Smolder (6 page)

“Did
you bring your car?” I asked, hoping that she took a cab. I didn’t want to be
away from her because I was afraid that if we were apart even for a minute that
one of us would talk ourselves out of taking this step.

“I
did,” she said, frowning.

I
pulled out my phone and shot a quick text to John.

“I
am going to have John and one of the security guys come and get your car,” I
said. “You’re riding with me.”

She
nodded and said, “Okay.”

I
grinned and leaned in to kiss her quickly before we walked to my car. I opened
the door for her and helped her in like a gentleman. I quickly ran to the
driver’s side and got behind the wheel. I started the engine and she grabbed my
hand and held onto to me for the entire drive back to our house.

After
we pulled into the garage and I shut off the car, I pulled her hand up to my
mouth and kissed it. She giggled and I asked, “What is it?”

Sadie
shook her head, causing her long silky blonde hair to fall around her
shoulders.

“It’s
just funny to me that you are kissing my hand and trying to be all romantic
right now,” she said.

I
smiled at her and replied, “Well, what would you have me do, throw you over my
shoulder and smack your ass as hard as I can?”

Sadie
laughed and said, “Now that’s the Jude I know and love.”

There
was that word again…love.

“Listen,
Sadie, before this happens maybe we should talk.”

She
shook her head and said, “I don’t want to talk because I already know what you
are going to say. I admitted that I am in love with you and I know it’s making
you feel confused. I also know that you don’t love me that way.”

“Why
do you say that?”

“Because
you can’t bring yourself to say it back. I know you have feelings for me but I
don’t think you know what those feelings are yet and that’s okay. No matter
what happens from here on out I’m going to love you until the day I die, Jude
Miller. I know that probably scares you but I can’t help it. I am tired of
keeping it all in and it feels good to finally say it,” Sadie said, seemingly
breathing a sigh of relief.

I
kissed the back of her hand again and said, “Even though it is a little scary
it did feel good to hear you say it. No one’s ever told me they loved me before.
Not like that anyway.”

Sadie
shook her head and frowned.

“That’s
a damn shame, Jude, because you are one of the most lovable guys I have ever
known,” she said, pulling our hands toward her mouth and kissing my knuckles. I
gritted my teeth together as she loosened one of my fingers and sucked it into
her hot little mouth. I gasped and pulled her across the seat onto my lap.

“Okay,
talk time is over,” I growled and I pulled her head roughly to mine, claiming
her lips. We were both moaning and panting loudly as I carried her out of the
car and up to the garage door.

As
I fumbled to put the key into the lock Sadie wiggled against me and whined, “Oh
hurry the fuck up already.”

I
got the key in the door and turned the lock, kicking it open with my foot. “Yes
ma’am,” I said, grinning as her lips crashed onto mine again. I kicked the door
closed and carried her through the kitchen and down the hall to our bedrooms.
As we reached the end of the hall I suddenly had a thought.

“Uh,
hey, Sadie?” I asked, breaking the kiss.

“Mmm?”
she murmured, her lips trailing kisses down my neck and lightly sucking my
skin.

“W-whose
room are we going into?” I asked. She giggled against the skin on my neck and I
shivered.

“It
really doesn’t matter to me, Jude. We can go into your room if you want to. You
have a king size bed and a mirror above your bed. It might be kind of hot to
watch you fucking me from the ceiling,” she said, and my cock throbbed in my
jeans.

I
fought back a moan at hearing her words. “That
would
be really hot,
but…can we go to your room?”

“My
room? Why?” she asked, grinning.

I
pressed her against her bedroom door and gripped her face between my large
hands.

“Sadie,
look at me,” I commanded, and her chocolate brown eyes captured mine. I felt
something warm and slippery in my chest as I looked into her big, beautiful
eyes. “I know that this may make me sound like a pussy, but what’s about to
happen between us…this is a really big deal to me. I don’t know where this
thing will go or if we sleep together again after this so knowing that this
very well could be a one-time deal for us, I don’t want it to happen in my bed.
I don’t want to have a memory of us having sex on a bed that has had hundreds
of girls in it. You aren’t a nameless faceless girl, Sadie. You’re beautiful
and perfect and you deserve better than that.”

Emotion
clouded her eyes and her face went from shocked to touched in a matter of
seconds.

“And
you did think you were a romantic kind of guy, Jude Miller. Point well made.
Let’s go into my room then,” she said, and she reached down and grabbed the
handle of her door.

I
wrapped my arms around her waist again as she turned the knob and opened the
door. I carried her into her room and walked us over to her bed. Gently laying
her down, I kissed her plush lips once more before I stood up and reached for
the bottom of my shirt.

Sadie
sat up and raised my shirt up past my stomach, running her tiny hands over my
sculpted abs.

“God
you’re beautiful,” she whispered before pressing her lips to my stomach. I
lifted my shirt over my head and tossed it to the floor as she started to trace
the ridges of my abs with the tip of her tongue. I tossed my head back and
closed my eyes. No one had ever done this to me before. Every time I had sex it
was usually either against a wall with a girls legs wrapped around me or doggy
style on my bed. I’d never slept with a girl where it was more than just a
quick fuck. It was amazing what a difference a little foreplay made.

Sadie

I
felt like I’d died and gone to heaven. Was this really happening? Jude Miller
was in my room, standing in front of me half dressed, waiting to take my body
to new realms of intense pleasure…everything I’d wanted since I was old enough
to like boys. I was almost sure I was dreaming but the way he was looking at
me, his gray eyes dark and full of want, I knew it wasn’t and I felt like I was
on top of the world.

Jude
brushed a few strands of hair away from my cheek and I looked up at him. The
moonlight caught the side of his face and it almost made him look like he was
glowing.

“No,
baby,
you’re
beautiful,” he said and he bent down to grab the bottom of
the shirt I’d borrowed from him. I lifted my arms willingly as he slowly slid
the shirt off me and it joined his on the floor.

The
way the moon was shining on his chiseled abs made my mouth start to water. I
suddenly couldn’t wait to be naked and let him do whatever he wanted to me and
as I reached around to unfasten my bra he stopped me.

“Let
me,” he said. “Why should you have all the fun?”

“Be
my guest,” I answered, smiling, and he reached behind me and popped my bra open
with literally a snap of his fingers. “Impressive, Mr. Miller,” I said.

“Not
my first time, Miss Cavanaugh,” he said, grinning. He peeled the bra off of my
shoulders and threw it across the room. When his hazel eyes landed on my
breasts he gasped. “Fuck,” he groaned.

I
teased my hard nipples with my fingers, toying with the little pink diamond
barbells in them, and asked, “You like?”

Jude
nodded his head and licked his lips. “I want to taste them so bad,” he said,
practically salivating.

I
tossed my hair over my head and said, “Then help yourself, big guy.”

My
cheesy line worked because he fell to his knees in front of me and instantly
sucked one of my nipples into his hot, wet mouth. I couldn’t contain my screams
of pleasure as I got my first taste of what Jude could do to me with that
tongue of his.

I
held his head tightly to me as he licked and sucked my nipple. When his teeth
gave it a little bite after sucking the barbell into his mouth I felt muscles
down deep within me clench with aching need. He let go of my nipple with a soft
pop and moved over to the other breast, making sure to pay just as much
attention to that one as well.

“God,
Jude, that feels amazing,” I moaned, throwing my head back. The act shoved my
breasts further out and even more into Jude’s hands and mouth.

“Your
nipples taste so good,” he said, releasing me again and kissing his way up my
chest to my neck. Once his mouth reached my ear lobe, he lightly licked it and
whispered, “I wonder how you taste everywhere.”

I
shifted around, clenching my thighs together. At this point, I felt like I’d
soaked clean through my panties.

“Only
one way to find out,” I breathed.

His
mouth moved back to mine and I felt him smile against my lips as he kissed me
quickly.

“I
already know you smell like fucking heaven,” he said, trailing his fingers
along the outside of my pants between my legs. “My mouth is watering right now
from your scent, Sadie.”

Knowing
he could smell my arousal through my jeans turned me on even more. I placed my
hand over his and guided his fingers down to my entrance which was still
covered. I moaned as he rubbed my clit hard through my pants.

“I
want to feel your fingers inside me.”

He
continued to rub me with one hand as his other hand reached up and unfastened
the button of my jeans.

“Lay
back,” he commanded, and I fell back against the bed without another word. He
stopped rubbing between my legs so he could unzip my short and pull them off
me. Once they were gone, I pulled my legs up on the bed and let my knees fall
apart, exposing my pink lacy thong. He gripped my thighs and rubbed them
roughly for a moment before he leaned his head down between my legs.

“Holy
fuck,” he said.

“What
is it?” I asked, looking at him.

“You’re
just so fucking sexy,” he said, looking from my eyes down to my soaking wet
panties. I wanted him to touch me, to taste me, to do whatever he wanted to me.
When our eyes met for a second I silently nodded at him, giving him permission.
He reached out and traced the crotch of my panties and he groaned. Sliding them
to the side, he sank a strong finger into my pussy and we both cried out.

“Feel
good?” he growled.

“Oh
God yes,” I moaned.

As
he moved his finger in and out of me he inhaled deeply through his nose.

“You’re
pussy smells intoxicating, Sadie. I want to taste you on my tongue.”

“Do
it, Jude,” I whimpered. “I want you to taste me.”

He
smiled up at me and our eyes locked as he slid a second finger into me, causing
me to gasp. Jesus…his two fingers alone were wider and longer than my last
boyfriend’s dick.

“Say
it again, Sadie.”

I
could barely concentrate as his fingers moved in and out of me faster and
faster.

“Say
what?”

“Tell
me you want me to taste you,” he groaned.

“I
want you to taste me, Jude! Now!” I screamed. He growled and wasted no more
time before his hot tongue was rolling around on my clit and sucking on it
hard.

“Oh,
oh…oh my God yes!” I cried out, my hands finding his head and holding him close
to me. He feasted on me like he’d been starving for me forever. “Jude, keep
going! Jesus fucking Christ!”

Fuck
this man had a talented tongue. He licked not only my clit but up and around my
pussy, sucking me hard. He withdrew his fingers and stuck his tongue inside me
as his hands gripped my hips. His voice was muffled as he moaned with each
taste of me.

I
felt tingles shooting all through my body and my toes were curling. I felt
myself starting to clench and I knew I was close to a hard orgasm.

“Oh
God,” I barely whispered.

“Yes,
let yourself go, Sadie. Come for me,’ Jude said roughly and with those words I
was done. My back arched and my hips lifted off the bed as an earth quaking
orgasm rocked my entire body. Jude continued to suck on my clit as I rode out
my wave of intense pleasure until I was almost ready to black out.

I
collapsed on the bed, exhausted from what he’d just done to me. I’d never felt
pleasure like that in my life and I knew that it wasn’t just how he’d gone down
on me…it was the fact that it was Jude and that I loved him. Sex with everyone
else I’d ever been with didn’t come close to what he’d just made me feel
because none of them were
him.

“Jesus,
Sadie,” he said, looking up at me, my juices still dripping from his lips. He
licked them and moaned at the flavor. “You tasted even better than I could have
imagined.”

“I…want…to…taste…you,”
I panted, barely able to catch my breath.

Jude
chuckled against my skin and he gave me goose bumps.

“Maybe
next time,” he said. “You look pretty worn out already, babe.”

I
shook my head and said, “N-no, I’m fine. Just got to c-catch my breath. I want
to know what you taste like.”

“Like
I said, Sadie…next time,” he repeated and the tone in his voice made me pause.

I
raised my weak head and looked into his eyes. What just happened…it meant as
much to him as it had to me. He wanted to do this to me again. My heart leaped
in that moment knowing that despite his earlier concern, this wasn’t a one-time
thing for us.

“Jude,”
I whispered.

“I
want to be inside you, Sadie. My body is aching for you so bad that it hurts,”
he said.

I
slowly sat up and placed my hands on the sides of his face.

“Then
take what you want. I want you inside me too. I’ve wanted that for such a long
time.”

“I
need to get a condom,” he said.

I
pointed to the night stand by my bed.

“I
have some in the drawer.”

He
cocked an eyebrow at me and smiled.

“Keeping
a stash of rubbers by the bedside, huh? You sure it’s been a while since you’ve
been with anyone?”

I
nodded and said, “Ever since I broke up with that fucker Jeremy my senior year.
I almost threw them out after that but once I saw you again in New York I hung
onto them. You know, just in case you ever pulled your head out of your ass and
saw how much I was in love with you.”

He
grinned and shook his head.

“Well,
I have been a fucking dumb ass to not know you were in love with me until about
an hour ago. However, in my defense, you did a pretty good job of hiding it
from me.”

“I
had to. Self preservation and all,” I admitted and his brows furrowed. “Knowing
you were out there night after night getting lost in a different girl…it hurt,
I won’t lie. But what’s done is done. It’s all in the past now, right?”

He
looked ashamed for a brief moment.

“Sadie,
I-”

I
pressed a fingertip to his lips and smiled.

“You’re
over thinking again. Just shut up, grab a condom, suit up, and fuck me until I
can’t think,” I blurted out, leaning down and licking his bottom lip.

He
growled and pressed his forehead to mine.

“Jesus
Christ, Sadie. That mouth of yours…I swear to God you are going to be the death
of me,” he said, and reached over to grab a condom from the night stand. He
kissed me deeply before he stood up and unzipped his jeans.

I
slipped out of my panties and as soon as I tossed them to the side, I helped
him pull his pants down and gasped as his cock sprang free. With as big and
bulky as Jude was I had always wondered if he was big like that
everywhere
.
When I’d seen him masturbating in the shower I was so glad that I’d been right.
A part of me was a little worried that he might not fit because not only was he
big, he was kind of abnormally big. What a good problem to have.

As
he ripped open the foil packet I took advantage and grasped his dick with both
of my hands, stroking him up and down. He was soft like satin but as hard as a
statue. He growled as my hands moved up and down his shaft. I ached to trace
every inch of his cock with my tongue but before I got the chance he took his dick
into his hand and rolled the condom on, sheathing the dual barbells that ran
through the head of his dick. I couldn’t wait to get my tongue on that cross.

Taking
my hand in his, he said, “Stand up,” and I willingly went. “Listen, I know that
I’m a pretty big guy and you are so small and perfect,” he said, tracing my
cheek with the back of his fingers. “I want you to be on top the first time,
okay?”

“You
do?” I asked, raising an eyebrow at him and smiling.

Nodding,
he said, “I know that this is going to feel fucking amazing with you and my
instinct will be to go fast. I guess I just want you to feel in control and
take this as fast as you want to. I don’t want to hurt you, Sadie.”

I
had known Jude my whole life and I had known about the kind of sex he usually
had from hearing all the stories from Beau and the guys. Jude wasn’t the type
that had any kind of sex where he would let the girl be in charge. For him to
give up all of that control just to make our first time together wonderful for
me made me fall even harder for him.

“You
won’t hurt me, Jude. I know you won’t.”

He
gritted his jaw tightly together and lowered his lips to mine. He turned us
around so his back was facing the bed and he slowly sat down and lay back
against the pillows. My heart started pounding as I saw Jude lying on my bed,
naked, hard, and ready for me with the moonlight shining on his hard chiseled
body. Holding his hand out to me he whispered, “Are you ready?”

“More
than you know,” I said softly, and I climbed on the bed and straddled his
waist. We both moaned as our naked bodies touched for the second time that day.
The first time it felt amazing but rushed. This time we both knew exactly what
we were doing and what we wanted. I leaned down against his body, my breasts
touching his chest and I kissed him deeply. I scraped my nails across his scalp
and he moaned into my mouth.

“You
like that?”

“I
love that,” he said, his eyes closing for a moment. He kept them shut tight for
a moment before they opened and he looked deeply into my eyes. “Last chance to
change your mind, Sadie. Nothing will be the same after this.”

Trying
to lighten the mood, I said, “Well, our friendship was pretty much fucked up
after I told you I loved you, we’ve seen each other naked, you just went down
on me, and I’m lying naked on top of you right now.” I tried to laugh but his
face was still serious.