The City of Mirrors (75 page)

Caleb was watching his face closely. “How old were you?”

“Twenty, twenty-one? Just a kid.”

“But he didn’t come back. He’d been taken to the Haven.”

“Yes, but I didn’t know that. Seven nights, Caleb. That’s a lot of time to think about killing a person, especially my own brother. At the start, I wondered if I actually could. Our parents had died, Theo was the only person I had left in the world. But as the nights passed, I came to understand something. There was something worse than killing him, and that would be letting somebody else do it. If the situation were reversed, if I had been the one taken up, I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. I didn’t want to do it, believe me, but I owed him that much. The responsibility was mine and no one else’s.” Peter gave his words a moment to sink in. “That’s what this is like, son. I don’t know why it has to be me. That’s a question I can’t answer. But it doesn’t matter. Pim and the kids—those are your responsibilities. You were put on earth to protect them till your last breath. That’s your job. This is mine. You need to let me do it.”

Aboard the
Nautilus,
Michael was issuing instructions to the crewmen who would assist in launching her. The hull had been wrapped in thick rope webbing; a steel boom and a system of blocks would be used to lift her from her cradle and lower her over the side. Once she was in the water, they would cut her free, raise the mast, and set sail for New York.

“He’ll kill you,” Caleb said.

Peter said nothing.

“And if you succeed? Amy can’t leave. You said so yourself.”

“No, she can’t.

“So what then?”

“Then I live my life. Just like you’re going to live yours.”

Peter waited for his son to say more; when he didn’t, he put his hand on Caleb’s shoulder. “You have to accept this, son.”

“It’s not easy.”

“I know it’s not.”

Caleb tipped his face upward. He swallowed, hard, and said, “When I was a kid, my friends always talked about you. Some of what they said was true, a lot of it was total bullshit. The funny thing was, I felt bad for you. I won’t say I didn’t like the attention, but I also knew you didn’t want people to think of you like that. It kind of stumped me. Who wouldn’t want to be a big deal, some kind of hero? Then one day it hit me. You felt that way because of me. I was the choice you’d made, and the rest didn’t matter to you anymore. You would have been perfectly happy if the world just forgot about you.”

“It’s true. That’s how I saw it.”

“I felt so goddamn
lucky.
When you started working for Sanchez, I thought things might change, but they never did.” He looked at Peter again. “So now you ask me if I can just let you go. Well, I can’t. I don’t have that in me. But I do understand.”

They sat without speaking for a time. Around them, the ship was waking up, passengers rising, stretching their limbs.
Did that really happen?
they thought, their eyes blinking against an unfamiliar, oceanic light.
Am I really on a ship? Is that the sun, the sea?
How stunned they must be, thought Peter, by the infinite calm of it all. Voices accumulated—mostly the children, for whom a night of terror, abruptly and in a manner completely unforeseen, had opened a door to an entirely new existence. They had gone to sleep in one world and awakened in another, so dissimilar as to seem, perhaps, an altogether different version of reality. As the minutes passed, many of the passengers were drawn magnetically to the rail—pointing, whispering, chattering among themselves. As he listened, memories poured through him, as well as a sense of all the things he would never see.

Michael walked toward them. The man’s eyes darted toward Caleb, quickly sizing up the situation, then back to Peter. Shuffling his hands in his pockets, he said, gently, almost as if he were apologizing, “The supplies are all aboard. I think we’re about ready here.”

Peter nodded. “Okay.” But he made no move to do anything about this.

“Do you … want me to tell the others?”

“I think that would be good.”

Michael walked away. Peter turned to his son. “Caleb—”

“I’m all right.” He rose from the crate, holding himself stiffly, like a man with a wound. “I’ll get Pim and the children.”

Everyone gathered at the
Nautilus.
Lore and Rand operated the winch that hoisted Alicia, still strapped to her stretcher, to the cockpit. Michael and Peter carried her down to the boat’s small cabin, then descended the ladder to join the others: Caleb and his family; Sara and Hollis; Greer, who had rebounded well enough from the crash to join them on deck, though his head was bandaged and he stood unsteadily, one hand braced against the hull of the
Nautilus
. Everywhere on the ship, people were watching; the story had spread. It was 0830 hours.

The final goodbyes: no one knew where to start. It was Amy who broke the stalemate. She embraced Lucius, the two of them exchanging quiet words that no one else could hear, then Sara and then Hollis, who, of everyone, more so even than Sara, seemed undone by the weight of it all, hugging Amy tightly against his chest.

But, of course, Sara was steeling herself. Her composure was a ruse. She would not go to Michael; she simply could not bear to. Finally, as the various farewells proceeded around them, it was he who went to her.

“Oh, damn you, Michael,” she said miserably. “Why are you always doing this to me?”

“I guess it’s my talent.”

She wrapped her arms around him. Tears squeezed from the corners of her eyes. “I lied to you, Michael. I never gave you up. Not for a day.”

They parted; Michael turned to Lore. “I guess this is it.”

“You always knew that you wouldn’t be going, didn’t you.”

Michael didn’t answer.

“Oh, hell,” Lore said. “I guess I kind of knew it, too.”

“Take care of my ship,” Michael said. “I’m counting on you.”

Lore took his cheeks in her hands and kissed him, long and tenderly. “Stay safe, Michael.”

He climbed aboard the
Nautilus.
At the base of the ladder, Peter shook Greer’s hand, then Hollis’s; he hugged Sara long and hard. He had already said goodbye to Pim and the children. His son would be the last. Caleb was standing to the side. His eyes were tight, withholding tears; he would not cry. Peter felt, suddenly, as if he were marching to his death. Likewise was he struck, as never before, by a sense of pride. This strong man before him. Caleb. His son, his boy. Peter pulled him into a firm embrace. He would not hold on long; if he did, he might not let go. It’s children, he thought, that give us our lives; without them we are nothing, we are here and then gone, like the dust. A few seconds, recording all he could, and he stepped back.

“I love you, son. You make me very proud.”

He climbed the ladder to join the others on the deck. Rand and Lore began to crank the winch. The
Nautilus
rose from her cradle and swung over the side. With a soft splash, the boat settled into the water.

“Okay, hold us there!” Michael called up.

They used their knives to cut the net. It passed beneath their stern, half-floating, then was dragged under the surface by its weight. Peter and Amy attached the guy wires while Michael set the lines that would pull the mast erect. They had begun to drift away from the
Bergensfjord.
When everything was ready, Michael commenced turning the winch. The mast rose into position; he locked it in place and unstrapped the sail from the boom. The distance to the
Bergensfjord
had increased to fifty yards. The air was warming, with a gentle breeze. The great ship’s engines had come on. A new sound emerged, one of chains. Beneath the
Bergensfjord
’s bow, the anchor appeared, water streaming as it ascended. The ship’s rail was lined with faces; people were watching them. Some began to wave.

“Okay, we’re ready,” Michael said.

They raised the mainsail. It flapped emptily, but then Michael pulled the tiller to one side and the bow veered slowly off the wind. With a pop, the canvas filled.

“We’ll raise the jib once we’re clear,” said Michael.

Their velocity was, to Peter, quite startling. The boat, heeling slightly, possessed a stable feel, the point of its bow slicing cleanly through the water. The
Bergensfjord
receded behind them. The sky seemed infinitely deep.

It happened gradually, then all at once: they were alone.

79

Log of the
Nautilus

Day 4. 27.95N, 83.99W. Wind SSE 10–15, gusts to 20. Skies clear, seas running 3–4 feet.

After three days of light air, we are finally making decent headway, running at 6–8 knots. I expect we will reach Florida’s west coast by nightfall, just north of Tampa. Peter seems to be finally getting his sea legs. After three days vomiting over the side, he announced today that he was hungry. From Lish, not very much; she sleeps most of the time and has said virtually nothing. Everyone is worried about her.

Day 6: 26.15N, 79.43W. Wind SSE 5–10, shifting. Partly cloudy. Seas running 1–2 feet.

We have rounded the Florida peninsula and turned north. From here we will leave the coast behind and make a straight shot for the Outer Banks of North Carolina. Heavy clouds all night but no rain. Lish is still very weak. Amy finally talked her into eating, and Peter and I drew straws. He was the winner, though I guess it depends on how you look at it. I was a little nervous about Sara’s instructions and I’m no good with needles, so Amy took over. One pint. We’ll see if it helps.

Day 9: 31.87N, 75.25W. Winds SSE 15–20, gusts to 30. Skies clear. Seas running 5–7 feet.

A horrible night. The storm hit just before sunset—huge seas, high winds, driving rain. Everyone was up all night working the bailers. Blown way off course, and the self-steerer is shot. We’ve taken on water, but the hull seems tight. Running reefed in heavy air, no jib.

Day 12: 36.75N, 74.33W. Winds NNE 5–10. Patchy clouds. Seas running 2–3 feet.

We have decided to head west for the coast. Everyone is exhausted and needs to rest. On the bright side, Lish seems to have turned a corner. Her back is the issue; she’s still in a lot of pain and can barely bend at all. My turn with the needle. Lish seemed to have a little fun with that. “Oh, buck up, Circuit,” she said. “A girl’s got to eat. Maybe your blood will make me smarter.”

Day 13: 36.97N, 76.27W. Winds NNE 3–5. Seas running 1–2 feet.

Lying at anchor at the mouth of the James River. Fantastic wreckage everywhere—huge naval vessels, tankers, even a submarine. Lish’s mood has improved. At sunset she asked us to bring her up on deck.

A beautiful starlit night.

Day 15: 38.03N, 74.50W. Winds light and variable. Seas 2–3 feet.

Under way again with fair winds. Running at 6 knots. Everyone feels it—we are getting closer.

Day 17: 39.63N, 75.52W. Winds SSE 5–10. Seas 3–5 feet.

Tomorrow we reach New York.

80

The four of them sat in the cockpit in the gathering dusk. They were lying at anchor; off the port bow, a long sandy line. The southern edge of Staten Island, once populated by a dense humanity, now exposed, swept clean, a wilderness.

“So, we’re all in agreement?” Peter said, scanning the group. “Michael?”

Seated by the tiller, he was fingering a pocketknife, opening and closing the blade. His face had been crisped by salt and wind; through his beard, the color of sand, his teeth shone white. “I told you before. If you say that’s the plan, then that’s the plan.”

Peter turned to Alicia. “Last chance to weigh in here.”

“Even if I said no, you wouldn’t listen.”

“I’m sorry, that’s not good enough.”

She looked at him guardedly. “He’s not going to just surrender, you know. ‘I’m sorry, I guess I was wrong after all.’ Not really the man’s style.”

“That’s why I need you in the tunnel with Michael.”

“I belong in the station with you.”

Peter looked at her pointedly. “You can’t kill him—you said so yourself. You can barely walk. I know you’re angry and you don’t want to hear this. But you need to put your feelings aside and leave that part to me and Amy. You’d only slow us down, and I need you to protect Michael. Fanning’s virals won’t attack you. You can give him cover.”

Peter could see that his words had stung. Alicia glanced away, then back, her eyes narrowed with warning. “You realize that he knows we’re coming. I seriously doubt any of this has escaped his attention. Waltzing into the station plays straight into his hands.”

“That’s the idea.”

“And if this doesn’t work?”

“Then we all die and Fanning wins. I’m willing to hear a better idea. You’re the expert on the man. Tell me I’m wrong and I’ll listen.”

“That’s not fair.”

“I know it’s not.”

A brief silence passed. Alicia sighed in surrender. “Fine, I can’t. You win.”

Peter looked toward Amy. After two weeks at sea, her hair had grown out somewhat, softening her features while also making them seem clearer somehow, sturdier and more defined. “I think it all depends on what Fanning wants,” she said.

“From you, you mean.”

“Maybe he just intends to kill me, and if so, there’s not a lot to stop him. But he’s gone to a lot of trouble to get me here if that’s all he has in mind.”

“What do
you
think he wants?”

The light was nearly gone; from the shore, the long shushing of waves.

“I don’t know,” she said. “I agree with Lish, though. The man has something to prove. Beyond that …” She trailed off, then continued: “The important thing is to make sure he’s in that station. Get him there and keep him there. We shouldn’t wait for Michael. We need to be there when the water hits. That’s our moment.”

“So you agree to with the plan.”

She nodded. “Yes. I think it’s our best chance.”

“Let’s look at that drawing.”

Alicia had sketched a simple map: streets and buildings, but also what lay beneath them and points of access. To this she added verbal descriptions: how things looked and felt, certain landmarks, places where their passage would be obstructed by forest growth or collapsed structures, the sea’s margins where it lapped over the southern tier of the island.