Authors: Clara Morin
Xavier looked in my blue eyes and I knew he was about to bare his deepest secrets and spill everything that had been going on in his heart.
“I come from Anerasa, the brown planet. It is one of the hidden planets that have not been discovered by humans yet. But, we have very similar features like that of earth. We look anatomically similar and it is really easy for us to adapt to the human life here. But, then there are customs and traditions which are quite different.”
“When did you come here and why didn’t you stay at Anerasa?” I asked as curiosity got the better of me.
“My dad fell in love with a human at earth. He was one of the researchers at our planet and had come here to study. In fact, it had all been a part of the accident, he didn’t intend to stay here but as his ship crashed and he had no other way to go back, he was forced to stay here.
During his time on earth, he fell in love with a human and dad had no idea what this would lead to.”
“Is your mom a human?”
“No.”
“Did the lady your dad fell for know he dad was an alien?”
“She didn’t know and dad was not sure how to tell her. By the time dad realized that he should have told her, he was too deep in love and he was scared to break the news to her.”
“What happened after that?”
“One day when dad was out in the garden by himself, he could see the spaceship looking over his head. He had no time to think or react and he was immediately taken by the ship and he never got to bid a goodbye to his lover.
He had regrets and even though he was back at Anerasa, he left his heart here.”
“That is just so sad to hear. It is like being forced to live a life you do not want. If your dad didn’t want to go back to you planet, they should have simply let him be. They should never have forced this on him. That is wrong on so many levels.” I said and I believed in what I said.
“Yes, but at that time, the planet needed dad. We were going through a new energy crisis and it was dad and his team that could help us out of the mess. There was a huge operation that needed to be carried out and only dad knew the basics as he was the head in the sector.
If Anerasa didn’t get the right energy, we could have collided and our existence would come to an end. As dad understood the situation, he agreed to work on the project immediately and he gave up his live life for the betterment of the planet.”
“What happened after that?”
“When he was working on the project, dad met Amy, my mom. They had a beautiful time together. Dad was very lonely at Anerasa and mom felt like a great distraction.
Mom made dad open up about what was eating into him and it was one of those nights when they were vulnerable that they ended up being together and dad fell in love with mom. It is difficult to explain as dad said that he loved both of them together and yet it was pure in its own way. It was like he could segment his heart and each one of the halves belonged to one of the women.”
“Love is twisted, isn’t it? There are so many people who try and quantify it, but no one truly succeeded in doing it. For every individual out there, love has its different meaning. Some of us love silently while others are very expressive of their feelings. Some of us love even when our heart has been shredded into a million pieces, while others never love even when they want to. Some of us have our heart shattered so many times that they don’t even know what love feels like while some of us learn to love with each of those shattered pieces and slowly it all becomes whole.”
“Wow! This is why I have been in love with you for so long. Emily, everything you tell sounds so romantic to me,” Xavier said and for a moment, anything else ceased to exist.
“You love me?” I asked unable to believe what I had heard.
“I came to earth in order to seek love. Dad told me that it was his lover’s daughter who would fulfill me. I had to come to earth so that I could seek my half.”
“Who is your dad’s lover?”
“Margaret Wilkins.”
For a moment, I didn’t react. It was just too much to process. Was it really possible?
“Are you serious? Mom never told me about it,” I said.
Could it be possible that my mom once had an affair with an alien?
“Your mom doesn’t know that dad was an alien. I told you that dad just disappeared out of the blue and he could never come back here.”
Now, as I sat back and remembered, I could recall how mom told me about her first heartbreak. She told me that she was all of 17 when she had met a strange man who was everything she had wanted. I smiled at how history had repeated itself.
Mom never knew that the stranger she had dated had come all the way from outer solace and she was still remembered by him.
“So, I am the broken piece of your puzzle? Do you love me because you are supposed to love me? Why then do you need my virginity and why did you take so long to tell everything?”
“I know you have so many questions, but I need time to answer each of them. As of now, I want you to know that I need to create the true bond of love if I want to prevent being abducted back to Anerasa. Dad had fought really hard for me to send me here and I was given a specific amount of time before I would be bright back to Anerasa.
However, dad told me that if I could find you and make you fall in love with me and register my love, I could get rid of the curse. I thought you would fall in love with me. I thought you would give me a try, but I realized we were never going anywhere. I don’t have too much of time and I truly love you, Emily.
I don’t love you because you are the only one who would complete me. I don’t love you because dad told me that I needed to seek my other half here on earth. I don’t love you because you are the only one who could save me from going back to a planet I don’t like staying at, but I love you for how you make me feel.
I love you for who you are. I love you for the kind of person I am when I am with you. I love you for the patience you have when it comes to dealing with me. I love you for being you and for making me.
I have my whole life to prove my love to you, but right at this moment, I need you to make love to me. In the human world, it is love making which is considered as the purest bond formation. Unless the people in my planet can feel that I have found my other half, they are going to drag my body away and the thought of being away from you is terrifying.”
I looked at Xavier and I didn’t know how to react. This was my first boyfriend and I was about to lose my virginity and I didn’t know if this love was meant to last.
Yes, I was attracted to him, but could this be love?
“I am not sure, Xavier. Love is more than just sex. I surely feel something for you. I mean you have a great body and there is everything about you which is cool. You are the only person who has ever shown some kind of kindness and I feel comfortable with you, but in the end, love is a very strong word. To be honest, I don’t know if I am in love with you.
I have been awaiting my first love for so long that there is a part of me that is scared of it now. Maybe, I have grown upon with the belief that I would never find love. I know I am ordinary – just ordinary and no one is ever going to be crazy for me. I am so stuck to the belief that love happens to those who deserve that I have begun to believe I would never get my happy ending.
I know I should be excited to know that my best friend is in love with me. But you are an alien and I don’t know if you are here to stay. I had a lot of expectations from my first love and this is both what I wanted and still not what I need. This scares me.”
I could see the sadness in Xavier’s eyes and truly, I felt terrible. He had always been there for me and I knew that I needed to do this one thing for him.
It didn’t really matter if I loved him or not, if I was his key to staying here, I would happily grant him that.
“Let us make love, even if we are not in love because fuck you, I have fantasized about fucking you for too long. I hope this helps you stay here. I hope the for once our body is enough to convince the people at your planet that you belong here and who knows, a few years down the line, we may eventually find love too.”
I knew this would be one of the memorable nights of my lives regardless of how our story would end.
I could see passion dance in Xavier’s eyes and I decided to surrender my body completely to him. He had read too much about human sex and the need to feel me and have his hands all over me made him crazy.
He tore apart my clothes and looked at me in all my glory. Xavier was in no rush and he wanted to savor every moment.
“You are so beautiful,” Xavier whispered in my ears and I could feel the sexy voice do things to my mind.
When you have never had sex before, the anticipation is so high that it can push you over the edge of your seat.
“Kiss me everywhere,” I said and let him know that I was ready for him.
He got rid of his own clothes and soon climbed over me. We were lying extremely close and there was no room for anything else.
He kissed my lips and I parted and gave him the room to push inside. He kept on doing his magic and I swore it was the best kiss. I knew that I didn’t have many kisses before, but even then, I knew this would be one of those kisses which I wouldn’t easily forget.
His hands were over my small and rounded breasts and as he massaged them, I could feel a sense of pleasure ooze out of them. I knew that Xavier was a sheer magician and he made me realize of feelings I didn’t even know I was capable of.
His hands were both gentle and rough at the same time as he massaged my breast and then pulled my tits. As his fingers flicked the top of my tits, I groaned in pain. He lowered his mouth and sucked them. I knew he had left the bite marks on my nipples and I could feel how swollen, stained and red they were but frankly, I didn’t mind the pain as long as he sucked them like that.
I arched my legs wider because I could feel a great sense of liquid pleasure there. I knew that I was a little wet because my body wanted him and yet it was sore. I had never known that sex was such a majestic experience.
It was like very part of my body wanted to be kissed. Even when I felt pain, it felt good. Xavier had found a home in my breasts and he continued to lick, bite, suck and tease them as he didn’t want to let them go.
“Down. Go down,” I commanded because the heat in my hole was making me crazy. I wanted to be filled. I had waited all my life to feel a cock inside me and now when I knew that Xavier would fill me and turn my fantasies true, I couldn’t wait.
He fingered me first and made sure that he had set my body into the right rhythm.
“You are already so wet, Emily,” he said and continued to stroke me. His fingers kept playing and I knew he was easing the tension and making my vagina ready for penetration.
As his hands were driving me crazy, I wanted to hold his dick too, and I cradled his thick cock in my hands. He too could feel the sexual drive. We were both having a moment and I loved the way it felt.
“Do you love me, Emily?” he asked and I still couldn't get myself to speak those words. Yes, I was attracted and the sex was mind boggling, but I didn’t know what love felt like.
I couldn’t utter those three golden words and when Xavier realized that he shouldn’t have asked me, he smiled and decided to seize the moment by penetrating me.
He pushed his dick slightly and then a little deeper and then started pacing up and down.
I felt sweat breaking over my body and as he whispered in my ears, “here I go and take your esteemed virginity away,” he pushed deeper and touched my G-spot and my orgasm crashed my body just as he ejaculated inside me and filled my hole.
Liquid pleasure shot through my body and I smiled, knowing that the wait was worth it. It was worth every single moment. I kissed Xavier and I knew I felt happy and pleased.
I didn’t know if it was right or wrong – if love was supposed to feel that way or not. I have never been in love and never had intercourse with anyone else in my life. It was my first and though it certainly felt great, but there was just something about the entire incident that felt missing. I had no experience and could not compare that feeling to anything else. It was my first time and I was simply lost in my own thought.
As I lay with Xavier by my side, it certainly felt great. I started to believe in love and that just like everyone else, I could also get my happy ending. But did my happy ending really led to Xavier? He was a great guy and he has always been honest with me. I was the only person in the entire world who knew his secret.
He was a great friend and I knew that he would always be there by my side no matter what. But that was not love, right? Yes, he was good in bed and I had a great time having sex with him, but was sex enough?
I had no idea about it. I was simply lost and didn’t know what I was feeling. I was getting lost in my own thought and there was certainly no escaping them. I simply lay there with Xavier by my side and saw his fall asleep. I could hear the beat of his heart and tried to give myself some consolation. It would make sense one day, I knew – but it was getting to that one hard day that was the toughest deal.