound so simple, Chandra, but life isn't that simple. When you trust your very life to another person, and that person lets you down the way my mother did my father, then you form some pretty strong opinions about what you want out of
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