Rockstar's Angel (11 page)

I stare long and hard at my friend. What he's saying is how I'm feeling. I'm hurt because she lied, but it's true. I do want Tanya. I want her to be my angel, and I've waited long enough. I turn and leave the basement gym.

"Where are you going?" Max shouts.

"I've had enough of waiting." I shout back, leaving as quickly as I can.

Tanya

I wake up to my apartment buzzer ringing. I roll over, and see on my clock that it's only 5am! God who could this be?

I groggily make my way over to answer the phone. "Hello?"

"You sound sexy when you're sleepy."

Suddenly, I'm wide awake at the sound of Leo's voice. He's come back? I thought he was pissed.

I buzz him in, opening my front door to let him in. When he reaches my door I'm shocked to see him looking all sweaty. What the hell has he been up to?

Leo sees my shocked face, taking a look down at himself. He shrugs his shoulders as he walks past me into my home. "The guys dragged me from a bar and made me work out in the gym instead."

He went to a bar? Did he get so drunk that Jax and the guys had to fetch him? Why did they make him work out?

I shut the door, following him in. Leo sits himself down on the sofa he sat on earlier. I go to sit opposite him. "No." He shakes his head, patting the space next to him. I swallow, making my way over to him. Truthfully, I'm feeling a little scared. "I've been thinking."

I guess that's a start. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner, Leo." I quickly add.

"Yeah, it would have been better, but here we are." I hang my head, looking down at the floor. "I'm not mad at you, Tanya. I suppose I should be, but I can't." I lift my head up and see Leo staring down at me. His eyes are soft, he doesn't look mad at all. Tired maybe, but not mad.

"You're not mad at me?"

He wraps an arm around me, smiling. "No, I can't be. I've waited for you for a long fucking time and I don't wanna waste time being mad at you, when we can make up for lost time."

Wow! I really didn't expect this!

"Maybe I am a little mad though." I catch my breath, shit. His eyes bore into me, his tiredness has gone, is that lust I see? "I've heard make up sex is fucking amazing."

I bite down on my lip as a rush of need flows through me. Leo uses his thumb to unlatch my lip from my tooth’s grip. "Make up sex?"

I see his jaw tense. "Let me use my body to punish you."

Oh God, what this man does to me. He leans in, kissing me, and all thought goes out of the window. My hands go under his shirt and I squirm. "EWWW Leo, you're all sweaty."

He quickly stands, removing his top. Throwing it down on the floor he pulls me up by the hand to stand in front of him. "Let's get sweaty together."

He reaches for me, throwing me over his shoulder. I giggle and scream all the way to my room, where he throws me down on the bed. I still have on my very unsexy onesie, so he slowly undoes the zip. When he sees I have nothing on underneath he growls deep in his throat. He tears the onesie from my body in no time at all, I'm very impressed.

After we're both fully naked, I can't help but stare at him. He's beautiful. Not in a feminine way, but all man, beautifully sexy. I lick my lips, I want to taste every inch of him and more. I don't get a chance though, because Leo rips his belt from his jeans, leaning down to kiss me again. The belt is long forgotten as he soothes his rough hands over my arms, bringing them to rest over my head. I gasp when he quickly and skilfully ties my wrists together, hooking them over my bed post. Leo flashes me a cheeky grin. "I want to punish you, remember."

And he does, over and over. He punishes me until I scream so loudly I'm sure I wake the neighbors.

My wrists are sore, but I don't care. My body is satisfied from multiple orgasms, and we're lying in a sweaty heap. Leo released my writs half way through, because I wanted to feel him. Plus, he wanted to fuck me up against the wall like the good old days. Who was I to turn him down?

I'm lying with my back to his front. His arms surround me. I feel small, safe, satisfied and feminine. I feel perfect.

Leo kisses the back of my neck, which gives me tingles. "Go to sleep, angel. I'm taking you out later."

He's taking me out? I smile widely, but he can't see my face so I'm allowed. Seeing as he came over at 5am and we've been fucking for a full on hour and a half, I'm exhausted! I will gladly go to sleep, especially if that means Leo will be taking me somewhere. I can't wait.

***

I can't help but laugh. Leo misses his hole again! He never used to be good at mini golf anyway. This is where we used to come a lot to be alone, so it's sweet he's brought me here. This is our place. It's a nice day, surprisingly for London. The sun is shining down on us, and I feel really happy. Paramore's Misguided Ghosts starts to play on the speakers, and I can't help but feel that's how Leo and I are. Well, we were. We were misguided, but now it's all out in the open and we're back to how we were. This time around it's better, much better. It's not a secret this time.

It's now my turn. I shoot, jumping up and down in happiness as I get a hole in one. I'm so good at this game.

Leo laughs at me, coming close; wrapping his arms around me, spinning me around. My head falls back, and I laugh. I feel so happy and carefree in this moment that I don't ever want it to end. That is until we hear a click, click, click noise. Leo puts me down, scanning the area.

"What's wrong?"

He looks down at me with regret. "The fucking paps have found us." He sighs loudly. "I'm sorry, Tan."

I grab either side of his face, making him look at me. "I don't care. We've had fun, we're nearly finished anyway."

He smiles, kissing me and holding me tight against him. "You're fucking amazing."

"Yeah I know, and you're shit." He looks shocked for a second, then throws his head back, laughing. I love the sound.

"I wasn't talking about golf."

"I know." I grin.

Once one paparazzi appears, more start to show up, so we get out of there. Leo takes us to a small Italian restaurant just out of town. It's quiet, so far nobody has recognized him. He seems worried that the smallest thing can ruin us. I don't think he realizes I don't care. I'm with him, and that's all that matters. Things have changed a lot over the last month, for the better definitely.

"How's your dinner?"

I smile across at him. "Delicious." I had the lasagne, regrettably with garlic breath. God save me later! Leo went with the ginormous pizza, he's nearly eaten it all. No surprise there.

Conversation is never boring or forced between us. That's another reason why we click. I know I'm already in love with Leo again. I don't think I ever fell out of love with him. It was just hidden by my false hatred for him. I see that now, it was wrong of me to be mad at Leo. It wasn't his fault I got pregnant and lost the baby, it wasn't anyone's fault, it just happened.

When we leave the restaurant, we're caught by the paps again. I can see this happening all the time. Leo places his arm around me in a protective manner, leading me to his car. The cameras flashing the whole time, nearly blinding me. They already know my name, but that's probably because I'm always with Sophie or Kendal when they get followed. Oh gosh, does that mean I will be followed now too? I won't be named a frigging Degirl now right? Fuck.

***

After another night of mad sex, I have work to do, so Leo and I have to part. He drives me to work, even though he doesn't need to, but I let him have his way. As soon as I step inside work Kendal grabs me, a huge grin on her face. "Oh God, I'm so happy for you."

I giggle against her. "What are you talking about?"

"You and Leo, you told him everything?" Jesus, news gets around our group of friends quick, but she's happy at least. "Have you seen the pictures?"

I freeze, "pictures?"

She drags me off into the staffroom. I see the pile of magazines in the middle of the coffee table, and cringe. I'm on the front of nearly all of them! "What the fuck!"

Kendal laughs as I frantically search them. "Get used to it, Tan."

I look through the pictures. Some of them aren't too bad. Some are actually really nice pictures. There are some of me and Leo smiling during our date yesterday, a few coming out of the restaurant last night. The headlines say Leo has fallen for a close friend of the Degirls, great.

Kendal looks over my shoulder. "The pics are really cute." She giggles even more. Bitch is happy that I'm stressing right now. That's fine, I love her. All will be forgiven.

Tanya

One month later

This last month has been utterly amazing. Leo's been spoiling me, both with the amount of dates he's taken me on, and the numerous gifts he's given me. He even bought me a freaking Gucci handbag! Madness! I nearly fainted when he gave it to me. I've told him to stop with the gifts for now or I'll become spoiled! He didn't want to stop, until I asked him if he wanted a spoiled diva for a girlfriend. I'm glad he understood. Truth is, it was making me feel a little uncomfortable.

We've spoken about my problems with the pregnancy, and I finally feel happy. Leo knows everything he could possibly know. When we'd spoken in detail about it one night he'd looked really sad as I shared with him all the pain I'd been through. He really wishes he'd been there for me. Like the others, he thinks I was crazy to go through it all alone. Maybe I was, but at the time it was the right thing for me.

Leo and I are an actual couple. Yes, that's right, we're a couple! The paparazzi are following us everywhere. Sophie and Kendal have been giving me advice on how to cope with it. If it hadn't been for them, I think I'd seriously have punched one of the fat, balding men in the face if they'd told me how sexy I looked one more time. Don't get me wrong, they're not all like that, but there are a couple of them that bring out my inner bitch.

Enough about me, because right now I'm sitting in the hospital. Everyone's here, well all the girls that is. This isn't a place where the guys feel comfortable. We're all sitting in one of the family hospital rooms, patiently waiting. The reason we're all sat here? Well, that's because our girl Sophie has finally gone into labor! Another Decoy baby is about to be born. I'm so excited!

Leo was worried about me seeing a baby after what I've been through, but I assured him I'm fine. I'm not going to break down in tears as soon as I see the baby. Well I might, but they'll be happy tears not sad ones.

After only five hours waiting Rhys pops his head around the door, a huge grin lighting up his face. "It's a girl."

We immediately run up to him, squeezing the life out of him. He laughs at us, before leading us  to his two girls. I practically skip all the way there.

When we step in, our loud chatter quickly becomes quiet. Sophie is lying on the hospital bed, a pink blanket in her arms. They both look so peaceful. We slowly walk up to the bedside, all of us whispering, "ahhhhhhh."

Held safely in Sophie's arms is a beautiful baby girl boasting a full head of dark curls. She's got a tight grip on her mummy's finger. She's so adorable. Rhys pops out to ring the guys, as we all talk about the labor. I don't know why women love to do this, but we manage to fit it in before the guys get here. It sounds like Sophie had a pretty straight forward and easy birth for her first time.

"So," Jessica grins as she has takes her turn cuddling the baby. "Any names yet?"

Sophie smiles from the bed. She looks so pretty. "April."

I look at the gorgeous girl, snuggled in her soft pink blanket, and smile. "Hello April, a pretty name for a pretty little girl."

***

After having had far too few cuddles from the adorable April, Leo and I go back to my place. On the way we pick up some fast food, digging in as soon as we step in to my apartment.

I'm thinking of jumping Leo as soon as he finishes his food, but his words put a stop to that.

"Tan?"

"Hmmm?" I mumble, chomping on some fries. Yummy.

"I need to tell you something."

That sounds serious. I wipe the salt from my hands, looking over at him. "What's up?"

"I've gotta go to America in a couple of days."

I'm completely shocked. "What?"

"Our management needs us out there, only for a week. We didn't want to go. Fuck, Rhys' baby's only just been born but we have to go."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"They only told us about it yesterday."

I push my food away, no longer hungry. We've only just got back together as a couple, and already he's being whisked away to America!

Leo sits next to me on the sofa. "Come with me."

My eyes widen. "To America?" He nods, as though it's so simple. "I can't, Leo. I have to work."

I would love nothing more than to pack up and go with him, but I have a job I can't afford to lose. Fuck, I was all happy and horny a moment ago, now I'm left sad and feeling alone.

Leo lightly grazes his nose along my neck, causing me to break out in shivers. "I'm sorry angel." I let a sigh escape as his lips kiss along my collar bone. "Let me fuck you, I wanna fuck you so hard you won't be able to forget me."

As if I could ever forget Leo! I don't say that though, his words have me so wet I'm drenched.

My jeans and shirt are quickly removed, leaving me in just my underwear. I stare up at Leo. He slowly removes his top, I salivate as his his toned abs and tattoos are revealed. Fuck me, Leo is sexy. I need him in me right now.

I reach out for him, but he steps away. Tease.

"Shower." He mumbles.

I like the sound of this. I quickly get up from my seat, eager to find out what he's got planned for me. I can feel his eyes on my bottom as I'm walking to the bathroom, so I wiggle my ass as I walk. He growls behind me, and I stop walking. I want to tease him some more. Feeling him practically behind me, I bend over, my ass in the air. I reach for my thong, slowly pulling it down. I smile to myself as I hear a moan escape him when he sees my bare pussy. I straighten myself and carry on walking to my bathroom.

As soon as I step in, Leo turns on the shower, then slams me against the wall. "You fucking little tease."

His lips claim mine and I whimper against him. His kiss is making me so fucking horny that if he doesn't give me what I want soon, I'm going to take it. Leo unclips my bra with no effort at all, before removing his shorts without breaking our kiss. He picks me up as though I weigh nothing, standing me in the shower, joining me within seconds. The warm water surrounds us as he leans me against the wall. His hands are grabbing my face as he continues to kiss me. My legs start to shake. I have to stop myself from giggling from pure joy when he grabs me and lifts me, sitting me on that delicious hard cock of his. I throw my head back, hitting it against the tiled wall. I groan, as his cock fills me more and more. Fuck me, he feels so good!

"Tell me you're mine." He growls, pounding into me.

"Ah God, I'm yours!" I scream back.

"My angel." His voice is thick with sex. He fucks me even harder, I grip on for dear life. The fire deep in my stomach begins to build and I'm scared the intensity will make me fall.

Leo leans closer, taking my hard nipple in his mouth, lightly biting down on it. It's enough to bring on my climax, and I scream. I milk him for everything he's got. It's a good fucking job I'm on the pill.

After I've recovered, he washes my hair, as though he hasn't just fucked me into oblivion. Why did I stay so mad at him for so long? So much time was wasted.