Steel's Edge (2 page)

“He wanted children with a healing talent,” the older woman said.

Charlotte stopped.

“I'm sorry, sweetheart,” Lady Augustine said. “I shouldn't have said that. It was coarse of me. I'm so furious, and it's clouding my judgment. It's my fault. This was exactly the sort of thing I was trying to avoid, and I've failed you. I'm so, so sorry.”

“I'm not a child,” Charlotte said. “I'm almost thirty, and I'm responsible for my marriage.”

“You're educated, but Ganer College hasn't prepared you for the realities of the world outside these walls. It doesn't matter how old you are, you don't have the experience of interacting with people outside a controlled environment. You've never been betrayed, hurt, or tricked. You've never suffered humiliation. I look into people's souls every day, and what I see there fills me with joy, but also with dread. I wanted so much to spare you.”

She was talking as if the end of her marriage was a foregone conclusion. “My marriage isn't over, and Elvei isn't some sort of callous villain. So he didn't tell me about his succession. It's a rather regrettable oversight, but we will deal with it. I understand that love doesn't happen overnight, but I think he cares for me, and I care for him, deeply. We've lived together for almost three years. We wake up in the same bed. He told me he loved me when I began the fertility treatments.”

Lady Augustine studied her. “Perhaps you're right, and he simply loves you. If he truly cares for you, he'll deal with it.”

They took another step. The mix of worry and anxiety roiled inside Charlotte. Heat rose behind her eyes, and she clamped her hand over her mouth.

Lady Augustine opened her arms.

Charlotte's last defenses snapped. She stepped into the welcoming embrace and cried.

“My sweetheart, my precious one. It will be all right,” Lady Augustine soothed, holding her. “It will be all right. Let it all out.”

But it wasn't all right, and now Charlotte had to tell Elvei about it.

What they said about coming to love a person you live with was true: she had come to love him. He was always kind to her, and she could use some of that kindness now. She felt weak and helpless. So helpless.

The path brought her to the northern patio. Her husband sat in a chair, drinking his morning tea and peering over papers. Of average height and muscular build, Elvei was handsome in that particular aristocratic blueblood way: precise features, carved with a perfection that seemed a touch distant, square jaw, narrow nose, blue eyes, brown hair with a hint of red. When she woke up next to him, with the morning light playing on his face, she often thought he was beautiful.

Charlotte came up the steps. Elvei rose and held out a chair for her. She sat and passed him the letter.

He read it, impassive, his pleasant face calm. She had expected more of a reaction.

“This is unfortunate,” Elvei said.

That's it? Unfortunate? Her instincts told her something was seriously wrong with that placid expression on his face.

“I truly care for you,” Elvei said. “Very deeply.” He reached over the table and took her hand in his. “Being married to you is effortless, Charlotte. I have nothing but admiration for what you do and who you are.”

“I'm sorry,” she said. The logical part of her knew she had nothing to do with her infertility. She didn't cause it, and she had done everything in her power to fix it. She wanted a baby as much as Elvei. But she felt guilty all the same.

“Please don't be.” He leaned back. “It's not your fault or mine. It's just an accident of fate.”

He was so calm, almost cavalier about it. It would've been better if he cursed or threw something. He sat still in his chair, but every word he said was a small step back, increasing the distance between them. “We can adopt,” she said, hopeful.

“I'm sure you could.”

Alarm blared in her head. “You said ‘you.' Not ‘we.'”

He pushed a piece of paper across the table to her. “I thought that things might turn out this way, so I took the liberty of preparing this.”

She glanced at the paper. “Annulment?” Her composure shattered. He might as well have stabbed her. “After two and a half years, you want to annul our marriage? Are you out of your mind?”

Elvei grimaced. “We've been over this before: I have three years from the beginning of marriage to produce an heir. My brother is engaged, Charlotte. I told you about that two months ago. He'll have three years to produce a child. If I divorce you and remarry, I'll have six months before becoming ineligible to inherit. You can't make a baby in six months. I need an annulment, so my three years can restart, or Kalin will get there before me. He still might, all things considered, as marriage takes time . . .”

This wasn't happening. “So you're just going to pretend that everything we shared in these years doesn't exist and discard me? Like trash?”

He sighed. “I told you, I have a great deal of admiration for you. But the purpose of this marriage was to have a family.”

“We are a family. You and I.”

“That's not the kind of family I require. I can't lose the manor, Charlotte.”

She was cold and hot at the same time, all hurt and anger iced over by shock. “Is it money? You do realize that I can make us as much money as we need.”

He sighed. “You're so flawless most of the time that occasionally I forget you're not a blueblood by birth. No, of course, it's not the money. Whoever owns the manor rules the family. It's my inheritance; I was born first, I studied most of my life to take care of our family interests, and I won't let it slip away.”

“It's just a bloody house!” Her voice snapped.

Elvei's composure melted, the polite veneer sliding off him. His voice rose. “It's my childhood home. My family goes back sixteen generations. Do you expect me to just let my idiot brother get it while you and I pretend to play house here, in this decrepit ruin? No, thanks. I have higher ambitions in life.”

The words burned. “Is that what we were doing?” she asked quietly. “When you and I made love in our bedroom, we were playing house?”

“Don't be melodramatic. We both enjoyed it, but now we're done.”

The outrage swelled in her, mixing with hurt. Last night he'd kissed her before they fell asleep next to each other. This was the man she woke up to every morning? “Elvei, you realize, you're telling me that I have no value to you except as a broodmare?”

“Don't make me the villain in this.” Elvei leaned back. “I've gone with you to all the tests and treatments. I listened patiently while you got excited over this specialist and that, I sat in the waiting rooms, and I gave it as much time as I could. There are no more treatments left. I just want to have a child, like any normal healthy adult.”

Every time she thought she had reached the limit of hurt, he twisted the knife a little more, digging deeper and deeper inside her, cutting at a raw wound.

“So I'm abnormal?”

He spread his arms. “Can you conceive? No. You are defective, Charlotte.”

Defective. He actually called her defective. The pain inside her began to smolder with rage. “I'm curious, what's the next word you'll reach for? How cruel will you be, Elvei?”

“You cost me two and a half years.”

Two and a half years of disappointment, of painful procedures and shattered hopes, of feeling like she was crippled, but no, it was all about him. She would never have a child of her own, but he only saw himself as the injured party. She should've seen this in him. She should've known. How could she have been so stupid? “You're a terrible human being.”

He surged to his feet and leaned over the table. “Had I married someone else, I would've inherited by now. I tried to end this with as much civility as possible, but you've decided to cause a scene. I need an heir, Charlotte, and you can't give me one. What's so complicated about this? I'm done letting you waste my time.”

“You told me you loved me.” She still remembered how his face had looked when he said it.

“You needed encouragement to begin the therapy. Dear gods, Charlotte, are you really that naive or are you just stupid?”

The words slapped her. The darkness inside her shivered, stretching, getting ready to escape. She clenched herself around it, trying to hold it back.

“Let me spell it out: I married you because of your healing, which you could pass on to our children, and your poise. You are attractive and educated, and I knew that you would never embarrass me in public. Other than that, there wasn't much to recommend you.”

The air turned thick and scalding like boiling glue. She couldn't breathe.

“You've been a blueblood for less than three years. My family came to this continent on the Second Fleet, and they were already titled.”

The darkness writhed inside her, begging to be released.

“My father is an earl; my mother was a baroness prior to their union. Your father is a cook and your mother is a waitress. In what world could you possibly think that you were in any way equal to me? I granted you a favor. I flattered you by my proposal, Charlotte, and you fell short. Accept it with dignity. I believe an apology is in order.”

He'd pushed the blade so far into the wound that he reached the darkness she hid deep inside. Her defenses burst. The darkness slithered out, coating her skin from the inside out. “You're right. You will sit down now and apologize to me.” Menace suffused her voice.

He stared at her. “You're hardly in a position to give me orders.”

Her magic slid out of her and wrapped over her arms, curving around her body in rivulets of black backlit with deep, intense red. She had never seen it red before. The pale gold of healing, yes, hundreds of times. But this dark, furious black and red? No.
So this is what the magic of an abomination looks like.

“I can blight your entire family, you moron. I am the Healer. Pick a plague, and your sixteen generations will end right now.”

Elvei's mouth gaped. “You wouldn't.”

The magic lashed out from her like a striking serpent and bit him. Elvei jerked, his face puzzled. She felt her magic sting him, cutting at the lining of his throat, and a rush of unexpected pleasure flooded her. Oh gods. Fear shot through Charlotte. She jerked the dark current back, pulling her power into herself. She'd let it have just a merest taste, a tiny bite, but it wanted more, and she had to strain to keep it contained.

Elvei coughed, harder and harder, clamping his hand over his mouth. Blood dripped from between his fingers, staining his skin with bright, hot scarlet.

He started to rise but froze halfway.

She realized she hated him, and hurting him made her happy. Power coursed through her, grim but exhilarating. Her magic begged for more.

No. She couldn't let it.

“Sit.”

He dropped into the chair.

“You'll have your annulment,” she said. “However, you have lived here all this time, and since you don't wish to be treated as my husband, I will treat you as my boarder. You'll reimburse me for rent, food, clothing, gifts, and the services of my staff. You came into this sham marriage with nothing, and you will leave with nothing.”

It was a small price to pay, but she couldn't just let him walk away free and clear. Her anger wouldn't let her. She had to have a nominal compensation. If she didn't, her magic would exact its own price.

“I don't have that kind of money,” he said.

“I'm not interested in your financial troubles,” she said. “I financially supported you all these years, and you don't get to take advantage of me. I'll have my lawyer draft an invoice, and you will pay it in full, or I will force you to make a much more public apology.”

All blood left his face. “You'll have your money.”

“Send it to the Dawn Mother charity.” The money would go to heal children. Some good would come from this nightmare.

Her magic begged to have another tiny nip of him. Charlotte clenched her power in her fist and kept it contained. “Apologize to me for being a heartless bastard.”

“I apologize,” he said, his voice wooden.

Charlotte concentrated. Magic coated her arm, the radiant golden hue of healing. “Give me your hand.”

He stretched his hand over the table. His fingers trembled. She locked her fingers on his wrist, fighting revulsion. They had awakened in the same bed this morning. She'd lain there, thinking that he was handsome and that she would've liked to have his children, while he must've been going over the conditions of annulment in his head. The document had been drafted by a lawyer, which took time. Elvei must've begun the preparations for this moment days ago. Her mind struggled to accept that he could be that cold.

She forced the thoughts away and concentrated on repairing the lacerations in the lining of his throat that she'd made. A moment, and his internal wounds closed. She released him and wiped her hand on the tablecloth.

“You may go. Your things will be sent to you when the charity informs me that your payment has been received.”

He jumped to his feet and ran out. She sat there, alone, on the patio of a house that no longer felt like home and wondered what she would do next. The dark current of power coiled and twisted around her. She felt its hunger, beckoning her. It wanted to be fed.

Finally, all the endless lessons and instructions made sense. Her teachers had said that using the healing gift to harm was addicting, but they neglected to mention why. Hurting her ex-husband had brought her pleasure. She wanted to do it again.

Do not become an abomination, Charlotte.

There were no exceptions to the rule. The dark magic would resurface, and the joy it brought would consume her. She'd follow its dark lure into the unthinking abyss where only the next moment of pain-induced euphoria would matter. She was a ticking bomb. She had to contain her powers at any cost.