Authors: Maeve Binchy
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Electronic edition: February 2004
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To my dear good Gordon.
Thank you for a lifetime of generosity,
understanding and love.
hen Ella Brady was six she went to Quentins. It was the first time anyone had called her Madam. A woman in a black dress with a lace collar had led them to the table. She had settled Ella's parents in and then held out a chair for the six-year-old.
“You might like to sit here, Madam, it will give you a full view of everything,” she said. Ella was delighted and well able to deal with the situation.
“Thank you, I'd like that,” she said graciously. “You see, it's my very first time here.” This was in case anyone might mistake her for a regular diner.
Her mother and father probably were looking at her dotingly, as they always did. That's what all the childhood pictures showed, anywayÂ .Â .Â . complete adoration. She remembered her mother telling her that she was the best girl in the world, and her father saying it was a great pity he had to go off to the office every day, otherwise he would stay at home with the best girl.
Once Ella asked why she didn't have sisters and brothers like everyone else seemed to. Her mother said that God had sent only one to this family, but weren't they lucky that it was such a wonderful one. Years later, Ella learned of the many miscarriages and false hopes. But at the time the explanation satisfied her completely, and it did mean that there was no one she had to share
her toys or her parents with and that had to be good. They took her to the zoo and introduced her to the animals, they brought her to the circus whenever it came to town, they even went for a weekend to London and took her picture outside Buckingham Palace. But somehow nothing was ever as important as that first visit to a grown-up restaurant, where she had been called Madam and given a seat with a good view.
The Bradys lived on Tara Road, which they had bought years earlier, before house prices started to rocket. It was a tall house with a big back garden where Ella could invite her friends from school. The house had been divided into apartments when the Bradys bought it. So there was a bathroom and kitchenette on every floor. They had restored most of it to make it a family home, but Ella's friends were very envious that she had what was like a little world of her own. It was a peaceful, orderly life. Her father, Tim, had a twenty-two-minute walk to the office every day, and twenty-nine minutes back on the return journey, because he paused to have a half-pint of beer and read the evening paper.
Ella's mother, Barbara, worked only mornings. She was the one who opened up the solicitors' offices right in town near Merrion Square. They trusted her utterly, she always said proudly, to have everything ready when the partners arrived in at nine-thirty
. All their mail would be on their desks, sorted for them. Someone to answer early-morning phone calls and to imply that they were already at work. Then she would go through the huge collection in what was called Barbara's Basket, where they all left anything at all to do with money. Barbara thought of herself as a superefficient bookkeeper, and she controlled the four disorganized, crusty lawyers she worked for with iron rules. Where was this receipt for transportation undertaken in the course of a case? Where was that invoice for the new stationery that
someone had ordered? Obediently, like small boys, they delivered their accounts to her and she kept them in great ledgers. Barbara dreaded the day when they would all become computerized. But it was still far away. These four would move very slowly. They would have liked the quill pen to work with had they been given a choice!
Barbara Brady left the office at lunchtime. At first she needed to do this in order to pick up Ella from school, but even when her daughter was old enough to return accompanied only by a crowd of laughing girls, Barbara continued the routine of working a half-day only. Barbara knew that she achieved more in her four-and-a-half-hour stint than most others did in a full day. And she knew that her employers realized this too. So she was always in the house when Ella returned. It all worked out very well. Ella had somebody at home to provide a glass of milk and shortbread and to listen to her colorful account of the events of the day, this drama and that adventure. Also, to help her daughter with what homework needed to be done.
This system meant that Tim Brady had an orderly house and a good cooked meal to return to when he got back from the investment brokers where he worked with ever-increasing anxiety over the years. And when he came home every evening at the same time, Ella had a second audience for her marvelous people-filled stories. And the lines of care would fall gradually from his face as she followed her father around the garden, first as a toddler, then as a leggy schoolgirl. She would ask questions about the office that her own mother would never dare to ask. Did they think well of Daddy at the office? Was he ever going to be in charge? And later, when it was clear to Ella how unhappy her father was, she asked him why he didn't go somewhere else to work.
Tim Brady might have left the office where he was so uneasy and gone to another position, but the Bradys were not people to whom change came easily. They had taken a long time to commit to marriage, and an even longer time to produce Ella. They were nearly forty when she arrived, a different generation from the other parents of young children. But that only deepened their love for her. And their determination that she should have everything that life could possibly give her. They did their basement up as a self-contained flat, and let it to three bank girls in order to make a fund for Ella's education. They never did anything just for themselves. In the beginning a few heads were shaken about it all. Was there a possibility that they did
much for the child? some people wondered. That they would spoil her totally? But as it happened, even those who had forebodings had to agree that all this love and attention did Ella no harm at all.
From the start she seemed able to laugh at herself. And everyone else. She grew into a tall, confident girl who was open and friendly and who seemed to love her parents as much as they loved her.
Ella kept a photograph album of all the happy events of childhood, and wrote captions under the pictures: “Daddy and Mam and the chimp at the zoo. Chimp is on left,” and would peal with laughter at it every time.
Even at the age of thirteen, when other children might have wriggled away from scenes of family life, Ella's blond head pored over the pictures.
“Was that the blue dress I wore to Quentins?” she asked.
“Imagine you remembering that!” Her father was delighted.
“Is it still there?” she asked.
“Very much so, it's gotten smarter, more expensive, but it's certainly still there and doing well.”
“Oh.” She seemed disappointed to hear it had become expensive. Her parents looked at each other.
“It's a long time since she's been there, Tim?”
“Over half her lifetime,” he agreed, and they decided to go to Quentins on Saturday night.
Ella looked at everything with her sharp, young eyes. The place looked a lot more luxurious now than the last time. The thick linen napkins had an embroidered Q on them. The waiters and waitresses wore smart black trousers and white shirts, they knew all about every dish and explained clearly how they were cooked.
Brenda Brennan had noticed the girl looking around with interest. She was exactly the teenage daughter that Brenda would have loved to have had. Alert, friendly, laughing with her parents and grateful for being taken out to a smart place to eat. You didn't always see them like that. Often they were bored and sulky and she would tell Patrick later on in the night that possibly they had been lucky to escape parenthood. But this one was every mother's dream. And her parents didn't look all that young either. The man could be sixtyâhe was tired and slightly stoopedâthe mother in her fifties. Lucky people, the Bradys, to have had such a treasure late in their years.
“What do most people like best to eat, are there any favorites?” the girl asked Brenda when she brought them the menu.
“A lot of our customers like the way we do fishÂ .Â .Â . we keep it very simple, with a sauce on the side. And of course many more people are vegetarian nowadays, so Chef has to think up new recipes all the time.”
“He must be very clever,” Ella said. “And does he talk to you all normally and everything while he's working? I mean, is he temperamental?”
“Oh, he talks all right, not always normally; then, of course, he's married to me, so he
to talk to me or I'd
murder him.” They all laughed together and Ella felt so good to be treated as one of the grown-ups. Then Brenda moved on to another table.
Ella saw both her parents looking at her very intensely.
“What's wrong? Did I talk too much?” she asked, looking from one to the other. She knew she was inclined to prattle on.
“Nothing's wrong, sweetheart. I was just thinking what a pleasure it is to bring you anywhere, you get so much out of everything and everyone,” her mother said.
“And I was thinking almost the very same thing,” her father said, beaming at her.
And as Ella went on to high school, she wondered if it was possible that they might care
much about her. All the other girls at school said that their parents were utterly monstrous. She gave a little shiver in case suddenly everything went sour. Maybe her parents wouldn't like her clothes, her career, her husband? It was going dangerously smoothly so far. And it continued to go well during what were meant to be the years from hell, when Ella was sixteen and seventeen. Every other girl at the school had been in open warfare with one or both parents. There had been scenes and tears and dramas. But never in the Brady household.
Barbara may have thought the party dresses Ella bought were far too skimpy. Tim may have thought the music coming from Ella's bedroom too loud. Ella might have wished that her father didn't turn up in his nice safe car and wait outside the disco to take her home at the end of an evening, as if she were a child. But if anyone thought these things, they were never said. Ella did complain that her father fussed over her too much and that her mother worried about her, but she did it lovingly. By the time Ella was eighteen and ready to go to college, it was still one of the most cheerful, peaceful households in the Western Hemisphere.
Ella's friend Deirdre was full of envy. “It's not fair, really it isn't. They haven't even got annoyed with you for doing science. Most parents refuse point-blank to let you do what you want.”
“I know,” Ella said, worried. “It's a bit abnormal, isn't it?”
“They don't have rows either,” Deirdre grumbled. “Mine are always in at each other about money and drinkÂ .Â .Â . everything, in fact.”
Ella shrugged. “No, they don't drink, and of course we rent out the flat so they have plenty of moneyÂ .Â .Â . and I'm not a drug addict or anything, so I suppose they don't have any worries.”
“But why are they all on red alert about everything in
house?” Deirdre wailed.
Ella shrugged. She couldn't explain itÂ .Â .Â . it just didn't seem to be a problem.
“Wait until we want to stay out all night and go to bed with fellows, then it will be a problem,” Deirdre said with her voice full of menace.
But oddly, when that happened it wasn't a problem at all.
In their first year at the university, Ella and Deirdre had made a new friend, Nuala, who was from the country and had her own flat. Right in the center of the city. So whenever anything was going to be too late or too hard to get home from, the fiction of Nuala's flat was used. Ella wondered if they were truly convinced, or did they suspect that she might be up to some adventure. Perhaps they didn't
to know about any adventures, so they didn't ask questions to which the answers, if truthful, might be unacceptable. They just trusted her to get along with everything as they always had. Occasionally, she felt a bit guilty, but there weren't all that many occasions.
Ella never fell in love during her four years at school, which made her unusual. She did have sex though. Not
a great deal of it. Ella's first lover was Nick, a fellow student. Nick Hayes was first and foremost a friend, but one night he told Ella that he had fancied her from the moment she had come into the first lecture. She had been so cool and calm, while he had always been overeager and loud and saying the wrong thing.
“I never saw you like that,” Ella said truthfully.
“It's got to do with having freckles, green eyes, and having to shout for attention as a member of a large family,” he explained.
“Well, I think it's nice,” she said.
“Does that mean you fancy me a bit too?” he asked hopefully.
“I'm not sure,” she said.
He was so disappointed that she couldn't bear to see his face. “Couldn't we just
a lot instead of desiring each other?” she asked. “I'd love to know about you and why you think science is a good way into filmmaking, and, wellÂ .Â .Â . lots of things,” she ended lamely.
“Does that mean that you find me loathsome, repulsive?” he asked.
Ella looked at him. He was trying to joke, but his face looked very vulnerable. “I find you very attractive, Nick,” she said.
And so they became lovers.