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Authors: Amanda Grange

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'For we must get ready for the evening's entertainment,' Louisa said, before she and Rebecca departed.

* * * *

Rebecca found herself looking forward to the soiree as she stepped out of the carriage later that evening and made her way, beside Louisa, into Mrs Camberwell's house. She was dressed in a becoming gown of white satin with an underskirt of deepest crimson. Deep reds were still fashionable, according to the Ladies' Monthly Museum, and Rebecca was glad of it. Strong colours had always suited her snow-white complexion and her rich, dark hair.

Mrs Camberwell lived with her brother in one of the fashionable new houses that were going up in Manchester all the time. It was similar to the house Rebecca and Louisa had rented, but its furniture and decorations were much more elegant and reflected Mrs Camberwell's fine taste. Gilded mirrors hung on the walls, Buhl furniture graced the living rooms, and Aubusson carpets softened the floors.

'My dears, I am so glad you could come,' said Mrs Camberwell, taking them by the arm and leading them in. There are so many people I am longing to introduce you to. My sister, Camilla, you already know,' she said, indicating Mrs Renwick, 'and . . . .'

Rebecca heard no more. Standing at the far side of the room, which had been arranged ready for the evening's music with rows of chairs facing an ornate music stand, was Joshua.

Now that matters had been resolved between them, Rebecca had hoped they could look forward to a normal working relationship. But all such reasonable thoughts flew out of the window when she saw him at the other side of the room.

He was looking more devastatingly attractive than she had ever seen him. His clothes were immaculate, clinging to his body as though they had been formed around him, revealing the hard contours of his broad shoulders and the firm lines of his powerful chest. His hair, by contrast, was rumpled, as though he had run his hands though it. But instead of making him look untidy it made him look vigorous and vital. His face, catching the shadows created by the candles, was sharply contoured, and where his cheekbones caught the light they glowed.

He turned as she walked into the room, but there was nothing burning in his gaze. Instead it was cool.

His apparent indifference hurt her. Despite the fact she had refused his hand she found she could not be indifferent to him. It was not simply because she was attracted to him, it was because of the way she felt in his company - truly alive.

But she must quell such unruly feelings. Because having given her a cold nod he had turned his attention back to the young lady he was talking to, and to make things ten times worse, that young lady was Miss Serena Quentin.

Rebecca had met Miss Quentin on a number of the recent dinner parties and she did not like the coquettish blonde, who had a hard, ruthless streak - but then, Rebecca reminded herself, so did Joshua.

Rebecca averted her gaze, but not before she had noticed that Joshua was apparently enjoying Miss Quentin's bold sallies.

Rebecca forced herself to give her attention back to Mrs Camberwell.

'. . . Mr Willingham,' finished Mrs Camberwell.

Rebecca managed a polite smile as Mr Willingham bent over her hand.

*We meet again,' he said.

Yes, indeed,' said Rebecca.

You have already met?' asked Mrs Camberwell in surprise.

1 had the pleasure of meeting Miss Fossington this afternoon, outside the Exchange Hall,' said Mr Willingham. 'I was with Mr and Mrs Renwick,' he explained. We repaired to the library and partook of some ices.' He gave his attention back to Rebecca. 1 may be allowed to sit next to you, I hope, when the music begins?'

Rebecca said that he might.

As the musicians set up their music stands he began to tell her all about the excellent concerts that were held in Manchester.

1 wouldn't want you to think the mills are the sum total of the city,' he said. We are as cultured as our fellows in London, I hope. Concerts in the Cornmarket are a regular feature of life in Manchester.'

Rebecca answered him politely, but couldn't help her eyes once again drifting to Joshua. Was he really finding Miss Quentin so diverting? she wondered, as he smiled again at something the young lady said.

As Rebecca talked to Mr Willingham about her impressions of Manchester, Mrs Camberwell drew Edward, her brother, aside.

‘I
want you to pay particular attention to Rebecca this evening, Edward,' she said to him in an undertone.

Edward looked mildly surprised.

'She seems to be getting on very well with Willingham,' he said. He's a very wealthy gentleman, and a man of some influence in Manchester. I thought you would be keen to promote the match.'

Willingham? Nonsense! Rebecca was made for Joshua.'

Edward glanced at Joshua. 1 hate to contradict you, Emily, but his interests lie in another direction. He seems to be very taken with Miss Quentin.'

'Serena Quentin is a scheming hussy who wants to add him to her list of conquests. But Joshua has too much sense to be taken in by her. He is simply passing the time.'

'He seems to find it a very pleasant way of doing so.'

'Nonsense,' declared Mrs Camberwell. 'Didn't you see the look on his face when Willingham kissed Rebecca's hand? He looked as if he'd like to strangle the man with his bare hands.'

'Really, Emily,' said Edward, but without any real hope of changing his sister, or of encouraging her to use less dramatic turns of phrase.

Which is why I want you to pay attention to her,' said Emily.

Why?' he asked her innocently. 'So that Joshua can strangle me with his bare hands?'

'Nonsense!' said Emily in exasperation. 'Of course not! So that hell be jealous, of course.'

1 cannot see the point of making him jealous, when Rebecca, too, is clearly interested elsewhere. She is looking avidly at Mr Willingham,' he protested mildly.

'Only because she has impeccable manners and therefore looks at him when he is talking to her. But the second he looks away from her, her eyes go straight to Joshua. There is evidently some bad blood between them but they are finding it difficult to keep their eyes off each other. See!' she declared triumphantly, as Mr Willingham helped himself to a drink from a tray carried round by a waiter and Rebecca's glance went at once to Joshua. What did I tell you!'

Unaware of Mrs Camberwell's well-meaning interference, Rebecca continued to talk politely to Mr Willingham, whilst wishing he would betake himself off to one of the other young ladies who glided round the room. However, he seemed to want nothing better than to stay by her side - as Miss Quentin seemed to want nothing better than to stay by Joshua's side.

Serena was teasing him about something, that much was obvious, and the harder Rebecca tried not to take any notice of it the more the conversation seemed to reach her ears.

'Do let me!' Miss Quentin was saying laughingly, tugging at Joshua's hand. It is such a pretty ring, and would look so lovely on my finger.'

Rebecca realized with a sinking feeling that Miss Quentin wanted to try on Joshua's signet ring, the one that had been left to him by her grandfather.

Joshua evidently shared her feelings on the subject, however, for his voice, deep and masculine, carried towards her across the room. 'No.'

Rebecca glanced in his direction and saw him put his hand down firmly by his side. Miss Quentin pouted, but he remained unmoved. 1 will allow no one else to wear that particular ring,' he said.

'Not even your future bride?' asked Miss Quentin, looking up at him with a sideways glance.

Joshua laughed. 'For my future bride I will make an exception,' he said. A moment later dashing her hopes by
adding with a sardonic smile, ‘
But not for you.'

Miss Quentin pouted, but Joshua was impervious to her coquettish ways and making her a mocking bow he left her side.

Rebecca hastily turned her attention back to Mr Willingham, who was exhorting her to choose a seat for the concert.

As the music began, Rebecca thought that the one bright spot of the evening was that Louisa appeared to be having an enjoyable time. The gentle spinster's face glowed and she looked much
younger than her five-and-forty years. Edward Sidders had noticed it, too, if the animation of his conversation was anything to go by, and Rebecca was glad. It was time Cousin Louisa had some fun.

Then she gave her attention to the music. The lady harpist's fingers flew over the strings, and the time passed most agreeably until supper
.

'Ah! Here is Joshua,' said Louisa, as she and Edward joined Rebecca. 'He has come to take you into supper.'

 

 

 

Joshua had not come to do any such thing, of that Rebecca was sure. But Louisa's spontaneous words left him with no
alternative and he murmured, ‘D
elighted.'

Mr Willingham, robbed of his chance to escort Rebecca, made his excuses and then left them, for which Rebecca would have been grateful if it had not meant that she had to go in to supper with Joshua.

She had found his heat and passion difficult to cope with. She was finding his coldness far worse.

'I told Rebecca we would see you here,' said Louisa happily. 'I had hoped to see you sooner, but I dare say you have been busy with the mill.'

Joshua responded warmly, and Rebecca was pleased to see that, although his attitude to her was distinctly cool, his manner with Louisa was friendly and unrestrained.

And yet it made her realize that this was yet another feature of his personality which drew her to Joshua - his kindness to those so much weaker than himself.

Her feelings were becoming confused again, she realized. Given that he had offered her his hand for the sake of her reputation she was not sorry she had refused it. But yet the thought of his never offering it to her again made her feel very low.

It was all too difficult. She was not used to such conflicting emotions, and she found them most uncomfortable. But then, wasn't that what love was all about?

Love! What nonsense. In love with Joshua? What an idea! She was perplexed by him. Angered. Confused. Provoked. But in love with him?

Never.

'But come!' said Louisa, rescuing Rebecca from her thoughts. We must go into supper, and you can tell us all about it.'

Joshua made Rebecca a stiff bow and offered her his arm. She placed her hand on it, letting her fingertips barely graze it, and they went into supper.

You must be delighted to be running the mill at last,' said Louisa. 1 know how interested you were in it, and how you spent a great deal of time with Jebadiah whilst he taught you all about it. What a long time ago that seems.'

1 am delighted,' Joshua agreed, scarcely looking at Rebecca as he took his place at the table.

'Fancy Jebadiah leaving half of the mill to Rebecca! Stocks and bonds, these are what most people would have left, but not Jebadiah! He was an eccentric old man, to be sure. But Rebecca has always been so clever, and Jebadiah liked clever women. Our grandmother had a keen mind. So I suppose it is no wonder, after all.' She beamed at them both. 'And when are you going to show her round the mill?' she asked.

Rebecca glanced at Joshua. He glanced at her at the same moment and their eyes met. He looked away.

Rebecca had a momentary wish that she had never expressed an interest in the mill; that she had said from the outset that she wanted nothing to do with it; because becoming involved in the mill would mean spending time with Joshua, and despite the fact that she did not love him - as she firmly told herself - she felt a strange connection to him which was making it difficult for her to be in his company.

A moment later she chided herself for cowardice.

Of course she must take an interest in the mill. She owed it to her grandfather. And besides, she was interested, and felt she had a part to play. If she found it difficult to be in Joshua's company, that was simply a misfortune she would have to bear.

Perhaps we can set a date for my visit to the mill tonight,' she said, as they sat down to a varied selection of appetizing food. 'Now that I am in Manchester I would like to see round it as soon as possible.'

He replied politely but coolly. 'Of course.' 1 thought perhaps Friday,' went on Rebecca. If you do not have time to show me round yourself, perhaps the manager can do so,' she said, her courage suddenly faltering.

'Of course Joshua will have time to show you round!' exclaimed Louisa.

1 would be delighted to be of service to you,' he said formally. Though whether he would have said it if not for Louisa's exclamation Rebecca had no way of knowing. 'Shall we say, two o'clock?'

Two o'clock,' Rebecca agreed.

She took a sip of wine.

'And I suppose I must go with you as your chaperon,' said Louisa doubtfully.

'You must do no such thing,' said Rebecca. She knew how timid Louisa was, and knew she would not like to visit the mill. Betsy will come with me.'

Well, dear, if you're sure,' said Louisa. She tried to appear unconcerned, but there was a note of relief in her voice.

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