The Cole Trilogy: The Physician, Shaman, and Matters of Choice (66 page)

They were sophisticated in matters of the annual
chatir
and knew the toll exacted by running through a day of crippling heat, and they raised such a hoarse roar of love that the sound seemed to pull him around the course, a lap he almost enjoyed. At the hospital he was able to pick out faces beaming with pride, al-Juzjani, the nurse R
ū
m
ī
, Yussuf the librarian, the
hadji
Davout Hosein, even Ibn Sina. When he sighted the old man his eyes went at once to the roof of the hospital and he saw that she was back and knew that when he was alone with her again, she would be the real prize.

But he began to experience his gravest trouble on the second half of the lap. He was accepting water often and pouring it over his head, and now fatigue made him careless and some of the water splashed onto his left shoe, where almost immediately the wet leather began to abrade the abused skin from his foot. Perhaps it made a tiny alteration in his stride, for soon he developed a cramp in the right hamstring.

Worse, when he came down toward the Gates of Paradise the sun was lower than he expected. It was directly over the far hills, and as he started on what he prayed was the last lap but one, weakening swiftly and fearful that there was insufficient time, he was taken by the deepest melancholy.

Everything became heavy. He stayed with the pace but his feet were transformed into stones, the quiver full of arrows struck him a ponderous blow in the back with every step, and even the little bag containing her locks of hair pushed against him as he ran. He threw water on his head more often and felt himself fading.

But the people of the city had caught a strange fever. Each of them had become Karim Harun. Women screamed as he passed. Men made a thousand vows, shouted his praises, called upon Allah, implored the Prophet and the twelve martyred Imams. Anticipating him by the approaching cheers, they watered the street before he came, scattered flowers in his path, ran alongside and fanned him or sprinkled scented water on his face, his thighs, his arms, his legs.

He felt them enter his blood and bones and he caught their fire. His stride strengthened and steadied.

His feet rose and fell, rose and fell. He kept the pace, but now he didn’t hide from the hurt, seeking instead to pierce the smothering fatigue by concentrating on the pain in his side, the pain in his feet, the pain in his legs.

When he took the eleventh arrow, the sun had begun its slide behind the hills and had the shape of half a coin.

He ran through the deepening light, his last dance, up the first short incline, down the steep drop to the Avenue of the Thousand Gardens, through the flat, up the long climb, his heart pounding.

When he attained the Avenue of Ali and Fatima he threw water on his head and couldn’t feel it.

Pain ebbed along with every response as he ran on. When he reached the school he didn’t look for friends, more concerned with the fact that he had lost the sensory experience of his limbs.

Yet the feet he couldn’t feel kept on with their rise and fall, propelling him forward,
slap-slap-slap.

This time at the
maidan
no one watched the entertainments but Karim didn’t hear the roar or see them, running in his silent world to the end of a fully ripened and dwindling day.

When he entered the Avenue of the Thousand Gardens again, he saw a shapeless dying red light on the hills. It seemed to him that he moved slowly, so slowly, across the flat and up the hill—the last hill he must climb!

He swept downward, the most dangerous time, for if his senseless legs made him stumble and sprawl, he wouldn’t get up again.

When he made the turn and entered the Gates of Paradise there was no sun. He watched blurred people now who seemed to float above the ground, silently urging him on, but in his mind his vision was clear as a
mullah
entered the narrow, winding stairway of the mosque, climbed to the little platform in the high tower, waited for the last ray’s dying …

He knew he had only moments.

He tried to will dead legs to longer strides, straining to quicken the ingrained pace.

Ahead of him, a small boy left his father’s side and ran out into the road; he froze, staring at the giant who lumbered down on him.

Karim swept the child up and lifted him to his shoulders as he ran, and the roar shook the earth. When he reached the posts with the boy, Al
ā
was waiting, and as he grasped the twelfth arrow the Shah took off his own turban and exchanged it for the runner’s feathered cap.

The surge of the crowd was checked by the call of the
muezzins
from minarets all over the city. The people turned toward Mecca and dropped into prayer. The child he still held began to wail and Karim released him. Then the prayer was over, and when he rose, king and nobles were at him like nattering puppies. Beyond, the common people began to scream again and pushed forward to claim him, and it was as if Karim Harun suddenly owned Persia.

PART FIVE
The War Surgeon

51

THE CONFIDENCE

“Why do they dislike me so?” Mary asked Rob.

“I don’t know.” He made no attempt to deny it; she wasn’t a fool. When the smallest Halevi daughter toddled toward them from the house next door, her mother Yudit, who no longer brought gifts of warm bread for the foreign Jew, ran to snatch up her daughter wordlessly, fleeing as from corruption. Rob took Mary to the Jewish market and discovered he was no longer smiled upon as the Jew of the
calaat,
no longer the favorite customer of Hinda the woman merchant. They passed their other neighbors Naoma and her stout daughter Lea and the two women looked away coldly, as if Yaakob ben Rashi hadn’t hinted to Rob over a Sabbath meal that he might become part of the shoemaker’s family.

Wherever Rob walked in Yehuddiyyeh he saw conversing Jews fall silent and stare. He noted the meaningful nudge, the burning resentment in an occasional glance, even a muttered curse on the lips of old Reb Asher Jacobi the Circumciser, bitterness directed against one of their own who had partaken of forbidden fruit.

He told himself he didn’t care: what were the people in the Jewish quarter to him, really?

Mirdin Askari was something else again; it wasn’t Rob’s imagination that Mirdin was avoiding him. These mornings he missed Mirdin’s big-toothed smile and comforting companionship, for Mirdin invariably presented a wooden face as he offered a brief greeting and then moved away.

Finally he sought Mirdin out, finding him sprawled in the shade of a chestnut tree on the
madrassa
grounds, reading the twentieth volume of
Al-Hawi
of Rhazes, the final volume. “Rhazes was good.
Al-Hawi
covers all of medicine,” Mirdin said uncomfortably.

“I’ve read twelve volumes. I’ll reach the others soon.” Rob looked at him. “Is it so bad that I’ve found a woman to love?”

Mirdin stared back. “How could you marry an Other?”

“Mirdin, she’s a jewel.”

“ ‘For the lips of a strange woman drop as a honeycomb, and her mouth is smoother than oil.’ She’s a Gentile, Jesse! You fool, we’re a dispersed and beleaguered people struggling for survival. Each time one of us marries outside our faith it means the end of future generations of us. If you can’t see that, you aren’t the man I thought you to be and I won’t be your friend.”

He had been deluding himself—the people of the Jewish quarter did matter, for they had freely given him acceptance. And this man mattered most of all, for he had given friendship and Rob did not have so many friends that he could throw Mirdin away. “I’m
not
the man you thought me to be.” He felt a compulsion to speak, believing absolutely that he didn’t misplace his trust. “I haven’t married outside my faith.”

“She’s a Christian.”

“Yes.”

The blood drained from Mirdin’s face. “Is this a stupid jest?”

When Rob said nothing he gathered up the book and scrambled to his feet. “Miscreant! Should it be true—if you’re not mad—not only do you risk your own neck, you’ve endangered mine. If you consult
Fiqh
you’ll learn that by telling me, you’ve criminalized me and made me party to the deception unless I inform on you.” He spat. “Son of the Evil One, you’ve placed my children in danger and I curse the day we met.”

And Mirdin hurried away.

Day after day passed and the
kelonter’s
men didn’t come for him. Mirdin had not informed.

At the hospital, Rob’s marriage wasn’t a problem. The gossip that he had married a Christian woman had circulated among the
maristan
staff, but he was already regarded as an eccentric—the foreigner, the Jew who had gone from jail to a
calaat
—and this unseemly union was accepted as only one more aberration. Other than that, in a Muslim society where each man was allowed four wives, the taking of a woman caused little stir.

Nevertheless, he felt his loss of Mirdin deeply. These days he saw little of Karim, either; the young
hakim
had been taken up by the nobles of the court and was feted at entertainments day and night. Karim’s name was on everyone’s lips since the
chatir.

So Rob was as alone with his bride as she was with him, and he and Mary settled easily into life together. She was what the house had needed; it was a warmer and more comfortable place. Smitten, he spent every spare moment with her, and when they were apart he found himself remembering pink moist flesh, the long, tender line of her nose, the lively intelligence in her eyes.

They rode into the hills and made love in the warm sulfurous waters of Al
ā
’s secret pool. He left the ancient Indian picture volume where she would see it, and when he tried the variations the book depicted, he found she had studied it. Some of the practices were pleasing and others brought them hilarity. They laughed often and joyously on the bed mat, playing strange and sensuous private games.

He was ever the scientist. “What causes you to become so wet? You’re a well that sucks me in.”

She drove an elbow into his ribs.

But she wasn’t embarrassed by her own curiosity. “I like it so when it is little—limp and weak and feels like satin. What causes it to change? I had a nurse once who told me it became long and heavy and dense because it filled with pneuma. Do you think that’s so?”

He shook his head. “Not air. It fills with arterial blood. I’ve seen a hanged man whose rigid prick was so full of blood it was red as a salmon.”

“I haven’t hanged
you,
Robert Jeremy Cole!”

“It has to do with scent and sight. Once, at the end of a brutal journey, I rode a horse that was almost unable to move, so great was his fatigue. But he smelled a mare on the wind, and even before we saw the animal his organ and muscles were like wood and he was running toward her so eagerly I had to pull him back.”

He loved her so, she was worth any loss. Still, his heart leaped one evening when a familiar figure appeared at their door and nodded a greeting.

“Come in, Mirdin.”

Presented to the visitor, Mary looked at Mirdin curiously; but she provided wine and sweet cakes and left them almost at once, going to feed the animals with the wise instinct he already cherished.

“You’re truly a Christian?”

Rob nodded.

“I can take you to a distant town in Fars where the
rabbenu
is my cousin. If you request conversion by the learned men there, perhaps they’ll agree. Then there would be no reason for lies and deceits.”

Rob looked at him and slowly shook his head.

Mirdin sighed. “If you were a knave you would agree at once. But you’re an honest and faithful man as well as an uncommon physician. That’s why I can’t turn my back on you.”

“Thank you.”

“Jesse ben Benjamin isn’t your name.”

“No. My true name is—”

But Mirdin shook his head warningly and held up his hand. “The other
name mustn’t be spoken between us. You must remain Jesse ben Benjamin.”

He looked at Rob appraisingly. “You’ve blended yourself into Yehuddiyyeh. In some ways you rang false. I told myself it was because your father was a European Jew, an apostate who strayed from our ways and neglected to pass his birthright to his son.

“But you must remain constantly alert lest you make a fatal error. Uncovered, your deceit would bring a terrible sentence from a
mullah’s
court. Doubtless, death. If you should be caught, it might imperil the Jews here. Though your deception is no fault of theirs, in Persia it’s easy for the innocent to suffer.”

“Are you certain you want to become involved with so much risk?” Rob asked quietly.

“I’ve thought it out. I must be your friend.”

“I’m glad.”

Mirdin nodded. “But I have my price.”

Rob waited.

“You have to understand what you pretend to be. There’s more to being a Jew than donning a caftan and wearing your beard a certain way.”

“How shall I gain this understanding?”

“You must study the Lord’s commandments.”

“I know the Ten Commandments.” Agnes Cole had taught them to each of her children.

Mirdin shook his head. “The ten are a fraction of the laws that make up our Torah. The Torah contains 613 commandments. These are what you must study, along with the Talmud—the commentaries dealing with each law. Only then will you see the soul of my people.”