Queen of Shadows (8 page)

She heard Faith swear, then say, distantly,
“Hold on, Elite Fourteen. I’m sending rescue.”

“No need,” she whispered as she heard footsteps behind her. “Just tell the Prime . . .”

Faith kept talking, telling her to hold on, that help was coming, but she barely heard. Someone seized her by the arm and dragged her backward, away from the shelter of the Dumpster, the Second’s voice fading to a tinny murmur, suddenly silenced.

Five

Miranda went into raptures over the library. It was larger than her bedroom, the walls lined with shelves from floor to ceiling, and even had ladders. It reminded her strongly of the library at the university, where she’d spent hours leafing through books, inhaling the musty smell of aged paper, puzzling over indecipherable tomes like
Les Miserables
in the original French.

It had been a long time since she’d simply sat down and read a book. Reading relaxed her too much, and relaxing, without a barrier of alcohol between her and the world, spelled trouble.

Her fingers traced the spines of classics, contemporary novels, and nonfiction in at least eight different languages. She’d thought the Prime’s bedroom had a lot of books, but here were at least ten times that many. Given what he’d told her about the Haven, she wondered how many of these he had brought with him, and how many had been here as long as the building had stood.

Miranda pulled a yellowed copy of Shakespeare’s comedies from the shelf and sought one of the window seats, grateful just to lose herself for a while in something that had a happy ending.

She handled the paper carefully, afraid it might crumble, and read aloud to herself, her quiet voice echoing in the silent room, punctuated with the sound of turning pages.

“ ‘I pray thee now tell me, for which of my bad parts didst thou first fall in love with me?

“‘For them all together, which maintained so politic a state of evil that they will not admit any good part to intermingle with them. But for which of my good parts did you first suffer love for me?’ ”

A voice came from the door, and though she wasn’t expecting it, for some reason she didn’t start.

“ ‘Suffer love!—a good epithet. I do suffer love indeed, for I love thee against my will.’ ”

Miranda looked up and smiled, continuing, “ ‘ In spite of your heart, I think. Alas, poor heart! If you spite it for my sake, I will spite it for yours, for I will never love that which my friend hates.’ ”

David smiled back. “ ‘Thou and I are too wise to woo peaceably.’ ”

She closed the book and set it on the cushion, running her hand down the front cover. “This was always my favorite of his plays,” she said. “Melodramatic, full of misunderstandings, but with a hearts-and-flowers finale. I used to pretend I was Beatrice and act out her lines in front of the mirror.”

The smile widened a hair. “Not Hero?”

Miranda chuckled and shook her head. “No way. Hero was shallow and not very bright. She and Claudio would have had a bland life with bland children and a bland dog. Beatrice and Benedick, now
that
was a couple I could get behind. They would have had adventures together.”

She noticed that he was dressed more casually than she had seen him before, and didn’t have the coat. He wore actual jeans, faded in that designer way, and a longsleeved dark blue shirt that set off the color of his eyes. The Signet lay glowing between his collarbones, wildly out of place with the rest of his attire.

“How are you feeling tonight?” he asked.

She thought about it. She was stiff, and sore, and hadn’t slept well, but she didn’t feel the edge of creeping panic she’d had every night so far. She could deal with being tired and in pain. That’s what drugs were for. “Okay.”

“Good. I’d like to begin your training tonight.”

“Training?”

“Yes. You have to learn to control your gifts.”

“And you’re going to teach me.”

“I am.”

The idea of mucking with her “gifts,” which was hardly the word for them, made her deeply uneasy, but he was right. She had to do something. She couldn’t be the servant of her power forever. It would kill her inside a year unless something changed.

Learning to use it wasn’t nearly as scary as the thought of ending up in the County Hospital D ward . . . wasting away with the choir of the damned as her only company. She had been in that place once, seen the vacant stares of the incurable cases, and even then, long before the voices began to penetrate her mind, she could feel the desolation that had soaked those dingy white walls.

“Miranda?”

She shivered and looked up at him again. “Sorry. Okay, let’s do it.”

He frowned, concerned, but didn’t ask the obvious question. “This way, please.”

She followed him back to the suite, into his bedroom, where he sat in one of the two armchairs that flanked the sofa and gestured for her to take the one opposite. She pulled her legs up and crossed them, wincing at the pain it caused her back.

“The first thing I’m going to teach you is how to ground,” he said, folding his hands with his elbows on the chair’s arms. “It’s a technique as old as psychic energy itself. Once you’re grounded you’ll be able to work from a stable, secure foundation—think of electricity, and how if it isn’t properly grounded it runs wild and can cause destruction. Your talent is the same way.”

“But what am I supposed to do in an emergency, if I don’t have time to do the grounding thing?”

“Ideally you’ll become so familiar with it that you can do it instantly, no matter what the situation. It takes practice, but in time you’ll be able to maintain a state of rational detachment where you can act instead of react.”

“I take it you’re grounded right now.”

He nodded, looking faintly amused. “I’m always grounded. Keeping my energy flowing in an even circuit is the key to my emotional equilibrium.”

“Emotional equilibrium. Meaning you never get angry and you’re always perfectly calm.”

“Yes.”

She raised an eyebrow. “Are you sure you’re not just boring?”

The Prime blinked at her, then laughed.

She’d never actually heard him laugh before, and somehow the sound made her feel better in a way she couldn’t quite define.

“All right,” David said, sobering. “Let’s begin. Close your eyes, and bring your attention to your breath . . .”

An hour later, Miranda was completely exhausted, her head pounding so hard she could barely think, and she had the urge to punch her teacher in his perfectly sculpted jaw.

“Stop,” she panted, putting her hands to her temples. “I can’t.”

He looked at her dispassionately. Though he’d been doing the same exercises as she was, demonstrating even more difficult techniques, he was as unruffled as before. She, on the other hand, must look like a funhouse mirror of him, her face red and sweaty and her hair hanging lank in her face. She was slumped in her chair while he sat as straight and regal as ever.

She was as angry at herself as she was with him. What he was showing her wasn’t complicated, and she should have been able to get it. She could play two musical instruments, damn it! All she had to do here was ground herself, then draw energy up through her body and try to move it into a barrier around her mind. He showed her how to time it with her breath, inhaling to draw up energy and exhaling to move it, not forcing, but allowing it to flow so she could get used to how it felt.

Easy enough, in theory. It was a lot like what she did onstage. The trouble was that here she didn’t have her guitar to hide behind. Instead it was just grueling repetition, the same exact exercise over and over and over until it felt like her skull was going to split down the middle.

“Again,” he said.

She wanted to scream, but she tried to do as he said. And failed. The rudimentary shield she tried to raise flopped down around her like a dead fish.

“Again.”

“Stop saying that! You sound like a fucking Teletubby! Let me rest for a minute.”

The worst part was that he knew how tired she was, but she had no idea what was going on behind his mask of indifference. Didn’t he care that she was in pain?

“We can’t move on from here until you get this right,” he told her matter-of-factly.

“Fine, but does it have to be tonight? I’m tired. My head hurts. My back is killing me.” She fought back the angry tears that sprang to her eyes. “I don’t deserve this. Not after everything.”

“Life doesn’t care what you deserve,” he replied with all the warmth of an iceberg. “You didn’t deserve to be raped, but it happened. The people who die out there on the street every night often don’t deserve their fates. Veal calves don’t deserve theirs. Do you want to spend the rest of your life as a victim, or do you want to be strong?”

“I don’t know,” she groaned. “Right now all I want is for my head to stop hurting. Just let me rest.”

“Not until you get this right. Now stop whining and do it again.”

Anger, poisonous and hot, boiled up along her spine. The feeling was familiar, and delicious, and it flooded her body with renewed energy, but she couldn’t think—all she could do was feel, and she summoned all her meager strength and struck out at the coldhearted bastard who was making her do this. She flung power at him almost like a lightning bolt, and she could
hear
herself snarling.

As soon as the bolt left her body she realized what she was doing and tried to pull it back. Pain seared her mental “hands” and she cried out—too late. She tried to warn him . . .

. . . but it turned out she didn’t have to. When the energy reached him, it hit his shields, and she could almost see the way they flexed and shifted around him to absorb the hit and ground it out without an iota of her rage touching him. She watched, fascinated, as the shield’s energy compensated for the hit and rippled backward like an indestructible soap bubble, then returned to normal, without the Prime seeming to consciously react. It all happened in seconds.

They stared at each other. Her heart was hammering in her chest and she couldn’t seem to catch her breath.

“Ground,” he instructed calmly.

She was crying, but she ignored the tears and did as he said. Grounding was easy compared to the rest. When she was done, she wiped her eyes, the last of the anger gone, and put her head back in her hands. “You did that on purpose, didn’t you?”

“It’s important that you understand what’s at stake.”

“I’m sorry. I could have killed you.”

There was a smile in his voice. “No, you couldn’t have. A psychic attack may kill a human and completely incapacitate an ordinary vampire, but never me. The shields you saw are a part of what we, as vampires, are. Mine are stronger than most because I had to learn at a very young age to control my abilities.”

“Young? How young?”

“I started manifesting talent when I was a child. It was . . . not accepted in that time and place. For most of my mortal life I never revealed to anyone what I could do.”

“What can you do? I mean, besides . . . that.”

His eyes moved from her face to the coffee table, and she stared, openmouthed, as the entire table quivered, rose off the floor by several inches, then lit back down. He didn’t so much as bat an eye at the expense of energy.

“Holy shit. I take it not all vampires can do that.”

He shrugged fluidly. “Some Primes can. We have powers that aren’t found among lesser vampires. Still, mine are considered rare.”

She stared at the table, almost waiting for it to move again. “So what happened, when you were human?”

He met her gaze, and for just a second, the mask seemed to slip, and she saw pain beneath it—years and years of pain that no amount of power or prestige had eased. Then his expression cleared and she almost believed she’d imagined it, until he said quietly, “A stranger came to town.”

She tried for the lame joke. “A gunslinger?”

He returned her weak smile with one that was equally thin. “A Witchfinder.”

Before she could ask, the bedroom door flew open, and Faith appeared, her face pale and grave.

“Sire, you’re needed immediately,” she said with a peculiar catch in her voice. “There’s a . . . situation.”

He held Faith’s eyes for a second, then rose smoothly from his chair. “Go to bed,” he directed Miranda as he pulled on his coat. “Tomorrow night you’ll try again.”

They departed without another word, leaving Miranda alone in the Prime’s bedroom wondering what was going on. David had, of course, maintained that precious “emotional equilibrium,” but she had this feeling that underneath it he was upset, and that whatever had just happened was only going to make things worse.

She found she was madly curious about the workings of the Court, like an anthropologist studying the Pygmies for
National Geographic
. She might as well have been hiding in the bushes with a video camera.

A voice erupted from the band around her wrist, and she yelped.

“All personnel are advised that the com network will be down for maintenance until further notice.”

There was a click, and she felt . . . something change. The signal to the com must have been cut off; she hadn’t realized she could actually feel it until now.

She started to get up and go to bed, as the Prime had commanded, but when she tried to stand, her legs wouldn’t support her. It was strange how her body was so worn out after an hour of working nothing but her mind. The room spun around her, and she made it a couple of feet sideways until her calves struck the edge of the couch.

That would do. She let herself fall onto it, groping for the blanket she knew was still there, and though she didn’t have the strength to stay awake, sliding into sleep she could feel a current of deeply troubled emotions that crept into the darkness of her dreams.

“. . . our unit has been ambushed. We received . . . a false call to these coordinates for backup . . . fired upon from above . . . all Elite down . . . the network has been compromised. I repeat . . . the com network has been . . . compromised . . .”

Faith had worked for David Solomon long enough to know when he was pissed.

She replayed the message from Elite 14 to the tense silence of the conference room, where all the other patrol leaders were gathered minus those who were out on duty now and the team she’d sent to recover the bodies. She watched as the Prime’s face went from calm to steely, and the blue of his eyes went icy at the edges. A silvering of the eye color was a sure sign that a vampire was about to spill blood.

The aura of power around him swelled and darkened until it looked like a thunderstorm waiting to explode. The others took an involuntary step back.