The Beggar and the Hare

T
here would certainly have been other alternatives; our hero could have stolen cars, salvaged the copper from telephone cables or sold his kidneys. But of all the bad offers, the one from Yegor Kugar was the best. It guaranteed him a year’s employment, transport to the scene of operations and even a job for his sister, with new teeth and breast implants as a bonus.

Vatanescu left a note for his ex-wife, promising to send her child support when he had built up some income. After the divorce, his relations with the mother of his son Miklos had grown somewhat envenomed – to the point where the pus came, though both he and his ex-wife were people of good will. But when love departs, the empty place is filled by many new arrivals: envy, bitterness, revenge, shrillness, arseholery.

Vatanescu sat down on the edge of the bed where Miklos was sleeping in his grandmother’s folded arms. Vatanescu removed the sock from his son’s right foot and with a crayon traced the outline of the sole on a piece of paper.

You’ll get your football boots.

Dad is going to fix you up with football boots.

T
he rust-flecked VW Transporter left the South for the North. On the hills the gearbox groaned, on the dales the brakes threw sparks, and the passengers in the rear seats were tossed about. The ‘terrorist van’ was of the same generation as Vatanescu, the same generation as Total Football in the Netherlands, and to be exact the vehicle had been made in the same year that Vatanescu had seen the first gleam of freedom. For although each night the only television channel in his native land had showed the same speech by the same dictator, on one occasion the pompous spectacle was suddenly interrupted by a brief flash of Monty Python. What was happening, where had it come from, the hilarious joke about the Ministry of Silly Walks?

There had been a nipple in Vatanescu’s mouth that night. Mama Vatanescu had stared at the television, and along with her milk a drop of the free world, free from reason, had flowed into her son.

Vatanescu held his sister’s hand as she slept in the back of the van.

If I could, I would protect you.

First I must provide for myself.

You have always protected me.

Klara Vatanescu had taken after her grandmother Murda. Brusque and efficient, in other circumstances she might have been a sturdy nomad or a foreign minister, but in the unique reality that was hers she was now joining the poorest of the poor, a woman who would have to rely on her only marketable goods. Unable to sleep, Vatanescu peered out of the rear window at the foreign church towers and remote villages inhabited by unknown people with their Teflon saucepans and digibox recorders, people who had special times earmarked for meals, for school, for sex, who had plans for the future, mortgages, visits to the orthodontist for
their children, pensions, burial plots, obituaries, flowers on their graves, the whole package.

Vatanescu opened a tin. The transportation contract he had signed with Yegor Kugar included full board, which meant hammocks and corned beef. The year on the tins was 1974, and the country of origin stamped on their undersides was SWE. They had originally been intended for survival in the aftermath of a nuclear war, but to their purchaser’s dismay that war had never arrived. In the nuclear-weapons-free North they grew old, so the Swedish army sold them back to the supplier it had bought them from. Who then sold them on to an international crime syndicate that used them to feed its hired workforce. The corned beef slid down Vatanescu’s oesophagus, fermenting in his stomach for a while. It caused cramps that were followed by flatulence.

When Klara stepped out of the van at sunrise the following morning aeroplanes were taking off and landing somewhere far in the distance. Through the vehicle’s thin walls Vatanescu could hear the engine of a luxury car idling, and he crept over to the window. Pudas, one of his fellow travellers, was complaining about the smell that floated in the van, so thick you could cut it with the tin-opener they used for the corned beef.

You can’t stand the smell of a fart?

My sister is being taken from me.

They were on a stretch of derelict land. Beside the car stood some young men who, if one were to be perfectly frank, could only be called morons. Dark glasses,
shell-suits
of the kind worn by 1990s lager louts, their hair plastered with too much gel. The morons were trying to look like movie gangsters – in vain, for their true nature, their identity and their problems crossed all state borders. Petty dope smugglers from Poland, finger-breakers
dismissed from the ranks of the Ukrainian army, playground bullies from Turkmenistan. Bullied Albanians, whom life had broken down into bastards.

Vatanescu saw one of the morons opening the door of the Mercedes. Klara leaned over to get into the back seat, and Vatanescu remembered the day he had learned to swim.

I can’t swim, don’t let go of me. I’m scared of water! Except… I can do it. I can swim!!!

Vatanescu pressed the tips of his fingers against the window, and the Mercedes drove off. Yegor Kugar got back into the driver’s cabin of the van. He rummaged in some cassette tapes, and a moment later the music of Scorpions was heard.

Do the memories of the good times stay good even in the bad times?

I
t was as if the Transporter crossed a sky of lowering clouds above a churning ocean where ships laden with containers full of goods and merchandise passed to and fro. As if through binoculars you could see the sailors from the Philippines, from Vestersund and Kotka, earning tomorrow’s bread, that is, the interest on their mortgages, a large bottle of Absolut vodka, their alimony payments, or the extra grand that made it possible to take their families to Thailand. In the old days only perverts went to the beaches of Thailand – nowadays it was families.

The van’s rear doors opened, and Pudas and Tadas were ordered out. Their place of employment awaited them in the metro tunnel of a Stockholm suburb, where an advance guard of Finnish migrants from the
pre-bag
-in-box era was already at work.

Now only Vatanescu and Yegor Kugar remained in the van. The silent pair sat in the driver’s cabin; the satnav gave them advice on which lanes and turnings to choose at the intersections. Their destination was the sea terminal, where Yegor steered the vehicle onto the car deck of the ferry to Helsinki.

They stepped into the corridors of a world named V
IKING
L
INE
and descended in a crowded lift to the cheapest berths.

The berths in the cabin faced one another, and when Vatanescu opened the curtains a little way he saw that there was no porthole behind them. As they settled in there was none of that horny expectancy that every schoolchild remembers from ferry crossings. Perhaps they would also be spared the exhaustion that follows adventure, and the depressing knowledge that one’s virginity remained intact.

Yegor Kugar lit a cigarette by the No Smoking sign, removed his shoes and stretched his ankles for a moment like a normal human being, like a fellow passenger who in spite of being a complete stranger, a malevolentlooking one to boot, also had his good points. Vatanescu climbed up to his own berth and tested the mattress under his buttocks.

Clean sheets.

A duvet.

The ferry moved away from the quayside with a grinding sound. There came the deep note of the engines and the beercan-fuelled laughter of the teenage youths and girls in the next cabin, raucous and ringing. Yegor Kugar changed out of his designer tracksuit into a designer suit and checked his appearance in the mirror, but the expression of a highly dangerous idiot stuck there and remained.

Yegor announced that he was going to a business
meeting on the upper deck, and reminded Vatanescu of the small print in his transportation and employment contract: if Vatanescu left the cabin, Vatanescu would die. Yegor would kill him, Yegor said, exposing the handgun that was concealed under his armpit.

Do I look as if I need to be threatened?

I can’t even afford a cup of coffee.

Can I afford to disobey a Russian who has only one ear?

Vatanescu had always been in trouble with the authorities. At school his teachers had seen in his flashing eyes the look of a rascal. In time the flashing had faded or been forcibly extinguished. The boy had become a man, and it is rare for a man’s eyes to flash at the age of
thirty-five
. Little Vata’s father had brandished a whip when his son misbehaved, or rather when the boy asserted his true nature, which was that of someone who likes to take things apart and put them together again. But he could not bring himself to strike his son. Instead he threw the whip into the campfire and presented Vata with a mug of steaming coffee and some bacon rind grilled on the end of a stick, a wonderful delicacy that is no longer appreciated in the Nordic countries, as one must never be able to see that the food one puts in one’s mouth was once alive.

The boy’s mother pulled his hair, she boxed his ears, though she loved him dearly and knew that his flashing eyes expressed his desire for life.

As soon as the bell of Yegor’s lift rang, Vatanescu stepped out to the corridor. A moment later he sat in a revolving armchair on the sixth deck. The clink of bottles in the duty-free store, the electronic beeps and cascades of coins from the game machines, the hissing and whistling, the squealing and bawling of children. Vatanescu failed to perceive the division aboard the
ship, a division that was as clear as a bottle of vodka taken out of a freezer. Two sorts of people shuffled or pranced across the wall-to-wall carpeting: there was the solemn group with short legs and flat noses, where the children looked like their parents. They were called Finns. Then there was the cheerful group with long legs and pointed noses, where the parents looked like their children. They were called Swedes.

Vatanescu revolved in the chair. Past him walked emaciated women and their fifteen-stone children who got out of breath on the stairs, drank lemonade and pestered their parents with constant demands. Vatanescu kicked the floor lightly with the ball of his foot, the chair spun round another forty-five degrees. Restaurants, discotheques, then the duty-free store. Vatanescu got up to look at the sea. It was getting dark. The waves had white edgings, there were lights on the archipelago. And here he was, inside this ship that was a combination of shopping centre and suburban housing estate.

Vatanescu slipped past the headwaiter who stood at a table studying the lists, and helped himself to a plateful of what everyone else was having. Salads in
mayonnaise
dressing, salmon in all its forms, roast meat, cold ham and cheese, sausages.

He sat down in the first vacant seat, facing an elderly couple, Pentti and Ulla or Holger and Agneta; why group them into this tribe or that, for more than their names, it was their gaze that mattered. They picked at peas with their forks and smiled sweetly, conscious of the meaning of their lives and of their approaching deaths. They existed only for each other: when one departed, the other packed bags and followed. There, today, they were the sum of their journey and their past, the sum of all the days they had been together since the spring
of 1938. Their happiness, which they had paid for with their lives, was symbolised by their prawns, their slices of roast meat and their small glasses of wine.

If Miklos were here he would take the sausages first. He would remember how many he ate for years to come.

Ketchup and more ketchup. He would thank me with his eyes and I would promise that we had plenty of time to pass through the children’s play area, the race car simulator and the duty-free store on our way back to the cabin.

After the Swedish nuclear-war survival rations Vatanescu’s stomach was unable to cope with the
superabundance
of pan-Nordic fare. A few minutes later the too-quickly reconstituted protein reserves of his body and mind would be discharged in a flood of diarrhoea. He nodded politely to Pentti and Ulla or Holger and Agneta, and then made a dash for the cabin.