Silent Witness
An Alan Bernhardt Mystery
Collin Wilcox
With Love from Us All, This
Book Is Dedicated to Marie
FRIDAY
June 16
11:45
P.M.
T
HE SOUNDS WERE ANIMAL
: wild sounds in the savage darkness, sounds of ragged, tortured panting. Fingers had crooked into claws, flesh tearing at flesh, fists flailing. She saw the clenched flash of teeth, lips drawn back, human no longer. And their eyes: predators’ eyes, killers’ eyes. Human killers, more dangerous than animal. She heard a scream: her voice, her scream. But the sound was lost, only a whimper, stifled in her throat. Strangler’s fingers, his flesh on hers: murderer’s flesh, no longer a lover’s. She must break free. Legs thrashing, arms lashing, she must—
The first crash, metal on bone, ignited the kaleidoscope, an incandescent shower cascading through the darkness behind her eyes. She’d seen these lights cascading through this same darkness only once, when she’d fallen from her horse. She’d—
With the second crash, perspectives were changed. She felt sensation leaving, felt herself falling away—slowly at first, then faster, a sickening spiral, accelerating.
With the third crash, the incandescence flickered, faded, finally failed. Her last moment of consciousness registered the particular smell of the rich, loamy earth—and the sound of her horse’s hooves as he trotted away, riderless.
June 22
4:15
P.M.
O
N HIS SHOULDER, JOHN
felt his father’s hand tighten. Was it a signal? Was he meant to move, say something, do something special? Slowly turning, he looked up at his father. But his father stood as before, chin lowered, staring down at the coffin. In the corner of his father’s eye, John could see a tear, one single tear, glistening. But in his father’s face, in the well-remembered pattern of the lines and the creases and the angle of the mouth, something had changed. It was the eyes that were different. Even with the single tear, the eyes were a mystery.
The cemetery was on a hill that overlooked the ocean. When they’d driven up the curving road to the cemetery, following the huge black car with the coffin and the flowers inside, he’d looked out the window of the limousine to see the crescent of the Santa Barbara yacht harbor, below. When he and his mother had visited Disneyland, about a week and a half ago, they’d stopped in Santa Barbara, to see Aunt Janice.
Aunt Janice lived in the same house where his mother had grown up, the house where his grandparents had lived before they died. It was a large white stucco house with a red tile roof and a big, heavy front door. When his Aunt Janice had opened the door for them she’d given him a big hug, and asked how it felt to be a second grader, no longer a first grader. “The graduate,” his aunt had said. Then she’d laughed. And then she’d hugged him again, harder.
Every day, for three days, they’d gone sailing in Aunt Janice’s sailboat, just the three of them. While he’d fished, anchored in the shallows, his mother and his aunt had taken sandwiches and potato salad and cans of 7-Up and beer from the cooler. Aunt Janice’s face was tanned a deep brown, and when she laughed at something his mother said, he’d seen white foam on her upper lip, from the beer. He’d always liked to hear Aunt Janice laugh.
His mother hadn’t laughed that day. Not once, had he heard her laugh.
Had she laughed when they’d gone to Disneyland? Could he remember?
Why did he remember his aunt laughing, and even remember the white foam of beer on her upper lip, when he couldn’t clearly remember his mother’s face?
His aunt was standing beside him, as close as his father was standing, on the other side. He realized that, now, he was turning toward his aunt as, yes, she lowered her gaze to meet his.
Even dressed all in black, with a black hat he’d never seen before, his aunt’s face looked the same. Someday, he knew, someday soon, she would laugh again, the same laugh.
But his father’s face had changed.
Forever.
June 23
2:15
P.M.
J
ANICE LIFTED HER FOOT
from the accelerator, waited for the pickup truck beside her to draw ahead, then eased the Toyota into the right lane as they passed beneath the airport turnoff sign.
It had been less than a day—twenty-two hours—since the undertaker had touched the button that began lowering Connie’s coffin into the ground. As the coffin had been covered over by the earth, so the psyche would begin to scab over.
But beneath scabs, wounds could fester.
At the cemetery, they’d stood together: she and Dennis, with John between them. Once—only once—she’d torn her eyes away from the coffin to look at them: Dennis, the perfect personification of grief bravely borne, holding John’s hand as if the flesh felt nothing. John, only seven, numbed, his eyes so large, fixed on the coffin.
Aware that stress had dulled her driving acumen, she guided the Celica with particular care around the semicircular driveway that led to the airport terminal.
In less than an hour, Dennis and John would be airborne, bound for San Francisco. It was a short flight, a little more than an hour. For Connie’s last birthday, her thirtieth, the big three-oh, Janice had flown up to San Francisco for the party. “It’s a semisurprise,” Dennis had said. “She’s expecting a few people for dinner. But there’ll be fifty people, minimum.” On the phone, Dennis had sounded excited, pleased with himself. Dennis had always enjoyed a party.
He sat beside her now. In her peripheral vision she could see his profile: eyes front, patrician nose in perfect alignment, impressive chin lifted, hair impeccably styled. Connie had always appreciated men with handsome profiles.
And now Connie was dead. For six days, dead. Leaving behind a husband, a son—and a sister.
It had happened late Friday night, early Saturday morning, actually. Janice had been at Gordon’s house, Friday night. They’d done what they’d done every weekend for more than two years, she and Gordon. They’d gone out together. That was the operative word—out. Sometimes it was a movie, followed by a snack—out. Followed by the drive to Gordon’s house, usually driving slowly along the shoreline, comfortably aware of the surf’s eternal presence.
Followed, after the preliminaries, by their weekly night of love. Followed, next morning, by breakfast, probably at Jessica’s, sometimes at the Neptune.
Last Saturday—only six days ago—they’d walked to the wharf, and had breakfast at the Neptune. Then, even though the fog was still in, they’d walked along the beach for a mile or two before returning to Gordon’s house. She’d gone inside, used the bathroom, kissed him goodbye. As she’d driven the three miles to her house, she’d planned the day. First she would shower, and get into fresh clothes. Then she would shop. Once Gordon had suggested that she leave some clothes at his place, so she could shower and change there. She’d responded that then she’d have to take her discarded clothing home to wash, a non sequitur. Gordon hadn’t mentioned it again.
It had been almost noon, when she’d arrived home. The mail had come, and she’d spent a minute or two sorting through the envelopes, to be opened and read later. She kept the answering machine in her studio, in the back of the house, on the first floor. Since she didn’t paint on weekends, and was therefore half-reluctant to enter the studio, her work space, she’d been tempted to first go upstairs, and shower, and change, and do something with her hair before she checked the machine. But, thank God, curiosity had been stronger than work place reluctance.
The first two messages had been good news. Don MacLean, in Phoenix, had sold the “roof tops” painting. And the Tolls had invited her for cocktails the following Wednesday, to meet a “darkly handsome capitalist,” Lillian Toll had said, her voice burbling with casual good humor.
Dennis’s voice had been the third one on the tape. “Call me, Janice,” he’d said. “It’s Connie. Something terrible’s happened.”
Fumbling at the machine, she’d played the message again. Then she’d—
“… can just drop us off, if you like,” Dennis was saying.
She’d expected him to say it, and had decided what she would say in return: “I’ll drop you off, then I’ll park, and come in.”
“But that’s not—”
“I want to do it,” she answered. “I want to see you off. The two of you.”
She knew he wouldn’t protest further, and he didn’t. She looked in the mirror. John was staring pensively out the window, his chin cupped in his hand. As they passed a bicyclist, a young man, pedaling hard, John followed the rider with his eyes. Had it only been a week since she’d last seen him? They’d gone to Disneyland only last week, John and Connie. They’d come to Santa Barbara Thursday, and stayed overnight. They’d left bright and early Friday, for San Francisco—for Saint Stephen, actually, fifty miles beyond San Francisco.