Authors: C. J. Cherryh
floods, crews working to complete the connections, in Thule's jury-rigged
accommodation for a modern starship. It wasn't a place for spectators. There
were few of them. Thule's inhabitants remembered sorties, remembered bodies
lying on the decking, shots lighting the smoke, and there were no idle
onlookers—just the crews who had work finally, and the usual customs agent, and
no more than that.
Excepting herself, who kept to the shadows of the girders, hands in pockets, and
watched things proceeding. She inhaled the icy, oil-scented air, watched the
pale gray monitor up on top of the pump control box ticking away the numbers,
and felt alive for a while.
The whole dock thundered to the sound of the grapples going out, hydraulics
screamed and squealed, the boom groaned, and finally the crash of contact
carried back down the arms, right through the deck plating and up into an
onlooker's bones.
Soft dock, considering the tiny size of the Thule docking cone and the tinsel
thinness of little Thule's outer wall: damn ticklish maneuver, another reason
the dock was generally vacant. There was the remote chance of a bump breaching
the wall. But there was equally well a chance of a pump blowing under the load
or God knew what else, a dozen ways to get blown to hell and gone anywhere on
Thule. Today it failed to matter. She thought that she could, perhaps, a major
perhaps, go the round of vending machines and buy up food enough and stash it
here and there in the crannies of Thule docks, maybe go to cover if somebody got
onto what was in Ritter-man's bedroom. She could just ignore this ship, wait it
out and hope to talk her way onto Mary Gold when and if she came. That was the
hole card she kept for herself, if Loki was what she was afraid it was.
But Mary Gold had become a small chance, a nothing chance with too many risks of
its own.
She waited, she waited two hours until little Thule got its seal problem
corrected and got Loki snugged in and safe. She stood there very glad of
Ritterman's castoffs under the jumpsuit, made as it had been for dockside chill:
breath still frosted and exposed skin went numb, and she kept her hands in her
pockets. Ice patched the corrugated decking, and the leaky seal that was
dripping water at the gantry-top was going to breed one helluva icicle in five
days' dock time.
Finally the tube went into place, the hatch whined and boomed open, letting out
a light touch of warmer, different air, a little pressure release; and of course
it was the customs man first up the ramp.
She found a place to sit in the vee of a girder, cold as it was, she sat and she
watched, and finally the customs man came out again.
She shivered, she felt—God, a sense of belonging to something again, just being
perched out here freezing her backside, like a dozen other sit-and-waits she
remembered. And it was damn foolish even to start thinking that way. It was
suicidal.
But she wasn't scared, not beyond a flutter in the gut which was her common
sense and the uncertainty of the situation; she wasn't scared, she was just
waiting to risk her neck, that was all, she thought about where she'd been and
where she could go, and it was all still remote from here.
She heard the inside lock open again, heard someone coming. Two of the crew this
time, in nondescript, not military. Her heart beat faster and faster as she
watched them meet with the dock-chief, all the slow talk that usually went on.
More crew came down. More nondescript, nothing like a uniform, no family
resemblance either. She worked cold hands, got up from her wedged-in perch
between the girders and shook the feeling back into her legs, then put her hands
in her pockets and walked up to the latest couple off the ramp.
"You!" a dockworker called out.
But she ignored that. She walked up, nodded a friendly hello—it was a man on
rejuv and a woman headed there, both in brown coveralls, nothing flashy. Work
stuff. " 'Day," she said. "Welcome in. I'm looking. Got any chance?"
Not particularly friendly faces. "No passengers," the man said.
She touched her pocket where the letter was. "Machinist. Stuck here. Who do I
talk to?"
A long slow look, from a cold, deeply creased face; from a hollow-cheeked female
face with a burn scar on the side.
"Talk to me," the man said. "Name's Fitch. First officer."
"Yes, sir." She took a breath and slipped her hands back into her pockets, a
twitch away from parade rest. Damn. Relax. Civ. Dammit. "Name's Yeager. Off
Ernestine. Junior-most and they had to trim crew. Others got hire, but it's been
slim for about six months."
"Not particularly hiring," Fitch said.
"I'm desperate." She kept a tight jaw, breathing shallow. "I'll take scut. I
don't ask a share."
A slow, analyzing stare, head to foot and back again—like he was figuring goods
and bads in what he was looking at.
"Dunno," Fitch said then, and hooked a quick gesture toward the ramp. "Talk to
the Man."
She was half-numb from standing in the airlock, in the kind of dry cold that
froze up any water vapor into a white rime on the surfaces and left the knees
locking up and refusing to work when she stepped over the threshold into Loki's
dim gut. The knees had gotten to the shaking stage when she got through into the
ring (there looked to be only one corridor) and did a drunken walk down the
narrow burn-deck. There was one light showing, one door standing open, besides
the hatches that were probably the downside stowage.
She reached it, saw the blond, smallish man at the desk. Plain brown jumpsuit.
The gimbaled floor made a knee-high step-up. She stood in the corridor and
called up, "Looking for the captain."
"You got him," the Man said, and looked down at her from the desk, so she
stepped up by the toehold in the rim of the deck and ducked to clear the door.
"Bet Yeager, sir." Fitch's name had gotten her inside. Now she was shivering,
her teeth trying to chatter, not entirely from the cold. "Machinist. Freighter
experience. Looking for a berth, sir."
"Any good?"
"Yes, sir."
A long silence. Pale eyes raked her over. A thin hand turned palm up.
She reached to her pocket and pulled out her papers, trying not to let her hand
shake when she put the folder in his hand.
He opened it, unfolded the paper, read it without expression, looked on the
back—everyone did, the last few signatures. And folded it again and gave it
back.
"We're not a freighter," he said.
"Yes, sir."
"But maybe you're not spacer."
"I am, sir."
"You know what we are?"
"I think I do, sir."
A long silence. Thin fingers turned the stylus over and over. "What rating?"
"Third, sir."
More silence. The stylus kept turning. "We don't pay standard. You get a hundred
a day on leave. Period. Board-call goes out ten hours before undock. My name's
Wolfe. Any questions?"
"No, sir."
"That's the right answer. Remember that. Anything else?"
"No, sir."
"See you, Yeager."
"Yes, sir," she said. And ducked her head and got out, off the deck, down the
corridor, out of the ship, still numb.
She thought about going to the Registry. She wanted a drink, she wanted to go
out on the docks with a little in her pocket and hit the bars and get a little
of the cold out of her bones, but she was a stranger to Loki crew and she could
not use Ritterman's card.
So she went back to the apartment and made herself a stiff one.
Loki was no freighter. The captain told that one right. She was still shaken,
the old nerves still answered. Loki wasn't a name she knew, but the name might
not have been Loki six months ago, or the same as that a year ago. The frame was
one of the old, old ones by the look of its guts, a small can-hauler with
oversized tanks where the cans ought to be, something naturally oversized in its
engine pack—tanks easy come by, easy to cobble on even for a half-assed shipyard
like Viking, which had built three such ships the Fleet knew about—ships to lie
out and lurk in the dark of various jump-points, to run again "with information.
Except the Line was shady, and the spooks went this side and that of it, and the
Fleet had trusted them no more than Union had: if you pulled into a point where
a spook was, you took it out and asked no questions.
So this particular spook was all official in the Alliance. The free-merchanters
had put themselves a boycott together, the merchanters had taken over Pell, and
now the spooks the stations had built to keep themselves informed came out in
the open, government papers and everything.
Damned right the captain wasn't going to quibble about her papers. When somebody
shiny bright and proper came in there looking for a berth, that was the time
Loki might ask real close questions.
She sipped Ritterman's whiskey. And tried not to think that, spook or not, it
was about as good as joining up with Mallory. She had to stop the little
twitches, like the one that said stand square, like the sir and the ma'am, like
the little orderly habits with her gear that said military—
So they were Mallory's spies, most probably—but not with Mallory, not too
legitimate, since spooks had regularly sold information to any bidder. And going
onto that ship was a case of hiding in plain sight. If she could learn the
moves, learn the accent, learn a spook's ways—then she could get along on a
spook ship, damn sure she could.
Dangerous. But in some ways less dangerous a hire than on some merchanter on the
up and up, with a crew that expected a merchanter brat to know a lot of things,
things about posts she'd never touched, especially about cargo regs and station
law, things that never had been her business.
She had stood real close to Africa's Old Man once or twice. A couple of thousand
troops in Africa's gut, and Porey rarely put his nose down there, except he went
with them when they went out onto some other deck, Porey was always right in the
middle of it; and being close to him that couple of times—she'd gotten the force
of him, gotten right fast the idea why he was the Old Man, and why everybody
jumped when Porey said move. Porey was the damn-coldest man she had ever stood
next to; and maybe it was only how desperate she was and how Loki was the hope
she'd thrown double or nothing on, but this Wolfe, the way he moved, the way he
talked—said competent, said no-nonsense, said he was a real bastard and you
didn't get any room with him. And that touched old nerves. She knew exactly
where she was with him, cut your throat for a bet, but show him you were good
and you just might do all right with a captain like that.
Spook captain. That Fitch, that Fitch was no easy man, either. That woman with
him you didn't push. That told you something about the captain too.
She poured herself another glass. Maybe, she thought, she was crazy. She wasn't
sure whether she ought not just drop out of sight now until the board-call rang,
stay mostly in the apartment, not go back to the Registry at all—except she
wanted to keep that card of Ritterman's active and she didn't want any chance of
getting an inquiry going into Ritterman's inactivity.
Five days, at least, for Loki's tanks to fill. Maybe closer to four till
boarding, counting the ten hour boarding-call. If she could just keep things
quiet that long, do the daily run to the vending machines, back to the
apartment, and stay put, then everything would work out.
All she had to do was stick it out and check the comp for things like overdue
tapes, things that could require Ritterman's intervention.
Meanwhile she got out Ritterman's collection of fiches and started sorting. That
kind of trade goods was low-mass, it would pack real easy, Thule customs only
worried about guns and power-packs and knives and razor-wire and explosives,
that kind of thing, it had no duty on anything, and there were no regs on Thule
about liquor.
She started packing, at least the sorting part.
She bedded down, the way she had been doing, on Ritterman's couch, she watched a
vid, she drank herself stupid and she woke up with a headache and the absolutely
true memory that she had a berth.
Best damn night she'd had in half a year.
CHAPTER 6
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She made the morning trip to the vending machines, she lived off chips and soda
and cheese sandwiches she heated and added Ritterman's pickles and sauce to.
That was the second day down. She stayed in the apartment otherwise and she went
through everything in the cluttered front rooms, to see what was worth leaving
with.
She checked the comp, she drank, she had another cheese sandwich for supper, she
looked at skuz pictures and she made a hook and fixed up the one of Ritterman's
useable sweaters that was really snagged—like ship, a lot. You tinkered with
stuff, you mended, you washed, you did the drill, you scrubbed anything that
didn't fight back, but hell if she was going to give Ritterman a good rep by
cleaning up this pit: she just kicked his stuff out of her way and washed what