The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (1222 page)

But it hasn't worked. They fight because you give them no choice. The pot-throwers dry their hands and the wheel slows and then stops. The weavers lock up their looms. The wood-carvers put away their tools. The road-menders, the lamp-makers, the hawkers of songbirds and the dog-skinners, the mothers and the whores and the consorts and the drug-peddlers – they all set down the things they would do, to fight this war of yours.

It all stops, and for so many now will never start again.

You've ripped out the side of your people, left a gaping wound – a wound like the one before us. And we flow through it like blood. We spill out and scab up on the other side.

The Soletaken were all sembled now. They knew what needed to be done. And as the ranks drew up, Aparal saw his Eleint-fouled kin take position, each at the head of his or her own elite soldiers.

But a Hust Legion awaits us. Slayers of Hounds and Dragons, in all the mad laughter of war.

This next battle. It will be our last.

He looked up to the battlements, but Kadagar was not there. And from his soldiers resting on all sides, his commoners so bloodied, so utterly ruined, Aparal heard the same words.
‘He comes. Our lord shall lead us.'

Our lord. Our very own rag doll.

 

‘Water, Highness. Drink.'

She barely had strength to guide the mouthpiece to her lips. Like rain in a desert, the water flowed through the ravaged insides of her mouth. Lacerated tissues stung awake, her throat opened in relief. She pulled it away, gasping.

‘What's happening? Where am I?'

‘The witches and your brother, Queen, they killed the Hounds.'

Hounds.

What day is this? In a world without days, what day is this?

‘They're little girls now,' her companion said.

Yan Tovis blinked up at her. A familiar face. ‘Your brother?'

The woman looked away.

‘I'm sorry.'

She shook her head. ‘I will see them soon, my queen. That's what I look forward to now.'

‘Don't think that way—'

‘Forgive me, Highness. I took care of them all my life, but against this, I wasn't enough. I failed. It's too much. From the very start, it was too much.'

Yan Tovis stared up at the woman's face, the dry eyes, the absence of expression.
She's already gone.
‘“They await you on the Shore.”'

A brittle half-smile. ‘So we say over our dead, yes. I remember.'

Over our dead.

‘Tell the witches – if they do that to me again – if they use me like that –
ever again
– I will kill them both.'

The woman flinched. ‘They look ten years old, Highness.'

‘But they aren't. They're two old women, sour and bitter and hateful of the world. Go, give them my warning, soldier.'

With a silent nod, the young woman rose.

Yan Tovis settled her head, felt the sand grinding against the back of her skull.
Empty sky. Dreams of darkness. If I had knelt to the Shore, they couldn't touch me. Instead, they punished me.

‘But if they hadn't,' she whispered, ‘those Hounds would have killed hundreds more. Which of us, then, is sour and bitter? Hateful of the world?'

I will go to her. To Kharkanas. I will beg her forgiveness. Neither of us can withstand the weight of this crown. We should cast it off. We can find the strength for that. We must.

Oh, I am a fool. Yedan will not yield. The lives lost must mean something, even when they don't. So, it seems we must all die. It seems we have no choice. Not the Shake, not the Letherii, not Sandalath Drukorlat, Queen of High House Dark.

She reached down and came up with a handful of white sand – crumbled bones. ‘It's all here,' she whispered. ‘Our entire history, right here. From then…to now. To what's coming. All…here.' And she watched, as she closed that hand into a fist, as if to crush it all.

‘THERE WILL COME A TIME,' VENTURED SECHUL LATH, ‘WHEN WE
shall be all but forgotten.'

‘Speak for yourself,' growled Errastas.

‘
And they shall drink blood.
Remember that? Book of Elders. And that is the last memory of us that will remain. As drinkers of blood. A tyranny of thirst. If it is not for us to save our worshippers, then who will – who will save all these wretched mortals?'

Behind them, feet thumping the ground like a drum of war, Kilmandaros said, ‘They cannot be saved. They never could.'

‘Then what use are we? To any of them?'

Errastas spat on the ground, and replied with contempt, ‘Someone to blame, Setch. For all the ruin they themselves commit. On each other. On themselves. Anyway, enough. We've chewed on this too many times.'

Sechul Lath glanced back. ‘Are we far enough, do you think?'

Kilmandaros's eyes were hooded with exhaustion, and she did not bother following his gaze. ‘No.'

‘A warren—' Errastas began.

She cut him off with a snort. ‘The wounding to come shall strike through every warren. Young and Elder. Our only hope is to get as much distance between us and her as we can.'

Errastas shrugged. ‘I never much liked K'rul anyway.'

‘To begin,' Kilmandaros said, ‘this but wounds. If she is not slain in time, then K'rul will indeed die, and the world shall be unmade. The death of sorcery, and more.'

Sechul Lath smiled across at Errastas. ‘And so the coin is cast, and it spins, and spins still.'

‘She is no longer our problem,' he replied, one finger probing the empty socket of his stolen eye. ‘Her sister will have to deal with her. Or someone else.'

‘And on this our fate rests – that someone else cleans up the mess we make. I dare say our children will not appreciate the burden.'

‘They'll not live long enough to appreciate much of anything,' Errastas said.

I truly see our problem, friends. We don't want the future, we want the past. With a new name. But it's still the past, that invented realm of nostalgia, all the jagged edges smoothed away. Paradise…for the drinkers of blood.

‘Draconus seeks to do me harm,' said Kilmandaros. ‘He waits for me.'

‘Don't be a fool,' snapped Errastas. ‘He will join with T'iam in slaying the Otataral Dragon. He may have vowed eternal war against chaos, but even he would not welcome its end. Besides, a battle with you risks too much – you might kill him. He's been imprisoned in a sword for how long? You think he'd risk his freedom so soon? Perhaps indeed he has old scores to settle with you, Kilmandaros, but he is about to discover far more immediate threats.'

‘Unless he gleans our purpose.'

Sechul Lath glanced back at her. ‘Mother, I assure you, he has done that. But I think Errastas judges rightly. Draconus will see the threat posed by the release of the Otataral Dragon, and her presence will be his lodestone. Hopefully a fatal one.'

‘Many have tried to kill her,' Errastas agreed, ‘and all have failed. Even the imprisonment demanded an elaborate trap – one that took centuries for Rake to devise.'

‘He wasn't alone,' rumbled Kilmandaros.

‘And what was made you have now unmade,' Errastas said, nodding. ‘And Anomander Rake is dead, and there remains no one to match his insane obsessions—'

Kilmandaros had drawn close during the conversation, and her hand was a sudden blur in the corner of Sechul's vision, but the blow she struck Errastas was impossible to miss, as ribs snapped and he was thrown from his feet. He struck the ground, rolled once, and then curled up around the damage to his chest.

She moved to stand over him. ‘You will cease speaking ill of him,' she said in a low voice. ‘We did not always agree. Often we quarrelled. But the Son of Darkness was a man of integrity and honour. No longer will I permit you to spit on his name. He is dead, and your voice lives on like the cry of a cowardly crow, Errastas. You were never his match, and even in death he stands taller than you in all your guises. Do you think I do not hear your resentment? Your envy? It disgusts me.'

Sechul Lath felt a trickle of power from Errastas, as the Elder God healed himself. Slowly, he regained his feet, and, not looking at either of them, resumed walking.

After a moment, Sechul fell in behind the Errant, followed by Kilmandaros.

She said, loud enough for both to hear, ‘Rake once said to me that Draconus was a man of great honour. Before the betrayal. Before his day of rage. I believe him.'

Sechul turned and studied his mother. ‘You believe he will leave the Otataral Dragon to T'iam. That he will seek you out, not to settle old scores, but to punish you for what you have done here. To punish you for releasing her.'

‘Punish me?' She bared her tusks. ‘He will seek to kill me, my son. And I am frightened.'

The admission was like ice in Sechul's veins.
Mother?
‘We should never have done this,' he whispered.

‘A common prayer,' she muttered in reply.

‘Farther still?' Errastas demanded.

Kilmandaros glanced behind them. ‘Farther still.'

The dragon circled him twice before descending to the broken tundra two hundred paces ahead. As Tulas Shorn walked closer, he watched it eyeing him warily. Scales like plates of ice, milky and translucent in places, blinding white where the sun's light struck them full. Eyes red as blood. With less than fifty strides between them, the dragon sembled.

Tulas maintained his steady approach until ten paces away, and then he halted in alarm. ‘Is that a Hust blade you carry, Silchas Ruin? Such was not your style.'

The weapon was moaning, sensing the nearness of one possessing the blood of Eleint.
One other than its wielder, that is.

Silchas Ruin's expression was flat. ‘It seems that you evaded their bargain – for there was a bargain, was there not? Between my brother and the Lord of the Slain. There had to have been.'

‘I imagine you are correct.'

‘Was your prison Hood's realm, Prince, or Dragnipur?'

Tulas straightened, tilted his head. ‘You refuse me my proper title.'

‘I see no throne, Tulas Shorn. Was “prince” not honorific enough? Would you prefer
pretender
?'

‘If I was not bound still – and eternally so, I fear – to this state of undeath, Silchas Ruin, I might take offence at your words.'

‘If you wish, we could still cross blades, you sperm-clouded abomination of darkness.'

Tulas considered the proposition. ‘You are returned to this world, Silchas, leading me to the inescapable conclusion that the Azath do indeed know how to shit.'

‘Tulas,' said Silchas Ruin as he strode closer, ‘do you remember the night of the whores?'

‘I do.'

‘You are such a rotted mess now, I doubt a kingdom's wealth could buy you their favour.'

‘As I recall, they blindfolded themselves before lying with you – what did they squeal? Oh yes.
“He has the eyes of a white rat!”
Or words to that effect.'

They faced one another.

‘Tulas, would a smile crack what's left of your face?'

‘Probably, old friend, but know that I
am
smiling – in my heart.'

Their embrace was savage with memories thought for ever lost, a friendship they'd thought long dead.

‘Against this,' Silchas whispered, ‘not even Hood can stand.
My friend.
'

After a time, they drew apart.

‘Do not weep for me,' said Tulas Shorn.

Silchas made a careless gesture. ‘Unexpected joy. But…too bad about the war.'

‘The war in which we did our level best to kill each other? Yes, those were bad times. We were each caught in whirlpools, friend, too vast and powerful for us to escape.'

‘The day Emurlahn shattered, so too did my heart. For you, Tulas. For…everything we then lost.'

‘Do you know, I do not even remember my own death? For all I know, it could well have been by your hand.'

Silchas Ruin shook his head. ‘It was not. You were lost in the shattering – so even I do not know what happened to you. I… I searched, for a time.'

‘As I would have done for you.'

‘But then Scara—'

‘Curse of the Eleint.'

Silchas nodded. ‘Too easily embraced.'

‘But not you. Not me.'

‘It pleases me to hear you say that. Starvald Demelain—'

‘I know. The Storm will be a siren call.'

‘Together, we can resist it.'

‘This smile upon my soul, it grows. At last, my heart's dream – we shall fight side by side, Silchas Ruin.'

‘And the first to fall…'

‘The other shall guard.'

‘Tulas.'

‘Yes?'

‘He saw my grief. He joined with me in my search.'

Tulas Shorn looked away, said nothing.

‘Tulas, Anomander—'

‘No, friend. Not yet – I – I am not yet ready to think of him. I am sorry.'

Silchas Ruin's breath was ragged. He lifted a hand to his face, looked away, and then nodded. ‘As you wish.' He laughed harshly. ‘It matters not, anyway. Not any more. He is dead.'

‘I know that,' Tulas said, reaching out to grasp Silchas's right shoulder. ‘And more than ever,
it matters.
If we do not speak of your loss – for a time – it does not mean I feel nothing of your grief. Understand me, please.'

‘Very well.'

Tulas eyed the Tiste Andii. ‘Curse of the Eleint,' he said.

But his friend flinched. Neither spoke for a time. The Hust sword at Silchas's belt was muttering in its scabbard. Then Silchas looked up. ‘Oh, there is one other thing – a spawn of Menandore—'

‘An enemy?'

‘He was born this side of Starvald Demelain.'

‘Ah, then a potential ally. Three…a good number. Does this child command the power inside him, does he rule the rage within?'

‘If he did, he would be here with us now.'

‘I see. Then what shall be his fate?'

‘I have not yet decided.'

They began walking north. The tundra stretched out on all sides. Small birds flitted among the low growth, and spinning clouds of midges lifted from the path they took. In the vast distance stretched a gleaming white line, marking the edge of the ice fields.

‘I sense the hand of Elder Gods in all this,' Tulas Shorn said after a time.

‘Yes.'

‘What do they want?'

‘What they always want. A return to power.'

‘In the time of my deathlessness, Silchas, I came to understand the truth of that old saying: you cannot go back.'

‘They know it, but it won't stop them from trying. And in trying, they may well destroy this world and countless others. They may well kill K'rul himself.'

‘A bold gamble, then.'

Silchas nodded. ‘The boldest.'

‘Sechul Lath, then?'

‘And Errastas, yes.'

‘So, Sechul Lath casts the die, and Errastas nudges the last tip – the game is rigged, friend.'

‘Just the way they like it, yes.'

‘Will you still play?'

Silchas looked thoughtful, and then he sighed. ‘They consider themselves masters at cheating. But then, I think this will be the first time that they sit at a table with mortal humans facing them. Cheating? When it comes to that, the Elder Gods are as children compared to humans. Since the time of my return, this much at least I have learned.'

‘The game is in danger of being turned?'

Silchas glanced across at him, and grinned. ‘I think…yes: just watch, Tulas. Just watch.'

In the scabbard, the sword gurgled. Laughter or, Tulas mused, choking.

‘My friend, how did you come by that weapon?'

‘A gift.'

‘From whom? Are they mad?'

‘Shadow.'

Tulas found he had nothing to say.
Struck speechless
, as the fire tellers used to say. Grimacing, he struggled, desperate to voice a warning – anything.

Silchas glanced over. ‘Not Edgewalker, Tulas.'

Edge— No, it cannot be – he could not have – oh, wonders of the Abyss!
His voice cracked when at last he managed to speak. ‘I forgive him.'