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Thank you to Dr. Laura M. Sturgis.

To Dr. Jane Bloomfield: thank you for believing in me and being
the absolute catalyst for this journey. To Leslie Lindquist: thank you for your countless hours of counseling and support and friendship.

Thank you to Lynn Hopkins. I couldn't have gotten this far without you.

To Carolyn Mason: thank you for giving me critical opportunities, support, faith, and encouragement. You have been my lifeline. To Bill C. Carroll: thank you for believing in me.

To Kristy Anderson: thank you for being unwavering in your support.

Sonia Grace: thank you for always reminding me of my greater purpose.

To Mrs. Francelynn Lum and Lydia Hockridge: thank you for all your help, guidance, and encouragement.

To Kathy Hall, LISW, and Jered Ebenrek, words can't express my thoughts: thank you.

Thank you to Honorable Judge R. Bissen: your words at sentencing continue to follow me daily.

Billy: thank you for sharing your joy and your outrageous laugh.

Dawn Freeze: thank you for being so accepting and such a supportive friend from the beginning.

To the Maui Police Department and all of the people I love, to those I hurt and those who were victimized by my actions: thank you for taking me into your family, for giving me your unconditional love, and for providing me with opportunities that I could not have imagined in my wildest dreams. I am deeply sorry. I think of you often, my Hawaiian family, and not a moment goes by that I do not miss you all.

To Detective Kaya, Detective Juan, Detective Dodds, and Sergeant Sagawinit: thank you for your compassion. You are my heroes. To my two closest friends at MPD: thank you for your friendship and love.

Above all, I would like to thank my courageous grandmother Billie/Mimi, Uncle Rick, Uncle Toby, Aunt Alison, Uncle Kurt, Uncle Bud, and Aunt Liz, who supported me through grinding financial demands as well as carried me emotionally and physically through seemingly endless challenges. Also, thanks to Uncle Jay, Aunt Rosie, my dear cousins, and extended family for their strength, their belief in me, their unconditional love, and for supporting and encouraging me despite the hurt I inflicted upon them. It has been and continues to be a long and difficult journey for them.

To my incredible mother: your heart drives me to be a better person. You are a daughter's greatest gift. Thank you.

To my sister: your love fuels my passion for life, your courage and support remain my anchor as well as my guiding light. For my brother-in-law, who helped and supported me even during the worst of times and forgave me for causing them: you inspire me. Thank you.

I would also like to say a special thank-you to my cousin Ryan. May his spirit continue to shine for all of us who struggle and help remind us that there is hope.

My apologies to anyone I may have failed to mention. Every person has been vital and key to my being here today. I want you to know I will always hold you dear to my heart. Thank you all.

Nancy Woodruff

All thanks for this book begin with Stella Krauss, former roommate and traveling companion, who introduced me to Alli's story and then to Alli. Heartfelt thanks also go to Jason Anthony and Maria Massie for immediately recognizing that Alli's story needed to be told and for helping in every way possible to make that happen. Charlotte and Phil Reavis, my aunt and uncle, offered wonderful
hospitality during my research visit to Hawaii, and Alli's family and friends welcomed me as one of their own during my trip to New Mexico. My stalwart writer friends Sara Eckel, Renee Bacher, Anne Korkeakivi, and Camilla Trinchieri gave me sound advice and support throughout the writing of this book, and Fred Carl was instrumental in helping obtain important court records. Stacy Creamer and Miya Kumangai at Touchstone are gifted publishing professionals and a pleasure to work with. My family—Mark, Sage, Reed, and Owen Lancaster—always cared and always listened. Finally, I thank Allison Moore for sharing her story with me; Alli, working with you was an unexpected and remarkable gift, and your friendship and trust have enriched my life immeasurably.

© KYLE ZIMMERMAN PHOTOGRAPHY, INC. / NOEL DALTON, THE VANITY

ALLISON MOORE
is a former narcotics officer with the Maui Police Department. A native of New Mexico, she served a one-year sentence in the Federal Detention Center in Oahu for drug-related felonies. She is currently attempting to make amends to all those she has hurt and find her way back to life.

NANCY WOODRUFF
received her MFA from Columbia University, and she has taught writing at Columbia; SUNY Purchase; Richmond, the American International University in London; and New York University. She is the author of two novels,
My Wife's Affair
and
Someone Else's Child
. She currently lives in Brooklyn with her husband, sons, and daughter. Visit her at
nancywoodruff.com
.

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Moore, Allison, 1981–

Shards / Allison Moore with Nancy Woodruff.

pages cm

“A Touchstone book.”

1. Moore, Allison, 1981– 2. Police—Hawaii—Maui—Biography. 3. Vice control—Hawaii—Maui. 4. Police—Drug use—Hawaii—Maui. I. Title.

HV7911.M647A3 2014

363.2092—dc23

[B]

2013026028

ISBN 978-1-4516-9635-6

ISBN 978-1-4516-9637-0 (ebook)