The Bottom of the Jar (16 page)

Namouss's gang had run out of games to play. They stumbled into a character who was particularly fond of their company. Si Abdeltif was one of the few adults in the neighborhood who didn't look down on children and was always willing to exchange a few words with them. Even though he belonged to a large sharif family, he didn't seem to share any of their traits and was quick to speak his mind. In terms of his physique, the man was visibly corpulent. His ample djellaba didn't quite manage to conceal a belly that, considering he was barely in his forties, was exceptionally large and forced him to use a cane in order to get about. Perhaps that explained why he was so fond of sitting on that stone bench in the middle of the lane and holding court for hours on end. Si Abdeltif's family was one the neighborhood's most influential
and owned a great number of properties in the area. They also owned vast stretches of land in the surrounding countryside. Donkeys bearing the produce of these estates would often show up in the neighborhood. Their panniers would be heaving with sacks of wheat, olives, figs, and grapes. Whenever the produce was being unloaded, Namouss and his gang would take advantage of the situation and pocket anything that fell to the wayside: a handful of fresh figs or a generous bunch of grapes. His family's wealth hadn't gone to Si Abdeltif's head, and he seemed to prefer mixing with more humble people – completely unlike his arrogant elder brother, who terrified the children. As soon as this brother came into view, the children would break up their game to clear the way for him. If they happened to be playing soccer, they would quickly pick up the ball lest he confiscate it, deaf to all their entreaties. It was surely Si Abdeltif's sense of humor that had saved him from winding up like his elder brother. And he would make the most of it. Whether he recounted anecdotes or put forward facetious interpretations of dreams, it was evident that he gave in to the lighter, rosier side of life. Whenever he arrived, panting, easing his bulk down onto the stone bench, the first words he uttered usually set the tone for what was to come.

“All these climbs and potholes are killing my knees!”

Following this first salvo came the day's anecdote.

“This afternoon,” he began, “I headed toward Batha and walked up the Lion. The grand dame walking a few yards ahead of me was shamelessly ripping one fart after the other. She suddenly came to a stop, turned around, and nonchalantly asked, ‘Sidi, can you tell me if the evening prayer has been called?' ‘It has, Lalla,' I replied, ‘just when you farted for the third time.' ”

Si Abdeltif continued in this lighter vein when it came to the interpretations of dreams. In the evenings, an adult would tell Si Abdeltif
about his dreams in the most minute of details and with the utmost seriousness.

“I saw myself as clearly as I see you now, walking through a kitchen garden where all sorts of vegetables were growing. What struck me the most was that I was dressed in a red burnous whose hems were green. I racked my brains but couldn't make sense of those mismatched colors. Let us pray to God that this isn't a bad omen. So tell me, Si Abdeltif, what does this dream mean?”

Who, allowing the air of mystery to persist, replied, “It clearly represents a green-topped radish.”

“And?” the man insisted, intrigued.

“And it's going to go straight up your ass!”

But Si Abdeltif was not particularly gifted when it came to the interpretation of dreams. In the company of children, however, he was careful to fill his stories with some educational content. When bringing an evening to a close, he would offer them riddles, like this one, which no one had ever deciphered.

“What is the name of the street in Fez where a camel can pass right under a minaret? Does anyone know? It's clear you're all blind. When you go through the arch that leads to Aïn Allou, lift your heads. What lies under that arch? The minaret of our mosque. The road I'm speaking of, you nincompoops, is our very own the Spring of Horses. Now scram. I've taught you enough for today.”

Si Abdeltif would then depart and the evening would carry on, even if less animatedly. The Touat people had stopped singing. There were few passersby in the street. Namouss's gang was running low on ideas when they heard the sound of Chahmout's voice coming from below Lalla Abla's window. Of all that went on in the neighborhood, this ritual particularly intrigued the children. What was it all about? Chahmout was a distant cousin of Si Abdeltif's. No one knew whether he was
single or married. Lalla Abla, who was either a widow or a divorcée, was one of Namouss's neighbors, and he knew her well. She was certainly good-looking and voluptuous. Were the stories behind these lovebirds known by the adults as well as the children, who were watching them at that late hour? The fact remains that Chahmout would stand beneath Lalla Abla's window and, calling her by a man's name, would bellow, “Abdeslam, oh Abdeslam!”

Lalla Abla would take a while to reply, and when she finally came to the window, would stand hidden behind the lace curtains and emit a barely audible coo.

Namouss, who was usually slow on the uptake about these things, finally wised up to what was going on. His heart racing wildly, he would hide under a nearby house's vestibule so as not to bear witness to those illicit meetings verging on sin. He would wait until they had come to an end to leave his hiding place, at which point he would go elsewhere so he could clear his head.

He left his comrades behind, and breaking the promise he'd made to himself in the morning to go see Harrba perform that evening, he opted instead for the sanctuary of Moulay Idriss. Was it boredom or a crisis of faith? All bets are off.

L
IFE RETURNED TO
normal following the end of the holy month of Ramadan. The long evenings and nocturnal activities ceased. As darkness approached, everyone ate their dinner quickly and went to bed with the sun. Uncle Touissa disappeared once again. With him gone, it was difficult tvwo kill time in the evenings. The beginning of the school year was still some way off and Namouss was starting to find the days tediously long. In the clutches of idleness, he fell prey to a type of lethargy that took away his appetite and made him prone to solitude. The rooftop terrace became his favorite refuge. Lying in the sun weakened his mind and body even further, and when he persisted in staring fixedly at the star, he felt as if he was melting inside a boiling cauldron. He was then torn between allowing himself to dissolve and a vague instinct of self-preservation. While walking this fine line, the images of the incident at Small Springs came back to mind. He was biting down on the woman's hand until he drew blood as he lay on top of
her. The woman let him bite her without reacting, without letting out a cry. The noise around them became deafening. Then the white cloud enveloped them before seeping into his flesh and pouring a freezing liquid into his organs.

Namouss never mentioned the incident to his parents. Neither did he confide in his friends. Knowing words would fail him when it came to describing what had happened, he kept it a closely guarded secret.

The lethargy that invaded him would sometimes be accompanied by a sensation of another kind. A peculiar sort of energy flowed through his veins, provoking a tingling sensation across his skin, from the tip of his toes to his head. A new feeling, which he'd never known before, awakened in him. Before that summer, he had hardly ever paid attention to his body. At the hammam, he had no choice, of course. When his mother undressed him to change his clothes, he wanted it to be done as quickly as possible. When his friends decided to hold pissing contests to determine whose jet could spray the farthest, it had been difficult not to sneak a look at his cohorts' willies and compare them. But then things took an altogether different turn. His rooted sense of propriety was being sapped by an intense curiosity in his own body. And he made a few pleasant discoveries. First came his hands, which he deemed gracious, then his feet, which he thought rather pretty. Then he felt his cheeks, lips, and gradually progressed to his chest and belly. Having reached the middle, he hesitated, even though that's where the tingling he felt was strongest, and where there was an enticing stiffness that just waited for him to grab hold and give free rein to it, to pull it out into the open and let it bask in the rays of the sun so it might ripen to its full potential. His audacity went no further. What Namouss drew from the experience was the feeling of being pleasantly in tune with his body. This was how he came to take full possession of it and finally reside in it, having hitherto felt a little bit like a stranger in his own
body. At this stage in his explorations, the idea of good and evil didn't even cross his mind. What he felt was his alone, and he counted on keeping it free of foreign intrusions. Namouss already had his own secret garden.

The garden grew thanks to yet another curiosity. Judging by where he was, how could he not take an interest in what was happening on neighboring balconies? Namouss had been something of a poet from the very beginning. He loved looking out over the city whenever he climbed up to the rooftop terrace. From his promontory, he could see the minarets of all the important mosques. His gaze drifted first to the southern fort, then to the northern one, and then beyond to the olive trees clinging to the foothills along the horizon. Wholly absorbed, he watched the clouds of steam dancing slowly above the grid of houses, and lent his ears to the noises made by workshops and street-sellers. Crowning this scene, the sky offered him another perspective on visual digressions, a canvas that an inspired hand was painting ceaselessly using colors that Fez held the secret to and had given original names to:
zebti
(flesh color),
qouqi
(artichoke-mauve),
fanidi
(bubble gum),
hammoussi
(chickpea),
zaâfrani
(saffron),
fakhiti
(azure),
zrireq
(violet). Colors Ghita was enamored with. She would make bouquets of caftans with them and then lift them to the sky, painting the flock of scattered, woolen clouds in a multitude of hues. What could one say about the palette of colors produced by the sunsets when the Maghrib prayer was called – or about how the minarets lit up like paper lanterns? The horizon was then striated with wild arabesques that drew with their movements a panoply of turbaned heads, fire-breathing dragons, and winged houris – all aboard an immense flying carpet, whose fringes fanned out like a peacock's tail.

Yet with this artistic gaze soon came the desire to observe things in a more down-to-earth manner. This deliberately led his eyes to the
immediate vicinity, and he began to spy on the neighbors' terraces, an exclusively female domain. He observed the comings and goings of young girls doing their chores in their house clothes, arms bare and hair hanging freely. Among those girls were also some idlers, who lingered about to sunbathe and lose themselves in the scenery, not completely oblivious to the admiring gazes they were attracting. Sometimes a particularly bold girl – with a crude-looking face, Ghita would add – would take a piece of mirror, and while pretending to look at her reflection, angle it to catch the sun, treacherously bouncing the beam at Namouss, nearly blinding him. Occasionally the rooftops would play host to improvised female-only gatherings. Mattresses were laid out, tea sets and a plate of pastries were brought out, and they would start chatting, laughing, and singing together. During these parties, it was often the case that an outwardly respectable woman would pull out a cigarette and start smoking, as if it were the most natural thing in the world. Namouss was outraged by this, and his reaction, at least at the start, had been to flee from the sight of this abomination, since it could very well bring misfortunes upon him – even though he was just an innocent bystander.

These discoveries required considerable effort. And they didn't help calm the volatility of his mood swings. So he would go back out into the streets in order to vent his frustrations.

D
URING THE DAYS
preceding the beginning of the school year, the games picked up again and were better than ever, but this time Namouss and his gang decided to make fun of passersby. One of the practical jokes required advance preparation. First they had to get the props: an old wallet, a hook, and a few yards of fishing line (a handful of strands pulled from a horse's tail and tied together would also do the job). The wallet was stuffed with paper to give it an alluringly bulky look and then
would be attached firmly with the hook to the fishing line. Once this was done, they set the trap: The wallet was placed in the middle of the street, where it would be easy to spot, while the cabal of conspirators went to hide in the vestibule of the nearest house, lurking behind a door that had been left ajar. The ringleader would then wrap the fishing line around one hand and lie in wait. A chump would invariably show up. Immediately after spotting the wallet, the chump would stop, look around, and after a moment's hesitation, would bend down to pick it up. But the coveted wallet would then slip and evade his grasp. He would try to catch it, once, twice, three times – in vain – right until the thing vanished entirely out of sight behind the door, as if by magic. Faced with this supernatural phenomenon, the poor devil would be left flabbergasted and eventually walk away, cursing Satan and his evil doings. However, someone less naïve would occasionally see through the hoax, quickly locate its perpetrators, and rush toward the door to flush out the clowns, who would then – being quicker – slam the door in his face and make their escape by way of the terrace.