Authors: C. J. Cherryh
Except she'd all along discounted Wolfe.
Damn dumb, Yeager, damn dumb. So who do they think you're working for if you
aren't Mallory's?
Effin' obvious, Yeager.
"You lied to me," Wolfe said.
"Nossir. Everything the way I said. Crew slot is all I wanted, it's all I want
right now."
Long silence. Wolfe never had any expression. She stood there, just went away a
little inside, figured past a certain point they were going to do whatever they
wanted to do and if command had made up their minds to freight her off to Pell
and Mallory or space her inside the hour, there was damn-all she could do about
it.
But this man could. Could help her, if he would, if what happened in the 'decks
ever concerned him at all, if he didn't just leave crew to suffer Fitch and
Orsini's private war and their maneuvering for power—
There were ships like that, in the Fleet.
"When did you leave your ship?"
"Pell, sir. When the Fleet pulled away. I was on dockside." She added,
uninvited, hammering away at what she wasn't sure Wolfe had heard the first and
the second time: "Not my ship now, sir. This is."
She wasn't sure Wolfe wasn't outright crazy. She wasn't sure she ought to take
one course or the other with him. Or maybe nobody was loyal to this ship, and
Wolfe just didn't figure her. He had that kind of look, just the least doubt in
that cold, ice-blue stare.
Maybe he would just throw her back to Fitch and Orsini and let them fight it
out.
What in hell does Wolfe do on this ship? she had asked Musa. And Musa,
uncomfortable in the question: He ain't a real activist…
Man had to be aware too, that he wasn't totally safe, if she wanted to commit
suicide and take him with her.
But he sat there. He rocked back in his chair and looked at her a long time and
said, "What's the last contact you had with the Fleet?"
That was the question. That was the big one. "Last was my com breaking up. On
Pell. Nothing since." She could see him saying to Fitch: Find out what she
knows. She said, quietly: "Decks never knew anything, no more than here, sir."
Long, long silence, Wolfe just sitting there.
"Master sergeant, was it?"
"Yessir."
"Mechanic?"
"On my own rig, sir. Some of us were."
"Tactical."
"Tac-squad, sir."
"Where before that?"
"Came aboard at sixteen, sir. Born on a miner-ship."
Wolfe pushed his chair back on its track, got up, walked to the side of the
desk. He wasn't armed. She'd thought he might be.
He walked to the side of her, walked around to her back. She didn't know what a
civ would do under the circumstance, gone straight from dumb smartass kid to
shipboard manners a skut better have to survive in the 'decks. And those said
stand still and keep your mouth shut when a mof wanted to think what he was
going to do about you.
Anything you say, sir.
Till you prove you're a fool, sir.
Till I know I got no percentage in anything, sir. Then I'll take a few.
But—
God, what'd they do with NG then? What'd NG do, himself?
Wolfe walked over to the low table and the cushion-chairs at the side of the
office, meddled with something as if he'd forgotten her.
Maybe he had. Maybe he was just slightly crazy. Maybe he was going to see how
long a skut could stand there without panicking and doing something stupid.
Indefinitely. Sir.
"Sit down," Wolfe said. She looked at him. He was offering her a chair at the
office table.
That spooked her, when yelling wouldn't have. "Yessir," she said, and came and
started to sit down, and then thought about her work-clothes and the chance of
beer-spills, deck-dust or worse on that pretty white upholstery. She dusted off,
for what good that would do, but Wolfe having sat down, she sat, opposite him,
and watched him open the little box there.
Chess set. Real one, not just a sim. Real board, real pieces, God knew how old.
"You play?" he asked.
"Some," she said. In the 'decks you played anything and everything.
"Black or white?"
God, he was crazy, she was sitting here in the hands of a crazy man. "Your pick,
sir."
He turned the box, gave her white.
So the first move had to be hers.
She frustrated him a couple of times, which he took with that same dead-cold,
appraising look at the board that he gave to her while she answered his
questions… long, long after the shift-change bell.
What mining-ship?
What's Porey like?
Finally: How much elapsed-time on Tripoint-Pell?
Question that could kill a ship. Kill everyone she'd served with—if she was
tekkie enough to know that answer down to a hair, what Africa's running-cap was.
But you had to know how much mass she'd been hauling.
Wolfe asked that too. And she honestly didn't know. The elapsed-time down to a
half hour, but not a thing about the mass…
"Made many runs in the Hinder Stars?"
"A couple. Mostly Pell-Mariner-Pan-paris. Wyatt's. Viking."
You'd remember that, sir. Remember it damn well, if you were a spook during the
war.
While his fine-boned fingers moved a piece to threaten a knight, and a rook,
some moves down.
"You remember the Gull?"
Name ought to mean something. There'd been a lot of names. They'd taken the
Gull, a little ship, hell if she could sort out whether that was the one they'd
blown or one of the ships that had decel'ed and taken boarders when they were
operating at Tripoint.
Ship-corridors through the mask, past the green readout glow. Scared faces.
Mostly scared faces.
Except the fools who tried to make a fight of it, locked body to body with a
rider-ship, with marines oh their deck.
"Dunno, sir, we took it. Tripoint. I recall the name."
Something to do with you, sir? Or this ship"?
Wolfe didn't say more than that.
She took a pawn, worrying was she supposed to do that. Wolfe was a better
player. Wolfe was moves ahead, and he set you up a route he wanted you to take.
Did it this time.
"Shee—" she started to say, and swallowed it in time.
"Tac-squad," Wolfe said, moving a pawn. "Boarding party. Stations or ships."
"Yessir."
"Know what you're doing with docking equipment."
"Yessir."
"Weapons systems."
"Yessir."
She lost a pawn. Was going to lose a knight. She saw it. Moved the rook.
Damn.
"Armor?"
"Yessir."
"What do you think about this ship, Sgt. Yeager?"
"I'm not a sergeant anymore, sir."
"What do you think about this ship?"
"I got friends aboard."
"On Africa too."
That was a hard thought; and damned clear what he was asking. "Yessir. But no
way this ship could take her, and if she could, that's the way it is, got
friends there, got friends on board here." She moved the threatened knight.
"Don't even know who's alive anymore. Here I do. Me, for one."
"If you weren't on board?"
She honestly thought about that, put herself back on Africa, with Loki for a
target. Her hand hovered over a pawn and she lost her focus. Saw herself up on
charges, old Junker Phillips' face—
"Have to shoot me," she said, and made the move, giving up the pawn. "I dunno,
dunno I could ever get to that, sir. But I got people here—got a lot of people
on this ship."
"So I've heard."
Heard about me and NG. God, I got him in trouble, maybe Musa, too, if Musa
wasn't what he is—
McKenzie—Park and Figi—all those guys—
Maybe Bernstein, too.
Wolfe took the pawn. She took his knight.
She saw it coming, then. Rook took queen in four moves. Check and mate.
She bit her lip, surveyed the board.
Knew Wolfe was several moves ahead in the other game, too.
"You can go," Wolfe said.
"Thank you, sir." She got up carefully, as if the whole place was rigged with
explosives. She was sweating. She only half-felt the pain in her back.
What do I say? Enjoyed the game, sir?
Wolfe let her walk to the door, let her open it, let her walk out into the
restricted section by herself.
She walked through to the bridge, through Fitch's territory to the med-area
corridor, through the galley to rec and the darkened quarters.
0258 alterday.
She went to Musa, told Musa she was back. Musa was wide awake, asked her: "You
all right, Bet?"
"Fine," she whispered back, only then getting a bad case of the shakes. She went
right on over to NG's bunk, but Musa followed her, Musa said, "He's sleeping one
off."
Sleeping one off, hell. He was tied to the damn bunk, out cold. "Dammit," she
said, popped him a light one on the cheek and started working at the knot,
shaking so badly she could hardly work the cord through, especially when NG came
to a little and started pulling. "What'd you give him?"
"Figi's sleeper hold, for starters.—He's all right. I've been watching him."
"Hell!,—Hold still!"
"Bet…"
He wasn't crazy. Not half as crazy as where she'd been. She got him loose, he
hugged her till he hurt her back, but she didn't mind that. She had sore muscles
and he had a bitch of a hangover, evidently, because he made a miserable sound
and held his head.
"Fitch?" he asked.
"Wolfe," she said.
He dropped his hands. Musa said, beside her, "What happened?"
"Captain wanted a chess partner," she said, and almost spilled what Wolfe had
been asking her for three hours, she was so aching tired and so rattled. She got
it together, remembering nobody in the 'decks knew what the mofs knew about her.
Most of all NG didn't know. And she didn't know how long that would last or what
he would do when he found out.
Merchanter, lost from his ship. And there was one way, in the War, that that
would have happened.
"That was all," she said. "We played chess."
CHAPTER 22
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What happened?" was a question she got too damned often in the shower-line and
at breakfast, everybody from McKenzie to Masad out of Cargo, people coming up to
her, and then putting their heads together to whisper the business elsewhere.
The first time she was caught a little off-balance, and hesitated, and said,
"The captain asked into it," as if it was the Fitch business, which was a damn
lie, at bottom, and she wished she'd never been so stupid—like a challenge to
Fitch, and using Wolfe's name for a weapon. It might get back to Fitch. It might
make him think twice. It might also make him talk to the captain about it, and
that wasn't the outcome she wanted, damn sure.
So she wished she could take that back. She changed it as far as she could the
next time she was asked—said, "Captain wanted to ask me some questions, said
keep my mouth shut."
Damn stupid, Yeager. That mouth's going to kill you someday.
She ate her breakfast with her mates, and they were worrying about Fitch, they
were thinking about Wolfe and trying to reckon whether Wolfe was going to come
down on her side, that was all they understood about it.
"I'd be gone," NG had said quietly, in the dark, before the little sleep she had
gotten, "except for Wolfe. I don't know why. Favor to Bernie, I guess. I don't
understand it."
Most she'd ever gotten out of NG on that topic, that dozen or so words.
And when she thought about it this morning, she thought Fitch had to be worried
right now, damn worried, and that she ought to be happy about that situation,
ought to thank God Wolfe had stepped in, and ought to be a whole lot more
cheerful than she was.
Except Fitch just meant to kill her. Wolfe seemed to have decided something last
night, Wolfe had let her go, Wolfe had written her down as a liability or an
asset, she didn't know which.
In either case—expendable.
Hell, she thought, sipping her morning tea, tail back in the fire. What's
different than it ever was?
She had that answered until she saw NG looking at people this morning, looking
around him, looking at her and Musa and paying attention to human beings the way
he could those damn boards, saner this morning than she'd ever seen him.
He'd gotten drunk with friends last night, people had cared enough to sit on him
and knock him stupid to save him, and she'd gotten back safe, God in the person
of Wolfe had intervened to stop Fitch from killing her, and maybe things weren't
going to be the hell they'd been for three years.
Yeah.
Nothing could hurt him before this. Not even Fitch. He wasn't sane enough to
hurt, when I came aboard, and look at all I've done for him. Helped him no end,
haven't I?
Man'd have died for me last night, all he could've done, but he'd have done it.
Maybe he's got some crazy notion my trouble is his fault. Maybe he thinks he's
responsible for me, the same as for Cassel.
If he ever was responsible for Cassel.
Can't prove it, can't ever prove it, can't even do that much for him.
And what when he learns what he's been sleeping with!
Dealing with NG in a social situation was like handling a live grenade—you
really had to pay attention, all the time, to the little things—like how he'd