Shifters of Shadow Falls Collection (Books 1-3) (15 page)

Chapter 4: Lizie

“She called you a broken wolf.”  I’m naked, on my knees with my head and chest laying on the foot of our bed.  I hear Caleb unbuckle his belt and a flood of mixed emotions dries my throat and makes my hands tremble while simultaneously heating my core.  “You didn’t defend yourself.  You hid your emotions and blew it off as though it doesn’t matter.”  He bends down with his mouth at my ear and whispers, “it matters.  Don’t hide your feelings from me mate.  I’ll ask you again and this time there will be consequences if you lie to me.  I refuse to let you hide.”  He straightens his back while running the leather down my spine, tickling my skin and sending goosebumps down my body.  “Tell me how you felt when she called you broken.”

I don’t want to talk about it.  I don’t want to admit how much it fucking hurt and make it real.  I lived in happiness for years, avoiding the truth.  It doesn’t have to be real.  I don’t have to acknowledge it.  Caleb’s wrong; it doesn’t matter.  “I don’t care.”  I barely breathe my answer.  The same answer I gave him last time and the time before that.  The answer I know will push him to punish me.

Smack!
  I jump as the belt whips through the air and lands hard on my bare thighs just bellow my ass.  I breathe through clenched teeth, hissing at the pain.  Tears cloud my vision.  But I’m used to them.  Just like I’m used to the pain.

“They called you broken and you don’t care?”  It takes me a moment to realize he’s waiting for an answer as he rubs the swollen, red marks.  His cool touch soothes the skin.  His fingers are dangerously close to my pussy.  I’d rather he touch me there, but he’d rather whip me.  Punish me for not admitting that I’m damaged.  Fuck him.  He’s not getting that from me.  He can beat me until I’m black and blue.  Just like all the others.  Just like Dom’s father.

“No.”  I breath the word and bare down, tightening every muscle and preparing for the blow that’s coming. 
Smack!
The blow lands across my ass, heating my skin and making my blood rush violently in my ears. 

“Why do you lie to me?  Why do you lie to yourself?”

“I’m not lying!”  Tears prick in my eyes and I let them fall. 
Smack!
  The sting of the leather burns my skin.  I find myself pushing against the sweet sting.  My pussy clenches in anticipation. 

“Stop lying.  Tell me how you feel.”  He sounds tortured.  I shake my head into the mattress as the tears fall down my heated face.  Why am I lying again?  I can make this stop.  I can stop this by just admitting the truth.  I shake my head harder.  I don’t want it to be real.

“She called you broken.  How does that make you feel?”  I keep shaking my head.  Avoiding his question and not wanting to answer.  My body shakes as he gently runs the leather across my tender ass.  “Answer me!”  He’s going to hit me again.  But I don’t want it anymore.  I don’t want this anymore. 

“Worthless.  It makes me feel like a failure.”  I sob gasping for air as the pain of my admission flashes through me.   It’s out.  The words flew out of my mouth without my consent.  I’ve admitted it out loud.  I’m so worthless.  A wolf who can’t shift.  I don’t know what’s wrong with me.  I don’t know if I can ever be fixed.  “Like I’m useless.  Like I shouldn’t be alive.”  The belt falls to the floor with a loud thud and in an instant Caleb is on me, pulling me off the floor and cradling me in his arms. 

“You’re none of those things.  You’re perfect.”  He kisses me hard, his teeth clashing against mine. 

He pulls me into his chest and rocks me.  “Look at me.”  I stare into his silver eyes as he kisses my nose and rests his forehead on mine.  “You’re not broken.”  I part my lips to object.  Of course I am.  Why would he deny what he just punished me for not admitting?  “You were made with perfection.  Including your latency.”  The word makes me flinch.  He grabs my chin in his hand forcefully.  My eyes stare into his fierce gaze.  “You are a latent wolf.  And you are fucking perfect.” 

Hot tears prick again and I welcome them.  His adoration heats the blood that fills my heart.  I slam my mouth against his, pushing him against the mattress and climbing over his hard body.  I moan into his mouth.  My heated core rocks against his body and I grind into his throbbing erection in his jeans.  My blood heats and races through my body.  I want to thank him for loving me.  I want to please him.  I make my way down his body with open mouthed kisses, nipping his hip bones as he quickly releases his cock for me.     I lick up his thick length and spit on it, stroking him as he throws his head back.  I wrap my lips around the head of his cock and I can barely fit it.  My teeth scrape lightly against his hardened flesh.

“Open your mouth wider.”  I do as I’m told, stretching my jaw to accommodate his size.  I bob my head along his length, slurping at the precum. His hands run through my hair before pushing his length into the back of my throat.  I swallow and his girth push down my tightening throat.  My eyes sting and water before he pulls back, allowing me to breath again. 

“Bite me.”  I look up at him wide eyed. 
Bite him?

“Come on baby girl.  Bite me.”  His voice is breathy but still full of authority.  He’s close to cumming and he wants me to bite him.  My teeth close around his dick and I bite down, digging into the velvety steel of his flesh.

“Harder.”  I clamp my mouth shut again, pushing my teeth into his skin.  If I bite any harder, I know I’ll break skin.  I pause with my teeth digging into his steely flesh, waiting for his next direction.  He pulls my head back by fisting my hair, causing a small bit of pain.  “Bite me like you want to hurt me.  Bite me, baby.”  He’s breathing hard and barely able to get the words through his clenched teeth.  I can tell he’s on edge.  He wants to cum and I’m failing him.  I can give him this.  I can give him the pain he needs.  He releases my hair and I lunge at the chance to sink my teeth into his hard cock.  I push half his length into my mouth and bite down like I want to bite his dick off.  The second my teeth clamp down he shoots his release into the back of my throat and I quickly swallow, moaning around his dick.  His head falls back on the mattress as his legs stiffen and tremble with the shock of his orgasm.  Once he’s no longer pulsing, I pull his dick out and dip my tongue into his slit to get the last drop, making him shiver.   I smile as I crawl up his body. 
My mate’s a freak.

Chapter 5: Lizie

              We lay on the bed cuddling with my front to his back, my arm resting across his narrow hip and my fingers play with the small dimple on his lower back.  Caleb runs his fingers down my side, across my hip and down my thigh before trailing back up.  It sends shivers through my body.  “How did you feel while I was punishing you, baby girl?” 

              My eyes pop open and I tense a bit at his question.  The reminder of his belt makes my ass sting and my pussy clench.

“It hurt.”  I answer simply, not wanting to divulge the fact that I wanted the belt to sting across my aching heat. 

              “Is that all.  I thought you may’ve been angling your ass so I’d hit a certain area.”  I blush beet red and duck my face into his strong, muscular chest.  Caleb laughs low and deep, causing his chest to vibrate.  I love the feeling and the sound.  “Did you like it?”

              “Only a little bit.”  That’s the truth.  I wouldn’t be afraid of it happening again, but I don’t
want
him to whip me.  I don’t want to be punished again.

              “What part did you like?”

“I don’t really know.  It’s hard to explain.  I just know that I wanted it on my pussy.”  I lean back so he can see my sincerity.  “I don’t want to be whipped again though.  I don’t like it enough to want it again.”  He nods his head and closes his eyes while he kisses my forehead. 

“I understand baby.  I won’t do it again.”  I settle my head back into his chest while his hands run down my back.  “Do you want to try something else?  Something for pleasure?”  His question peeks my interest and I pull my head back to look at his curious expression.

“Like what?”

“Like a spanking.”  My cheeks heat and a warmth of arousal floods my pussy.  I nod my head eagerly.

Caleb’s bright smile makes my chest fill with pride.  In this moment I would do anything to please him.  He bounces up on his knees and smacks my ass, “up!”  I quickly oblige, getting on my hands and knees for him.  He stands on his knees, naked with his hip touching my side as his hand rubs my ass, grabbing and pulling at the flesh.  “Alright baby.  The first few times will sting, but you’ll feel it when you get there.”  His hand comes down hard causing my unprepared body to fly forward as I let out a yelp.  I stop myself from falling and his hand comes down on my shoulder to keep me steady.  “Head down baby.”  His hand rubs the tender reddened flesh and then disappears.  I bear down and hold my breath waiting for the blow.  This time it comes down hard on the other cheek.  The stinging pain shoots through my body and tears prick at my eyes. 

“Is it normal to cry?”  It doesn’t feel right that I want the pain, but can’t help the tears.

“Only if you want to.  I can go easier on you if you want baby.”  I shake my head.  No, the heat and the stinging are just right.  I need more of it.  A soft whimper deep inside me sighs,
punish me. 
As if reading my mind his hand comes down hard between my cheeks with his finger tips grazing along my pussy. 

“Fuck!”  I push my ass further up in the air and he comes down hard again and again and again.  The numbing, stinging pain heats my core.  My pussy clamps down on nothing, the absence makes me moan in frustration.

“Good girl.”  His fingers run through my pussy lips and I hear him suck his fingers into his mouth.  “You’re soaking baby.”  He rubs his hands over the tender flesh.  “You want more?” 

“Yes,” I moan out my response.  I feel so close to cumming.  His hand comes down on my upper thighs causing me to jump.  Then back on my left cheek, then right, then thigh, then that aching center.  I let the tears fall easily with each blow.  “More.”  I plead with him pushing my hot stinging flesh into his hand as he kneads the growing soreness. 

“Uh uh.”  His fingers travel to my pussy again and he pushes them in knuckle deep and curves his finger to hit that sweet spot.  He starts rubbing my clit with his thumb while finger fucking me and I know I’m going to explode and cum on his hand as my body starts to tremble.  A hot wave of pleasure rolls through my body as I hear the door open.  I turn my head on the bed while moaning in pleasure and see Dom striding forward.  He looks intensely angry, but I’ve learned that he always looks that way.  I moan his name.  His eyes find Caleb’s quickly before looking back at me with his brows raised in curiosity. 

“You want to cum little one?”  I nod my head into the covers vigorously.  I’m so close.  He watches for a moment while Caleb continues to finger fuck me.  A heated look of anger flashes in his eyes so quickly I almost think I imagined it.  His large hand splays against my ass and cools the heated flesh.  He rubs it gently, soothing the tender skin.  I look up at him through my thick lashes and moan at his sweet touch.  Caleb removes his hand, leaving me feeling the immediate loss.  I part my lips to object, but before I can, Dom’s other hand slides down the folds of my pussy into my sticky wetness.  His fingertips brush along my clit, sending a wave of chills down my spine while simultaneously heating my core.  I groan in pleasure into the mattress.

I vaguely hear Caleb pick up the belt off the floor.  He puts the leather against my pussy, trailing the cold, metal buckle along clit and up to my entrance, while Dom’s hands come back to my ass.  My eyes shoot open at the touch of his belt.  I prop myself up and turn to look back at Caleb.  My heart races in anxiety.  I told him I didn’t want it anymore. 
What did I do wrong?

“Relax baby girl.  It’s not what you think.”  Dom massages my shoulders and pushes my upper body back down into the mattress.   “I’m going to make you feel so fucking good.”  My heartbeat picks up in anticipation and the flood of adrenaline makes the pulsing need in my pussy pound even harder.  I trust him to do whatever he wants to my body.  He gives me pain I didn’t know I needed and pleasure I didn’t know existed.

“Please.”  It’s the only word I can manage.  At my words, Dom’s hands move lower, spreading my pussy lips and exposing my throbbing clit.  I hear the swing of the leather and it hits my pussy and smacks against my clit sending a jolt of pleasure through my body.  There’s hardly any force behind the blow, but the feeling is so intense that my body stiffens and shakes uncontrollably.  Dom holds me in place as a shock races through my body making me scream in ecstasy.   My body locks up as Caleb hits my clit with the leather again and again extending my orgasm as aftershocks wrack through my body and white lights dance in my blurred vision.  I shudder in Dom’s grasp and scream into the mattress, overwhelmed with the pleasure and pain.  As the last wave of heated desire shakes my body, I collapse into Dom’s arms and he pulls me to him, kissing and nipping my neck.

As I come down from the intense pleasure, I find myself between my two mates under the covers, held tightly by both of them.  I hum my satisfaction into Dom’s chest, “Mm I liked that.”

              “I don’t think I can hit you.”  His sad eyes tell me he thinks he’s failing me.  That he won’t be able to sate me. 

              “I don’t want you to.  I just want you to love me.”  The truthful words flow easily from my lips.  His lips find mine before the last word is fully spoken.  Kissing me with passion.

              “Isn’t she perfect.”  Caleb’s words are a statement not a question.  I would smile, but my lips are being forced open by Dom’s tongue. 

“She’s so goddamned perfect.”  My eyes shoot open at Dom’s words and my heart pounds.  I can hear him.  Hear his muted words.  His mouth is still on mine, his tongue massaging along mine, his eyes closed in ecstasy.  Yet, I heard him loud and clear.  His eyes stay closed as his leans his body into mine.  I close my eyes quickly as Dom rolls me onto my back and settles his body between my legs.  He pulls back, biting my bottom lip before kissing along my neck and nipping my collar bone.  All the while I listen in on their silent conversation.

“I love the marks you leave on her.”

“Everyone who sees her will know she’s taken.”

“I feel like an asshole.”  Caleb’s words are almost a whisper.

“Why?”

“She’s not healing because her wolf is hurting, yet I’m enjoying the marks.”

“Don’t think like that.”  It’s quiet for a moment while Dom lays down beside me, pulling me back into his chest.  Caleb kisses my shoulder and settles his chest to my back while his hand runs along my tummy.  Both of their erections dig into my flesh. 

“You smell her heat?”  My heat, shit, I’m going to be in heat during the claiming.  The thought makes my pussy clench and a small smile plays on my lips, but I hide it in Dom’s strong, hard chest.

“Just barely.”

“I can’t wait to knock her up.”  My smile widens at Dom’s admission.  I rub my nose into his chest to hide it as he looks down at me and kisses my hair. 

“You think our pups will be latent?”  Dom’s question shocks me and my smile vanishes. 
Latent.
 

              “Don’t know, I’ve never met a latent wolf before.”  His words are easy.

“She’ll love them just as much, won’t she?”  And with those words Dom melts my heart.  His only concern is how I would react. 

“Of course she will.  Why wouldn’t she?”

“She thinks she’s less of a wolf because of it.”  I push my body into his.  Wanting as much of him against me as possible.  Tears prick again.  Fucking tears.  I wish I could just stop crying.  At least these are happy tears.

“That’s alright; she’ll learn she’s perfect.  We’ll teach her.”  The tears flow down my heated face as the realization of how much they love me hits me with a force that makes my body want to bow to them. 

Dom’s hands run along my ass and thighs.

“Do you hurt at all little one?”  He words are more clear and louder.  He spoke them out loud.  I don’t look up at him, I don’t want him to see that I’m crying so I just shake my head.

“Your lucky I didn’t kill your ass.”  I stifle my laugh at his silent statement.

“I’m a lucky sick fuck.  You should’ve seen how she was dripping from the belt.”  There’s a pause before he adds, “it was a punishment though.”

“What set you off?”

I hear Caleb huff in the same muted tone as their words.  “Blowing off her emotions like they don’t fucking matter.  And then she lied to me.  I’m not going to let her hide from us.  She’s denied who she is for too long.” 

Dom slightly nods his head and kisses my hair again. 

“Can you hear me?”  I think as hard as I can, I concentrate on finding his wolf but I don’t know how to. 

              I lift my head and search Dom’s eyes, seeking my answer, but I find nothing but confusion.  “Little one, are you alright?” 

              I look deep into those piercing silver eyes.  Why can I hear them, but they can’t hear me?  As he parts his lips with his brows furrowed in concern, I press my lips to his, gently suckling his lower lip and pushing my breasts against his strong, hard chest.  For the first time, my heart fills with devotion, my hot skin needing his touch. 

My wolf can hear my mates.  A warm calm runs through me as I feel her against my chest. 
My wolf.