Steal the Day (44 page)

Marcus left, and we were alone. Daniel rubbed my back with his hands and rocked me. I might have been the one who technically died, but Daniel was the one in shock. He was still shaking, and I wondered if maybe we should have taken Marcus up on his offer.

“Are you all right?” I asked after a long silence.

“You died, Zoey,” he said, his voice unsteady. “I felt it. You were fucking gone. You died because I was so pissed off I left you there. I left you all alone with no one but Dev.”

We had to get one thing straight. I wasn’t going to let him take this out on Dev. “You can’t blame Dev.”

His head shook. “I’m not blaming Dev, Z. Dev did what he had to do. From what Marcus said, Dev died, too. I’m blaming myself because none of this would have happened if I hadn’t lost my temper. I got both of you killed.”

I had played my part in this fiasco. I had to own up to it. “I let Felix take Neil. He even warned me I would pay for it, and I still did it. You were right, Danny. I did what I wanted to do. I didn’t think about anything else. That one mistake could have cost Dev his life.”

“Why didn’t Dev freaking stop you?” Danny asked.

“Have you tried to stop her?” Dev stood in the doorway, his skin pale.

I looked up and was rewarded with Dev’s very much alive face. He was past tired and disheveled, but he’d never looked better to me. He’d shed his bloody clothes and stood there in a pair of jeans. His torso was smooth once more, with no hint of the massive damage that had almost taken him from me forever. I told myself I would have to send Henri Jacobs and Marcus big old thank you gifts if I could figure out the vampire equivalent of a cookie bouquet.

“It happened very quickly, Daniel,” Dev explained in a somber voice. “It wasn’t like she looked to me for guidance.”

“I’m sorry.” I wished he would come closer. I wanted to put my hands on his skin.

“It wasn’t your fault, Dev,” Daniel said firmly. “I wouldn’t have been able to stop her, either. She’s impulsive, but she thought she was doing the right thing.”

“I’m sorry.” I didn’t like the look on Dev’s face. It was altogether too sober for a person who had just cheated death.

“I’ll have to disagree with you, Dan. It was my fault. I couldn’t protect her.” Dev leaned against the door. “I managed to make myself a piece of cannon fodder. That bought her roughly twenty seconds while he gutted me.”

“He’s a demon,” Daniel pointed out. “He’s going to be stronger and faster than you. That’s why we hire muscle.”

I held a hand out to him. “Dev, please just come here and kiss me.”

“I don’t think that’s such a great idea, Zoey,” Dev admitted, finally getting to what I’d been afraid of since he walked in the room with bleak eyes. “Look, I’ll find your muscle, Dan. I think we can assume Halfer will be back. She needs you a hell of a lot more than she needs me. You can protect her. I can’t. I’m going to stay here in Vegas for a while. The two of you should stay at Ether when you get back to Dallas. It’s better protected than either of your places, and she’ll be more comfortable. The staff knows how to keep an eye out for her. I think you should go with two bodyguards, at least, when you’re not with her. Weres are best.”

“What do you mean you’re staying here?” I forced myself to sit up.

Dev ignored me, preferring to speak to Daniel. “I’ll put every investigator I know on tracking down Halfer. You’ll get daily updates. If you need anything from me, just call.”

“Why are you leaving me?” I hated the way my voice caught. “Is it because I got you killed?”

“No, Z,” Daniel corrected with a frown. “He thinks he got you killed, and he’s being a self-sacrificing idiot. He blames himself for the fight we had before I stalked off. He thinks if he hadn’t come between us in the first place, we wouldn’t have had that fight and I wouldn’t have left you. What he’s not counting on is the fact that we fought before he came around, and if he leaves, we’ll still fight. It’s our nature. Dev, she still would have let Neil go even if you hadn’t been here. I still would have stormed out, and then she wouldn’t have had those twenty seconds.”

“I still think it’s best if I took myself out of the equation,” Dev said softly.

“Can we not make any decisions tonight?” Daniel sounded as tired as the rest of us. “I don’t want to fight anymore. Look, if all the shit at the ball made you want to pull out, then fine. Stay here in Vegas, and Z and I will manage on our own. I won’t blame you. This probably won’t be the last time someone tries to rip your guts out if you stay around us. But if you’re doing this because you think I won’t protect her if you’re here, then get the fuck over it, man. Don’t break her heart like that. Just get in the tub and help me keep her warm, and we can make decisions when we get home.”

Dev looked torn, and I held my breath. I knew this was a moment between the men, and I would only confuse things. “Are you sure?”

“Yes. It’ll be dawn soon. I hoped the magic would last longer than one night, but I can feel myself getting tired already. I don’t want her cold because I’m too stubborn to share.”

He still hesitated, and I knew it was my turn to sway him. “If you don’t get in this tub with me, Devinshea Quinn, I won’t tell you the story of how I met Lucifer Morningstar.”

Dev’s eyes went wide, and I felt Daniel tense beside me. “Seriously?”

“Get in the tub and find out,” I dared him.

His jeans hit the floor, and he was in my arms as I told my tale.

Later, just before dawn, Daniel carried me out to the big bed. He laid me down in the center and crawled in beside me. Dev was on the other side, wrapping his arms around my waist and tangling our legs together.

When Daniel died with the dawn, I was still warm and happy.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

“Will Felicity and Oliver be all right?” I looked at Sarah and Felix who sat across the table from me.

We were sitting together enjoying a glass of wine after a perfectly delightful meal. Felix was certainly making good on his promise to try the whole eating thing. He’d had a full three course meal and sampled what Sarah and I ordered. The good news for Sarah was Felix had also tried the gym and found it satisfying.

“Another of my kind will be assigned to assist them.” Felix’s hand brushed his wife’s. His left hand was sporting a gold band that matched Sarah’s. “It will be difficult, but they’ll find their balance. It’s not the first time this has happened. It won’t be the last.”

It had been difficult for me to find my balance since we’d returned from Nevada. The four days since Daniel, Dev, and I boarded the plane without Neil had been trying, to say the least. Daniel and Dev had explained to me that they wanted time to think about how best to handle our situation. I couldn’t exactly argue with them. I was the one who screwed everything up, and it still weighed heavily on me.

I was living at Ether as Dev had discussed, but he wasn’t staying with me. He slept in his office, and Daniel stayed at his apartment during the day. I spent my nights in the grotto or in the club. When I left the confines of Ether, it was with at least one of my two new bodyguards. Zack, the bartender from Descent, had offered his services and already made his oath to Daniel. Dev was right about the cash and power. Zack was constantly excited about the new strength he had gained in taking the vampire blood. Lee was Zack’s brother. He had yet to make an oath, but Zack was working on him.

“Still no movement on the love front?” Sarah asked, looking at me sympathetically. She had been my go-to girl for whining about how much I’d screwed up my love life. Even though she and Felix were deeply involved in their honeymoon period, she took time out to listen to me cry.

“Nope. Dev and Danny have been working every night on whatever the hell it is they work on. They have some big meeting coming up with a couple of vampires, and it requires a whole lot of talking apparently.” And left no time to deal with our situation, which was becoming unlivable for me. I would rather we all just fought it out. It would almost be easier to deal with two breakups than to live constantly wondering when they were going to break my heart.

“Are you not feeding Daniel?” Sarah asked.

“Of course I am. I sit in his lap and he feeds, and I get my mind blown and he very politely thanks me and then he leaves me alone.”

“Damn,” Sarah breathed. “That’s cold.”

She was right. It was very cold. The minute he walked out of the room, I felt used. I know he thought he was being polite, but I was ready to bring that damn nurse back because it hurt too much for him to walk away when I needed him so badly.

“He just needs time, cousin.” Felix took a sip of his wine. “They both need time.”

“They’re going to make me choose.” I had absolutely no idea what I was going to do.

Sarah patted my hand. “Of course they are, sweetie. You can’t expect them to go on like this. Daniel is possessive. It goes against his nature to share you. The problem is Daniel needs you more than Dev. As much as you enjoy Dev, you’ve always loved Daniel. Don’t get me wrong, I like Dev. I think you would be better off with Dev, but I know you. You won’t be able to leave Daniel.”

“I love Dev, too.” I didn’t want to admit she was right. Just because I’d loved Danny longer didn’t mean I wouldn’t feel Dev’s loss. In some ways, Dev was mine. I had to share Daniel with his freaking destiny, but Dev was mine alone. I just didn’t see how I could keep him. I would never be able to leave Daniel. I was tied to him far too tightly, but my heart ached at the thought of never touching Dev again.

“Don’t cry, little cousin,” Felix said, reaching over to brush my tears away. “It will work out. You have to have faith.”

“Easy for you say.” He’d been the embodiment of faith for millennia. It didn’t come so easily to me.

He smiled brightly. “Yes, it is. It is also true.”

I shook my head and banished my misery. We’d talked enough about my men. I had other people to worry about. “Were you able to locate Neil?”

Her bright blue pixie bob shaking, Sarah leaned toward me. “Not a sign of him. I’ve been trying every night, but he’s either too far away or he’s staying in wolf form. It’s hard to track a werewolf when they stay in wolf form all the time.”

“That doesn’t surprise me. He changes when he’s upset. I just wish he would come home.” I missed Neil so much I ached with it.

The loss of Neil added to my misery. Daniel refused to let me so much as speak his name around him. I’d tried to get Dev to put some of his investigators on finding Neil, but he’d flatly turned me down. They considered Neil’s defection an unforgivable betrayal.

“Your new wolf seems very professional.” Sarah glanced back at Zack.

The young wolf stood a comfortable distance away but was well within hearing range. He could get to me in a single flash of speed. Zack took his new responsibilities seriously. He was dressed in a suit and sported a snazzy communications device in his left ear. He and Lee coordinated their movement through the earpieces.

“Yes, it’s all very efficient.” I found the bottom of my wine glass but refused when Felix offered to refill it. I’d been drinking far too much since I got back. I needed to stop wallowing. “Everything is running really well since Dev took over. I get a daily schedule. I’m sure at some point I’ll have my own secretary so neither of them has to actually talk to me. Speaking of schedules, I have to meet a freaking personal shopper. Dev claims I need a new wardrobe for all the events I have to attend.”

I knew what my role was—to look pretty and not cause trouble.

I watched as Zack touched his earpiece and talked quietly. I was probably the only person in the restaurant who was forced to cart around not one but two bodyguards. Lee patrolled the entrances and exits. Since we’d returned, we’d all been waiting for Lucas Halfer to make his move. It was just a matter of time.

“Hey, Zoey, before you leave, Felix and I wanted to ask you to do us a favor,” Sarah said a little too brightly.

“Anything.” I meant it, but the tight look in her eyes told me this wouldn’t be pleasant.

“Don’t worry, you’re going to like it,” Felix reassured. “It’s just a little problem of mine that Sarah is being completely irrational about.”

“He wants me to chop off his wings,” Sarah blurted out.

My eyes got wide. “Seriously? You want me to cut off your wings? Where the hell are they now?”

“I’m holding them in. But it gets more and more difficult with each passing day. The longer I go the harder it is. I need someone to help me get rid of them. I assure you it won’t be painful for me. Sarah doesn’t believe me. I thought my little cousin would find it an amusing way to pass an afternoon.”

I grinned because he was totally right. “Cool. Do I use a sword?”

“I’ll leave it up to you,” Felix offered. “Tomorrow afternoon?”

Zack was walking up behind me as I agreed. I thought about buying a brand new shiny chainsaw. I should invest in some goggles, too, because it was probably going to be messy.

“It’s a date.”

Sarah’s pale face let me know that it was probably going to be just me and Felix for this bit of amputation.

“Mrs. Donovan, I have orders to deliver you to Ether.” Zack offered his hand to help me up.