Rubbed Raw (25 page)

I laughed and backed away from him, worried one of the workers would notice us. “Did he come over to you?”

“No. He just grabbed James and said something to him. Not long after, they began “Vengeance.” Babe, they blew our minds. They had their shit together, and they were still in high school! The best thing is they were the whole package, looks, talent and fans.” He laughed. “A lot like you guys.”

I smiled. “So, that’s what this is all about, payback?”

“Yeah,” Tommy grinned also. “How’d you know? James feels he owes us. Jon keeps telling him we’re even, but James told him nothing could do that. Hey, they’re gonna meet us in Vegas.”

I bit my lip, imagining being in Craig’s bunk. “They’re coming on the tour?”

“No, they’re going to Europe next week, but they’ll be back in January. Were all gonna be part of a festival in Vegas.” Suddenly his expression changed. “Are you as horny as me, babe?” He quickly turned me around and held my body against his from behind, crushing his stiff cock into my ass. “We could use the server room.”

I saw Vince walk in the room and got nervous. “I gotta pee.” I pulled away from him and walked towards the hallway.

As I pulled up my panties in the stall, I didn’t realize they were caught on my heel. Then I groaned as the side tore. I balled them up and threw them away annoyed at myself.

“Babe, Chris and Chad should be here in like 30 minutes,” Tommy told me as I walked back into the room.

I nodded as I noticed the workers setting things up. Sam and Vince were back in the control room. I went to the supply room and grabbed Dominic’s extra guitar, which he had said I could borrow. Then walked back to my usual spot and put it on my stand, careful not to bend over.

Tommy brought his bass in the room then leaned me against the wall. “I’m still hard as a rock.” He ground his hips against mine. “Please come inside with me.” Then his hands slid under my skirt. “Oh fuck! Forget the server room.”

One hand moved. Then I heard his zipper and a condom opening. “I gotta fuck you now.” He quickly lifted my right leg and rammed his cock into me before I had time to react. “Uh… fuck!” He groaned into my ear.

I gasped; his voice going right through me. He gripped my thigh tighter then gave me another fast stroke. Surprisingly, my head went back, and I moaned while my pussy gripped him.

“That’s it, babe,” Tommy whispered, in that sexy way, only he could. “Gonna make me cum fast, huh?”

I could feel eyes on us and tried my best to ignore them. I whimpered, trying to be quiet as he started thrusting harder. It felt so good it was difficult. When I felt another wave of euphoria come over me, I clung to him and buried my face in his neck.

“Bite me, babe.”

I hesitated, not wanting anyone to see me doing it for some reason. Then he ground his hips into me and moaned loudly in my ear. My mouth opened, while my insides tensed yet again. A soft cry passed my lips because I wasn’t able to contain myself anymore.

“Please, bite me,” He breathlessly begged.

I turned my head and nipped at his skin.

“Harder.”

I complied, digging my teeth deep. He moaned in my ear as his breath washed over my neck. That pushed me over the edge again.

“Tommy!” I suddenly cried out, involuntarily as I came, hard.

He moaned loudly. “I love how you do that to me.” Tommy slowed his pace, until I relaxed again. I had to grab his shirt and hang on while he shifted my leg higher. He smirked and looked into my eyes, “Ready to scream?”

My eyes opened wide. “Don’t, Tommy.”

“You know you’re gonna love it.” He nuzzled my neck for a few seconds.

His next stroke drew a gasp from me. Then he withdrew slowly and grunted as he shoved back in, hard. I sucked his skin into his mouth again, so I would stay quiet. My lids stayed closed. It was so hard to hold in the sounds of pleasure.

The tip of Tommy’s cock rubbed my sweet spot over and over. Each time, I bit him harder, and he kept moaning. It was getting to be too much. I knew the rush was going to be explosive, and I was trying my best to hold back because we were not alone.

When I could hold it in no longer, I cried out his name, quivering like crazy within. My hands balled into fists, as I tried to control myself. “Tommy… God… please… uh, damn.” I whimpered. He was still grazing my G-spot with every quick thrust.

After a few more minutes of me writhing against him, Tommy whispered, “You know they’re watching, right?”

“Yeah,” I softly replied and held him closer.

“I like being watched. It’s helping me… Oh, fuck! I’m gonna cum, babe.” Tommy grabbed my ass and pressed his hips into mine hard. “Uh… babe… fuck!” His cock swelled and throbbed while he sighed in my ear. “They know how to keep their mouth shut. I swear.”

When he let me go, I glanced over and saw everyone staring at us. I buried my head into Tommy’s shoulder. “Did they all see my body?”

“Nah, I made sure mine was in their line of sight. They might have gotten a peek at your ass, but just a flash or two.” He ran the back of his index finger down my cheek. “Do you feel good?”

I nodded then he pulled out with a soft groan. I closed my eyes again; hoping no one said anything. Soon after, I heard him stripping the condom off and closing his pants.

“What’re you guys looking at?” It was Chris. Then he appeared in the doorway. “What’s going on?”

I turned, and all the guys started rushing around, like they were late. “I played my song again.”

“Really?” Chris smirked and shook his head. “I knew he couldn’t keep his hands to himself. Tommy, you fucked her right here in front of them all?”

Tommy tried to look innocent. “Why would you think that?” Then he walked away.

Suddenly Chad cheerily said, “Good morning, baby.” He kissed my lips softly. Then he whispered, “You know I don’t have my guitar.”

“Here.” Tommy came in with another guitar. “Dean keeps an extra one here, too. Just don’t tell him. He’s possessive.”

The room was a bit crowded with so many of us in it, along with the equipment.

Chris looked confused. “I missed something. Didn’t I? Chad, why’re you dressed like that?”

“You guys ready yet?” Jon asked walking into the main room, forcing the group to disperse.

We ran through my song twice. Although Dominic’s guitar made a difference, something was not right. “Jon, I don’t like it.” I told him after another try. “It sounds like something’s missing.”

He came down from the control room. “It kinda is. You said it’s supposed to have a punk beat to it?”

I sighed. “Yeah, maybe we should’ve tried it with Giovanni here too.”

“I got it, don’t worry.” He headed for the drum set and picked up a pair of sticks. “I’ll give you a simple beat. Hey, Sam—turn off the mics over here.”

As we waited for the OK to go, I saw several men glancing at me. I took a deep breath, knowing I needed to be calm. As soon as I started playing again, I closed my eyes and imagined we were in Chad’s garage. Finally, it was almost right.

When it was time to go, I was relieved, but I felt like all the guys in the studio were still looking at me. I walked out ahead of everyone and was about to open the front door when Giovanni walked in. We just stared at each other for a few minutes.

Then without a word, he put his hands around my face and kissed me. At first, I tried to push him away then his tongue searched mine out, and I gave in. I put my hands on his biceps and sighed as we kissed.

How much I loved and missed him took over my mind. I didn’t care why we were apart. I wanted him back. Moreover, I knew he felt the same.

“I love you,” he whispered as he moved his lips to my neck. “I need you. Please come home and make love with me.”

Then I came to my senses. “It’s not all about sex.”

“I know.” He looked me in the eye. “There’s love, too.”

I closed my eyes for a second and collected my thoughts. “I mean happiness. You like being angry so much?”

“No. I just wanna be happy with you. I make you happy, don’t I?”

“Yes, but what about Chad?”

“I’m over it. I swear.” He put his hands on my shoulders.

I smiled, hoping he really was. “You know he’ll always be part of my life, right?” I got a nod. “I don’t wanna live walking on eggshells.”

“We can work it out together.” He tilted his head and touched my cheek. “Please just come home. I miss you so bad.”

Just then, Chad and Chris came into the hallway. I watched Giovanni look up at Chad’s voice, and then saw fury in his eyes.

“You forgave him, but not me?” Giovanni asked through gritted teeth. “He hit me first.”

I groaned. “After you shoved him.”

“Why does that matter?” He was still staring Chad down. “He needs to stop being a problem.”

I pushed him out of my way and practically ran outside.

“Wait, I’m sorry,” Giovanni called after me. “Please, my love. I’ll work on it, I swear.”

I stopped as I got to Tommy’s Challenger. “Call me when you have. I’m not going through this every time the three of us are in a room. I can’t be with you if I can’t be friends with Chad.”

“Then what about the band?”

I looked at my feet. “Could you keep your mouth shut if we all recorded together? I mean about everything, Chad, us and how you feel?”

“I can if I get to see you every day.” He leaned down again, but I pulled away. “But you’re not coming home, are you?”

I met his eyes. “No. You just got pissed I was talking to him. The problem’s not solved.”

“Because you’re not being fair,” he protested. “He’s allowed to be in your life but not me. It hurts. Can’t you understand that?”

Tears started falling. “I can’t help how close I am to Chad. He came first you know? Fifteen years means a lot.”

“And I don’t?” Tears were welling up for him also. He turned away, obviously to hide them. “How can you love me and still look at him that way?” He held my gaze again, letting a single tear fall. “I’m not blind. That hurts most of all. Every time I see that look in your eyes, I’m so scared you’re gonna leave me for him. Has it ever been just you and me, or have you been doing him on the side the whole time like with Noah?”

My mouth dropped. His jealousy ran even deeper than I thought. “Noah?” My voice cracked. “How can you compare yourself to him? I never loved him.” I took a deep breath and tried to control the flood of tears, but it was no use. “I only went out with him to replace you! When you pushed me away, I fell apart. He was right there. I tried to use him to stop loving you.”

“But you were fucking Chad, too,” He reminded me.

I sniffled. “I wanted you from the first day we met. If you had said something, maybe Chad and I would never have had sex. I used to pretend he was you once in a while.”

He brushed the hair from my face. “So when you screw Chad, you think of me?”

“Giovanni, don’t. Please.” There was no way I wanted him to know he was the furthest thing from my mind the day before, when Chad was making me scream. This conversation was going in a direction I didn’t want it to. “We need to talk about us.”

He sighed. “But, Chad is part of that too. I don’t want you to change, but you love me, not him, right?”

“Well…” I didn’t want to explain it wrong. “I love you both…”

Giovanni cut me off fast, “You what?” He walked away a few feet then came back. “How the fuck can you love him, too?”

“Wait, I mean… I love him, but not like I love you. I’m
in
love with you. There’s a huge difference.”

He looked towards Chad. “Are you gonna be able to hold back if he tries to fuck you again?” He waited, but I didn’t respond. “If we get back together, is it gonna be just you and me, really? Can you do that?”

“If you don’t trust me, then we have nothing to talk about.” I started to walk away.

Then he grabbed my arm and yanked me back to him. “Don’t you walk away from me!”

“Ow!” I cried out as he squeezed me hard.

He gripped both of my upper arms tightly and held me in place. “I’m not done talking.”

“Yes, you are.” Jon was suddenly behind me. “Get your fucking hands off her. Now.”

When Giovanni let me go, I looked up at him. “I’m not coming home till you can stop this shit.”

“I’m so sorry, my love,” he pled as I stepped away from him. “I just got so pissed.”

I tried to say something, but I was crying too hard. Chad and Tommy were next to me, and I didn’t know which one of them to turn to. I wanted Chad to hold me, but I didn’t want to add even more fuel to the fire.

“If you left bruises on her, we’re gonna have another problem,” Chad growled.

I turned to him. “Stop it. You said you’d back off.”

“But, baby, he just…”

I told Chad, “I don’t care what he did. You promised you’d stop butting in. I’ll tell you if I need you to step in. I just wanna go home.”

Tommy put an arm around my shoulders. “Come on.” He opened the car door and helped me in. Then he turned around. “Look, guys—work this shit out quick. She’s a wreck, and it’s not fair. She needs you both, and I know you both need her.” He looked at me and then back at Giovanni. “Her arms are red. How could you do that to her? You can’t force her to do what you want, or make her feel a certain way. Chill out, and embrace how sexual she is.”

Giovanni looked confused. “What the hell does that mean?”

Tommy groaned. “Look, she’s hot and obviously likes attention from other guys. Find a way to make that work to your advantage. It’s not as hard as you think. She loves you, but sex is just fucking sex, man. Some of us need more than others. Stop putting sex and love together all the time. Let her fuck someone for just the sake of cumming.”

Jon was shaking his head. “Tommy, shut the fuck up, and stop trying to get everyone to think like you.” Then he put a hand on Giovanni’s shoulder. “Vince probably has the song ready for you.”

“Wait a minute.” Giovanni came to me. “Can I kiss you goodbye at least, please? I really am sorry.” I just nodded. He crouched down and softly kissed my lips. “I love you more than life itself. I swear I do. And I want you to be happy.” He closed his eyes then walked away quickly.

When he was inside the studio, Chad bent down and kissed me also. “Baby, can we go out Friday night? Main Street’s playing in Ocean City.”