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GRACE PALEY

THE COLLECTED STORIES

Farrar, Straus and Giroux

NEW YORK

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It seems right to dedicate this collection to my friend Sybil Claiborne, my colleague in the Writing and Mother Trade. I visited her fifth-floor apartment on Barrow Street one day in 1957. There before my very eyes were her two husbands disappointed by the eggs. After that we talked and talked for nearly forty years. Then she died. Three days before that, she said slowly, with the delicacy of an unsatisfied person with only a dozen words left, Grace, the real question is—how are we to live our lives?

Contents

Two Ears, Three Lucks

THE LITTLE DISTURBANCES OF MAN

Goodbye and Good Luck

A Woman, Young and Old

The Pale Pink Roast

The Loudest Voice

The Contest

An Interest in Life

An Irrevocable Diameter

Two Short Sad Stories from a Long and Happy Life

1 The Used-Boy Raisers

2 A Subject of Childhood

In Time Which Made a Monkey of Us All

The Floating Truth

ENORMOUS CHANCES AT THE LAST MINUTE

Wants

Debts

Distance

Faith in the Afternoon

Gloomy Tune

Living

Come On, Ye Sons of Art

Faith in a Tree

Samuel

The Burdened Man

Enormous Changes at the Last Minute

Politics

Northeast Playground

The Little Girl

A Conversation with My Father

The Immigrant Story

The Long-Distance Runner

LATER THE SAME DAY

Love

Dreamer in a Dead Language

In the Garden

Somewhere Else

Lavinia: An Old Story

Friends

At That Time, or The History of a Joke

Anxiety

In This Country, But in Another Language, My Aunt Refuses to Marry the Men Everyone Wants Her To

Mother

Ruthy and Edie

A Man Told Me the Story of His Life

The Story Hearer

This Is a Story about My Friend George, the Toy Inventor

Zagrowsky Tells

The Expensive Moment

Listening

Two Ears, Three Lucks

In 1954 or ‘55 I decided to write a story. I had written a few nice paragraphs with some first-class sentences in them, but I hadn't known how to let women and men into the language, nor could I find the story in those pieces of prose. I'd been writing poems since childhood. It was poetry that I read with the greatest pleasure.

But in 1954 or ‘55 I needed to speak in some inventive way about our female and male lives in those years. Some knowledge was creating a real physical pressure, probably in the middle of my chest—maybe just to the right of the heart. I was beginning to suffer the storyteller's pain: Listen! I
have
to tell you something! I simply hadn't known how to do it in poetry. Other writers have understood easily, but I seem to have been singing along on the gift of one ear, the ear in charge of literature.

Then the first of two small lucks happened. I became sick enough for the children to remain in Greenwich House After School until suppertime for several weeks, but not so sick that I couldn't sit at our living-room table to write or type all day. I began the story “Goodbye and Good Luck” and to my surprise carried it through to the end. So much prose. Then “The Contest.” A couple of months later I finished “A Woman, Young and Old.” Thinking about it some years later I understood I'd found my other ear. Writing the stories had allowed it—suddenly—to do its job, to remember the street language and the home language with its Russian and Yiddish accents, a language my early characters knew well, the only language I spoke. Two ears, one for literature, one for home, are useful for writers.

When I sent these three stories out into the world of periodicals, they did not do well.

I had been reading the current fiction, fifties fiction, a masculine fiction, whether traditional, avant-garde, or—later—Beat. As a former boy myself (in the sense that many little girls reading
Tom Sawyer
know they've found their true boy selves) I had been sold pretty early on the idea that I might not be writing the important serious stuff. As a grown-up woman, I had no choice. Everyday life, kitchen life, children life had been handed to me, my portion, the beginning of big luck, though I didn't know it.

One dark day in our dark basement apartment, a father slumped in our fat chair, waiting to retrieve his two kids, my children's friends. Just before leaving with them, he looked at me. He said that his former wife, the mother of his children, my friend Tibby, had asked him to read my stories. I probably said, Oh, you don't have to bother. But he did have to. A couple of weeks later he came for the children again. This time he sat down at our kitchen table (in the same room as our living-room table). He asked if I could write seven more stories like the three he'd read. He said he'd publish the book. Doubleday would publish them. He was Ken McCormick, an editor who could say that and it would happen. Of course, selling short stories was not a particularly hopeful business. He suggested that I write a novel next. (I tried for a couple of years. I failed.)

Well, that was luck, wasn't it? I don't say this to minimize the stories. I worked conscientiously to write them as truthfully and as beautifully as I could: but so do others, yet they are not usually visited with contracts.

I have called that meeting and that publication my little lucks. Not because they weren't overwhelming. They certainly changed my life. They are little only for their personal size and private pleasure.

As for the big luck: that has to do with political movements, history that happens to you while you're doing the dishes, wars that men plan for their sons, our sons.

I was a woman writing at the early moment when small drops of worried resentment and noble rage were secretly, slowly building into the second wave of the women's movement. I didn't know my small-drop presence or usefulness in this accumulation. Others like Ruth Herschberger, who wrote
Adam's Rib
in 1948, and Tillie Olsen, who was writing her stories through the forties and fifties, had more consciousness than I and suffered more. This great wave would crest half a generation later, leaving men sputtering and anxious, but somewhat improved for the crashing bath.

Every woman writing in these years has had to swim in that feminist wave. No matter what she thinks of it, even if she bravely swims against it, she has been supported by it—the buoyancy, the noise, the saltiness.

Since writing
The Little Disturbances of Man
, I have often left home. I have received great gifts from my political work as a pacifist and feminist, traveled on political tasks to Vietnam during that war, to Sweden, Russia, Central America, and seen China and Chile and reported on these meetings. Therefore, some of the people who work for me in
Enormous Changes
and
Later the Same Day
have had to share those journeys with me. Some, of course, are still quite young, having been born in the seventies or eighties.

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