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‘Why do you not go to them, Toc the Younger?’

‘I cannot.’

‘No,’ she nodded, ‘you cannot. The pain is too great. The
loss
you feel.’

‘Yes,’ he whispered.

‘Nor should they yield love to you, should they? Any of them. The children . . .’

‘They should not, no.’

‘Because, Toc the Younger, you are the brother of Onos T’oolan. His true brother now. And for all the mercy that once dwelt in your mortal heart, only ghosts remain. They must not love you. They must not believe in you. For you are not the man you once were.’

‘Did you think I needed reminding, too, Olar Ethil?’

‘I think . . . yes.’

She was right. He felt inside for the pain he’d thought—he’d believed—he had lived with for so long. As if
lived
was even the right word. When he found it, he saw at last its terrible truth.
A ghost. A memory. I but wore its guise.

The dead have found me.

I have found the dead.

And we are the same.

‘Where will you go now, Toc the Younger?’

He gathered the reins of his horse and looked back at the distant fire. It was a spark. It would not last the night. ‘Away.’

 

Snow drifted down, the sky was at peace.

The figure on the throne had been frozen, lifeless, for a long, long time.

A fine shedding of dust from the corpse marked that something had changed. Ice then crackled. Steam rose from flesh slowly thickening with life. The hands, gripping the arms of the throne, suddenly twitched, fingers uncurling.

Light flickered in its pitted eyes.

And, looking out from mortal flesh once more, Hood, who had once been the Lord of Death, found arrayed before him fourteen Jaghut warriors. They stood in the midst of frozen corpses, weapons out but lowered or resting across shoulders.

One spoke. ‘What was that war again?’

The others laughed.

The first one continued, ‘Who was that enemy?’

The laughter this time was louder, longer.

‘Who was our commander?’

Heads rocked back and the thirteen roared with mirth.

The first speaker shouted, ‘Does he live? Do we?’

Hood slowly rose from the throne, melted ice streaming down his blackened hide. He stood, and eventually the laughter fell away. He took one step forward, and then another.

The fourteen warriors did not move.

Hood lowered to one knee, head bowing. ‘I seek . . . penance.’

A warrior far to the right said, ‘Gathras, he seeks penance. Do you hear that?’

The first speaker replied. ‘I do, Sanad.’

‘Shall we give it, Gathras?’ another asked.

‘Varandas, I believe we shall.’

‘Gathras.’

‘Yes, Haut?’

‘What was that war again?’

The Jaghut howled.

 

The Errant was lying on wet stone, on his back, unconscious, the socket of one eye a pool of blood.

Kilmandaros, breathing hard, stepped close to look down upon him. ‘Will he live?’

Sechul Lath was silent for a moment, and then he sighed. ‘
Live
is such a strange word. We know nothing else, after all. Not truly. Not . . . intimately.’

‘But will he?’

Sechul turned away. ‘I suppose so.’ He halted suddenly, cocked his head and then snorted. ‘Just what he always wanted.’

‘What do you mean?’

‘He’s got an eye on a Gate.’

Her laughter rumbled in the cavern, and when it faded she turned to Sechul and said, ‘I am ready to free the bitch. Beloved son, is it time to end the world?’

Face hidden from her view, Sechul Lath closed his eyes. Then said, ‘Why not?’

 

This ends the Ninth Tale
of The Malazan
Book of the Fallen

THE CRIPPLED GOD

BOOK TEN OF THE
MALAZAN BOOK OF THE FALLEN

STEVEN ERIKSON

This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, organizations, and events portrayed in this novel are either products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously.

THE CRIPPLED GOD: BOOK TEN OF THE MALAZAN BOOK OF THE FALLEN

Copyright © 2011 by Steven Erikson

Simultaneously published in Great Britain by Bantam Press, a division of Transworld Publishers

All rights reserved.

Map by Neil Gower

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eISBN 9781429969475

Many years ago one man took a chance on an unknown writer and his first fantasy novel – a novel that had already gone the rounds of publishers a few times without any luck. Without him, without his faith and, in the years that followed, his unswerving commitment to this vast undertaking, there would be no ‘Malazan Book of the Fallen.' It has been my great privilege to work with a single editor from start to finish, and so I humbly dedicate
The Crippled God
to my editor and friend, Simon Taylor.

Dramatis Personae

In addition to those in
Dust of Dreams

The Malazans

Himble Thrup

Sergeant Gaunt-Eye

Corporal Rib

Lap Twirl

Sad

Burnt Rope

The Host

Ganoes Paran, High Fist and Master of the Deck

High Mage Noto Boil

Outrider Hurlochel

Fist Rythe Bude

Captain Sweetcreek

Imperial Artist Ormulogun

Warleader Mathok

Bodyguard T'morol

Gumble

The Khundryl

Widow Jastara

The Snake

Sergeant Cellows

Corporal Nithe

Sharl

The T'lan Imass: The Unbound

Urugal the Woven

Thenik the Shattered

Beroke Soft Voice

Kahlb the Silent Hunter

Halad the Giant

The Tiste Andii

Nimander Golit

Spinnock Durav

Korlat

Skintick

Desra

Dathenar Gowl

Nemanda

The Jaghut: The Fourteen

Gathras

Sanad

Varandas

Haut

Suvalas

Aimanan

Hood

The Forkrul Assail: The Lawful Inquisitors

Reverence

Serenity

Equity

Placid

Diligence

Abide

Aloft

Calm

Belie

Freedom

Grave

The Watered: The Tiers Of Lesser Assail

Amiss

Exigent

Hestand

Festian

Kessgan

Trissin Melest

Haggraf

The Tiste Liosan

Kadagar Fant

Aparal Forge

Iparth Erule

Gaelar Throe

Eldat Pressan

Others

Absi

Spultatha

K'rul

Kaminsod

Munug

Silannah

Apsal'ara

Tulas Shorn

D'rek

Gallimada

Korabas

Book One
‘He Was A Soldier'
 
 

I am known

in the religion of age.

Worship me as a pool

of blood in your hands.

Drink me deep.

It's bitter fury

that boils and burns.

Your knives were small

but they were many.

I am named

in the religion of rage.

Worship me with your

offhand cuts

long after I am dead.

It's a song of dreams

crumbled to ashes.

Your wants overflowed

but now gape empty.

I am drowned

in the religion of rage.

Worship me unto

death and down

to a pile of bones.

The purest book

is the one never opened.

No needs left unfulfilled

on the cold, sacred day.

I am found

in the religion of rage.

Worship me in a

stream of curses.

This fool had faith

and in dreams he wept.

But we walk a desert

rocked by accusations,

where no man starves

with hate in his bones.

Poet's Night i.iv

The Malazan Book of the Fallen

Fisher kel Tath

Chapter One

If you never knew

the worlds in my mind

your sense of loss

would be small pity

and we'll forget this on the trail.

Take what you're given

and turn away the screwed face.

I do not deserve it,

no matter how narrow the strand

of your private shore.

If you will do your best

I'll meet your eye.

It's the clutch of arrows in hand

that I do not trust

bent to the smile hitching my way.

We aren't meeting in sorrow

or some other suture

bridging scars.

We haven't danced the same

thin ice

and my sympathy for your troubles

I give freely without thought

of reciprocity or scales on balance.

It's the decent thing, that's all.

Even if that thing

is a stranger to so many.

But there will be secrets

you never knew

and I would not choose any other way.

All my arrows are buried and

the sandy reach is broad

and all that's private

cools pinned on the altar.

Even the drips are gone,

that child of wants

with a mind full of worlds

and his reddened tears.

The days I feel mortal I so hate.

The days in my worlds,

are where I live for ever,

and should dawn ever arrive

I will to its light awaken

as one reborn.

Poet's Night iii.iv

The Malazan Book of the Fallen

Fisher kel Tath

COTILLION DREW TWO DAGGERS. HIS GAZE FELL TO THE BLADES.

The blackened iron surfaces seemed to swirl, two pewter rivers oozing across pits and gouges, the edges ragged where armour and bone had slowed their thrusts. He studied the sickly sky's lurid reflections for a moment longer, and then said, ‘I have no intention of explaining a damned thing.' He looked up, eyes locking. ‘Do you understand me?'

The figure facing him was incapable of expression. The tatters of rotted sinew and strips of skin were motionless upon the bones of temple, cheek and jaw. The eyes held nothing, nothing at all.

Better, Cotillion decided, than jaded scepticism. Oh, how he was sick of that. ‘Tell me,' he resumed, ‘what do you think you're seeing here? Desperation? Panic? A failing of will, some inevitable decline crumbling to incompetence? Do you believe in failure, Edgewalker?'

The apparition remained silent for a time, and then spoke in a broken, rasping voice. ‘You cannot be so…audacious.'

‘I asked if you believed in failure. Because I don't.'

‘Even should you succeed, Cotillion. Beyond all expectation, beyond, even, all
desire.
They will still speak of your failure.'

He sheathed his daggers. ‘And you know what they can do to themselves.'

The head cocked, strands of hair dangling and drifting. ‘Arrogance?'

‘Competence,' Cotillion snapped in reply. ‘Doubt me at your peril.'

‘They will not believe you.'

‘I do not care, Edgewalker. This is what it is.'

When he set out, he was not surprised that the deathless guardian followed.
We have done this before.
Dust and ashes puffed with each step. The wind moaned as if trapped in a crypt. ‘Almost time, Edgewalker.'

‘I know. You cannot win.'

Cotillion paused, half turned. He smiled a ravaged smile. ‘That doesn't mean I have to lose, does it?'

 

Dust lifted, twisting, in her wake. From her shoulders trailed dozens of ghastly chains: bones bent and folded into irregular links, ancient bones in a thousand shades between white and deep brown. Scores of individuals made up each chain, malformed skulls matted with hair, fused spines, long bones, clacking and clattering. They drifted out behind her like a tyrant's legacy and left a tangled skein of furrows in the withered earth that stretched for leagues.

Her pace did not slow, as steady as the sun's own crawl to the horizon ahead, as inexorable as the darkness overtaking her. She was indifferent to notions of irony, and the bitter taste of irreverent mockery that could so sting the palate. In this there was only necessity, the hungriest of gods. She had known imprisonment. The memories remained fierce, but such recollections were not those of crypt walls and unlit tombs. Darkness, indeed, but also pressure. Terrible, unbearable pressure.

Madness was a demon and it lived in a world of helpless need, a thousand desires unanswered, a world without resolution. Madness, yes, she had known that demon. They had bargained with coins of pain, and those coins came from a vault that never emptied. She'd once known such wealth.

And still the darkness pursued.

Walking, a thing of hairless pate, skin the hue of bleached papyrus, elongated limbs that moved with uncanny grace. The landscape surrounding her was empty, flat on all sides but ahead, where a worn-down range of colourless hills ran a wavering claw along the horizon.

She had brought her ancestors with her and they rattled a chaotic chorus. She had not left a single one behind. Every tomb of her line now gaped empty, as hollowed out as the skulls she'd plundered from their sarcophagi. Silence ever spoke of absence. Silence was the enemy of life and she would have none of it. No, they talked in mutters and grating scrapes, her perfect ancestors, and they were the voices of her private song, keeping the demon at bay. She was done with bargains.

Long ago, she knew, the worlds – pallid islands in the Abyss – crawled with creatures. Their thoughts were blunt and simple, and beyond those thoughts there was nothing but murk, an abyss of ignorance and fear. When the first glimmers awakened in that confused gloom, they quickly flickered alight, burning like spot fires. But the mind did not awaken to itself on strains of glory. Not beauty, not even love. It did not stir with laughter or triumph. Those fires, snapping to life, all belonged to one thing and one thing only.

The first word of sentience was
justice
. A word to feed indignation. A word empowering the will to change the world and all its cruel circumstances, a word to bring righteousness to brutal infamy. Justice, bursting to life in the black soil of indifferent nature. Justice, to bind families, to build cities, to invent and to defend, to fashion laws and prohibitions, to hammer the unruly mettle of gods into religions. All the prescribed beliefs rose out twisting and branching from that single root, losing themselves in the blinding sky.

But she and her kind had stayed wrapped about the base of that vast tree, forgotten, crushed down; and in their place, beneath stones, bound in roots and dark earth, they were witness to the corruption of justice, to its loss of meaning, to its betrayal.

Gods and mortals, twisting truths, had in a host of deeds stained what once had been pure.

Well, the end was coming.
The end, dear ones, is coming.
There would be no more children, rising from the bones and rubble, to build anew all that had been lost. Was there even one among them, after all, who had not suckled at the teat of corruption? Oh, they fed their inner fires, yet they hoarded the light, the warmth, as if justice belonged to them alone.

She was appalled. She seethed with contempt. Justice was incandescent within her, and it was a fire growing day by day, as the wretched heart of the Chained One leaked out its endless streams of blood. Twelve Pures remained, feeding. Twelve. Perhaps there were others, lost in far-flung places, but she knew nothing of them. No, these twelve, they would be the faces of the final storm, and, pre-eminent among them all, she would stand at that storm's centre.

She had been given her name for this very purpose, long ago now. The Forkrul Assail were nothing if not patient. But patience itself was yet one more lost virtue.

Chains of bone trailing, Calm walked across the plain, as the day's light died behind her.

 

‘God failed us.'

Trembling, sick to his stomach as something cold, foreign, coursed through his veins, Aparal Forge clenched his jaw to stifle a retort.
This vengeance is older than any cause you care to invent, and no matter how often you utter those words, Son of Light, the lies and madness open like flowers beneath the sun. And before me I see nothing but lurid fields of red, stretching out on all sides.

This wasn't their battle, not their war.
Who fashioned this law that said the child must pick up the father's sword? And dear Father, did
you really mean this to be? Did she not abandon her consort and take you for her own? Did you not command us to peace? Did you not say to us that we children must be as one beneath the newborn sky of your union?

What crime awoke us to this?

I can't even remember.

‘Do you feel it, Aparal? The power?'

‘I feel it, Kadagar.' They'd moved away from the others, but not so far as to escape the agonized cries, the growl of the Hounds, or, drifting out over the broken rocks in ghostly streams, the blistering breath of cold upon their backs. Before them rose the infernal barrier. A wall of imprisoned souls. An eternally crashing wave of despair. He stared at the gaping faces through the mottled veil, studied the pitted horror in their eyes.
You were no different, were you? Awkward with your inheritance, the heavy blade turning this way and that in your hand.

Why should
we
pay for someone else's hatred?

‘What so troubles you, Aparal?'

‘We cannot know the reason for our god's absence, Lord. I fear it is presumptuous of us to speak of his failure.'

Kadagar Fant was silent.

Aparal closed his eyes. He should never have spoken.
I do not learn. He walked a bloody path to rule and the pools in the mud still gleam red. The air about Kadagar remains brittle. This flower shivers to secret winds. He is dangerous, so very dangerous.

‘The Priests spoke of impostors and tricksters, Aparal.' Kadagar's tone was even, devoid of inflection. It was the voice he used when furious. ‘What god would permit that? We are abandoned. The path before us now belongs to no one else – it is ours to choose.'

Ours. Yes, you speak for us all, even as we cringe at our own confessions.
‘Forgive my words, Lord. I am made ill – the taste—'

‘We had no choice in that, Aparal. What sickens you is the bitter flavour of its pain. It passes.' Kadagar smiled and clapped him on the back. ‘I understand your momentary weakness. We shall forget your doubts, yes? And never again speak of them. We are friends, after all, and I would be most distressed to be forced to brand you a traitor. Set upon the White Wall… I would kneel and weep, my friend. I would.'

A spasm of alien fury hissed through Aparal and he shivered.
Abyss! Mane of Chaos, I feel you!
‘My life is yours to command, Lord.'

‘Lord of Light!'

Aparal turned, as did Kadagar.

Blood streaming from his mouth, Iparth Erule staggered closer, eyes wide and fixed upon Kadagar. ‘My lord, Uhandahl, who was last to drink, has just died. He – he
tore out his own throat
!'

‘Then it is done,' Kadagar replied. ‘How many?'

Iparth licked his lips, visibly flinched at the taste, and then said, ‘You are the First of Thirteen, Lord.'

Smiling, Kadagar stepped past Iparth. ‘Kessobahn still breathes?'

‘Yes. It is said it can bleed for centuries—'

‘But the blood is now poison,' Kadagar said, nodding. ‘The wounding must be fresh, the power clean. Thirteen, you say. Excellent.'

Aparal stared at the dragon staked to the slope behind Iparth Erule. The enormous spears pinning it to the ground were black with gore and dried blood. He could feel the Eleint's pain, pouring from it in waves. Again and again it tried to lift its head, eyes blazing, jaws snapping, but the vast trap held. The four surviving Hounds of Light circled at a distance, hackles raised as they eyed the dragon. Seeing them, Aparal hugged himself.
Another mad gamble. Another bitter failure. Lord of Light, Kadagar Fant, you have not done well in the world beyond.

Beyond this terrible vista, and facing the vertical ocean of deathless souls as if in mocking madness, rose the White Wall, which hid the decrepit remnants of the Liosan city of Saranas. The faint elongated dark streaks lining it, descending just beneath the crenellated battlements, were all he could make out of the brothers and sisters who had been condemned as traitors to the cause. Below their withered corpses ran the stains from everything their bodies had drained down the alabaster facing.
You would kneel and weep, would you, my friend?

Iparth asked, ‘My lord, do we leave the Eleint as it is?'

‘No. I propose something far more fitting. Assemble the others. We shall veer.'

Aparal started but did not turn. ‘Lord—'

‘We are Kessobahn's children now, Aparal. A new father, to replace the one who abandoned us. Osserc is dead in our eyes and shall remain so. Even Father Light kneels broken, useless and blind.'

Aparal's eyes held on Kessobahn.
Utter such blasphemies often enough and they become banal, and all shock fades. The gods lose their power, and we rise to stand in their stead.
The ancient dragon wept blood, and in those vast, alien eyes there was nothing but rage.
Our father. Your pain, your blood, our gift to you. Alas, it is the only gift we understand.
‘And once we have veered?'

‘Why, Aparal, we shall tear the Eleint apart.'

He'd known what the answer would be and he nodded.
Our father.

Your pain, your blood, our gift. Celebrate our rebirth, O Father Kessobahn, with your death. And for you, there shall be no return.

 

‘I have nothing with which to bargain. What brings you to me? No, I see that. My broken servant cannot travel far, even in his dreams. Crippled, yes, my precious flesh and bones upon this wretched world.
Have you seen his flock? What blessing can he bestow? Why, naught but misery and suffering, and still they gather, the mobs, the clamouring, beseeching mobs. Oh, I once looked upon them with contempt. I once revelled in their pathos, their ill choices and their sorry luck. Their stupidity.

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