The Bruise_Black Sky
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Authors: John Wiltshire
THE BRUISE-BLACK SKY
More Heat Than the Sun Book 5
JOHN WILTSHIRE
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Ben usually overlooks Nikolas’s occasionally jarring dissonance. Not this time. A deep rift, a terrible lie, separates them. Eleven thousand miles from Nikolas, in New Zealand, it’s bitter winter as Ben films the tragic story of a post-apocalyptic gladiator, a victim of his own personal darkness. But on receiving a death threat, Ben suspects the truth of actor Oliver Whitestone’s suicide. Someone doesn’t want this movie made. It’s fortunate for Ben, therefore, that dissonance is a state of unrest, a longing for completion. As if Nikolas would stay at home in disgrace while Ben Rider-Mikkelsen becomes the target of a crazed stalker...
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Dedication
To all the guys in my fan club who keep the faith and make the writing process a little less pointless.
CHAPTER ONE
“Why do you think your mother married your father? Given what he was—and don’t say women always think with their wombs. It’s annoying.”
“In my mother’s case, sadly, it’s probably true. She was pregnant. With us. Me.”
“Oh, sorry, I didn’t think of that. Why did she—?”
“Ben, I’ve told you the story of Sergei and my mother many, many times. I can’t tell it to you all again!”
Ben looked chastened and laid aside the photograph he was studying. Nikolas smirked quietly as he took a drag on his cigarette. It was one of the most convenient advantages of having a boyfriend who had only recovered his memory six months ago, that he could, when he wanted to, avoid questions he didn’t want to answer, pretend he’d told Ben something before. As Nikolas very rarely wanted to be interrogated about anything, he used this tactic quite often. Ben was under the impression he remembered a
lot
less than he actually did. It was doubly convenient, Nikolas reflected, as it kept Ben off balance about the accuracy of the things he did recall, and thus truths could now be distorted…
Six months on and he was smoking openly.
One day, it might occur to Ben that hating Nikolas smoking didn’t really fit well with apparently also giving him full permission to do just that.
Things were working very well indeed for Nikolas.
Most satisfactory…
Ben had moved onto another photo. Nikolas could see it out of the corner of his eye. He knew Ben would only be seeing two identical blond boys on a windswept beach, matching jerseys and shorts, one centre frame, smiling for the camera, one a little off to the side, staring angrily at the crashing waves. Nikolas recollected it slightly differently—a little boy being clucked at by doting grandparents,
“Look, Nina, Nika’s so adorable, take a picture of him with his bucket and spade,”
and the other, standing to the side, thinking
, I have a bucket and spade, too. Why don’t you want a picture of me?
He’d got in the photo though. That was all that counted.
He plucked the picture from Ben’s fingers and swapped it with one of him in his uniform. Not a general—yet—but it was impressive, nevertheless. Ben snorted and took up another from Denmark and the childhood he’d been excluded from but appeared to want now for his own.
Nikolas took another drag on his cigarette and blew a cloud of smoke over the bed, his other hand idly stroking Ben’s firm, naked backside, warm from the bright sunlight pouring in through the glass roof.
He didn’t have time for this lazing around and reliving old times. He was pondering the most worrying dilemma he’d ever had in his life, a life that had not stinted itself when throwing up problems for him. He had just begun yet another list of pros and cons in his head for this latest one, thought of a good title—
pros and cons
—mentally underlined it and had the first entry, when he heard an irritating tapping noise.
“What are you doing?”
“Sending a text.”
“Ah, that’s what that thing is—a phone. I meant who are you texting?”
“Emilia.”
“Tell her Bronislav is well.”
“I’ll tell her Mr Darcy is, yeah.”
Emilia and Nikolas disagreed on her horse’s name. No one gave him any sympathy (or respect). They refused to acknowledge he was still recovering from a recent existential crisis where he’d had to admit to a group of men that he was gay. Nuzzling a horse whilst calling it Mr Darcy was too much to expect on top of this.
“What does ‘
has he said yes yet’
mean?”
Nikolas grunted. “I have no idea.”
“Said yes to what?”
“I don’t know, Ben! Tell her no he hasn’t.”
“Nik…”
Nikolas swiped Ben’s phone from his hand and tossed it across the room into the armchair. Ben would have probably protested, but he was being entered, and that always took his whole focus.
It was why Nikolas sometimes seized him unexpectedly and took him so abruptly—it stopped the annoying nagging for a while.
In this case, it also allowed him to return to his terrible dilemma.
Ben could have had no idea when he’d offered to get a tattoo that it would turn into such a huge thing in Nikolas’s mind. Six months on, it was still temporary, still being drawn on and embellished every so often. At the moment, it had the addition of an arrow. The simple M turned into an N and then an A, the middle V was now shaped as an arrow pointing down into Ben’s smooth cleft. This was only a joke Nikolas had added few days ago, but it was indicative of the problem obsessing him: he wanted Ben
branded
as his, but, at the same time, he didn’t want him marked or altered in any way. Ben had done that once to go undercover—blond hair, blue eyes, tattoo—and Nikolas hadn’t liked it one bit. So thus, the painful predicament…Label Ben as his…but consequently
mark
him. It was too awful to decide, but the pondering of it, which always involved the temporary drawing being studied and stroked, inevitably led to studying and stroking a little lower, and hence they were in bed in the middle of the day in the middle of the week and not, as Ben remarked, out saving the world.
Ben joked about a lot of things these days. Being without his memory had apparently been a holiday for Benjamin Rider-Mikkelsen from which he’d returned…impudent. Nikolas had been forced to tread a very fine line in his own home. Or Ben’s house, anyway. To be fair to Ben, Nikolas had been given permission to do what he liked in his London property. Snort snuff porn or watch coke, Ben claimed he didn’t care. Nikolas knew, however, Ben was lying about both these assertions, and that he’d be in very serious trouble if he did either—right way around or not.
It wasn’t fair.
Also (and yes, he was whining in his head; who else did he have to complain to?), he now had to tiptoe around Babushka. When he and Ben had tentatively suggested she come and live with them in England, although they fully understood if she said no, given she had a lifetime of friends in her home town in Siberia, Ulyana Ivanovna had chortled that they were all old fogeys and sent designs for her new cottage. So they were building her a cabin in the grounds while she temporarily resided in one of the guest suites.
Babushka adored Nikolas, but unfortunately for him, that adoration had taken the form of…mothering…deciding what was best for him…attempts to improve him…
He was—
“Hey!” Ben rolled over, dislodging Nikolas. “Am I in this bed on my own?”
And if that didn’t exactly prove his point! Since when did Benjamin Rider-Mikkelsen comment on his technique?
Ben mocked-punched Nikolas and then pulled him down to lie on top of him, kissing around his stubble and biting gently into his neck. “Do you need a rest, old man?”
Nikolas rose, sleek and genuinely furious, over the chuckling figure beneath. Ben shook his head fondly, glancing at Nikolas’s cock, which was heavy and risen with thwarted desire. “No, I didn’t think so. Stop thinking and more fucking, maybe?”
Things were going to have to change again.
This was just intolerable.
§§§
As soon as they were done, Ben padded to the kitchen ostensibly to make them both some tea. He actually headed straight for Nikolas’s phone, which had been left on the counter when the need for sex had overwhelmed them just before lunch. He picked it up and snorted faintly at the Harry Black tape holding it together. He’d bought Nikolas a new phone for his birthday a couple of months ago, but Nikolas preferred this one. It needed tapping occasionally to get going, but it worked. It was the only thing in Nikolas’s life that was not…perfect…just so…and it said a lot about Nikolas that Ben would never attempt to explain to someone who only saw the surface man and judged him on how he behaved or what he said.
He tapped the screen gently now, scrolled to the inbox and found a communication trail of twenty recent texts between Nikolas and Emilia.
Of course, Ben wasn’t allowed to read Nikolas’s communications—phone, email, or letter. Of
course
he wasn’t. That was just understood between them.
Ben quickly discovered what “
has he said yes
” meant. Emilia was about to complete her first year at the wildly expensive boarding school Nikolas paid for her to attend in Scotland. She’d invited them both, with her grandmother, to the end of year events—speech day, fete, dinner, and a ball…
She’d invited them.
Them both. As a couple.
Nikolas Mikkelsen and Ben Rider-Mikkelsen.
The formal invitation was in the post, she’d emphasised.
Uh-huh.
Ben went back across the swim lane, through the bedroom, dodged Nikolas’s hopeful attempt to drag him back to bed, ignored the complaint about the absence of tea, and went into Nikolas’s study. He rummaged through the pile of correspondence on the desk. Who had handwritten letters these days? Why was it all in Russian?
He found the gold-embossed invitation under a hopeful begging letter from the Mare and Foal Sanctuary, which was only a couple miles away from them. Faces of sad, abused ponies with bedraggled coats and tiny, shaky foals made him wince.
Emilia had signed the card herself in purple ink and added a smiley face.
The event was
next week
, and she was still asking for their reply!
He went back into the bedroom, snatched up his own phone and began to reply to her text.
“What are you doing? Where’s my tea?”
He finished the acceptance.
Yes
didn’t take long to type, after all.