Saving Grace (35 page)

“Why are you thanking me?” he asked, wary now. She was up to something all right. The glint in her eyes told him so.

“You just agreed to help me,” she explained.

“No, I didn’t.”

“You should.”

“Why?”

“Because this is my home, isn’t it?”

“Are we back to that?”

“Gabriel, I would like a free hand in the running of my household. Please?” she whispered.

He let out a sigh. Damn but it was impossible for him to deny her anything. He wasn’t even certain what he was agreeing to, but he still nodded.

“How many more bowls and pitchers will you throw?”

“As many as it takes,” she replied.

She turned around and hurried over to stand at the head of the Maclaurin table.

“Keith, if you’ll take one end, and Father, if you would be so good as to lift the other end, I’ll run ahead and hold the doors open. Gentlemen,” she added, her gaze directed on the soldiers seated at the table now, “please help by carrying your stools. This shouldn’t take us any time at all.”

“What are you thinking to do?” Keith asked.

“Moving the table outside, of course.”

“Why?”

“I want to make the Maclaurins happy,” she explained. “They’re part of my clan now and I believe they should be content.”

“But we don’t want to move outside,” Lindsay blurted out. “Why would you think we would? I only just got the honor of eating with my laird. I want to stay here.”

“No, you don’t,” Johanna countered. She smiled just to confuse the warrior.

“I don’t?”

“You’ll all be much more content outside because you won’t have to follow any of the rules of my household then.’Tis the truth you all eat like animals. You might as well eat with them. Dumfries will be happy for the company.”

All of the Maclaurins looked at Keith. He looked at his laird, received his nod, and then cleared his throat. It was up to him to set his mistress straight.

“I don’t believe you understand the situation here, m’lady. This keep has belonged to the Maclaurin clan for as long as anyone can remember.”

“It belongs to me now.”

“But, m’lady ...” Keith began.

“What does she mean when she says our land belongs to her?” Niall asked.

Johanna folded her hands together. Gabriel walked over to stand next to her.

“I’ll be happy to explain, but only once, so please try to follow along,” she said. “Your king bartered this land away. Is everyone here in agreement with that fact?”

She waited until the soldiers nodded. “King John gave the holding to me. Does everyone agree with that fact?”

“Yes, of course,” Keith agreed. “But you see . . .”

She wouldn’t let him finish. “Pray forgive me for interrupting you, but I’m anxious to finish this explanation.”

She turned her attention back to the soldiers. “Now then—and do pay attention, please, for I hate repeating myself—when I married your laird, the land became his. Do you see how simple it is?”

Her gaze settled on Lindsay. He nodded to make her happy. She smiled. The room suddenly started to spin. She blinked, trying to bring everyone back into focus. She grabbed hold of the edge of the table to balance herself. A wave of nausea washed over her, then just as rapidly disappeared. It was the meat, she thought to herself. The awful smell was making her sick.

“You were saying, lass?” Father MacKechnie prodded, beaming with satisfaction over the gumption his mistress was showing in front of the men.

“What’s got her so riled, I wonder?”

Johanna didn’t know who asked that question. It came from the MacBain table. She turned her gaze to those men and answered.

“Megan said something the other day that took me by surprise,” she said. “I’ve mulled it over in my mind, and I still don’t understand why she would make such a comment.”

“What did I say?” Megan asked. She hurried over to stand on the opposite side of the Maclaurin table so she could face her mistress.

“You told me Cook would be happy to do anything I asked because she was a MacBain and knew better than to complain. I wondered what you meant, of course, but now I think I understand. You actually believe Hilda should be thankful she’s allowed to live here. Isn’t that right?”

Megan nodded. “ ’Tis the truth she should be thankful.”

The Maclaurin soldiers all nodded in unison.

Johanna shook her head at them. “I believe you’ve all got it backward,” she said. “The Maclaurins don’t have any claim to this keep or this land, and that, gentlemen, is also fact. My husband happens to be a MacBain. Have you forgotten that?”

“His father was laird over the Maclaurins,” Keith interjected.

“He’s still a MacBain,” she pointed out again. “He’s been very accommodating. He’s more patient than I am,” she added with a nod. “Regardless, I believe the MacBains have graciously allowed all of you Maclaurins to stay on. I really hate to bring this prickly topic up now, but I’ve received important news, you see, and I really must get my household in order. It would sadden me to see you leave, but if the rules are too difficult for you to follow, and if you can’t get along with the MacBains, then I don’t believe there’s much choice.”

“But the MacBains are the outsiders,” Lindsay stammered out.

“Aye, they are,” Keith agreed.

“They were,” Johanna said. “They aren’t now. Do you see?”

No one did see. Johanna wondered if they were just being incredibly stubborn or just plain ignorant. She decided to try to make them understand one last time.

Gabriel wouldn’t let her. He pulled her back and took a step forward.

“I’m laird here,” he reminded the soldiers. “I decide who stays and who goes.”

Keith immediately nodded agreement. “Are we allowed to speak freely?”

“You are,” Gabriel replied.

“Every one of us has pledged our loyalty to you,” he began. “But we aren’t particularly loyal to your followers. We’re weary of war and want to rebuild before we go into battle again. Yet one of the MacBains has instigated war with the MacInnes clan and now refuses to come forward and admit his transgression. Such behavior is cowardly.”

Calum jumped to his feet. “You dare call us cowards?”

Dear God, what had she started? Johanna was feeling sick again. She was certainly sorry she’d said anything. Two of the Maclaurins stood up. A fight was brewing all right, and it was all her doing. Gabriel didn’t seem inclined to put a stop to it either. He looked completely unaffected by the threatening atmosphere, almost bored in fact.

A confrontation was finally taking place, and Gabriel was damned happy about it. He would let each warrior vent his anger, then explain what was going to happen. Those who didn’t wish to go along with his decisions could leave.

Unfortunately Johanna looked upset over what was happening. Her face was stark white now, and she was gripping her hands together. Gabriel decided to take the argument outside. He was just about to give that command when his wife stepped forward.

“Calum, Keith didn’t call you a coward,” she cried out. She turned her gaze to the Maclaurin soldier then. “You don’t understand, sir, for you had already left on your errand to speak to Clare MacKay’s father,” she rushed out. “You see, my husband asked each one of his followers if he had . . . involved himself with Clare, and each man denied any knowledge of the woman.”

“But did each man tell the truth?” Keith challenged.

“I’ll ask you a question in answer,” she countered. “If Laird MacInnes blamed a Maclaurin and every one of you gave your laird your denial, would you expect him to believe you?”

Keith was clever enough to know where she was going with the question. He reluctantly nodded.

“My husband and I both have complete faith in his followers. If the men say they didn’t touch Clare MacKay, then they didn’t. I don’t understand you, sir. How can you take the word of a mean-hearted MacInnes over one of your own?”

No one had a quick answer to that question. Johanna shook her head again. She was feeling terribly ill now. Her face felt as though it was on fire, yet her arms were covered with goosebumps. She wanted to lean against her husband, but held back, for she didn’t want him to know she wasn’t feeling well. She didn’t want to upset him. She also didn’t want to spend the next year in bed; and knowing Gabriel’s obsession with rest, she was certain that’s what would happen.

Johanna decided to go up to her chamber and wash her face. Surely cold water would help revive her.

“I would appreciate it if everyone of you would consider what I’ve just explained,” she requested. “I can’t have bickering in my home. If you’ll excuse me now. I’ll go up to my chamber.”

She turned to leave. Then she stopped and turned around again. “When a lady leaves the room, the men stand.”

“Here we go again,” a Maclaurin whispered loud enough for her to hear.

“Well?” she demanded.

The men stood. She smiled, satisfied. Then she turned to leave. The room suddenly started spinning. She didn’t have anything to hold onto until everything settled back where it was supposed to be.

“You did call me a coward, Keith,” Calum muttered.

“If you want to believe I did, then do so, Calum,” Keith replied.

“What was the important news m’lady said she just received?”

“Gabriel?” Johanna’s voice was weak, but he still heard her.

He turned around. “Yes?”

“Catch me.”

He caught her before she hit the floor. Everyone started shouting at the same time. Father MacKechnie thought he might faint when he saw how ill his mistress looked.

“Clear the table,” he shouted. “We’ll put her there.”

Niall and Lindsay swept their arms across the linen cloth. Trenchers and food went flying. Megan pulled the linen cloth off.

“Someone fetch a healer for God’s sake,” Niall bellowed. “M’lady needs help.”

“She’s our healer,” Calum snapped.

“What made her swoon?”

“I’m thinking we did,” Lindsay decided. “We got her all riled up. It was too much for her.”

Gabriel was the only one who didn’t seem overly concerned about his wife. Her face did look pale to him, but he didn’t think she was really sick.

He’d noticed how upset she became when the men started shouting at each other. She had an aversion to fighting, he knew, and he therefore concluded her faint was just a clever ploy to turn the men’s attention away from their argument.

She’d gone a little overboard, of course, and he’d tell her just that when they were alone.

“It’s all our fault, all right, making her throw bowls to get our attention,” Niall said. “She wants us to have some manners. I can’t figure out why, but I’m thinking we’d best be more cooperative.”

“Aye,” another Maclaurin named Michael agreed. “We can’t have her swooning all the time. Laird MacBain might not be close enough to catch her next time.”

“Move back, men,” Father MacKechnie ordered. “Give the lass some room to breathe.”

“She is breathing, isn’t she?”

“Aye, Calum, she’s breathing,” the priest answered. “Your concern for your mistress is praiseworthy.”

“She’s our mistress today,” Lindsay commented. “She’s wearing our plaid.”

“Today’s Saturday,” Keith interjected. “She’s wearing the wrong plaid.”

“She can’t seem to get it right, can she?” Calum asked.

“Why are you hesitating, MacBain? Put the lass on the table,” Father MacKechnie said. “Men, get out of your laird’s way.”

The men immediately moved back. As soon as Gabriel placed his wife on the table, they all moved forward again. At least twenty faces loomed over her. Everyone was frowning with concern for Johanna.

Gabriel felt like smiling. The soldiers had their differences, of course, but they were united now in their worry about their mistress. Johanna was neither a Maclaurin nor a MacBain by birth. She was English. If the men could give her their loyalty, they could damned well learn to get along with each other.

“Why won’t she open her eyes?” Niall asked.

“She doesn’t appear to be finished with her faint just yet,” the priest replied.

“Are you going to give her the last rites, Father?”

“I don’t believe that’s necessary.”

“Shouldn’t we do something?” Calum asked the question and added a frown in his laird’s direction. It was apparent he expected Gabriel to fix whatever was ailing his wife.

Gabriel shook his head. “She’ll wake up in a minute or two.”

“We shouldn’t have upset her,” Michael said.

“Why did she suddenly get a bee up her . . . arm?” Lindsay quickly substituted the last word for the one he was going to use when he caught the priest’s frown.

“It was our manners that set her off,” Bryan reminded the group.

“But why now, I’m wondering,” Lindsay blurted out. “M’lady didn’t seem to mind what we were doing until tonight.”

“Her mother’s coming for a visitation.”

Their laird gave them the announcement. There was a collective and drawn-out “Ah” over the revelation.

“No wonder she’s wanting us to have some manners,” Michael said with a nod.

“Poor lass,” Keith whispered. “She must be worried we’ll shame her in front of her mother.”

“Makes sense to me,” Calum agreed.

“We’d best get some manners then,” Lindsay suggested. He let out a sigh. “She did kill Pet, after all.”

“And three more,” Keith reminded the soldier. Gabriel was beginning to wonder how long Johanna was going to drag out her swoon when she suddenly opened her eyes.

She almost let out a scream but stopped herself in time, letting out a loud gasp instead. She stared up at all the soldiers staring down at her while she struggled to get over her startle.

It took her a minute or two to realize she was stretched out on top of the dinner table. She couldn’t imagine how she’d gotten there.