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Revolutionary Petunias and Other Poems
Alice Walker

Humbly for George Jackson, who could “still smile sometimes.…” Whose eyes warmed to life until the end; whose face was determined, unconquered, and sweet.

And for my heroes, heroines, and friends of early SNCC whose courage and beauty burned me forever.

And for the Mississippi Delta legend of Bob Moses.

And for Winson Hudson and Fannie Lou Hamer whose strength and compassion I cherish.

And for my friend, Charles Merrill, the artist, who paints skies.

And for Mel, the Trouper’s father, who daily fights and daily loves, from a great heart.

Contents

In These Dissenting Times … Surrounding Ground and Autobiography

In These Dissenting Times

I The Old Men Used to Sing

II Winking at a Funeral

III Women

IV Three Dollars Cash

V You Had to Go to Funerals

VI Uncles

VII They Take a Little Nip

VIII Sunday School, Circa 1950

Burial I-VI

For My Sister Molly Who in the Fifties

Eagle Rock

Baptism

J, My Good Friend (another foolish innocent)

View from Rosehill Cemetery: Vicksburg

Revolutionary Petunias …the Living Through

Revolutionary Petunias

Expect Nothing

Be Nodody’s Darling

Reassurance

Nothing Is Right

Crucifixions

Black Mail

Lonely Particular

Perfection

The Girl Who Died #1

Ending

Lost My Voice? Of Course / for Beanie

The Girl Who Died #2 / for d.p.

The Old Warrior Terror

Judge Every One with Perfect Calm

The QPP

He Said Come

Mysteries…the Living Beyond

Mysteries

I

II

III

IV

Gift

Clutter-Up People

Thief

Will

Rage

Storm

What the Finger Writes

Forbidden Things

No Fixed Place

New Face

The Nature of This Flower Is to Bloom

While Love Is Unfashionable

Beyond What

The Nature of This Flower Is to Bloom

A Biography of Alice Walker

These poems are about Revolutionaries and Lovers; and about the loss of compassion, trust, and the ability to expand in love that marks the end of hopeful strategy. Whether in love or revolution. They are also about (and for) those few embattled souls who remain painfully committed to beauty and to love even while facing the firing squad.

—Alice Walker

In These Dissenting Times

To acknowledge our ancestors means

we are aware that we did not make

ourselves, that the line stretches

all the way back, perhaps, to God; or

to Gods. We remember them because it

is an easy thing to forget: that we

are not the first to suffer, rebel,

fight, love and die. The grace with

which we embrace life, in spite of

the pain, the sorrows, is always a

measure of what has gone before.

—Alice Walker, “Fundamental Difference”

IN THESE DISSENTING TIMES

I shall write of the old men I knew

And the young men

I loved

And of the gold toothed women

Mighty of arm

Who dragged us all

To church.

I
THE OLD MEN USED TO SING

The old men used to sing

And lifted a brother

Carefully

Out the door

I used to think they

Were born

Knowing how to

Gently swing

A casket

They shuffled softly

Eyes dry

More awkward

With the flowers

Than with the widow

After they’d put the

Body in

And stood around waiting

In their

Brown suits.

II
WINKING AT A FUNERAL

Those were the days

Of winking at a

Funeral

Romance blossomed

In the pews

Love signaled

Through the

Hymns

What did we know?

Who smelled the flowers

Slowly fading

Knew the arsonist

Of the church?

III
WOMEN

They were women then

My mama’s generation

Husky of voice—Stout of

Step

With fists as well as

Hands

How they battered down

Doors

And ironed

Starched white

Shirts

How they led

Armies

Headragged Generals

Across mined

Fields

Booby-trapped

Ditches

To discover books

Desks

A place for us

How they knew what we

Must
know

Without knowing a page

Of it

Themselves.

IV
THREE DOLLARS CASH

Three dollars cash

For a pair of catalog shoes

Was what the midwife charged

My mama

For bringing me.

“We wasn’t so country then,” says Mom,

“You being the last one—

And we couldn’t, like

We done

When she brought your

Brother,

Send her out to the

Pen

And let her pick

Out

A pig.”

V
YOU HAD TO GO
TO FUNERALS

You had to go to funerals

Even if you didn’t know the

People

Your Mama always did

Usually your Pa.

In new patent leather shoes

It wasn’t so bad

And if it rained

The graves dropped open

And if the sun was shining

You could take some of the

Flowers home

In your pocket

book. At six and seven

The face in the gray box

Is always your daddy’s

Old schoolmate

Mowed down before his

Time.

You don’t even ask

After a while

What makes them lie so

Awfully straight

And still. If there’s a picture of

Jesus underneath

The coffin lid

You might, during a boring sermon,

Without shouting or anything,

Wonder who painted it;

And how
he
would like

All eternity to stare

It down.

VI
UNCLES

They had broken teeth

And billy club scars

But we didn’t notice

Or mind

They were uncles.

It was their
job

To come home every summer

From the North

And tell my father

He wasn’t no man

And make my mother

Cry and long

For Denver, Jersey City,

Philadelphia.

They were uncles.

Who noticed how

Much

They drank

And acted womanish

With they do-rags

We were nieces.

And they were almost

Always good

For a nickel

Sometimes

a dime.

VII
THEY TAKE A LITTLE NIP

They take a little nip

Now and then

Do the old folks

Now they’ve moved to

Town

You’ll sometimes

See them sitting

Side by side

On the porch

Straightly

As in church

Or working diligently

Their small

City stand of

Greens

Serenely pulling

Stalks and branches

Up

Leaving all

The weeds.

VIII
SUNDAY SCHOOL, CIRCA 1950

“Who made you?” was always

The question

The answer was always

“God.”

Well, there we stood

Three feet high

Heads bowed

Leaning into

Bosoms.

Now

I no longer recall

The Catechism

Or brood on the Genesis

Of life

No.

I ponder the exchange

Itself

And salvage mostly

The leaning.

Burial

I

They have fenced in the dirt road

that once led to Wards Chapel

A.M.E. church,

and cows graze

among the stones that

mark my family’s graves.

The massive oak is gone

from out the church yard,

but the giant space is left

unfilled;

despite the two-lane blacktop

that slides across

the old, unalterable

roots.

II

Today I bring my own child here;

to this place where my father’s

grandmother rests undisturbed

beneath the Georgia sun,

above her the neatstepping hooves

of cattle.

Here the graves soon grow back into the land.

Have been known to sink. To drop open without

warning. To cover themselves with wild ivy,

blackberries. Bittersweet and sage.

No one knows why. No one asks.

When Burning Off Day comes, as it does

some years,

the graves are haphazardly cleared and snakes

hacked to death and burned sizzling

in the brush. … The odor of smoke, oak

leaves, honeysuckle.

Forgetful of geographic resolutions as birds,

the farflung young fly South to bury

the old dead.

III

The old women move quietly up

and touch Sis Rachel’s face.

“Tell Jesus I’m coming,” they say.

“Tell Him I ain’t goin’ to
be

long.”

My grandfather turns his creaking head

away from the lavender box.

He does not cry. But looks afraid.

For years he called her “Woman”;

shortened over the decades to

“ ’Oman.”

On the cut stone for “ ’Oman’s” grave

he did not notice

they had misspelled her name.

(The stone reads
Racher Walker
—not “Rachel”—
Loving Wife, Devoted Mother
.)

IV

As a young woman, who had known her? Tripping

eagerly, “loving wife,” to my grandfather’s

bed. Not pretty, but serviceable. A hard

worker, with rough, moist hands. Her own two

babies dead before she came.

Came to seven children.

To aprons and sweat.

Came to quiltmaking.

Came to canning and vegetable gardens

big as fields.

Came to fields to plow.

Cotton to chop.

Potatoes to dig.

Came to multiple measles, chickenpox,

and croup.

Came to water from springs.

Came to leaning houses one story high.

Came to rivalries. Saturday night battles.

Came to straightened hair, Noxzema, and

feet washing at the Hardshell Baptist church.

Came to zinnias around the woodpile.

Came to grandchildren not of her blood

whom she taught to dip snuff without

sneezing.

____________

Came to death blank, forgetful of it all.

When he called her “ ’Oman” she no longer

listened. Or heard, or knew, or felt.

V

It is not until I see my first grade teacher

review her body that I cry.

Not for the dead, but for the gray in my

first grade teacher’s hair. For memories

of before I was born, when teacher and

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