Shadow of the Giant (10 page)

“How can you not even know how many groups you have?” asked Bean.

“Selection criteria,” said Petra.

“If we divide them into groups that left within six hours of each other, then we get the higher total. If we divide them into groups that left within two days of each other, the lower total. Plus we can shift the timeframes and the groups also shift.”

“What about prematurity in the babies?”

“That supposes that the doctors are aware that the babies are premature,” said Ferreira. “Low birth weight is what we went for. We eliminated any babies that were higher than the low end of normal. Most of them will be premature. But not all.”

“And all of this,” said Petra, “depends on all the babies being on the same clock.”

“It’s all we can go on,” said Peter. “If it turns out that Anton’s Key doesn’t make them all trigger delivery after about the same gestation time…well, it’s no more of a problem than the fact that we don’t know when the other embryos were implanted.”

“Some of the embryos might have been implanted much more recently,” said Ferreira. “So we’re going to keep adding women to the database as they give birth to low-birthweight children and turn out to have moved at about the time Volescu was arrested. You realize how many variables there are that we don’t know? How many of the embryos have Anton’s Key. When they were implanted.
If
they were all implanted.
If
Volescu even had a deadman switch.”

“I thought you said he did.”

“He did,” said Ferreira. “We just don’t know what the switch was about. Maybe it was for release of the virus. Maybe for the mothers to move. Maybe both. Maybe neither.”

“A lot of things we don’t know,” said Bean. “Remarkable how little we got from Volescu’s computer.”

“He’s a careful man,” said Ferreira. “He knew perfectly well that he’d be caught someday, and his computer seized. We learned more than he could have imagined—but less than we had hoped.”

“Just keep looking,” said Petra. “Meanwhile, I have a baby-shaped suction cup to go attach to one of the tenderest parts of my body. Promise me that he won’t develop teeth early.”

“I don’t know,” said Bean. “I can’t remember not having them.”

“Thanks for the encouragement,” said Petra.

Bean got up in the night, as usual, to get little Ender so Petra could nurse him. Tiny as he was, he had a pair of lungs on him. Nothing small about his voice.

And, as usual, once the baby started suckling, Bean watched until Petra rolled over to feed the baby on the other side. Then he slept.

Until he awoke again. Usually he didn’t, so for all he knew it was like this every time. Because Petra was still nursing the baby, but she was also crying.

“Baby, what’s wrong?” said Bean, touching her shoulder.

“Nothing,” she said. She wasn’t crying anymore.

“Don’t try to lie to me,” said Bean. “You were crying.”

“I’m so happy,” she said.

“You were thinking about how old little Ender will be when he dies.”

“That’s silly,” she said. “We’re going off in a starship until they find a cure. He’s going to live to be a hundred.”

“Petra,” said Bean.

“What. I’m not lying.”

“You’re crying because in your mind’s eye you can already see the death of your baby.”

She sat up and lifted the now-sleeping baby to her shoulder. “Bean, you really are bad at guessing things like this. I was crying because I thought of you as a little baby, and how you didn’t have a father to go and get you when you cried in the night, and you didn’t have a mother to hold you and feed you from her own body, and you had no experience of love.”

“But when I finally found out what it was, I got more of it than any man could hope for.”

“Damn right,” said Petra. “And don’t you forget it.”

She got up and took the baby back to the bassinet.

And tears came to Bean’s eyes. Not pity for himself as a baby. But remembering Sister Carlotta, who had become his mother and stayed with him long before he learned what love was and was able to give any back to her. And some of his tears were also for Poke, the friend who took him in when he was in the last stages of death by malnutrition in Rotterdam.

Petra, don’t you know how short life is, even when you don’t have some disease like Anton’s Key? So many people prematurely in their graves, and some of them I put there. Don’t cry for me. Cry for my brothers who were disposed of by Volescu as he destroyed evidence of his crimes. Cry for all the children that no one ever loved.

Bean thought he was being subtle, turning his head so Petra couldn’t see his tears when she came back to bed. Whether she saw or not, she snuggled close to him and held him.

How could he tell this woman who had always been so good to him and loved him more than he knew how to return—how could he tell her that he had lied to her? He didn’t believe that there would ever be a cure for Anton’s Key.

When he got on that starship with the babies that had his same disease, he expected to take off and head outward into the stars. He would live long enough to teach the children how to run the starship. They would explore. They would send reports back by ansible. They would map habitable planets farther away than any other humans would want to travel. In fifteen or twenty years of subjective time they would live a thousand years or more in real time, and the data they collected would be a treasure trove. They would be the pioneers of a hundred colonies or more.

And then they would die, having no memory of setting foot on a planet, and having no children to carry on their disease for another generation.

And it would all be bearable, for them and for Bean, because they would know that back on Earth, their mother and their healthy siblings were living normal lives, and marrying and having children of their own, so that by the time their thousand-year voyage was over, every living human being would be related to them one way or another.

That’s how we’ll be part of everything.

So no matter what I promised, Petra, you’re not coming with me, and neither are our healthy children. And someday you’ll understand and forgive me for breaking my word to you.

Something was bothering Bean, nagging at the back of his mind. He thought at first that it was a feeling caused by his fatigue, getting so little uninterrupted sleep at night. Then he chalked it up to anxiety because his friends—well, Ender’s and Petra’s friends—were involved in a life-or-death struggle in India, which they couldn’t possibly all win.

And then, in the middle of changing Ender’s diaper, it came to him. Perhaps because of his baby’s name. Perhaps, he thought bitterly, because of what he had his hands in.

He finished diapering the baby and left him in the bassinet, where Petra, dozing, would hear him if he cried.

Then he went in search of Peter.

Naturally, it wasn’t easy to get in to see him. Not that there was so huge a bureaucracy in Ribeirão Preto. But it was large enough now that Peter could afford to pay for a few layers of protection. Nobody who just stood there being a guard. But a secretary here, a clerk there, and Bean found he had explained himself three times—at five-thirty in the morning—before he even got to see Theresa Wiggin.

And, now that he thought about it, he wanted to see her.

“He’s on the phone with some European bigwig,” she told him. “Either sucking up or getting sucked up to, depending on how big and powerful the country is.”

“So that’s why everybody’s up early.”

“He tries to get up early enough to catch a significant part of the working day in Europe. Which is hard, because it’s usually only a few hours in the morning.
Their
morning.”

“So I’ll talk to you.”

“Well, that’s a puzzler,” said Theresa. “Business so important that you’d get up at five-thirty to see Peter, and yet so unimportant that when you find out he’s on a phone call, you can actually talk to me about it.”

She said it with such verve that Bean might have missed the bitter complaint behind her words. “So he still treats you like a ceremonial mother?” asked Bean.

“Does the butterfly consult with the cocoon?”

“So…how do your other children treat you?” asked Bean.

Her face darkened. “This is your business?”

He wasn’t sure if the question was pointed irony—as in, that’s none of your business—or a simple question—this is what you came for? He took it the first way.

“Ender’s my friend,” said Bean. “More than anybody else except Petra. I miss him. I know there’s an ansible on his ship. I just wondered.”

“I’m forty-six years old,” said Theresa. “When Val and Andrew get to their destination, I’ll be…old. Why should they write to me?”

“So they haven’t.”

“If they have, the I.F. hasn’t seen fit to inform me.”

“They’re bad at mail delivery, as I recall. They seem to think that the best family therapy method is ‘out of sight, out of mind.’”

“Or Andrew and Valentine can’t be bothered.” Theresa typed something. “There. Another letter I’ll never send.”

“Who are you writing to?”

“Whom. You foreigners are wrecking the English language.”

“I’m not speaking English. I’m speaking Common. There’s no ‘whom’ in Common.”

“I’m writing to Virlomi and telling her to wise up to the fact that Suriyawong is still in love with her and she has no business trying to play god in India when she could do it for real by marrying and having babies.”

“She doesn’t love Suri,” said Bean.

“Someone else, then?”

“India. It’s way past patriotism with her.”

“Matriotism. Nobody thinks of India as the fatherland.”

“And you’re the matriarch. Dispensing maternal advice to Battle School grads.”

“Just the ones from Ender’s Jeesh who happen now to be heads of state or insurrectionary leaders or, in this case, fledgling deities.”

“Just one question for you,” said Bean.

“Ah. Back to the subject.”

“Is Ender getting a pension?”

“Pension? Yes, I think so. Yes. Of course.”

“And what is his pension doing while he’s puttering along at lightspeed?”

“Gathering interest, I imagine.”

“So you’re not administering it?”

“Me? I don’t think so.”

“Your husband?”

“I’m the one who handles the money,” said Theresa. “Such as it is.
We
don’t get a pension. Come to think of it, we don’t get a salary, either. We’re just hangers-on. Camp followers. We’re both on leave of absence at the University because it was too dangerous for potential hostages to be out where enemies could kidnap us. Of course, the main kidnapper is dead, but…here we stay.”

“So the I.F. is holding on to Ender’s money.”

“What are you getting at?” asked Theresa.

“I don’t know,” said Bean. “I was wiping my little Ender’s butt, and I thought, there’s an awful lot of shit here.”

“They drink and drink. The breast doesn’t seem to get smaller. And they poop more than they could possibly get from the breast without shriveling it into a raisin.”

“And then I thought, I know how much I’m getting in my pension, and it’s kind of a lot. I don’t actually have to work at anything as long as I live. Petra, too. Most of it we simply invest. Roll it back into investments. It’s adding up fast. Pretty soon our income from invested pension is going to be greater than the original pension we invested. Of course, that’s partly because we have so much inside information. You know, about which wars are about to start and which will fizzle, that sort of thing.”

“You’re saying that somebody ought to be watching over Andrew’s money.”

“I’ll tell you what,” said Bean. “I’ll find out from Graff who’s taking care of it.”

“You want to invest it?” asked Theresa. “Going into brokering or financial management when Peter has finally achieved world peace?”

“I won’t be here when Peter—”

“Oh, Bean, for heaven’s sake, don’t take me
seriously
and make me feel bad for acting as if you weren’t going to die. I prefer not to think of you dying.”

“I was only saying that I’m not a good person to manage Ender’s…portfolio.”

“So…who?”

“Wouldn’t that be
whom?
”

She grimaced. “No it would not. Not even if you spoke English.”

“I don’t know. I’ve got no candidate.”

“And so you wanted to confer with Peter.”

Bean shrugged.

“But that would make no sense at all. Peter doesn’t know anything about investing and…no, no, no. I see what you’re getting at.”

“How, when I’m not sure myself?”

“Oh, you’re sure. You think Peter is financing some of this from Andrew’s pension. You think he’s embezzling from his brother.”

“I doubt Peter would call it embezzling.”

“What would he call it, then?”

“In Peter’s mind, Ender’s probably buying government bonds issued by the Hegemony. So when the Hegemon rules the world, Ender will get four percent per year, tax free.”

“Even I know that would be a lousy investment.”

“From a financial point of view. Mrs. Wiggin, Peter has the use of more money than the scant dues the few dues-paying nations still pay to the Hegemony.”

“The dues go up and down,” said Theresa.

“He tells you?”

“John Paul is closer to these things. When the world is worried about war, money flows into the Hegemony. Not a lot, just a little extra.”

“When I first got here there were Peter, you two, and the soldiers I brought with me. A couple of secretaries. And a lot of debt. Yet Peter always had enough money to send us out in the choppers we brought with us. Money for fuel, money for ammunition.”

“Bean, what will be gained if you accuse Peter of embezzling Ender’s pension? You know Peter isn’t making himself rich with it.”

“No, but he
is
making himself Hegemon. Ender might need that money someday.”

“Ender will never come back to Earth, Bean. How valuable will money be on the new world he’s going to colonize? What harm is it causing?”

“So you’re all right with Peter cheating his brother.”

“
If
he’s doing that. Which I doubt.” Theresa’s smile was tight and her eyes flashed just a little. Mother bear, guarding cub.

“Protect the son who’s here, even if he’s cheating the son who’s gone.”

“Why don’t you go back to your place and take care of your own child instead of meddling with mine?”

“And the pioneers circle the wagons to protect from the arrows of the Native Americans.”

“I like you, Bean. I’m also worried about you. I’ll miss you when you die. I’ll do my best to help Petra get through the hard times ahead. But keep your hippo-sized hands off my son. He has the weight of the world on his shoulders, in case you didn’t notice.”

“I think maybe I won’t have that interview with Peter this morning after all.”

“Delighted to be of service,” said Theresa.

“Do avoid telling him I stopped by, will you?”

“With pleasure. In fact, I’ve already forgotten that you’re here.” She turned back to the computer and typed again. Bean rather hoped she was typing meaningless words and strings of letters because she was too angry to be writing anything intelligible. He even thought of peeking, just to see. But Theresa was a good friend who happened to be protective of her son. No reason to turn her into an enemy.

He sauntered away, his long legs carrying him much farther, much faster than a man walking so slowly should have gone. And even though he wasn’t moving quickly, he still felt his heart pump faster. Just to walk down a corridor, it’s as if he were jogging a little.

How much time? Not as much as I had yesterday.