Sold: A Billionaire Bad Boy Mafia Romance (3 page)

Steve was a software engineer. He spent most of his days sitting alone in front of a computer. That’s how he started dreaming about a Russian bride. His computer was a window that opened to the whole wide world. And there I was: a beautiful girl, with dark curly hair and pale skin and big eyes, all grown up and ready for him... as long as he could pay the price.

I flashed a wide, enthusiastic smile. It was the first of many smiles and it wasn’t completely fake. Hey, I was in America after all, and there was a lot to be joyous about. Even if the man himself was underwhelming.

“At first, I thought your profile was fake. Well, the picture at least,” Steve said as he drove from the LaGuardia airport to his house in Forest Hills.

“The picture?”

“Yes,” he said, and looked at me intently. “I thought the photo was fake. Because you look like Rachel Weisz.”

“Who?”

“It doesn’t matter,” he said as he clumsily put his hand on my thigh, driving the steering wheel with the other hand. “All that matters is that you’re here now, and I will make you happy.”

He tried, for a while. He was nice to me and took me to fancy restaurants and gave me expensive gifts and took me to wonderful places until he ran out of money. Then he despaired.

“I look into your eyes and see your frustration,” he told me one night. I didn’t say a word. I wanted to explain that I was frustrated with myself, not with him. I didn’t need any fancy dinners or expensive clothes; I was more than content with a chance to live my life in this country, with a good man, in a good house; get a job; pay the bills; fall in love. But I wouldn’t, not with him. And besides, I wasn’t what he really needed; hard as I could try, I wouldn’t be able to turn him into what he desperately wanted to be. It would have been impossible to explain
that
to him, though, so I kept silent.

He had a handful of friends, and I met them all in the course of two months. The looks they gave me were telling.
Where did
she
come from?
they asked without uttering a single word. Steve was not the kind of man that makes a pretty foreigner fall for him. Heck, he was not the kind of man that even
meets
a pretty foreigner. In a sense, even though I had landed here escaping from poverty and danger, I was too much for him.

Things got worse and worse until they ended, as it always happens. I wish there was other way, but whoever designed the world didn’t pay much attention to the ungentle way things get undone. There’s no amicable way to part, no friendship after the fact, no
good terms
for anything. It’s all a lie. Russian writers seem to know this instinctively. I had left most of my books back home, but I brought a handful with me, which I reread often.

We were together for just over a year. And for all the struggle and suffering, we didn’t even get married.

Shortly after the breakup, I took a job in Manhattan. The admission process was weird and intense. The guy (I mean my boss) was known all around and apparently owned half the city. He took me as his secretary and arranged a work visa for me so that I could stay in the country. He was a handsome, weird man. His office was located in a building where every floor was named after a different card. The top one, where he went to work every day, was called the King of Hearts. In the months I spent working for him I discovered that he owned that building and many others, and that he had named many, many things following the playing cards theme. I didn’t understand why, and before I could ask him about it, I had fallen in love with him, become one of his “toys”, and been summarily discarded as soon as he got tired of me.

In retrospect, how could I have not fallen for him? Theo Lambert was everything Steve Haines was not. He was handsome, athletic, charismatic, and he seemed to be in the process of swallowing the world whole. Sometimes he would show me a magazine with his picture on the cover and make some stupid, cocky remark. I felt so special when he started hitting on me, then fucking me right there in his office, saying sweet words to me, taking me to places where Steve could never dream of even being admitted. But then there was the disappointment, the fury, the nights weeping and sobbing. I was just a toy, and got quickly replaced.

So I got another job, as a bookstore clerk. I tried to clear my head and fill it with work, read a lot, cultivate myself (my heart still had a special place for Dostoevsky and Chekhov and all the rest, though; I found myself in their words of sadness and clarity and shame). But I was at my low point and I even started missing home. I couldn’t concentrate and I read just little pieces here and there. I fucked a coworker for a while, and hated myself even more. All the while, I kept leaving messages on Theo’s phone, knowing full well that he wouldn’t even hear them, that he would put that task on the shoulders of my replacement, surely some pretty young girl. Was I speaking to her, then? Did I want her to take notice of the desperation in my voice, so that I could augment my own humiliation, like a character in a Russian novel?

Late one afternoon, I drank too much and somehow ended up bypassing the building’s security and taking the elevator to the King of Hearts. My replacement was there. She was indeed a pretty woman, but no longer a girl. She was in fact a bit older than me, and had a clueless expression that made me want to smash her face against the wall. Only days later I realized how frightened she must have been: I had become the crazy ex. “How many times did he fuck you?” I asked her, and she didn’t answer. I had made it to seven.
Seven
, I said, stupidly proud of the number. I smiled and left, staggering a bit, stumbling against the wall once or twice. Somehow I managed to get into the elevator and get out of the building as tears veiled my vision. I wandered down the streets as the sky got progressively darker, stumbling against strangers from time to time. It was already pitch black (or, rather, as pitch black as it can get in Manhattan) when I went into the pub.

I never knew what was waiting for me inside that pub. If I had suspected it, I would never have crossed that door. But I did. And I ended up falling in love once more.

5. RIGHT PLACE, WRONG TIME

ACE

I was checking on the guys in Frisco when Jack told me what he had done. That’s the only reason I didn’t rip his head off his shoulders. Things in the Bay were getting worse. We’d had three rounds of empty bets and the usual explanation (that the assets had been withdrawn because the feds were looking) was not very convincing. I suspected some of the guys were actually keeping all the monies. Also, if the reports were right, the Chinese in Atlanta were about to go on full retaliation mode, with some catastrophic digital book burning: they had developed a virus to wipe our accounts one by one. And in Chicago, a player had been kidnapped before getting to the poker table. Someone was starting to spill the beans about Little Vegas, and I could smell danger in the air.

I’ve never liked violence, and I like to run a peaceful business. Even when I started, as a nineteen-year-old bouncer in one of the locations in Brooklyn, I very much preferred people to stay put instead of having to shove them out. And some years later, after being upgraded to collector, I wanted people to hand their signatures on their own accord, without having to break their legs. Now, twenty years later, I took pride in the fact that my run at the helm of Little Vegas had been the most peaceful of all... until that point. Now, things were turning sour. Maybe I had been a little too soft.

Anyway, this was
not
the moment to introduce a pretty foreigner in my life. First of all, the way she had appeared in the pub was suspicious. You can never be too careful in this. How did I know she hadn’t been sent by a conspirator? And even if not, at the very least, that would be a risk for her. Ending up in the middle of a global operation with shit about to go down everywhere. She had been at the right place at the wrong time.

And Jack Starr thought it would be a good idea to follow her and leave her my address.

Having your wishes carried out without even asking. That’s power. But at times it’s
so inconvenient
.

“Jack, are you out of your fucking mind?”

Jack didn’t even flinch. He sat nonchalantly on my desk and grabbed one of the almond-stuffed olives I had brought from the bottom floor. He spoke as he chewed, which irritates me to no end. That’s why he does it.

“Come on, Ace. You were about to start howling like a mad dog last night,” he chuckled. “I figured out that if you never saw that woman again, you’d end up committing suicide, probably killing us all in the process. Say it isn’t so.”

“Well, it isn’t...”

“Fucking liar,” he interrupted me, and grabbed another olive. “What are the news from San Francisco?”

I sighed.

“Bad news. That’s why I don’t need a pretty Russian snooping around,” I replied angrily. “Someone won a yacht. Someone won a company. Someone won a tenure. Someone won a bunch of high-yielding bonds. Only the tenure was granted.”

“Hmmm,” Jack Starr said, chewing pensively. “Smells fishy.”

“It does, right?”

“Yes, but—” Jack stopped. He looked at the ceiling, his legs dangling in the air as the desk supported his fat executive ass. “It’s strange. Your new girlfriend looks so much like a girlfriend I had in my thirties. I noticed that as soon as I saw her. Maybe... maybe that’s why I followed her. Really took me down memory lane.”

“Do you think so?”

Jack gave me a puzzled look.

“Of course I think so. Why would you doubt that? You were like seven when I dated that woman.”

“Oh, it’s only that... she looks a bit like Rhonda, too, I guess.”

Jack burst out in a hearty laugh.

“What? She looks
nothing
like Rhonda. You’re losing it, champ.” Then he softened his tone. “Ace, it’s been years. You’ve been fucking bitch after bitch nonstop, and never, not even once, did you care about any of those women. I’m sure you never looked at a woman like you looked at that Russian girl last night. Not even Rhonda, for sure. So won’t you take the risk? What happened to good old Ace?”

If he were any other person, I’d have smacked him unconscious and fired him while he was sleeping on the floor. But Jack Starr was my right hand, and for good reason. Besides being my friend, I completely trusted his judgement, and in my experience, he was almost always right.

He was certainly right this time. He had seen through my cocky attitude and noticed that the foreigner had left me in awe. It was
not
the time for being in awe, with a war coming all across the United States, but there it was: I had fallen under the spell of her big dark eyes.

I knew I should just forget her. But I just couldn’t.

“Also, you were the one who mentioned Little Vegas to her,” Jack continued. “What were you thinking? You really slipped up, man.”

She made me slip up. She, and her eyes.
Too dangerous.

“I did,” I admitted. “And I need to point out that it was Harlan who tried to tell me that I was fucking up.
You
just sat there smiling like a moron. And then, while Harlan took care of the cheater and cleaned up the mess,
you
compounded my slip up by going for her, and now she’s gonna come here. She must be finding the flowers and the card right now as we speak. What am I going to tell her, Jack?”

He looked at me with something that looked a bit like pity, grabbed a third almond-stuffed olive, started chewing it, and spoke again.

“And now you’ll be insecure around a woman. I truly have heard everything.”

He jumped down to the floor and walked away. I threw an olive at him, but he was quicker and it smashed on the closed door.

Fucking asshole.

6. THE NOTE

VAN

I slept all night and morning and then a bit more. I woke up with a terrible headache and a fuzzy recollection of the previous day. I had cried, I had drunk a lot, and I had walked into some kind of secret gambling operation; I had met this dangerous guy who I had found immediately alluring. But I couldn’t even remember his face at first. What I remembered of him was his air of strength and self-assuredness, his aura of raw power and dominion over anything that came close to him, but his physical characteristics were just a blur in my memory.

I walked into the kitchen and made myself a really late lunch. I dropped an egg and burnt the bacon, but the lunch survived. I sat down to eat and I was chewing on the first bite when I saw the flowers.

Someone had left them on the window sill, with what looked like an ordinary business card attached to the bouquet. On the
inside
of the
closed
window in my
fucking apartment
. I jumped up and ran to the door to check the lock. It was intact, locked, and I still had the keys. I grabbed a knife and roamed about the apartment, alarmed. I checked every corner of every room, but I found nobody hiding in the shadows. I was alone. And yet, somehow, somebody had broken into the apartment and left those flowers.

I went to the living room and stood there for a while, in confusion, while my lunch was getting cold. One or two minutes passed until I realized I hadn’t even read the card attached to the flowers.

I don’t like flowers. I liked them when I was younger, but not anymore. There is only one flower in the world I like, and it’s fake. A cheap plastic thing that Misha bought one night in St Petersburg.

Earlier that day, he had stabbed a guy for a couple of rubles. Or maybe they were euros or dollars; I don’t know. It was not his intention to stab the guy, according to Misha; he shouldn’t have resisted. They were all alone in the middle of an empty square, white cold vapor coming out of their mouths in the chilly air as they exchanged a handful of sharp words. There was nothing he could do except hand out his money, but the idiot just had to fight, Misha said. The guy had lived, but apparently he had never come back to the neighborhood.

I went mad. I screamed at him so much that I think I left him temporarily deaf. I pushed him, I cried, and I screamed some more. That was not the life I wanted to live, I told him. I locked myself in the bathroom and stayed there for hours, until he left the house.