Authors: Margaret Mayhew
The woman was coming back with the handbags.
âOh dear, I just can't decide . . .'
The war in Europe had finished in May, the one with Japan in August. Millions and millions of people had died. There had been the most sickening photos of death camps in Europe and of the prisoners of war liberated in the Far East. Suffering and misery of an unbelievable kind. But this silly woman in her silly hat couldn't make up her mind which silly handbag to buy.
She said, âI don't think it actually matters a row of beans which one you have, madam.'
The woman stared at her through the hat veil. âOh, but I wouldn't want to make a mistake.'
âIn that case, I'd definitely choose the black. It's more useful.'
In the end she chose the navy which, of course, was the one she'd looked at in the first place.
Soon after that, Hugh Whitelaw came in through the swing doors. She was dealing with another customer who couldn't make up her mind either, and spotted the blue RAF uniform out of
the corner of her eye before she saw that it was him. If Hugh was back from the Far East, then Vere could be.
He waited until the customer had left before he came up to the counter.
She said, âHave you come to buy a handbag, sir?'
âNo, I've come to see you.'
âIs Vere back too?'
âThe whole squadron is. They posted us home.'
âWonderful! How is he?'
âHe's absolutely fine.'
âIs he in London?'
âNo. He went off on some mysterious errand.'
She straightened some bags to look busy.
âHow did you know I was working here?'
âYour aunt mentioned it to my mother. It doesn't seem the sort of job you'd enjoy.'
âI don't. But the alternative was a secretarial course and I thought I'd enjoy that even less.'
âAre you missing your narrowboats?'
âYes, I am rather, as a matter of fact.'
âI thought you might be. What are Ros and Prue up to?'
âRos has joined a repertory company in the Midlands and Prue's just got married to her Canadian boyfriend. He came back from the dead.'
âGood for him. How did he manage that?'
âApparently he'd been on the run in Germany
for weeks after he was shot down. When he got caught, the Germans sent him to some camp miles away in Poland. Then the Russians turned up and kept him for quite a while before they let him go.'
âHe was lucky. They might not have done.'
âThat's what he said. Are you sure you don't want to buy a handbag? Don't you have a girlfriend who'd like one?'
âNot at the moment.'
âI get commission.'
He smiled. âWill you have dinner with me this evening instead?'
âThanks, but I'm usually pretty tired by the time I get out of here.'
âHow about at the weekend?'
Another customer was approaching â a battleaxe of a woman decked out in heirloom jewellery. Probably a dowager duchess. She braced herself for trouble.
âFrances?'
She shrugged. âSaturday's OK. I only work half a day then.'
âSaturday it is. Where are you living?'
âMy aunt's flat. For the moment.'
She gave him the address. She watched as he stopped to talk to a debby-looking girl on his way out. The girl was all over him, putting a hand on his arm, throwing back her head and laughing like a hyena. Well, he was a wonderful catch, as well
as very nice. Ros had pointed that out, quite unnecessarily. She went on watching him holding the swing door open for an elderly woman before he went out into the street. He'd be bound to choose somewhere good for dinner. The Ritz perhaps? That would be ironical. This time she'd wear something a bit more respectable.
The battleaxe was rapping on the counter, glaring at her.
âI'd like some service, young lady. If you don't mind.'
It wasn't the Ritz. Instead, he took her to a rather smart French restaurant in Mayfair; luckily, she'd taken the trouble to dress up. The head waiter bowed and scraped and they were ushered to a corner table.
âVery nice,' she said, looking round. âDo you come here often?'
âWhenever I can.'
âTo impress the girls?'
He smiled. âI didn't bring you here to impress you, Frances. I know you better than that. I brought you here for the food.'
The war was over but the rationing wasn't. Not at all. From the look of the menu, though, the French restaurant seemed to have got round it somehow.
â
Real
steak?'
âReal steak.'
âNot whale?'
âDefinitely not whale.'
âAnd real chicken, not rabbit?'
âReal chicken.'
âI
am
impressed.'
But she thought nostalgically of Ros's boat stew, of the doorsteps of bread and marg and treacle, of porridge covered with evaporated milk, of oily sardines eaten straight out of the tin, sizzling fish and chips wolfed down straight from the newspaper, of spam fry-ups and Heinz baked beans, and of endless mugs of hot cocoa, sweetened with Nestlé's condensed milk . . . Nothing would ever taste quite as good again.
He said, âYou asked for champagne at the Ritz. Would you like some now?'
âI only did that to annoy Vere. I'd never drunk it before, or since.'
âWell, we could celebrate the end of the war, don't you think?'
He beckoned to a waiter and when the champagne had been popped and poured, he raised his glass to her. âTo the future â whatever it may hold.'
She drank and wondered what the future
did
hold. Unthinkable to stay for ever at the handbag counter â in any case, she'd probably be sacked soon for being rude to a customer. Unthinkable,
too, to do one of those dreadful secretarial courses, bashing away at a typewriter and learning to make shorthand squiggles in a notebook so that she could end up as an office slave. What else? Work in an art gallery? Or a flower shop? Or a dress shop? Be a waitress? None of those were much better than the handbags. The fact was that she couldn't settle down to anything â not after the canals.
We're free, see. Nobody's servants.
Jack's words, and he'd known what he was talking about.
She said, âAre you going to stay in the RAF, Hugh?'
âFor the time being. I rather enjoy it.'
âI expect Vere will have to go home to Averton and save it from falling down.'
âYes, he told me. I gather he has some other plans, too.'
âPlans? What plans?'
âFor getting married.'
âGetting
married
?
Vere?
Who on earth to?'
âHe hasn't said. I thought you might know.'
âWell, I don't. I'd probably be the last person he'd tell. It's one of the WAAFs, most likely.'
âNo, it's not a WAAF.'
âWell, I hope she's nice, whoever she is.'
âI'm sure she will be.'
âAnd she'd better like Averton. Has he taken her there, do you know? It's not everyone's cup of tea.'
âShe's been there, apparently. So he said.'
She frowned. âI can't think who it could be.'
âI expect you'll know soon enough. How about you, Frances?'
âWhat about me?'
âHave you any plans for the future?'
âOh, nothing special.'
âNo ideas of going back to work on the canals?'
âWe're not wanted there any more. They don't need us.'
âLife has a habit of moving on, whether we like it or not. The trick is to accept the fact. To look forward, not back.'
âI'm still looking back.'
âNot for ever, I hope.'
âI'll never forget the boats . . . or the people.'
âI don't expect you will. But there's a lot to look forward to â the rest of your life, in fact.'
âI don't much care about that â just at the moment.'
He looked at her steadily. âYou will. I promise.'
She remembered Ros's remarks about him. All complete rubbish. He'd have plenty of other girls â girls like the laughing hyena in the store. Girls falling over themselves to nab him. No need to wait around for anyone or anything.
As he drove her back to Aunt Gertrude's flat, he said, âBy the way, my mother would very much like you to come and stay next weekend.
Do you think you could manage that?'
âI have to work on Saturdays.'
âOnly for the morning, though. I could collect you as soon as you've finished and we'll stop for lunch on the way.'
He reminded her of Vere â taking charge â though he did it very nicely. And she'd liked his mother. And Havlock Hall was very near the cut.
âWell, if you're sure she really means it.'
âQuite sure. My father will be there, too, and I know he'll enjoy meeting you. He'll want to hear all about living and working on the boats. And so will I. That's settled, then.'
âIs it?'
âDefinitely. I'll pick you up outside the store.'
The Saturday morning was spent standing on one aching foot, then the other, while customers tried to make up their minds.
âWhich one do you think looks best?'
âThey both look very nice, madam.' Her stock answer.
âYes, but which would
you
choose?'
âI think I'd have the brown.' In fact, she thought they were both ghastly.
âBut it wouldn't go with black, would it?'
âThen I'd take the other. Maroon will go with anything.'
âI'm not sure I like the colour, though. And it's a bit small.'
She gritted her teeth. âIn that case, I'd choose the brown.'
âActually, I don't think I like either of them quite enough. Could you show me that black lizard one over there?'
Hugh was waiting in his smart and shiny car outside the staff entrance and they drove out of London, stopping to eat at a pub before heading on north-west towards Northamptonshire. She realized that they were following much the same route as the Grand Union Canal, but travelling at more than ten times a narrowboat's speed. Once or twice she caught a tantalizing glimpse of it in the distance and, nearing Stoke Bruerne, they crossed over one of the old bridges.
âWould you stop for a moment, please, Hugh. I'd like to look at the cut. On my own, if you don't mind.'
He pulled in at once and opened the car door for her. âI'll wait for you here.'
âThanks.'
She walked back onto the bridge and gazed at the quiet stretch of water meandering peacefully along in the sunlight. She knew that particular bit of the cut rather well â the low-lying meadows on each side, the gamekeeper's cottage by the woods with the orderly vegetable patch and the Buff Orpington hens scratching away in their run. The keeper's wife had given them cabbages and
carrots and warm new-laid eggs and Prue, lock-wheeling, had picked bluebells from the woods. Round the next bend lay the Stoke Bruerne locks â seven of them climbing up to the village â and after that came the Blisworth tunnel, then Gayton Junction, then Heyford and the Bugby seven where they'd beaten the Quill brothers â thanks to Jack.
After a while, she heard the putt-putter of a National diesel engine and, presently, a pair of narrowboats came chuntering round the bend. She watched them approach, smoke puffing merrily from the chimney, bright paint gleaming, brass shining. The motor and its boatman passed under the bridge, followed by the butty towed on its long snubber and steered with ease by an old boatwoman. She knew they would both have seen her because boat people noticed everything, but neither of them gave any sign. To them, she was an outsider, from another world. One of the gongoozlers, as they called them, who gawped at them from banks and chucked things at them from bridges and got in their way at locks.
Yer not like us. Couldn't never be.
She waited, watching until they had gone out of sight.
Hugh was standing by the car. He ground out his cigarette. Smiled at her.
âReady to go on now?'
She nodded.
The audience had been better than usual. An almost full house and laughs in all the right places. People loved anything by Noel Coward, specially the fun plays like
Blithe Spirit
, and Elvira was a part which suited her. The local rag had given her a glowing write-up, but it was hardly
The Times
. Nor was provincial rep exactly the West End.
She started to take off her stage make-up and then stopped, still looking into the mirror but no longer seeing her reflection. Instead, she was seeing herself knocking at the door to Ken's flat and Nadine, her old enemy from Sir Lionel days, answering it. She'd looked surprisingly good for her age, but then she hadn't spent eighteen months working on narrowboats.
âWhat the hell do
you
want?'
âTo see Ken. Is he in?'
âHe's busy.'
Luckily, Ken had come to the door just then â or not so luckily, as it had turned out. She heard all about the company he was going to set up and the old bomb-damaged theatre he'd found for lease in south London. He was raising money and reading brand new plays by brand new authors, searching for the right one. Meanwhile, he was stuck in a corny old chestnut at the Globe and Nadine was playing opposite him. Would she like
a ticket to see it? What she'd really like, she'd told him, would be a part in the brand new play. He'd call her, he promised, as soon as he'd got something worked out.
He wouldn't call her, of course â not if Nadine had anything to do with it. There were clear signs that she'd moved in to stay as long as possible. She was cradle-snatching but she'd probably be quite useful to him for a while. Contacts, names, old lovers, angels to back the new play. So, that was the acting profession, and if you didn't like it, too bad. There were the lucky breaks and the unlucky ones, the ups and the downs, the hits and the flops. But you had to keep going, whatever happened.